I've been there, and I learned how to be a poor (relative to americans) yet happy kid. As some have been saying here, what you lack ultimately does not control whether you are happy or not. If I were you I'd consider taking my advice about focusing on/being thankful for what you have rather than what you lack, otherwise you really are headed for unhappiness. Your dad currently has no job, but you still have a dad, how lucky you are because of that.