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Mental Health |OT| Depression & Co.
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Collete
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Well I wish you happy birthday, and tomorrow's Friday, that's something to look forward to as well.
Each day feels sinking...and hopeless...Why the hell can't i just get it over with...
grap3fruitman
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How come everyone gets to be happy but me?
Collete
Member
I ask this...every single day.....
It's just a roll of the dice, it seems. I often worry that there are people destined to be happy and others destined to be miserable.
Hi all, I don't really want to throw my whole story down here, but like most people in this thread I have been depressed for quite some time. I try to cope with it, pretend everything is a okay. But it really isn't okay. Lately some things happened that made me feel worse, and i tried to find a way to deal with it, but couldn't. Figured I'll have a few drinks, take my mind off of it. But to no avail. Considered suicide (It still crosses my mind) but, I can't do it. Which I assume is good, but to me it feels like my life has become such a mess, that it probably would be the only way out. But i have a beautiful daughter, and with her in my mind I can't do anything, since I know she needs me, and i want to be there for her. I've been depressed before, and at that time, i had someone to talk to, saw a psychiatrist. And after quite a few sessions I got over it. But this time seeing a psychiatrist is out of the picture, even though I really want to. I am a very unstable person, borderline, schizophrenia and adhd. Which all 3 I have learned to live with, and learned to control for as much as I can. Although the schizophrenia and the suicidal thoughts don't really get along and don't help me out in any positive way at all. And i know I'm strong enough to get over this, i've done it before. But I'm also scared that I can't, and that maybe things get worse. And yes there is a way to get over this, and i do know what to do. But it's not something I want to do, and no it doesn't include suicide. This all probably doesn't make sense without knowing what's up, but i really don't like talking about it. And I'm not sure what to expect by posting on here. But i hope maybe there is someone, that would listen to me, and my stupid problems. I hope all of this makes sense anyway. I just want to get the thoughts of suicide out of my head, cause they scare me.
Also i have no one to talk to, that's why I'm posting on here. So don't tell me to talk to someone, cause there is no one, unfortunately. And i know I can call one of those hotlines, but i rather avoid contact with people right now. It's so much easier to put it up here, and maybe get some advice from others. Plus I don't think it's needed at this point in time, i don't feel like I'm a threat to anyone, or myself. But that is something that could change with time. But when the time is there, i will try and find some kind of professional help.
If anyone wants to know more or is interested or maybe actually wants to listen and maybe give me some advice or help, you can always throw me a pm I suppose.
My name is Mark by the way, and hope you good people can talk some sense into me. I need to pick up my life again, I'm sick and tired of living like this!
Also i have no one to talk to, that's why I'm posting on here. So don't tell me to talk to someone, cause there is no one, unfortunately. And i know I can call one of those hotlines, but i rather avoid contact with people right now. It's so much easier to put it up here, and maybe get some advice from others. Plus I don't think it's needed at this point in time, i don't feel like I'm a threat to anyone, or myself. But that is something that could change with time. But when the time is there, i will try and find some kind of professional help.
If anyone wants to know more or is interested or maybe actually wants to listen and maybe give me some advice or help, you can always throw me a pm I suppose.
My name is Mark by the way, and hope you good people can talk some sense into me. I need to pick up my life again, I'm sick and tired of living like this!
Thank you. :3
Happy birthday. I hope you have a great day.
Happy birthday Wilson! Hope you have a great day.
If you guys don't mind, I'd like to post another song I love. It's beautiful, and a little melancholic and yet hopeful.
"Songbird" - Bee Gees
Go on with your song, bird.
You can't go wrong, bird.
You will go on and on, bird,
like you did before.
Though your wings are broken,
the sky is so wide open.
And the wind is waiting for you
like an open door.
Though you go so far away,
your voice will still be heard so well.
You'll never really ever know
how beautiful you are.
When the moon is on the rise
I'll try to make my songbird fly.
I wonder if he ever will,
and if he really did, how far.
Go on with your song, bird.
You can't go wrong, bird.
You will go on and on, bird,
like you did before.
Though your wings are broken,
the sky is so wide open.
And the wind is waiting for you
like an open door.
Though you go so far away,
your voice will still be heard so well.
You'll never really ever know
how beautiful you are.
When the moon is on the rise
I'll try to make my songbird fly.
I wonder if he ever will,
and if he really did, how far.
Go on with your song, bird.
You can't go wrong, bird.
You will go on and on, bird,
through the open door.
Go on with your song, bird.
You can't go wrong, my bird.
You will go on and on, bird,
like you did before.
Like you did before...
If you guys don't mind, I'd like to post another song I love. It's beautiful, and a little melancholic and yet hopeful.
And maybe it will help refute dispel the myth that Bee Gees is a disco band. They aren't! Only a bunch of their songs can be described as disco, the rest is pop (orchestral or synth), a little rockabilly, romantic ballad or even country. I can't remember how many times I've said it in the past, but THEY AREN'T A DISCO BAND.
"Songbird" - Bee Gees
Go on with your song, bird.
You can't go wrong, bird.
You will go on and on, bird,
like you did before.
Though your wings are broken,
the sky is so wide open.
And the wind is waiting for you
like an open door.
Though you go so far away,
your voice will still be heard so well.
You'll never really ever know
how beautiful you are.
When the moon is on the rise
I'll try to make my songbird fly.
I wonder if he ever will,
and if he really did, how far.
Go on with your song, bird.
You can't go wrong, bird.
You will go on and on, bird,
like you did before.
Though your wings are broken,
the sky is so wide open.
And the wind is waiting for you
like an open door.
Though you go so far away,
your voice will still be heard so well.
You'll never really ever know
how beautiful you are.
When the moon is on the rise
I'll try to make my songbird fly.
I wonder if he ever will,
and if he really did, how far.
Go on with your song, bird.
You can't go wrong, bird.
You will go on and on, bird,
through the open door.
Go on with your song, bird.
You can't go wrong, my bird.
You will go on and on, bird,
like you did before.
Like you did before...
User 100115
Banned
Hey, welcome to the thread.
I am really sorry for your situation
Feel free to vent in here anytime. It helps, even if only a little, to get it out there.There is really no way you can see a professional? It seems like that is the best way to help in your situation. My advice would be to attempt to get into a position where you are able to start dealing with a professional. Do you take any meds?
Hey, welcome to the thread.
I am really sorry for your situation
There is really no way you can see a professional? It seems like that is the best way to help in your situation. My advice would be to attempt to get into a position where you are able to start dealing with a professional. Do you take any meds?
There is no way at this point, I moved to Canada, I'm not a citizen yet, not allowed to work and can't afford it. I used to be on meds, but havent used any in the last 4 years or something. Mostly cause I was able to function okay without them. I would go back on meds, but i would need a new diagnosis done, which at this point in time is not something I can get done easily.
Darkmakaimura
Can You Imagine What SureAI Is Going To Do With Garfield?
Valerian Root is a major bust. I bought a bottle and I've taken around 500 - 1000mg with no effect. Doesn't help my anxiety. Doesn't help me sleep.
Haven't posted here in awhile as I just returned from a week+ long Fringe marathon but now that I finished Season 4 and can't watch Season 5, it's back to the forums. Heh.
Haven't posted here in awhile as I just returned from a week+ long Fringe marathon but now that I finished Season 4 and can't watch Season 5, it's back to the forums. Heh.
Collete
Member
Yeah Valerian is a bust, I tried it myself did nothing for me either...
User 100115
Banned
How long until you are a citizen?
At this rate, that'll still be a while away.. At the least maybe 18 months. Still got some paperwork to do, which i do not feel like doing at all right now. I should've done it all way earlier.
User 100115
Banned
Well, that would be my advice then, to focus on that and getting it through as quickly as possible so that you can get the help you need.
I'm around half way through season 4 now. I might resort to other streaming means when I'm done, have really enjoyed it for the most part. The episode from my avatar was one of the highlights of season 3, such a fun episode.
User 100115
Banned
Happy Birthday Wilson as well, I hope you have a decent if not good day!
Saying I'm going to die soon, Bagels? Don't make me molest you.
Is that a threat...or a promise?
(and how did you take "you're going to die" from what I said?!!? I was just saying you're an awesome guy. Another year with WilsonGT is definitely something to celebrate!)
User 100115
Banned
Sorry going to whine a bit.
I got all excited because I just found out I won some more vidding awards (thank you to those that voted, btw, I won two and was runner up in another)
So I excitedly go to tell that one person I tend to bitch about, and was shut down because he was too busy playing video games.
And now I am not even happy anymore.
Edit: I know it's not really an accomplishment. I know it's kinda silly and the 'awards' don't really mean anything. But it's something that I do, and enjoy, and sometimes it's nice to pretend something I did matters.
I got all excited because I just found out I won some more vidding awards (thank you to those that voted, btw, I won two and was runner up in another)
So I excitedly go to tell that one person I tend to bitch about, and was shut down because he was too busy playing video games.
And now I am not even happy anymore.
Edit: I know it's not really an accomplishment. I know it's kinda silly and the 'awards' don't really mean anything. But it's something that I do, and enjoy, and sometimes it's nice to pretend something I did matters.
I learnt a lot about psychological triggers from reading after visiting the psychologist. I didn't think I had a lot of weapons to fight with but I found out reading was one them. There are things that can trigger bad thoughts and it's not always easy to keep away from them when it's family and friends involved. What I didn't really realise is there are triggers for happy thoughts as well. A little trick I learned to deal with anxiety was to touch my thumb and forefinger together whenever I felt in a good mood about something that had happened. So eventually I found that touching my thumb and finger together could channel those feelings again(if I let it) and relax me.
I asked myself this.
Sometimes the way I'm feeling is responsible for the thoughts running through my head. Is it also possible that sometimes the thoughts running through my head are responsible for the way I'm feeling? Can I help change the way I feel by thinking differently? I found I could.
I asked myself this.
Sometimes the way I'm feeling is responsible for the thoughts running through my head. Is it also possible that sometimes the thoughts running through my head are responsible for the way I'm feeling? Can I help change the way I feel by thinking differently? I found I could.
I was tipsy when I read it! Sorry.
And it's a promise. ;3
Thank you everyone for the birthday wishes! It wasn't as horrible as I expected it to be!
Where can I vote for and view your videos? I don't think it's silly at all. A lot of times these "little" things can bring us joy. Whenever I read a really good comic or watch a good show or something like that; I have the biggest, stupidest grin on my face. I just want to explode with excitement and run around telling everyone, "Hey, you have to see this!" A small thing in the grand scheme but for a brief moment I am content.
If others shut you down, fuck em. Be happy for yourself. Easier said than done. I know.
Congrats on winning those vidding awards. I bet your videos are awesome.
Prax
Member
OKAY~~ BACK TO KIND OF REPLYING~! xD
Also, don't feel it's too silly to just jot down a list in case you forget something! I know that I usually gloss over some kind of important detail whenever I used to go in, and then I'd be reminded in my rambling but never knew where else to segway into it.
I think if the therapist is good and open, they will accept looking over your list of "things I should probably discuss but I don't know and I can't choose please someone help me" and narrow down things or even see an overall pattern in it.
Hope you did manage to go and not hide away forever! I know that's my usual response when it comes to "obligatory social interaction" .. but some things just need to be done! If only to say you did it! (And then you can reward yourself after lol). It gets easier to do once you get some momentum going. Good luck!
Even for people who haven't befriended you yet or don't know you, I think when people see that others can pull out of their depths somehow, it gives them hope that the same can happen for them. Or even if they are being dragged down by the belief that the same can't happen to them, they can at least experience it vicariously in a way.
You stay as well as possible too~! And take lots of pictures!
So have a happy time. Or at least an okay time. And be extra kind and patient with yourself.
And treat yourself to something good that you denied yourself for "reasons" (like you just felt like you didn't deserve it) -- like a cupcake or a chocolate bar or a new SD card or watching a movie you were interested in or buying new boxers or relaxing in the tub. Here's your excuse to treat yourself so do it!
I hope you enjoy!
Keep your daughter's happiness in mind and try to grow the feeling that your happiness and health will also make your daughter happy. You are family and you want good things for each other.
I think that everyone is scared they can't overcome what they're facing, like this may be the time it finally "gets" them, but it's good to remind yourself that even if you were to fall and collapse and you don't think you can get up anymore, others are there to help you and pick you up if you let them. You don't have to do it all by yourself. So even though you say there is no one to help you, please keep in mind you have your daughter who probably in her sweet heart wants you to get all the help you can, and if that means you need to call for help form a stranger on the other end of the phone, then do it. You know you would want to do the same for her.
If you're too frazzled to even deal with contacting people right now, just try to keep yourself relaxed and focus on something simple. Maybe plan a meal for the next day, or start preparing to make the meal (cutting up veggies, looking up the recipe, etc). Focus on small goals you can make for the next day and do it with your daughter in mind if it helps you find the strength to pull it off. She'll be eating with you tomorrow, playing with you tomorrow, learning from you tomorrow. Everything! You have a lot still to offer in your life and things to do.
I hope you do get in touch with a professional again. Good luck, Mark! You have been doing well to have gotten through everyone else so far, so keep it up.
And since you are in Canada, just like.. bombard newcomer services and ask for help everywhere. Hopefully it all works out and you can hang in there!
I love inspirational song lyrics. Keep posting them.
Then go back to doing something enjoyable or calming to bring your emotional state back down.
You can do this. Bide your time and make plans and take steps to eventually leave the town and live for yourself. Of course there will be hitches in the plan, as that's life, but you will survive through all of it somehow. Just keep trying to find ways to improve and work toward it and things will work out one way or another.
I hope this lasts for a good while and you found a lot of tools and coping strategies to beat it back down if it ever decides to rear its foolishness again.
I think with time and practice, the anxiety will also lessen and become more and more manageable.
You thinking of doing anything to celebrate? lol I;d probably just go wander into a mall and find something to buy or at least browse at the fancy shops.
Whether it's really "important" or not, if it makes you happy, it makes you happy! At least it's important to you, and it's important enough to the community you're part of for there to even be an award! Plus it most likely won for making other people happy and appreciative of the craftsmanship. Bringing beauty or enjoyment or entertainment to the world matters. We pay "professional" entertainers exorbitant amounts for it and you're being cool enough to do it for free, so there. lol
You can bring it up and brag during dinner or something. Slip it in everywhere lol "Oh, by the way, this dinner was made by the same hands that made some award-winning vids this week, you know *winkity wink*". You can be smug about it and also make it a joke for him to feel not so threatened by your obvious awesomeness.
AND ALSO...
BACK FROM POPULAR DEMAND--plus I like drawing poorly and documenting the struggles that are my life:
This is my real life ok.
Every day is full of anguish and dilemmas.
OK, I lied. All of this stuff didn't happen in a day. It happened in the same week.
I forgot ONE thing though. When I'm messy and reaching for the paper towel roll, I often yank too hard and the whole roll comes out of the holder and undoes itself on the floor. This kind of happens multiple times a week. XD
And my laptop is pretty crappy for the price I paid for it but I like using it when I don't feel like getting anything done despite its original purpose being for school work. XD Anyone who is Canadian will probably understand the MDG reference because seriously.. I did buy an MDG laptop. lol
The lesson is.. even if life sometimes sucks.. a little or a lot.. try to enjoy it anyway. Even it it means laughing at yourself sometimes.
I think you gave good advice and have thought it through well for yourself too.This is something I've been thinking of recently too. I go through similar worries of not knowing exactly what I should and shouldn't bring up to my therapist each week. I find myself asking whether I should talk to him about each individual anxiety I've felt during the course of the week, or whether I should approach my fears as a more generalised concept. I think I usually see myself going over each anxiety, since the CBT I'm going seems to rely on individual experiences and how the pattern of thinking can be altered.
So if I could say anything to you, it would be that bringing up what is most relevant to you, be that an anxiety or what you're calling interpersonal stuff, in that moment is going to help you the most in the short-term, while remembering that your goal is ultimately to be able to readily deal with anxiety when it hits, or better yet, not experience so much anxiety in the first place. In an ideal world we'd find a balance of what to talk about with therapists but, you only have a limited time with them and sometimes it's hard to find the exact thoughts you want them to understand and help you with.
I have my own therapist appointment today, but I also have a lot of other things I'm dealing with today. I really, really, don't want to go. I said this last time and I went, but I dunno about today. Kind of wishing I could just hide away in a shell.
Also, don't feel it's too silly to just jot down a list in case you forget something! I know that I usually gloss over some kind of important detail whenever I used to go in, and then I'd be reminded in my rambling but never knew where else to segway into it.
I think if the therapist is good and open, they will accept looking over your list of "things I should probably discuss but I don't know and I can't choose please someone help me" and narrow down things or even see an overall pattern in it.
Hope you did manage to go and not hide away forever! I know that's my usual response when it comes to "obligatory social interaction" .. but some things just need to be done! If only to say you did it! (And then you can reward yourself after lol). It gets easier to do once you get some momentum going. Good luck!
You don't have to feel obligated, but it's so great that you think of us even in your tough times~~! <3I need to go sappy-bagels again and just say how great it feels to have so much support from all of you guys! I really really want to be strong and healthy in part so I can do more for this community. Making you guys laugh or smile always makes me smile. Being able to listen and offer any help I can is super important to me, but moreover, I want my good moods to be infectious. When my wife is down, I'll do anything I can to get a laugh out of her. I love that in the thread or in chat, where someone is feeling down, and we can get them laughing. Not that we need to avoid dealing with real problems and being serious, but I know there are many of us (myself included) who love knowing that we can pop into chat and see friendly faces who we know will have us laughing right away. I've relied on that through many tough days.
It's an amazing thing to be told that hearing I feel good makes other people feel good! I feel the same way about you guys. It really makes me think about the friendships I have in here and how very much they mean to me, and how connected we have become.
I'm excited to be on vacation and unplugged from the net for the next two weeks, but I'll definitely miss the community and fret a bit that people are getting help. I KNOW all the people who will keep things moving along, but it's still personal to me.
I have about 10 letters to write during my vacation, to people all over the world, which is very exciting for me! I freaking LOVE writing letters, and I'm happy that people trust me not to use their addresses to murder them, or show up to sleep on their couch with my cats or whatever (maybe both!). Just one more note to drop me a PM with an address if you want a handwritten bagel-gram, written while I drink a cold ice tea and watch the tide come in the bay in Maine. Send me a question to ponder for you, or just leave it to me to write you something from my bagely heart.
I'm gonna miss your beautiful faces!
One more time, for those who missed it:
Even for people who haven't befriended you yet or don't know you, I think when people see that others can pull out of their depths somehow, it gives them hope that the same can happen for them. Or even if they are being dragged down by the belief that the same can't happen to them, they can at least experience it vicariously in a way.
You stay as well as possible too~! And take lots of pictures!
It's just another day! You survived another year.
So have a happy time. Or at least an okay time. And be extra kind and patient with yourself.
And treat yourself to something good that you denied yourself for "reasons" (like you just felt like you didn't deserve it) -- like a cupcake or a chocolate bar or a new SD card or watching a movie you were interested in or buying new boxers or relaxing in the tub. Here's your excuse to treat yourself so do it!
I hope you enjoy!
It's good that you can dismiss the suicidal thoughts and you know you have priorities. Good job on that. Those suicidal thoughts are just thoughts. Focus on what you can do to make yourself more comfortable, healthy, and happy right now. If it means going through 1000 lolcat pics, then do it!
Keep your daughter's happiness in mind and try to grow the feeling that your happiness and health will also make your daughter happy. You are family and you want good things for each other.
I think that everyone is scared they can't overcome what they're facing, like this may be the time it finally "gets" them, but it's good to remind yourself that even if you were to fall and collapse and you don't think you can get up anymore, others are there to help you and pick you up if you let them. You don't have to do it all by yourself. So even though you say there is no one to help you, please keep in mind you have your daughter who probably in her sweet heart wants you to get all the help you can, and if that means you need to call for help form a stranger on the other end of the phone, then do it. You know you would want to do the same for her.
If you're too frazzled to even deal with contacting people right now, just try to keep yourself relaxed and focus on something simple. Maybe plan a meal for the next day, or start preparing to make the meal (cutting up veggies, looking up the recipe, etc). Focus on small goals you can make for the next day and do it with your daughter in mind if it helps you find the strength to pull it off. She'll be eating with you tomorrow, playing with you tomorrow, learning from you tomorrow. Everything! You have a lot still to offer in your life and things to do.
I hope you do get in touch with a professional again. Good luck, Mark! You have been doing well to have gotten through everyone else so far, so keep it up.
And since you are in Canada, just like.. bombard newcomer services and ask for help everywhere. Hopefully it all works out and you can hang in there!
Cute soooongggg~~~
I love inspirational song lyrics. Keep posting them.
Try to stay calm through it. Parents can be tough and draining, but try to keep whatever his words were on him and his emotional state, not into yourself as some truth. Like.. even if he was directly criticizing you and wants you to feel bad in some kind of tough love thing, tell yourself that you don't have to deal with that on top of the problems you already have. It's enough. You are at your cutoff point and whatever his concerns are can queue itself for whenever you are more ready to deal with it.
Then go back to doing something enjoyable or calming to bring your emotional state back down.
You can do this. Bide your time and make plans and take steps to eventually leave the town and live for yourself. Of course there will be hitches in the plan, as that's life, but you will survive through all of it somehow. Just keep trying to find ways to improve and work toward it and things will work out one way or another.
Ah, congrats! Getting discharged is like graduating!
I hope this lasts for a good while and you found a lot of tools and coping strategies to beat it back down if it ever decides to rear its foolishness again.
I think with time and practice, the anxiety will also lessen and become more and more manageable.
You thinking of doing anything to celebrate? lol I;d probably just go wander into a mall and find something to buy or at least browse at the fancy shops.
CONGRATS ON THE WIN~~!!
Whether it's really "important" or not, if it makes you happy, it makes you happy! At least it's important to you, and it's important enough to the community you're part of for there to even be an award! Plus it most likely won for making other people happy and appreciative of the craftsmanship. Bringing beauty or enjoyment or entertainment to the world matters. We pay "professional" entertainers exorbitant amounts for it and you're being cool enough to do it for free, so there. lol
You can bring it up and brag during dinner or something. Slip it in everywhere lol "Oh, by the way, this dinner was made by the same hands that made some award-winning vids this week, you know *winkity wink*". You can be smug about it and also make it a joke for him to feel not so threatened by your obvious awesomeness.
AND ALSO...
BACK FROM POPULAR DEMAND--plus I like drawing poorly and documenting the struggles that are my life:
This is my real life ok.
Every day is full of anguish and dilemmas.
OK, I lied. All of this stuff didn't happen in a day. It happened in the same week.
I forgot ONE thing though. When I'm messy and reaching for the paper towel roll, I often yank too hard and the whole roll comes out of the holder and undoes itself on the floor. This kind of happens multiple times a week. XD
And my laptop is pretty crappy for the price I paid for it but I like using it when I don't feel like getting anything done despite its original purpose being for school work. XD Anyone who is Canadian will probably understand the MDG reference because seriously.. I did buy an MDG laptop. lol
The lesson is.. even if life sometimes sucks.. a little or a lot.. try to enjoy it anyway. Even it it means laughing at yourself sometimes.
Prax
Member
Good good.. priorities! Everything in moderation.
How did it go with your professor? Hopefully they were understanding and are trying to help you make this work for the both of you.
I've fucked up. So hard these last two nights. I wish I could erase the events from memory, they're killing me now. And anxiety is murdering me. And I'm pretty sure acid from throwing up so much has fucked up my throat; it burns and it's all sore and feels like something is clogging it.
I don't feel like I'm going to be okay. I feel trapped and exhausted. I just want to die.
I don't feel like I'm going to be okay. I feel trapped and exhausted. I just want to die.
Prax
Member
Go through the motions of living (taking care of yourself, doing work, etc) and little by little find things to enjoy along the way. You can do this.
It must be awful to feel like there's nothing ahead or you're getting nothing done, but you are and there are lots of things for you that you just can't see or feel yet. So keep trying and also take it easy on yourself. There's a rhythm to this that you're probably still trying to get used to.
What did you do that was so bad?
Not end-of-the-world-got-someone-mortally-wounded-on-purpose bad right? You're probably a million miles away from that at least, so take some time to ground yourself and make note of the things around you (e.g. "I am sitting on a chair, I have my hands in front of me on my keyboard, the door to my room is slightly open, the temperature in the room is fine"). It's a kind of tedium to bore your mind to stop it from racing. And make yourself comfortable to calm your emotions down.
Get a drink of water.. probably lots of water.. and maybe some tums to calm your acidity down. Take deep breaths and tense up your whole body and then just let it all relax and go limp. If you're tired, rest. You can figure things out when you're feeling more rested.
Vigilant Walrus
Member
Have any of you NOT seen Adventure Time?
You need to watch that. It has a spirit and honesty to it that almost puts things in perspective. It's easy to dismiss a silly cartoon as nothing that can solve any problems, but I was watching it yesterday again, and I just noticed how incredible profound and real that show is. It's so childish yet deals with all these issues.
The creator himself also seems like a person who could be a gaffer. A strange sensitive being who is quirky, has weird interests and seems warm; http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h-Lc18r4xKI
I don't know the validation for suggesting something so surreal to cheer you up, but my gosh(and I use this phrase with all the power in my very limited vocabulary) is this uplifting. It has episodes with depression, wishing for bad stuff to never be there, what-if-things-had-been-different, multi verse, drugs as problem solving and so on. It's really cleaver and cute. My highest recommendation to this!
You need to watch that. It has a spirit and honesty to it that almost puts things in perspective. It's easy to dismiss a silly cartoon as nothing that can solve any problems, but I was watching it yesterday again, and I just noticed how incredible profound and real that show is. It's so childish yet deals with all these issues.
The creator himself also seems like a person who could be a gaffer. A strange sensitive being who is quirky, has weird interests and seems warm; http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h-Lc18r4xKI
I don't know the validation for suggesting something so surreal to cheer you up, but my gosh(and I use this phrase with all the power in my very limited vocabulary) is this uplifting. It has episodes with depression, wishing for bad stuff to never be there, what-if-things-had-been-different, multi verse, drugs as problem solving and so on. It's really cleaver and cute. My highest recommendation to this!
ClassyPenguin
Banned
Led screen broke on my laptop. It's probably going to be a while to scrounge up $50 bucks for it. I really hate being broke and unemployed.
I tried typing a post from my phone but it's fucking impossible to quote and stuff on the mobile version. Half of what I wanted to say was lost so here's the shorter version.
Happy birthday wilsongt!
Congratulations Fiction! I know of a photoshopped version of myself that's very happy to be around such greatness.
Nice to see more Platyprax!
Have a great time Bagels, you know I'm expecting a novel!
I'm away for the weekend, trying to do something different to get my thoughts on other things. Of course it's not working. Being back here just shows me how out of sync I am with everything and everyone. It beats being home alone I guess.
Happy birthday wilsongt!
Congratulations Fiction! I know of a photoshopped version of myself that's very happy to be around such greatness.
Nice to see more Platyprax!
Have a great time Bagels, you know I'm expecting a novel!
I'm away for the weekend, trying to do something different to get my thoughts on other things. Of course it's not working. Being back here just shows me how out of sync I am with everything and everyone. It beats being home alone I guess.
Watched very little of it, and didn't like it at all. Which is strange, since I though I would love the video game-like setting and that kind of stuff. Maybe it was because I wasn't in a good mood when I watched those episodes, I don't know.
Do you think I should give it another chance?
BigEvilTurtle
Banned
Hi all!
It's been nearly two months now since I'd admitted myself. I've been on Wellbutrin and some anti-anxiety (which I only take when I feel anxious). I got banned for like a month from GAF but I thought I'd come here my first day back to let everyone know how I've progressed.
My medication has, from what I can tell, been working tremendously. I'm now capable of socializing like I used to when I was a kid. I go out daily and hang out with friends and I now have a decent job I see myself holding for quite a while. I worked things out with, what was previously, my ex-girlfriend; we're doing so much better than we ever have before.
My life has changed drastically and I'm so much happier. It took a lot for me to put myself in the hospital; it's all a trial and it's not easy at all. I feel I got lucky, though. My medication and my counseling has helped so much. I wish everyone here luck. Thanks, everyone, for all your help! I'd also like to specifically thank Oomi and dani_dc for being incredibly helpful and supportive during my darkest period. You're all wonderful.
It's been nearly two months now since I'd admitted myself. I've been on Wellbutrin and some anti-anxiety (which I only take when I feel anxious). I got banned for like a month from GAF but I thought I'd come here my first day back to let everyone know how I've progressed.
My medication has, from what I can tell, been working tremendously. I'm now capable of socializing like I used to when I was a kid. I go out daily and hang out with friends and I now have a decent job I see myself holding for quite a while. I worked things out with, what was previously, my ex-girlfriend; we're doing so much better than we ever have before.
My life has changed drastically and I'm so much happier. It took a lot for me to put myself in the hospital; it's all a trial and it's not easy at all. I feel I got lucky, though. My medication and my counseling has helped so much. I wish everyone here luck. Thanks, everyone, for all your help! I'd also like to specifically thank Oomi and dani_dc for being incredibly helpful and supportive during my darkest period. You're all wonderful.
Lionheart1827
Member
Great post. I dont know your story, but I'm glad youre doing better!
Collete
Member
Hey guys!
Before Bagels left, he asked me to start another "X week" activity for everyone. (Much like photo week)
I know me and Prax do art work occasionally but what about the rest of you guys?
I know not everyone is the greatest artist in the world here (especially me) but one thing I learned about being hospitalized, is that the act of drawing art can be very therapeutic and can help draw your attention to something else. The act of even creating something.
But what I'm asking you guys to do is draw a piece based on this theme:
Light
This will be Mental Health GAF's Art Week!
The drawing could be on any medium, PC, paper, canvas etc. It doesn't matter! Just draw! It doesn't have to be a good drawing mind you. You can get away with doing even abstract art like I do!
You don't have to be a good artist to participate!
Once done, just slap it on this thread!
Just a tip though, you can get away with taking a picture of your drawing and uploading the image instead of scanning the drawing, if you don't have access to a scanner.
Some painting programs that are free:
Paint.net
GIMP
Paint Tool SAI
Special thanks for Mikedip for helping me brainstorm this idea together!
Before Bagels left, he asked me to start another "X week" activity for everyone. (Much like photo week)
I know me and Prax do art work occasionally but what about the rest of you guys?
I know not everyone is the greatest artist in the world here (especially me) but one thing I learned about being hospitalized, is that the act of drawing art can be very therapeutic and can help draw your attention to something else. The act of even creating something.
(Supposedly we had an art therapist in the hospital...Didn't know that existed!)
Light
This will be Mental Health GAF's Art Week!
The drawing could be on any medium, PC, paper, canvas etc. It doesn't matter! Just draw! It doesn't have to be a good drawing mind you. You can get away with doing even abstract art like I do!
You don't have to be a good artist to participate!
Once done, just slap it on this thread!
Just a tip though, you can get away with taking a picture of your drawing and uploading the image instead of scanning the drawing, if you don't have access to a scanner.
Some painting programs that are free:
Paint.net
GIMP
Paint Tool SAI
Special thanks for Mikedip for helping me brainstorm this idea together!
I'm trying to participate but I feel like shit and I suck at things so here. I call it It's All Fucking Muddled
I feel like shit I think I'm hypomanic again because I missed a couple medicine doses and now I'm afraid and worried about the inevitable switch back to my ridiculously deadpan no-interest-in-anything crippling fucking depression. It's coming and I know it and it will last longer and longer than the hypomania ever will because the prescription got refilled and now the medicine that controls my mania only will go back to taking effect but ta-da nothing for the depression. The fuck am I to do? I have so many fucking anxieties, concerns, worries about how I'm gonna get by in life I often wonder what in the fuck the point of living it is and then add to it the fact that I will feel like an emotional zombie and an uninspired-to-do-anything zombie then what in the fuck is the point in being alive.
I feel like shit I think I'm hypomanic again because I missed a couple medicine doses and now I'm afraid and worried about the inevitable switch back to my ridiculously deadpan no-interest-in-anything crippling fucking depression. It's coming and I know it and it will last longer and longer than the hypomania ever will because the prescription got refilled and now the medicine that controls my mania only will go back to taking effect but ta-da nothing for the depression. The fuck am I to do? I have so many fucking anxieties, concerns, worries about how I'm gonna get by in life I often wonder what in the fuck the point of living it is and then add to it the fact that I will feel like an emotional zombie and an uninspired-to-do-anything zombie then what in the fuck is the point in being alive.
eddfromtheriver
Banned
That's a complicated theme right there... will try!
Collete
Member
I like it, I feel you can draw a sun way better than me, haha.
Well you can also think of things that relate to the theme, such as happiness, joy, hope, flowers, people, heck, the sun, etc. I think the point of putting that theme is to think of something uplifting and drawing based on that. If that makes any sense.
I'm glad you'll try!
I'm glad things worked out well for you, I'm always a text away if you need me.
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