Oh man, just catching up on GAF. (Broke my dang arm, so I haven't been around as much)
Thanks for the ping
John Marston
. You've been fighting the good fight, and you're a god damn warrior.
Let me tell everyone the secret to beating cancer.
Okay, I'll back up a sec and give a little context. I was diagnosed with leukemia (AML) back in 2012. In fact, I even made a post about it on GAF back then (which you can find if you really want to).
After just a couple weeks in the hospital, it clearly sucked, and I realized I had tough battle ahead of me. I went through horrible treatment and intense chemo. I can't even begin to describe all of the small sub-issues that come along with the process. (For example, one time I didn't poop for a month and a half. That was a rough time.)
It felt endless and hopeless at times.
(Actually, I was planning on saving this reveal for the end of the post, but I'll give it to you now. Even after the 12 months of treatment it took to heal me initially, my cancer came back and I relapsed 2 years later. So I had to do ALL of this again. Straight up New Game+ and it was a bitch.)
I went through so many months of intense chemo, two bone marrow transplants, hundreds of needles and meds, endless amounts of incredible opiates, years of addiction withdrawal and recovery, and the most painful procedures I've ever had in my entire life. No other way to say it. It sucked.
Cancer of any kind is a greedy, all-consuming demon, and there's no negotiating or reasoning with it. During my second bout after my relapse, my doctor told me there was only around a 20% chance of survival, at best. That number still haunts me to this day, yet I was able to beat the odds.
So here's my personal secret for survival, and I hope it's helpful for anyone who might ever be unlucky enough to have to battle this fucker. It might sound obvious and cheesy, but it was
positivity and activity. As in, keeping as physically active as you reasonably can, and maintaining a positive outlook on things.
Obviously, you'll also need to have modern medicine on your side, but that still only gets you so far. I had a friend in the same ward as me. Same age, too. He didn't really push himself to get out and walk the halls everyday, and he didn't have the support structure I did to keep him as positive. He didn't make it. (I think about him a lot. I hope me giving him a DS with and R4 made his final months a bit more bearable. I only knew you for a bit, but I miss you Mike.)
But I truly believe what saved and ultimately healed me was being both positive, which I could only do with the help of my family and friends, and being as active as possible. Even on days where I had absolutely no energy, I forced myself to do laps with a walker around the leukemia ward. My friends visited me often, and if they weren't around, I hopped online to talk with virtual friends. (Sometimes GAF!)
So, yeah, I don't have any super secret advice for anyone. I'll just tell you what I think saved me. And that was always trying to joke around and be positive about things, and having people around me (whether physical or virtual) to keep me going. That was the difference between me beating the 5 to 1 odds or not.
Anyway, that's why I know you'll be fine,
John Marston
. You're literally the most positive and best person on this whole damn site. Thanks for making this thread. People usually don't talk about the process of actually battling cancer enough, so I know how helpful this can be.
And if anyone else here is in the battle and wants to chat about anything, feel free to hit me up via DM anytime.