I work for a state-run college, and I have worried since 2008 about losing my job. The threat is real; in 2009, we lost about 15% of our workforce. This year, we didn't lose anybody, but we had our budget totally gutted in every other way. Now, we are faced with merging with other colleges, which -- surprise surprise -- means another 10% to 20% of our workforce could be laid off.
So yeah, the threat is real. But I worry about it every day. It can't be healthy. I can be happy, and then all of a sudden, my mood sours in a matter of seconds because I think of potentially losing my job. There has not been one single day since late 2008 that losing my job has not crossed my mind, and when I start on it, I dwell, occasionally for hours at a time.
I am beginning to question whether I should just quit the job for my own sanity purposes, because despite loving my job, I haven't been (even on vacation) truly happy since 2008. I am tired of worrying every single day.
I know that some people will call my crazy because I have a job, but at the same time, it'd almost be a release to finally get it over with. I KNOW that doesn't make sense to anyone who has been unemployed for a while, but that is really how I feel.
Anybody else have this dwelling-on-job problem?
So yeah, the threat is real. But I worry about it every day. It can't be healthy. I can be happy, and then all of a sudden, my mood sours in a matter of seconds because I think of potentially losing my job. There has not been one single day since late 2008 that losing my job has not crossed my mind, and when I start on it, I dwell, occasionally for hours at a time.
I am beginning to question whether I should just quit the job for my own sanity purposes, because despite loving my job, I haven't been (even on vacation) truly happy since 2008. I am tired of worrying every single day.
I know that some people will call my crazy because I have a job, but at the same time, it'd almost be a release to finally get it over with. I KNOW that doesn't make sense to anyone who has been unemployed for a while, but that is really how I feel.
Anybody else have this dwelling-on-job problem?