Just got home from group DBT. Mindfulness is pretty legit, but is so fucking hard for me. I can definitely benefit from being less judgemental of my self, and more aware of my surroundings. I frankly am too aware of my inner emotions, I just wish I could let them go. My case manager is really starting to piss me off, my transportation was not even prepared, feels like she's been blowing me off. Or at the very least, prioritizing me below her other clients. I'm too nice I guess, people think they can just walk over me. I guess that's true though. . .ugh.
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Hahahaha.
I'll also chime in and say don't give up on your art. Do it for yourself; I think it can be a great outlet for expressing yourself. Many of us in the thread really enjoy the various pieces you've been posting.
I know it's a struggle right now but take it one day at a time (which I know sounds trite and I should probably follow my own advice).
ClassyPenguin
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I had stuff to do all day so here is the best I could do
Lights
Also, I made a dgaf flickr group, just so this threa doesn't get all crowded.
http://www.flickr.com/groups/2200204@N25/
Lights
Also, I made a dgaf flickr group, just so this threa doesn't get all crowded.
http://www.flickr.com/groups/2200204@N25/
ClassyPenguin
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That is some gorgeous landscape, thanks for sharing.
I may not post here frequently, but I'm genuinely glad this community exists.
Am cheating as this was taken a little while ago, but I've been jogging around here recently to get my head straight.
I Appear Missing (the song)
So day 4 on my new med and while feel good, it is making me just kind of subtlety weird. Humbugs is a super smart guy, so I think he picked up on some very, very subtle mind-altering behaviors. Like, if you REALLY paid attention, you might just have picked up on an unusual amount of discussion of what the unskilled professional would refer to as "my balls."
Between the klonopin, which makes me just tell everyone how much I love them (which is all genuine, but is usually more than I mean to say), and the Parnate, which turns off all of my mental filters, it's an odd time to chat with me. Prude Bagels is right out the window. I hope it comes back soon. I'm saying some weird shit, and DOING some weird hit - I just a huge swig of a soda that was not in my hand. I wish that were the first time, but I keeeeeeeeeeeeeep doing it. Massive apologies i =f if it's a few days like this. Bear with me,please!
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Between the klonopin, which makes me just tell everyone how much I love them (which is all genuine, but is usually more than I mean to say), and the Parnate, which turns off all of my mental filters, it's an odd time to chat with me. Prude Bagels is right out the window. I hope it comes back soon. I'm saying some weird shit, and DOING some weird hit - I just a huge swig of a soda that was not in my hand. I wish that were the first time, but I keeeeeeeeeeeeeep doing it. Massive apologies i =f if it's a few days like this. Bear with me,please!
-CRZYBGLS
(this post took an hourtowrite)
Whatever you are on, I want to be on it too.
Edit: It actually says what you are on, and I still want to be on it too.
Agent Cooper
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This is freaking me out.
My bf is a much better photographer than I'll ever be.So none of these pictures were taken by me, but umm, I was there and held the camera soon afterwards. That counts right?
This might be innapropriate actually it probably is but Im just saying what everyone is thinking. If that is you on the picture you are super cute.
ThoseDeafMutes
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Haven't you ever been to the Post Pics of Yourself thread? Every GAFer is some sort of model.
I checked it out now. You are mostly right.
Day 5 without internet at home. Still can't watch the pics here, nor post some of my own (not that I have many, nor any good ones).
Can't even talk to you guys on the chat. Somehow I'm feeling more and more like an outsider. Like I don't belong anywhere. Whatever.
If anyone cares (just kidding, nobody does), this is the song in my head right now:
"Searchlight" - John Fogerty
Oh the midnight, need a searchlight.
Oh the midnight, need a searchlight.
I walk along the rocky shore,
the place I lost myself.
I search the water, look in the sky,
I hear the cries for help.
I trace my footsteps down to the sea,
but then the path disappears.
Here in the darkness I'm runnin' blind.
Been stumblin' for all of these years.
Oh the midnight, need a searchlight.
Oh the midnight, need a searchlight.
What was the demon that made me run?
Can I ever hope to understand?
I hear my voice, echoes on the wind.
I try to reach out with my hand.
Without a light I might be here forever,
lost for all eternity.
There in the darkness,
slippin' through my fingers,
the face that smiles back is me.
Oh the midnight, need a searchlight...
Can't even talk to you guys on the chat. Somehow I'm feeling more and more like an outsider. Like I don't belong anywhere. Whatever.
If anyone cares (just kidding, nobody does), this is the song in my head right now:
"Searchlight" - John Fogerty
Oh the midnight, need a searchlight.
Oh the midnight, need a searchlight.
I walk along the rocky shore,
the place I lost myself.
I search the water, look in the sky,
I hear the cries for help.
I trace my footsteps down to the sea,
but then the path disappears.
Here in the darkness I'm runnin' blind.
Been stumblin' for all of these years.
Oh the midnight, need a searchlight.
Oh the midnight, need a searchlight.
What was the demon that made me run?
Can I ever hope to understand?
I hear my voice, echoes on the wind.
I try to reach out with my hand.
Without a light I might be here forever,
lost for all eternity.
There in the darkness,
slippin' through my fingers,
the face that smiles back is me.
Oh the midnight, need a searchlight...
My bf is a much better photographer than I'll ever be.
Which theme park was the first photo taken? Looks so empty. I remember there used to be a theme park near here that would open in Summer with a good choice of rides, and no real lines to wait in and lovely scenery. Shame its shut down now and being turned into some pretentious golf course. Always found it a bit futile going to places were you would spend more time waiting in line than you would actually on the rides, my trip to Alton Towers was a prime example of that.
Collete
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You're not an outsider to us, riona. What happened to your internet?
Also I liked the lyrics.
...I know you people want me to keep drawing...I don't know maybe it's depression talking....I just don't see why I should do anything anymore in a town that does nothing...Seriously, I looked up clubs and organizations, and my town has none. I looked in the neighboring city for an art club...The only one they had I think is for retired people...I don't know...I don't see a point to anything...I really wish i can move up to Seattle where there's actually things to do there, and the weather's nice...
*sigh*
Thanks Oomi, that means a lot to me. I still can't help feeling that way, but thank you
It seems my ISP is doing some repairs on my neighborhood (that's what they said on the phone, for all I know it could be bullshit), but it's taking a lot of time now. Last week it had been working on and off (sometimes more off than on), and since Friday night it's been 100% down. Can't enter MH-GAF chat, can't talk to people on Steam, can't idle for cards to sell and buy games I'll never play with that money, can't buy 3DS games (this is probably a good thing), can't send ugly drawings over Swapnote, can't listen to bands I've been recommended. It sucks. Oh well, didn't mean to complain this much, sorry.
Glad to see you liked the song (or at least the lyrics). I was in a bad mood this morning, and that song resonated with me when it started playing on my phone while I was riding the bus. Fogerty is a genius, I'd give all I have to have 1/4 of his songwriting skills. Not even his guitar and singing skills, just composing. Such a genius.
You have a lot of talent, that's why many people here believe that if you enjoy drawing you should keep doing it. Maybe not for sale, but for your own (and ours, if you don't mind sharing them here) sake. If it helps you relieve your feelings, then it's worth doing too. Couldn't you start your own art club? Don't know hard it is, but maybe you could find people around your area interested in that, and form a group. Moving to Seattle would be a good option too, if you don't mind living on your own (unless you have someone you can share a place with), though that sounds a little more difficult to me (cooking? Doing dishes every day? Washing clothes? Cleaning the house? Paying the bills? I hope I never ever have to leave my parent's
I'm sure it's depression talking, because drawing seems to be something you really like. Please don't give up on the things you like, they are the stuff that makes life worth living.
Made me start listening to thisAmazking
What a great album.
Do you exercise? Or just have a set schedule for class on Saturday? Having "goals" spread out throughout the week might help.
Not the huge one in the background! I love roller coasters but I'm super afraid of heights. The tall one is Kingda Ka, the world's tallest roller coaster. My bf wanted to go on it but I was too afraid. El Toro, the wooden one, was absolutely amazing though.
Please keep posting pictures from your area! It's so pretty.That is some gorgeous landscape, thanks for sharing.
I may not post here frequently, but I'm genuinely glad this community exists.
Am cheating as this was taken a little while ago, but I've been jogging around here recently to get my head straight.
I Appear Missing (the song)
It's Six Flags Great Aventure in New Jersey. We went on a weekday and it was surprisingly full. Would have definitely preferred it to be more empty. Only got to ride four roller coasters.
It's only 'cause the cuteness of the photographer transfers over when he takes the picture.
I'll post more pics he took later since you guys liked them. He is quite talented. :3
Please keep pushing for it. It's a great accomplishment, one I'm not sure I'll have, though I'm debating if I should. :/
It's times like these I miss having best friends in the area.
edit: Pau I'll take my camera with me today.
Collete
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I don't have much to contribute today...I don't know if I'll go back to art...Unless I have some interest again today, won't be happening today.
But all I can say is:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tU-VJOzb-10
Song cheered me up a little with his vocal chords versatility. Think it sounds better than the original, in my opinion.
But all I can say is:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tU-VJOzb-10
Song cheered me up a little with his vocal chords versatility. Think it sounds better than the original, in my opinion.
Can somebody help me figuere out what is going on?
I've been on Effexor XR for atleast 3 months of so and I think it may be causing some adverse effects as of recently. Whenever I miss a dose of Effexor I seem to get a little dizzy and lightheaded the following day. However, recently this seems to be happening to me even when I don't miss a dose.
Does this mean the effectiveness of the drug is wearing off? I can't deal with these constant "is the drug causing this side effect?" questions. Might be better off just getting off drugs all together.
Any help/insight would be super appreciated.
I've been on Effexor XR for atleast 3 months of so and I think it may be causing some adverse effects as of recently. Whenever I miss a dose of Effexor I seem to get a little dizzy and lightheaded the following day. However, recently this seems to be happening to me even when I don't miss a dose.
Does this mean the effectiveness of the drug is wearing off? I can't deal with these constant "is the drug causing this side effect?" questions. Might be better off just getting off drugs all together.
Any help/insight would be super appreciated.
I took some pictures from the walk/hike/jog thing I did today.
Thank goodness for My Brother My Brother & Me so I can pace out an hour and not have to think.
Thank goodness for My Brother My Brother & Me so I can pace out an hour and not have to think.
Collete
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Welcome back. How was it?
Mike and some other people pushed me to work on art today...So here it is...Cried while doing it...wheeeeeeeeee:
Chasm
There is a chance of escape...But what's the use? The guardians are around it, and the gates will close on you if you get to close...It's so beautiful though. Loved ones will be there...But we have to find another way...Some other way...
Looks great! I wish I had big open land like this nearby to explore. Any real hikes like that would require a fair amount of travel for me.
It was what it needed to be this time: a safe place for me for a few days for me to shed some of the extreme darkness off of my depression and instead make it bearable to wake up, move, think, do anything. It wasn't anything terribly therapeutic and there was no tweaking of meds involved.
Thank you for asking.
Collete
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That's good, I'm glad you got what you wanted from the hospital stay. So I'm guessing you're a bit better?
You're welcome, genuinely concerned for you.
I'm only slightly better, yeah I guess. I don't have pills in one hand and a razor in the other so I guess that is a big step. I'm in a hypomanic stage right now. It seems to happen every time I get out of the hospital.
I was depressed for so long, I forgot what feeling good felt like. It felt really weird one morning when I woke up happy.
Almost slipped into schizophrenia once, but I recovered after some intense journaling and mentally withdrawing from stressful situations; I felt my mind come back to a state of normalcy.
Almost slipped into schizophrenia once, but I recovered after some intense journaling and mentally withdrawing from stressful situations; I felt my mind come back to a state of normalcy.
So glad to see you back!
I am happy that you found some help Curt. Welcome back!
SpartanForce
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Holy fuck what a nightmare I had.
Add that to a mild depression and fuck all.
Jesus.
Add that to a mild depression and fuck all.
Jesus.
AFollowerNotALeader
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And yesterday, after lunch, I exited the mood slump I've been suffering from for well over a week.
I do not know why I was miserable. I do not know why I suddenly felt better. All I know is that I'm now a happy, tired and relaxed rather than stressed, panicky and drained.
My brain is a mystery to me.
I really must sort out my next doctor's appointment so I can get my meds renewed before they run out.
I do not know why I was miserable. I do not know why I suddenly felt better. All I know is that I'm now a happy, tired and relaxed rather than stressed, panicky and drained.
My brain is a mystery to me.
I really must sort out my next doctor's appointment so I can get my meds renewed before they run out.
ClassyPenguin
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Ambeint isn ot working formr,noao
Make me.feel odf
I can spelll better, it's this stupid phone
Make me.feel odf
I can spelll better, it's this stupid phone
I'm worried about Neojubei. He said in the post below he would close his account when he kills himself and he's banned... Did he request a ban? He hasn't been online for a couple of days, and last seen 3 days ago on Steam.
ClassyPenguin
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Ambien up 10g no difference
Collete
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Jeeze I was worried about you when I read that first part of that post lol.
That reminds me, some people in the hospital were prescribed Ambien left to right and they got the shittiest of side effects. Always felt groggy and moody with a list of other things that I prefer not to recall.
But I'm sorry it didn't work for you =\
Hopefully the psychiatrist or doctor will prescribe something better next time.
Take it easy for today...
He better not have.
I still want to hear some day of him going to Japan and him getting a teaching job like he always wanted and being stress free.
The dream I wanted for a long ass time.
But I think he requested a ban. Looking at his previous posts, he didn't really post much that might be ban worthy. If a mod banned him without him asking, mercy on their souls because that would not have helped the situation. All we can do is pray that he did not do anything stupid...
Bel Marduk
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Isn't 10mg the maximum dose? 12.5 for the time released?
Bel Marduk
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Well.. he may have been banned under the same reasoning that KevinCow was.
Collete
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Perhaps...But I don't think this will help him at all...
4th Chamber
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So this social worker tells me I don't breath right, like I choke on my words and my speech is pressured.
Says I appear agitated and anxious, just confirms my suspicions and reinforces how noticeable it is. That kind of body language is so off-putting.
My shtick is ADHD.
It's comorbid with anxiety and occasional stints of depression, which is pretty typical.
Anybody suffering from depression ever try a stimulant? Some of you I want to force feed some adderall.
I guess Wellbutrin is the weak ass weird cousin of this.
Says I appear agitated and anxious, just confirms my suspicions and reinforces how noticeable it is. That kind of body language is so off-putting.
My shtick is ADHD.
It's comorbid with anxiety and occasional stints of depression, which is pretty typical.
Anybody suffering from depression ever try a stimulant? Some of you I want to force feed some adderall.
I guess Wellbutrin is the weak ass weird cousin of this.
I just checked with a mod, this is the case, thankfully. Hope you're doing okay Neojubei! See you soon
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