Today's my birthday. I turn 24. I thought it was going to be a bittersweet birthday, but instead I'm just utterly depressed and feel like crying.
Up till half an hour ago I thought I was going to spend a few last hours with my best friend, but she felt really tired (from bar-hopping with me last night) and has tons of stuff to do, so she just dropped by for a few minutes to drop off presents. She's moving to the other side of the world this saturday, and if I do see her again before then, it'll just be a quick and probably emotional visit just to say goodbye.
So now I'm just sitting alone in my apartment, at my computer, staring out the window at the wet and gloomy weather. This isn't how I want to feel on my birthday, and I feel like the best and only enjoyable part of my life is being ripped away from me.
I don't know if I should try to somehow enjoy the rest of my birthday alone, or just try and pretend like it's any other day. This is going to be one depressing week.
Up till half an hour ago I thought I was going to spend a few last hours with my best friend, but she felt really tired (from bar-hopping with me last night) and has tons of stuff to do, so she just dropped by for a few minutes to drop off presents. She's moving to the other side of the world this saturday, and if I do see her again before then, it'll just be a quick and probably emotional visit just to say goodbye.
So now I'm just sitting alone in my apartment, at my computer, staring out the window at the wet and gloomy weather. This isn't how I want to feel on my birthday, and I feel like the best and only enjoyable part of my life is being ripped away from me.
I don't know if I should try to somehow enjoy the rest of my birthday alone, or just try and pretend like it's any other day. This is going to be one depressing week.