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[MikeDip]

Oomi, I really do like the art you're posting. I am confused though, what are they? Are they computer drawn things or painting you are scanning?
Either way, beautiful.

Also, prax you are amazing with those drawings and animations. Orange Prax is my favourite Prax (I hope you are feeling better).

 

[Curtisaur]

I bought a 12 pack of beer because it tends to make me manic instead of depressed. My medicine seems to only control the manic side of things and I stay in a wanna-kill-myself depressed slump. They recently changed some around though so maybe I should give it time to work instead of drinking cheap shitty beer.

Also, I like Fields, Oomi. It kinda captures, to me, the feeling of being alone in a vast place but possibly something similar being near, but kinda vague and unknown/mysterious. Like that person you wish you had the courage to find out more about, whether it be someone you see frequently or just some random passerby. Or something.

 

[Darkmakaimura]

I had a little cash for helping someone out with their computer. Went to 99 cents store and found a bottle of melatonin (3mg) for 99 cents. Wow, that's an incredible find since I've been wanting to try this. Also got my usual nighttime cold medicine to try and help put me to sleep. Don't worry, I won't be mixing the melatonin with the cold meds.

 

[Collete]

Oomi, I really do like the art you're posting. I am confused though, what are they? Are they computer drawn things or painting you are scanning?
Either way, beautiful.

Also, prax you are amazing with those drawings and animations. Orange Prax is my favourite Prax (I hope you are feeling better).

It's an actual painting realism program is the best way to describe it. You can produce paintings without the mess of paint really and behaves just like real paint would, the mixing, combinations, etc.
http://store.steampowered.com/app/231180

 

[MikeDip]

It's an actual painting realism program is the best way to describe it. You can produce paintings without the mess of paint really and behaves just like real paint would, the mixing, combinations, etc.
http://store.steampowered.com/app/231180

Wow that program looks super nice! Any chance it will go on sale during the steam summer sale? I know during the Christmas one some software did show up on sale.

 

[Vesmir]

I know this isn't a speck compared to what some people are going through, but for some reason I feel compelled to let this out, and this is the only place that I can think of.

I'm behind on my bills, credit card payments are late, overdrafted on my account, ex-roommate is avoiding my attempts to collect my deposit, girlfriend is in China and is dealing with her shitty parents. I'm in LA with the family and I see my brother who is doing nothing with his life, even though he has his EMT license, exploiting my grandmother's generosity via not paying rent, acting entitled towards both her and I, basically as free of a ride as one can get, without earning a cent...and he owes me >1k. My mother is overworking with both her business and a side job at a school, my dad does consulting for some maniac while he looks for a job which he may never find because he is overqualified and old.
I guess the thing that really gets to me is my brother. We were very close (I helped raise him) until I moved out for uni, and since then he's pushed away. Never fun to lose a best friend.
That, and the money. Financial troubles suck.

That's it.

 

[Collete]

Wow that program looks super nice! Any chance it will go on sale during the steam summer sale? I know during the Christmas one some software did show up on sale.

Quite sure it will be during summer. It was on sale randomly during May and December. I would be surprised if it's not going to be on sale in Summer. If you do get it, let me see your first painting?

I bought a 12 pack of beer because it tends to make me manic instead of depressed. My medicine seems to only control the manic side of things and I stay in a wanna-kill-myself depressed slump. They recently changed some around though so maybe I should give it time to work instead of drinking cheap shitty beer.

Also, I like Fields, Oomi. It kinda captures, to me, the feeling of being alone in a vast place but possibly something similar being near, but kinda vague and unknown/mysterious. Like that person you wish you had the courage to find out more about, whether it be someone you see frequently or just some random passerby. Or something.

You should try to be brave and unlike me, give meds time to work. You can do it!

Yeah that was close to what I was trying to intend for the meaning of that painting. But it still could have used some work...Probably shouldn't have quit on the painting.
And thank you for like Fields! One of my most hated paintings of today!

I know this isn't a speck compared to what some people are going through, but for some reason I feel compelled to let this out, and this is the only place that I can think of.

I'm behind on my bills, credit card payments are late, overdrafted on my account, ex-roommate is avoiding my attempts to collect my deposit, girlfriend is in China and is dealing with her shitty parents. I'm in LA with the family and I see my brother who is doing nothing with his life, even though he has his EMT license, exploiting my grandmother's generosity via not paying rent, acting entitled towards both her and I, basically as free of a ride as one can get, without earning a cent...and he owes me >1k. My mother is overworking with both her business and a side job at a school, my dad does consulting for some maniac while he looks for a job which he may never find because he is overqualified and old.
I guess the thing that really gets to me is my brother. We were very close (I helped raise him) until I moved out for uni, and since then he's pushed away. Never fun to lose a best friend.
That, and the money. Financial troubles suck.

That's it.

Your brother sounds a lot like mine. He has potential to go to medical school and make something out of himself (he doesn't have any mental issues other than he's spoiled to hell...) but he decides to leech money out of my dad relentlessly. He treats me and every female in the house hold like masculine Indian in a bollywood movie and pisses me off at times I wish I can call the cops because he is a threat at times to us and our family in a violent sense. I don't know what advise I can give you but I hear you completely.

 

[EdmondD]

Fields
Not liking this one...

I like this one. Here is my interpretation of it. I like reptiles so at first glance the object in the middle looked like a lizard to me. In my mind it is a lizard scampering across the desert as it passes a lonely flower flowing in the wind. Kind of sad but the lizard doesn't mind it's just living it's simple lizard life. Maybe we should be like the lizard and just try to live our lives to the best of our abilities and try to find happiness wherever and whenever we can.

 

[Iph]

I know this isn't a speck compared to what some people are going through, but for some reason I feel compelled to let this out, and this is the only place that I can think of.

I'm behind on my bills, credit card payments are late, overdrafted on my account, ex-roommate is avoiding my attempts to collect my deposit, girlfriend is in China and is dealing with her shitty parents. I'm in LA with the family and I see my brother who is doing nothing with his life, even though he has his EMT license, exploiting my grandmother's generosity via not paying rent, acting entitled towards both her and I, basically as free of a ride as one can get, without earning a cent...and he owes me >1k. My mother is overworking with both her business and a side job at a school, my dad does consulting for some maniac while he looks for a job which he may never find because he is overqualified and old.
I guess the thing that really gets to me is my brother. We were very close (I helped raise him) until I moved out for uni, and since then he's pushed away. Never fun to lose a best friend.
That, and the money. Financial troubles suck.

That's it.

Financial troubles are a valid mental health concern, and put people through a lot more trauma than you might think. Though the situation overall is unfortunate, speaking up about it is not. I'd hate to day this, but distancing yourself from the situation/behaviour of some of your family members might be the best thing for you, if possible. Not saying to cut ties, but to give yourself some breathing room away from the frustrations.

 

[Curtisaur]

I feel like a lot of people wouldn't say "oh" or try to understand more until I kill myself.

 

[Daingurse]

Ah it's just one of those days, I feel so numb. It's hard to tell what feels better, flat affect or depression episodes. Probably the former, but at times it really doesn't feel that way . . .

 

[Wilsongt]

Rough evening emotionally.

 

[Xun]

Rough evening emotionally.

Same.

Feeling as I do combined with alcohol isn't a good thing.

What's really getting me down is what I posted in another thread:

I don't completely hate my current job, but it's just mentally and physically draining. Trying to motivate myself to work on my art/animation portfolio is proving even harder than when I was unemployed, so it has essentially made my life feel quite numb. Sure I'm getting money, but my dreams are slowly fading away.

It is incredibly upsetting.

I can't stress how much I feel like an old man, despite being 23.

 

[Wilsongt]

When I get home, I am going straight to the bottle.

 

[Darkmakaimura]

When I get home, I am going straight to the bottle.

I hear ya. I wish I could the same. Very irritable right now.

 

[SpartanForce]

Time was really slow.
I drank some coffee and it's fast again.
What the fuck.

 

[butzopower]

I've quit drinking coffee for almost 3 weeks now, switched to black tea. I had some headaches at first, but haven't felt bad from it after the first week. I don't think it's really helped me sleep better, or be less anxious, but it's nice to not feel so jittery.

 

[MikeDip]

Black tea eh? I've been gravitating away from coffee lately as well, apart from at ritualized coffee moments, ie certain occasions, places, times, that have become cemented in the routine. Been hitting up the green/oolong varieties, and also throwing together a cup of miso soup occasionally as a coffee alternative. Feelin' the better for it, coffee was starting to do more of a number on my guts than it needed to. Will look into this Black Tea stuff maybe too.

Black tea is also my favourite type of tea, and people have told me I have great taste.

 

[butzopower]

Will look into this Black Tea stuff maybe too.

I bought a box of earl grey for home, but I usually have a cup of english breakfast at work in the morning, and a cup of earl grey in the afternoon, along with some grapefruit juice and water. I definitely will still have coffee now and then, as I really love the taste of good coffee, just not something I'm going to drink at work every day.

As much as I've been cutting back / balancing out my caffeine intake, I've definitely been smoking more cigarettes. A month ago I was having one every now and then, sometimes it'd be 3 or 4 days between them. Now, I'm definitely smoking at least twice a day, sometimes a lot more, depending on how I feel and if I'm drinking or if I'm with people who smoke (probably the biggest factor really). Not an uncommon pattern for me, I guess, since I've had waning and waxing periods how much I smoke since I began smoking, just something to consider when assessing my chemical management.

 

[Wilsongt]

Home. Bottle time.

However, there may be a possibility I will be able to get closure with the person who put me into this funk six months ago.

 

[Darkmakaimura]

Home. Bottle time.

However, there may be a possibility I will be able to get closure with the person who put me into this funk six months ago.

Please share!

If not, it's herbal tea and NyQuil for me.

 

[Wilsongt]

It's just vodka, lol

 

[Darkmakaimura]

It's just vodka, lol

Vodka, whiskey, gin, tequila.... doesn't matter.

Anything to get rid of loneliness, boredom, irritability.

 

[Wilsongt]

Vodka, whiskey, gin, tequila.... doesn't matter.

Anything to get rid of loneliness, boredom, irritability.

Alcohol makes me feel worse, but I dun care.

 

[Darkmakaimura]

Alcohol makes me feel worse, but I dun care.

That's not good. I'm gonna be a bit of a hypocrite here and say maybe you shouldn't drink if that's the case. Alcohol for me usually makes me feel better. I'm one of those "happy drunks" but I can get a bit goofy.

But maybe if it helps you get the tears out, I understand. Just be careful. Don't do anything rash. If you're in deep depression and as you're saying, alcohol makes it worse, then at least try to find someone to drink with. Try to get together with a friend at a bar because maybe then you'll feel better. Even so, stay careful.

 

[Wilsongt]

That's not good. I'm gonna be a bit of a hypocrite here and say maybe you shouldn't drink if that's the case. Alcohol for me usually makes me feel better. I'm one of those "happy drunks" but I can get a bit goofy.

But maybe if it helps you get the tears out, I understand. Just be careful. Don't do anything rash. If you're in deep depression and as you're saying, alcohol makes it worse, then at least try to find someone to drink with. Try to get together with a friend at a bar because maybe then you'll feel better. Even so, stay careful.

Nah. No deep depression or anything. Just meh. I get giggly when drunk. But, no crying.

 

[Mully]

I haven't visited this thread in nearly a year. Things have been going extremely well.

However, tonight seems to have brought me back down considerably. I still live at home and my parents are very different from each other. I barely see my Dad because he works so much, and he's really depressed and hides away to his bedroom any chance he gets. My mom is extremely aggressive, impulsive, and authoritarian.

Earlier today, my older sister had her bridal shower. It was hectic. My mom has been stressed for months while planning the wedding/shower due to the "craziness" of the other side of the family. There's been many stories told by my mom. Many of which I question the validity of them.

The shower ended, and the stories about how disrespectful and stupid the other family were at the shower came and went. Tomorrow's the bachelorette party. Most of the women are showing up at our house early tomorrow morning. My mom's very neurotic about the cleanliness and preparedness of the house each time we have guests. More than most people. Prior to her massive crusade against dust bunnies, she decided to run to the store. I thought I had enough time to cook some chicken on the stove.

I was wrong.

She came home. She saw me cooking and immediately she started uncontrollably sighing, stamping her feet as she walked and making quick movements with her arms to show how upset she was. She began yelling and throwing a fit as if she was a three year old who lost her favorite doll.

I stupidly called her out on her behavior and got guilt trips and embarrassing statements made at me. She acted like a 56 year old bully.

It's difficult to explain but whenever she gets like this (which is pretty often), I feel helpless. She's my mother so I can't actually say extremely hurtful things or completely call her out and lecture her about her behavior(although I admit I did say "Fuck you," or "Fuck off," many times at her tonight because I was so frustrated). I know she can't change. I know I can't move out anytime soon because of how expensive it is to rent a place here in the suburbs of NYC. I feel trapped and nights like tonight make that feeling of helplessly trapped much worse.

Tonight I feel like I'm back at square one.

 

[Iph]

I bought a box of earl grey for home, but I usually have a cup of english breakfast at work in the morning, and a cup of earl grey in the afternoon, along with some grapefruit juice and water. I definitely will still have coffee now and then, as I really love the taste of good coffee, just not something I'm going to drink at work every day.

As much as I've been cutting back / balancing out my caffeine intake, I've definitely been smoking more cigarettes. A month ago I was having one every now and then, sometimes it'd be 3 or 4 days between them. Now, I'm definitely smoking at least twice a day, sometimes a lot more, depending on how I feel and if I'm drinking or if I'm with people who smoke (probably the biggest factor really). Not an uncommon pattern for me, I guess, since I've had waning and waxing periods how much I smoke since I began smoking, just something to consider when assessing my chemical management.

Pu'erh tea is a fantastic coffee substitute, I find. It has such a rich, toasty flavour that it can be mistaken for coffee, but without all the heavy jitters. Some specialty tea shops even carry flavoured pu'erh tea with coffee flavours and ones complimentary to coffee like almond, hazlenut, chocolate, etc. I know it doesn't give you any chemical intake, but ever consider trying some of those cheap, disposable electronic cigarettes? You can usually get one that last for about two full packs of smokes worth of puffs and they come in a variety of flavours for under $10.

 

[SpartanForce]

My heartbeat is around 50. My blood pressure is 170/120 but I'm worried about my heart stopping because of Inderal. The dosage is low, 10mg at the morning, evening and 20mg at night, but yeah.
Probably anxiety, but I'm scared. I don't wanna die.

 

[Collete]

I haven't visited this thread in nearly a year. Things have been going extremely well.

However, tonight seems to have brought me back down considerably. I still live at home and my parents are very different from each other. I barely see my Dad because he works so much, and he's really depressed and hides away to his bedroom any chance he gets. My mom is extremely aggressive, impulsive, and authoritarian.

Earlier today, my older sister had her bridal shower. It was hectic. My mom has been stressed for months while planning the wedding/shower due to the "craziness" of the other side of the family. There's been many stories told by my mom. Many of which I question the validity of them.

The shower ended, and the stories about how disrespectful and stupid the other family were at the shower came and went. Tomorrow's the bachelorette party. Most of the women are showing up at our house early tomorrow morning. My mom's very neurotic about the cleanliness and preparedness of the house each time we have guests. More than most people. Prior to her massive crusade against dust bunnies, she decided to run to the store. I thought I had enough time to cook some chicken on the stove.

I was wrong.

She came home. She saw me cooking and immediately she started uncontrollably sighing, stamping her feet as she walked and making quick movements with her arms to show how upset she was. She began yelling and throwing a fit as if she was a three year old who lost her favorite doll.

I stupidly called her out on her behavior and got guilt trips and embarrassing statements made at me. She acted like a 56 year old bully.

It's difficult to explain but whenever she gets like this (which is pretty often), I feel helpless. She's my mother so I can't actually say extremely hurtful things or completely call her out and lecture her about her behavior(although I admit I did say "Fuck you," or "Fuck off," many times at her tonight because I was so frustrated). I know she can't change. I know I can't move out anytime soon because of how expensive it is to rent a place here in the suburbs of NYC. I feel trapped and nights like tonight make that feeling of helplessly trapped much worse.

Tonight I feel like I'm back at square one.

I remember you, but I don't know if you remember me. I think it was about 10 months give or take a few that you were telling me to go get help because I told people in this "working students" thread I was depressed and you were concerned for me.
After all this time I remember you being nice to me. Just want to say thank you for that.

Your mom does sound pretty snooty though, nothing damn wrong with cooking yourself a meal as long as you clean up the mess. Her behavior was unwarranted.
Is there anyway you can invest moving to a different state or a different area in NY? Renting in NYC is expensive as hell...
I also feel trapped in the sense I fucked my life over, I went to a mental hospital which I got shitty treatment, I'm psychologically scarred from the experience, single, and pretty much a sore loser and I have no job.
I'm going to carefully assume you don't have a severe form of depression (if you do ignore this next part).
Are you a student? Is there no way you can find a job to help you pull out of this?

Still unlike me, you probably have the power to get out. You have much more potential than I and one day you will get out, I know you will.

I like this one. Here is my interpretation of it. I like reptiles so at first glance the object in the middle looked like a lizard to me. In my mind it is a lizard scampering across the desert as it passes a lonely flower flowing in the wind. Kind of sad but the lizard doesn't mind it's just living it's simple lizard life. Maybe we should be like the lizard and just try to live our lives to the best of our abilities and try to find happiness wherever and whenever we can.

Wow I didn't put that much thought into this one really...I honestly can't even say you're correct or wrong. But I like this interpretation and will believe that's what it means. Thanks!

 

[Lonely1]

I also feel trapped in the sense I fucked my life over, I went to a mental hospital which I got shitty treatment, I'm psychologically scarred from the experience, single, and pretty much a sore loser and I have no job.

Nooo Oomi! From your post you seem like a great person and seems like you have good friends in here! (And I have to say that I'm jealous! I have none, here or elsewhere :/) Remember, nothing that has happened is your fault, its a disease and is treatable! Although everyone situtation is different, I know for first hand experience that there's a way out. The one talking right now is the disease, not you. :O

 

[EdmondD]

Home. Bottle time.

However, there may be a possibility I will be able to get closure with the person who put me into this funk six months ago.

Vodka, whiskey, gin, tequila.... doesn't matter.

Anything to get rid of loneliness, boredom, irritability.

I'm with you brothers. Drinking some vodka and limearita. This budlight limerita shit is fucking disgusting but it does the trick. I don't condone drinking after all alcohol is a depressant but sometimes it eases the pain. Hope you get your closure Wilsongt.

My heartbeat is around 50. My blood pressure is 170/120 but I'm worried about my heart stopping because of Inderal. The dosage is low, 10mg at the morning, evening and 20mg at night, but yeah.
Probably anxiety, but I'm scared. I don't wanna die.

Take it easy SF. Try to stay calm bro. We are here for you. Everything will be okay.

 

[scar tissue]

My heartbeat is around 50. My blood pressure is 170/120 but I'm worried about my heart stopping because of Inderal. The dosage is low, 10mg at the morning, evening and 20mg at night, but yeah.
Probably anxiety, but I'm scared. I don't wanna die.

You okay man?
Stuff like this is why I'm terrified of medication. So many possible side effects.
I take some benzodiazepines occasionally (on average once or twice a week at low dosage), and experienced some weird tingling sensations in my chest and left leg a few days ago while in bed. I don't think it's related to the medication, but you never know. My first idea was that I was experiencing withdrawal symptoms.

Still, the fact that you're afraid of dying is a good sign.

Today, I finally managed to keep my cool in a confrontation with my dad today as he tried to guilt trip me.
I didn't say half the things I wanted to, but the mere fact that my voice stayed perfectly calm, my heart wasn't racing and I wasn't sweating profusely is enough for now.

 

[Collete]

Nooo Oomi! From your post you seem like a great person and seems like you have good friends in here! (And I have to say that I'm jealous! I have none, here or elsewhere :/) Remember, nothing that has happened is your fault, its a disease and is treatable! Although everyone situtation is different, I know for first hand experience that there's a way out. The one talking right now is the disease, not you. :O

Doesn't change my life is pretty much fucked. Doesn't change I'm single. I'm not successful in any shape or form.

 

[ClassyPenguin]

Doesn't change my life is pretty much fucked. Doesn't change I'm single. I'm not successful in any shape or form.

You could be a tesseract.

 

[Iph]

Doesn't change my life is pretty much fucked. Doesn't change I'm single. I'm not successful in any shape or form.

I know things don't feel great right now, but adding a relationship to that could further complicate your life. I find getting into relationships when you feel you aren't happy with your life and yourself, by yourself, is a recipe for disaster, hurt feelings and bitter endings. As bad as things seem, maybe try looking at it as free time to work on making changes and improving things- giving yourself a game plan if you will.

Getting better takes up so much time and energy that I feel, for many, a relationship would only detract from that. I know everybody needs somebody sometimes but I think it's really important to work towards being as self-sufficient as possible, which doesn't happen in a day. Relationships are give and take, but when you know you can go into one being the kind of girl a man needs, not a girl that needs a man is the healthiest way to being something strong and happy.

When you start focusing on your own happiness and don't have to focus on considering another's happiness too, you don't drain yourself of precious energy that could be better spent on giving your personal situation the enthusiasm and positive energy it needs. :3

 

[Daingurse]

Alcohol makes me feel worse, but I dun care.

I'm a "social" drunk, but alcohol also makes me feel like shit after the fact.. It's a depressant alright and when it wears off I almost always feel worse. I'm not going to give you any advice that I can't follow myself, we both know we shouldn't drink. But like I said, no judgement nor any advice coming from me, would simply be hypocritical.

 

[Collete]

You could be a tesseract.

You want me to be a cube? <_<
"In geometry, the tesseract, also called an 8-cell or regular octachoron or cubic prism, is the four-dimensional analog of the cube; the tesseract is to the cube as the cube is to the square"
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tesseract

 

[Jimothy]

Bvm

 

[AFollowerNotALeader]

I feel betrayed. And crushed. I've never understood until now what it feels like to be disappointed in someone else.

 

[Hermii]

I feel betrayed. And crushed. I've never understood until now what it feels like to be disappointed in someone else.

The most horrible feeling ever.

 

[Wilsongt]

I feel betrayed. And crushed. I've never understood until now what it feels like to be disappointed in someone else.

I know that feel. It's terrible.

 

[ClassyPenguin]

You want me to be a cube? <_<
"In geometry, the tesseract, also called an 8-cell or regular octachoron or cubic prism, is the four-dimensional analog of the cube; the tesseract is to the cube as the cube is to the square"
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tesseract

multidimensional cube.

 

[scar tissue]

I feel betrayed. And crushed. I've never understood until now what it feels like to be disappointed in someone else.

Once you get let down often enough, it starts hurting a lot less.
I'm hardly even surprised any more. Many/most people are, at their core, weak and egotistical. Not that I myself am any better.

I don't even think there's a category of people in my life that hasn't bitterly disappointed me yet. Family, friends, therapists, doctors, university professors,...
Just remember they're all people and adjust your expectations accordingly.

 

[Wilsongt]

Once you get let down often enough, it starts hurting a lot less.
I'm hardly even surprised any more. Many/most people are, at their core, weak and egotistical. Not that I myself am any better.

I don't even think there's a category of people in my life that hasn't bitterly disappointed me yet. Family, friends, therapists, doctors, university professors,...
Just remember they're all people and adjust your expectations accordingly.

Pretty much. At this point, I begin to expect it, and when things turn out other wise, I am really surprised.

 

[EdmondD]

Can we see more adventures of platyPrax?

I want to remind everyone of our depressionGAF E3 coverage. Just hit that chat button in the OP and join us for live commentary on all the major stuff. We've got musical guests, humbugs and I will have a fascinating discussion about being old and how games have sucked since about 1997, we're promising at least 2 Swedes, there will be artwork, there will even be some real fake gamer girls in there! Get hyped!

I will be making a special guest appearance dressed as Link from the Legend of Zelda in tribute to the legendary Shigeru Miyamoto. I might even play some tunes on my ocarina. Please be excited!

 

[Xun]

My brain is so very clouded and numb today, more so than last night.

I'm dreading going back to work again tomorrow, it's just a never ending.

My dreams are disappearing, I still have confidence issues, I have nothing to look forward to, I have a lot of regrets. The list goes on.

I just wish I could go back in time.

 

[Bagels]

That's not good. I'm gonna be a bit of a hypocrite here and say maybe you shouldn't drink if that's the case. Alcohol for me usually makes me feel better. I'm one of those "happy drunks" but I can get a bit goofy.

But maybe if it helps you get the tears out, I understand. Just be careful. Don't do anything rash. If you're in deep depression and as you're saying, alcohol makes it worse, then at least try to find someone to drink with. Try to get together with a friend at a bar because maybe then you'll feel better. Even so, stay careful.

How did that melatonin treat you? Any luck?

Another reminder that we'll be in chat all day tomorrow for the E3 press conferences. It's a great chance to talk more with people from the thread and get more involved with the community! Join us! Just click the big ol' chat button in the OP!

 

[Darkmakaimura]

How did that melatonin treat you? Any luck?

Another reminder that we'll be in chat all day tomorrow for the E3 press conferences. It's a great chance to talk more with people from the thread and get more involved with the community! Join us! Just click the big ol' chat button in the OP!

Well, I took the NyQuil (actually, generic nighttime cold medicine comparable to NyQuil) and took 1 melatonin. Apparently, melatonin is safe to mix with anything as it's naturally produced in your body anyhow.

The cold medicine worked at first but because I have anxiety, I was still up so I took the melatonin. I'm not sure if it was placebo or not but after an hour I did seem to feel sleepier. I was still tossing and turning but I did manage to fall asleep. So, it seemed to work a bit last night but I can't say 100% for sure if it really did or not. I'm going to take another one tonight without the cold medicine.

I might by stopping by chat tomorrow since NeoGAF will most certainly be down.

 

[Piano]

I'm miserable right now. Things have been going better lately so I accepted a job out west for the summer (that I already had to quit once, two years ago because of mental health). I feel like I messed up big time. I'm so scared. I want to go home. Everyone else is having a great time and here I am, a 23 year old who's homesick.

I feel trapped. If I quit I'll feel even worse since I failed twice and won't make any money.

I'm on my phone now...hopefully will get on my laptop later tonight to type more.

Sorry to jump in with a sob story...