So, I'm a cosplayer. And I used to have a big group of friends who were cosplayers. And one of the things I would do when we were working on stuff together was take out my laptop and put it on the floor, and load up a quick look because my friends weren't in to games very much and it let them get an understanding of where video games were. It was me being a little selfish in choosing what we had in the background and forcing myself on others but, we all came to like giantbomb and we laughed with it, it became a pretty important part of where I was at the time.
At the second PAX I attended, I dragged my friends to the giant bomb panel and we got pretty good seats. We were cackling through the entire session and groaning at the QA. We got our badges signed by the entire crew. Afterwards we went to the GiantBomb afterparty that was a JJ Foleys, a bar that I had never been into because of how it's exterior looked, but I frequent pretty regularly there. We went early and had dinner there and, thusly, had a booth when everyone start to pour in. Eventually I got up to use the bathroom and say hi to Brad, but when I came back, Ryan was sitting out our table, talking to my friends. I was a little floored, but it was...pretty great. He let me back into my seat and settled in beside us, and we talked and had drinks for a few hours. He hooked us up witht he giant bomb free drinks password, and all of us got ridiculously drunk. He did the thing where he stands perfectly still and you think the stream was broken, but it was just him being really still. It was one of the best parties I had ever been to. Ryan was one of the nicest people I've ever met. And this probably shouldn't be effecting me as much as it is, but fuck.
I hate this.
I was prepared for the site shutting down for financial reasons or everyone going their separate ways, the things that happen in this industry but I never expected this. I never wanted this.
I hate this.