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I have read this whole thread and i'd be against the OP even if he wasn't in the wrong, for his "beat poet style." OP, you said you've talked to her since being deported. Dude. Leave. The. Girl. Alone. There hasn't been enough that's happened? Let. It. Go. but of course i'm pretty sure you're a stalker, so you won't.
 
People get hurt in a fit of rage in relationships all the time, it's called a heated argument. Sometimes they end the relationship.

This girl isn't a cruel monster OP.

And, without wanting to offend you, you should like a very controlling person. "she shouldn't be allowed", "she should've done", "she shouldn't have done". I have a feeling you maybe stifled her independence. Try and give your SO a bit of space man, you'll send her running.
She wasn't his SO.
 
I have read this whole thread and i'd be against the OP even if he wasn't in the wrong, for his "beat poet style." OP, you said you've talked to her since being deported. Dude. Leave. The. Girl. Alone. There hasn't been enough that's happened? Let. It. Go. but of course i'm pretty sure you're a stalker, so you won't.

(´・ω・`) "She got me deported. This means she loves me right?"
 
People get hurt in a fit of rage in relationships all the time, it's called a heated argument. Sometimes they end the relationship.

This girl isn't a cruel monster OP.

And, without wanting to offend you, you should like a very controlling person. "she shouldn't be allowed", "she should've done", "she shouldn't have done". I have a feeling you maybe stifled her independence. Try and give your SO a bit of space man, you'll send her running.

Yes I am. And yes I was. But that was our relationship. It didn't send her running. Not when I saw her last. It made her almost defeated. But than, i met some really unfair play.

Don't take me the wrong way, I hear all of you. I am being toned down a bit my own faults.
What I want people to take away from my story. Is that love and the law shouldn't be allowed to mix like this.

I shouldn't be treated like someone who hits a women, when I didn't. Because that's how it felt. I shouldn't be treated like my life is the one worth throwing away, when she equally did something criminal.
 
Really? A GF is an SO right?

Anyway, it was more like advice for the future.

well....she had broken up with him, so ex-SO. I have the feeling he will not be taking your good advice.

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Yes I am. And yes I was. But that was our relationship. It didn't send her running. Not when I saw her last. It made her almost defeated. But than, i met some really unfair play.

Don't take me the wrong way, I hear all of you. I am being toned down a bit my own faults.
What I want people to take away from my story. Is that love and the law shouldn't be allowed to mix like this.

I shouldn't be treated like someone who hits a women, when I didn't. Because that's how it felt. I shouldn't be treated like my life is the one worth throwing away, when she equally did something criminal.


My god, your posts are difficult to understand. Are....are... you saying relationships are like a battle? You think you're allowed to do whatever you want because you're "in love"? And she can't defend herself from harassment because you're in love. Okay, OP. That will work out poorly for you.
 
This story stinks of something and you scare me a bit...

Either way, you're young enough to think you're a beat poet so you'll be fine.
 
I have read this whole thread and i'd be against the OP even if he wasn't in the wrong, for his "beat poet style." OP, you said you've talked to her since being deported. Dude. Leave. The. Girl. Alone. There hasn't been enough that's happened? Let. It. Go. but of course i'm pretty sure you're a stalker, so you won't.

See that's where you're wrong.

Last thing I offered her, was if she came to europe i'd see her. But nowhere else.

I also asked her to go to hell.
 
Don't take me the wrong way, I hear all of you. I am being toned down a bit my own faults.
What I want people to take away from my story. Is that love and the law shouldn't be allowed to mix like this.
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Well ok. But if one person wants a relationship and the other doesn't, and the one that does tries to force one, then surely the law should have the right to intervene to protect the party that doesn't want to be in one? Otherwise you'd just be able to grab someone and be 'I love you, we're in a relationship now'. Right?

And can you clarify what exactly she did that was criminal? What exactly did she lie about? That might get you some sympathy!
 
Yes I am. And yes I was. But that was our relationship. It didn't send her running. Not when I saw her last. It made her almost defeated. But than, i met some really unfair play.

Don't take me the wrong way, I hear all of you. I am being toned down a bit my own faults.
What I want people to take away from my story. Is that love and the law shouldn't be allowed to mix like this.

I shouldn't be treated like someone who hits a women, when I didn't. Because that's how it felt. I shouldn't be treated like my life is the one worth throwing away, when she equally did something criminal.

Which is? You have yet to explain this part.
 
See that's where you're wrong.

Last thing I offered her, was if she came to europe i'd see her. But nowhere else.

I also asked her to go to hell.

So much for non-threatening language.


I'm just kidding, but this is all in the past OP so you should really just try to get over it and eat some pizza.
 

She told the police things like, I went into the house without her permission, that I would knock on her door aggressively. That she ran for her life every-time she saw me. And her key-word she knew, to get her way. "I fear for my safety"

When the truth was, I went to her door she answered, she asked me to leave so I did. Last time she saw me she punched me and threatened that she could deport me.(I didn't believe she could at the time), that she would ignore responding to my emails. But when I asked her to meet me somewhere at school. She still would.

And If I went to trial. And they got security records from the apartment. If they read the emails. If I fought the case or got a peace bond. Things would have gone very differently. And she would have been charged with mischief. But she won.

Because I was in jail. And all I wanted to do at that moment was go home.
 
See that's where you're wrong.

Last thing I offered her, was if she came to europe i'd see her. But nowhere else.

I also asked her to go to hell.

See you're hard to understand with your "beat poet" style....But....
Oh really?:

She shouldn't be allowed to get away with lies. To hurt me in a fit of rage. To use the authority. To get what she wants. Which I know from after I got deported and correspondence she regrets.
 
Get a psychiatrist, asap.

Think 'I was in the right, it is normal, there was nothing weird about' it all you want, but you done fucked up young man and to properly start over, you first need to get your emotions in check. Meet a psychiatrist on a weekly basis, listen to his/her advice and even though you may go 'what the fuck I dont need no psychiatrist I'm a healthy young man' do whatever he/she tells you to; take the pills and look out for a few weeks.

Look, it's no coincidence how the thread TOTALLY backfired on you, and how everyone's against you. You know those people in the news stalking celebrities, for whom they get restraining orders and such? You are one, admit it or not. All of them think the same: ''I never wanted any harm, I was just worrying about her'' etc. You're young, life is ahead of you and everyone makes mistakes, for that is the beginning of adulthood. Everything will end alright and everything will realize to you sooner or later.

For now, do what everyone says. Please, don't be stubborn and just disregard all advice - Everyone goes through similar stuff in some way or another, where they should do something, but consider it pointless - Yet in the end, they think of it as the best thing they've done in their life. Whether it's moving to another city, when your life sucks fuck in the town you live now, or not trying to be social thinking 'Nothing bad in my current life, why would I do that???'. My dad was the same way, a fucked up person I've given up on. You can change.

Get professional help. It will help you in more ways than just one. Note not a therapist, cause they're paid to suck your cock and what you need is life lessons.
 
I feel like going through the OP's posts with a red pen and asking him to see me after class, he has such a weird writing style. He rarely uses commas, and just structures a sentence in a haphazard manner. I read his posts as if Borat wrote them.

Sorry OP, if English isn't your first language, I apologise. If that isn't the case, I'm actually very impressed.

If not, well, I guess that's beat poetry!
 
Dude, you are hurt right now but you will get over her pretty quickly. 4 months is not really a long time being together. Almost like an extended ONS.

Plus, you have a great opportunity to get her out of your mind. You now live in a new beautiful city with lot's of new stuff to see and learn every day.
 
Fuck you.
Duuude.

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She told the police things like, I went into the house without her permission, that I would knock on her door aggressively. That she ran for her life every-time she saw me. And her key-word she knew, to get her way. "I fear for my safety"

When the truth was, I went to her door she answered, she asked me to leave so I did. Last time she saw me she punched me and threatened that she could deport me.(I didn't believe she could at the time), that she would ignore responding to my emails. But when I asked her to meet me somewhere at school. She still would.

And If I went to trial. And they got security records from the apartment. If they read the emails. If I fought the case or got a peace bond. Things would have gone very differently. And she would have been charged with mischief. But she won.

Because I was in jail. And all I wanted to do at that moment was go home.

That sucks, but I mean you had to see some sort of repercussion coming from unwanted harassment from you for an entire month. In a 4 month relationship, ties aren't deep enough for someone to really give a shit if you'll be eating dirt.

She was not his girlfriend.

No need alleging things you don't know to be true. Even if he doesn't see the fucked up error of his ways.
 
And I'd say this ends this performance, of a damaged and hurt man.

I am seeking help. But I wanted to talk to some people about what happened.

Today morning I woke up crying. I don't care if people are against me.

Beat poetry is about people defeated by a system. At least that's how I use it. The fragments are as damaged as I am.

First days out of jail I wrote this:
I´ve lost nothing: That I ever wanted.

As I have all I ever needed.
Right here with a pen and paper.
While others live thier life on expèctations.
I take a hard path. Where I´ve been through hell. The imaginary lake of fire.

Than I ened up in Limbo. In Limbo I wrote everyday, with 1 peice of paper and a pencil.That I had to hustle for.
I saw injustice in the faces of people. Human trafficing, complete unrightousness, abuse of power, inhumanity. Nobody watches big brother. So their at liberty to get away with anything. If you do fight them, you will only intimidate them for them to flex their protien muscle and follow you around, start rumors. Try to find anything else they might possibly be able to find or plant you with. Threaten even to break a person jaw so they might not be able to speak.

Now I walk, with a Bible at hand.
I open it, and the words speak out as if i´m meant to read them.
Than and there and not, like a quantom particle. This life begotten on us. You
do not know the fortune you have until, you witness real suffering. I can´t believe what I learned while I lived for a short time at the very bottom.
I can not belive, the pigshit I had to smell from fucking pigs who won´t admit their own faults, and freely allow other people to pay the cost.

God´s gifts and his rewards. Their here on earth for those who deserve it.
And Christians who suffer for being Christ like, is just apart of the religion itself.

11 of the 12 apostles were murdered afterall. For preaching God´s word. I say to everyone we are all God´s children, Jesus was far from the only one.

Yee of little faith. You will never grow up until you witness God in a place where you think he´s not. By what isn´t there. He exists. It´s unbelievable how little we can see. I met a man who said he has a demon, and it returns to him everyday. He said to me, Do not feed an animal blindly. And he was talking about himself. For 6 years he´s lived in torment. People are used like animals for profit. You would never know. How truly the goverment does lie to everyone. And i´m not the only man on this earth trying to fight this right now. Recently a UN official has made the call for international responsibality. Coincidently, it´s also where my Father works. So I will write my thesis knowing full well. How the police isn´t watched, and is immune to any crime. Are false hero´s who pin things that arn´t real on people who can not win the case ever, because they´re locked up and kept away from the ability to even attempt to get the right help. After your mind is beaten up in confined space, how can a man stand up against a judge and a crown who slept in their homes and had real lunch. While an innocent man is fed a sandwhich and brought to court. Just to hear that if he does not pleed guilty, he has to await his trail. Away from home and loved ones, there is a system that is clearly broken.
And no one seems to care.

It´s the story of Animal Farm. The book they make us read sometime in high school. The Goverment is so currupt. I had a friend tell me this before, but until you witness it, first hand. You have no idea, how sick and disgusting greed is.

I will not be stopped by anyone or anything. I am fortunate to be educated enough to learn how to avoid their plotting melevolant abuse. They rob people of their lives. And they leave people wondering how they can sleep at night. But I know how they do it. They simply have a drink and go to comfortable bed. And happily arrest a person over and over again. Because it´s all just more points for that promotion. That star they give children in elementary school. A promation for a few extra dollars.

No correction, humanity or order and justice needed. Just word of mouth, is enough to keep a person convicted.

In jail I found some relief in the bible.. I'm not this religious anymore.
 
And I'd say this ends this performance, of a damaged and hurt man.

I am seeking help. But I wanted to talk to some people about what happened.

Today morning I woke up crying. I don't care if people are against me.

Beat poetry is about people defeated by a system. At least that's how I use it. The fragments are as damaged as I am.

First days out of jail I wrote this:

Today morning? Also i'm not reading that, your "Style" makes my head hurt.
 
lol Tag him with this PLEASE.
I dunno, I think his tag may be "banned" for a while. You can't just say "Fuck You" out of the blue. Crunched wasn't even talking out of line, just stating a fact. I mean, even if provoked, I think it's pretty out of line, unless someone disrespects you family or something. It was just so random!

I'm not trying to backseat mod by the way, I just got back from a ban myself. It wasn't a request, he didn't tell me to fuck off!
 
And I'd say this ends this performance, of a damaged and hurt man.

I am seeking help. But I wanted to talk to some people about what happened.

Today morning I woke up crying. I don't care if people are against me.

Beat poetry is about people defeated by a system. At least that's how I use it. The fragments are as damaged as I am.

First days out of jail I wrote this:

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Get a grip dude. For real.

You harassed someone and got deported for it.
 
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