When I see Lil Kim like this, I can't help but to feel a little guilty.
When I was younger, I was taught by the Black males that happened to be in my life that I needed to either get with a lightskinned woman, a Hispanic woman, or a White woman. All these men were romantically involved with darker Black women, but they all treated them like dogshit. I seen it happen... and I internalized it. I desired the same thing as a teenager... I hated my own Blackness, and the Blackness of women around me because I had always thought that "light" was the way to go.
Fast-forward a decade later, and I'm a grown man who's learned from my mistakes. I'm no longer in that mindset. But in hindsight... I look at all the male role models I had growing up, and I get disgusted. Jay-Z, Biggie, etc... they all promoted women with lighter features. Even inherently Black media... seem to prop up lighter toned folks over darker ones.
So, when I see these pictures, not only do I feel sorry for Kim, I also feel... disgusted with myself because I participated in the Willie Lynch bullshit. I feel guilty because it took until I turned 18 or so to actually appreciate Black women of all skin tones.