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OMG I'm in a BAR where I'll be socializing with PEOPLE. Anxiety through the roof!
OMG I'm in a BAR where I'll be socializing with PEOPLE. Anxiety through the roof!
hey guys...cutting back on my effexor (trying to stop all together). I started at 150mg cut to 75mg for a week or two, and now I am doing 37.5/day.
I am getting really dizzy, feeling tired, apathetic and bored. Is this normal? How long until it completely leaves system, no more medication related side effects?
Confidence is really simple actually. If you feel confident, then you're confident.
For my age and height, I guess not much. I'm 18 and around 5'10 and weight about 110-115lbs (it fluctuates and never goes over).
The above post and this one absolutely screams "depression!" Your family is concerned about how little you eat, and rightfully so, even if the way they phrase the message is not to your liking. You are at a very unhealthy and practically sickly weight. Your body is reflecting how well you eat and your mind will also follow. Clearly you know something is wrong, because you are on this forum.I'm so fucking stupid. So stupid. I won't amount to anything. I know I won't. Wish I wasn't born.
I am also a broken record and I'm sure you guys are tired of me.
Confidence is really simple actually. If you feel confident, then you're confident.
Actually, heidern is close to the mark. My social worker explained it pretty well to me yesterday. He said sometimes you have to fake it. And by faking it, you find it changes your feelings within. Basically, instead of projecting how you feel on the inside, you do the inverse. So, instead of acting mopey and depressed, because you are mopey and depressed, you act happy and confident and you find yourself after a time feeling happy and confident.
No one said getting help and getting treated is going to be easy. And smoking weed is a poor decision all the way around. One, it solves nothing. Two, it endangers yourself. Three, it puts your daughter at risk.I wanna go back to smoking weed.
Its hard to try and find the right perscription cocktail to make me feel good about waking up in the morning, when I know that there's a bag of weed out there that can make me feel normal again. Even though it's self medication, it makes me feel a helluva lot better than this wellbutrin and prozac does.
Plus I dont have the money or time off from work to go see a bunch of different therapists and doctors visits.
Its easier just to roll a joint a couple times a day.
You know weed is not the answer, so why consider it?
Good post bagels. I just think that the doctor-patient relationship should be a dialouge. Every person is different and I think they have the capacity to know their body
Children of alcoholics develop all sorts of relationship and mental troubles. Sounds like this is a big point of contention and might be worth pursuing with a counselor.It doesn't help that society is becoming more lax on weed, and people like snoop dogg and chief keef teach the kids that smoking weed is OK. They have even legalized it in some places for medical use, which makes me think that I need to travel to those places in order to be happy and fulfilled again.
But the flipside is that my fiance realized that when I quit she could actually use it against me. She said If I go back to pot she will leave me. She also says that if I keep moping around the house and acting restless she will eventually leave me.
I don't understand that part. Is that about the marijuana talk?
No, just about my philosophy of medicine in general. I think "shut up and take this" isn't the best way to go about things.
Not that I'm accusing you or anything. Probably needed a paragraph break haha.
Children of alcoholics develop all sorts of relationship and mental troubles. Sounds like this is a big point of contention and might be worth pursuing with a counselor.
Here is what I see: you use weed as a crutch.
You are not happy as a person. And we all know weed makes you happy. But it is not a solution. It is a bandaid. You have to get to the root of what is making you unhappy. And yes, if possible, take antidepressants. Finding the right combination takes time and it is easy to give up. I know I've done it before.
Your wife will leave you if you smoke pot. Isn't that reason enough to not even consider it? You stand to jeapordize your child's well being in the process, too.
As for moping, well, you're depressed. Talk to her about it and work together to get the help you require. You need professional help, not the help of a dealer.
I applaud you for recognizing you need help, but pot is very clearly not the answer.
I have the same issues with regularly being underweight and just not liking to eat a lot. Things that have helped:For my age and height, I guess not much. I'm 18 and around 5'10 and weight about 110-115lbs (it fluctuates and never goes over). :/
The above post and this one absolutely screams "depression!" Your family is concerned about how little you eat, and rightfully so, even if the way they phrase the message is not to your liking. You are at a very unhealthy and practically sickly weight. Your body is reflecting how well you eat and your mind will also follow. Clearly you know something is wrong, because you are on this forum.
My best advice is to sit down and talk to your family about your depression. You're pretty lucky to have family that cares about you enough to discuss your eating habits. Some people don't have that (eg me). I feel confident saying they will be receptive to you wanting to be open and honest about what is bothering you.
Remember, admittance is the first step to recovery.
And if your parents aren't receptive, try using this website as a starting point. http://www.dbsalliance.org/site/PageServer?pagename=home
It's not weak to get help. And don't make my mistake and ignore these symptoms or turn to unhealthy practices to try and self-medicate (drugs, over/under-eating, wreckless behavior). I am nearly 32 now and should have been treating my major depression disorder at your age or earlier and have suffered the cost of many relationships, my education, and careers along the way.
Take it from someone who has made the mistakes before and am trying to keep you from doing the same. It sounds cliche, but it is so true: you are young and you have so much ahead of you that you shouldnt let depression get the upper-hand.
I truly hope you make the first step towards getting help. Us Gaffers can only do so much to help. The rest lies with you.
I know the family thing can make it so much worse. I'm lucky that I had a professional yell at my mother about how she was exasperating the problem, not helping. Would it be possible to meet with a nutritionist?
Dietitian not nutritionist. Anyone can call themselves a nutritionist, a dietitian has to be certified.
Yeah, I was recommended the same thing. I used to take it late at night because otherwise I would get really sick. Maybe taking it so separated from other meals would be better? Anyways, I was hoping the dietitian would be willing to yell at your parents. :CWhen I was in a psych ward for a few days, I had a dietitian visit me. All they did was recommend I drink Ensure after they did blood tests (thyroid and everything came up clear). Been doing that, but it doesn't exactly play nice with my digestive system. :/
Oh, I didn't know there was a difference in English. I saw the person in Colombia and they were part of the hospital staff and had certification.Dietitian not nutritionist. Anyone can call themselves a nutritionist, a dietitian has to be certified kinda like a pharmacist. So they have to have specific schooling and degrees.
I didn't drink because I can't due to the anti-depressants I take. Well, I am capable of drinking a little, but my family has a history of alcoholism. I did have a good time; the people there were friendly and had similar interests. I mostly just asked them questions since people love talking about themselves. Not sure I'll go again as it's the only place my friend really hangs outside his home.The alcohol will help with socializing. Don't focus on hooking up with people or being the life of the party, just focus on trying to have a good time. Listen to some stories, talk about stuffs, relax. And if you don't have fun it's no big deal, you can't force it. I've been bored at a bar plenty of times. There's always another bar.
About 3 weeks to 1 month for me after I stopped taking it but you seem to be tailing it down really slowly so maybe longer.
Yeah, I was recommended the same thing. I used to take it late at night because otherwise I would get really sick. Maybe taking it so separated from other meals would be better? Anyways, I was hoping the dietitian would be willing to yell at your parents. :C
It still amazes me that you're using my artwork as an avatar. Once again, thanks.
I did this ages ago but didn't post it here....so...:
An excerpt from my soon-to-be best-selling book, How to Maek Fronds and Influrence Purple:
Hi people. I never raped anybody. And I like ketchup on hotdogs.
Nailed it. Do you feel more self esteem-y? There should be kind of a tingling sensation.
You know sometimes I ask myself why I bother posting at all...
Further explanation please.My world would be so much better if I wasn't into guys. I doubt I will survive until the end of the year
Yeah, I recently tried it and it seemed to help a little at first. You already probably know it's just a supplement that's already produced naturally in your brain so I would imagine those of us with severe insomnia, it's just not going to help. I've also tried Valerian Root which also contained small amounts of melatonin. It was a bust.So, I have been taking melatonin for like about a week and a half because it was there. My suspicions of it being useless has been confirmed.
Same here. I've only taken Ambien maybe about four times in my life but it most definitely worked. However, after reading the stories like the "rubhive" and other accounts, I'm a bit scared of it now. I never felt strange on it but it did relax me very similar to the way Xanax does before putting me to sleep.Golly Gee!
So far, the only thing that has worked is ambien, but I need to take it under supervision or it can get dicey.
My world would be so much better if I wasn't into guys. I doubt I will survive until the end of the year
Nailed it. Do you feel more self esteem-y? There should be kind of a tingling sensation.
You know sometimes I ask myself why I bother posting at all...
Because you like the attention? Because you're a glutton for punishment? Because you know many of us will read everything you write with a big grin on our faces? Pick one. Or all.
My world would be so much better if I wasn't into guys. I doubt I will survive until the end of the year
This is really cool, it reminds me of the game Proteus.It still amazes me that you're using my artwork as an avatar. Once again, thanks.
I did this ages ago but didn't post it here....so...:
Eh. Not to get all bitchy, but it's a lot of work to preach to the choir, you know? I was proud of that joke though, CornBurrito, so I'm glad you liked it.
Your world would be so much better if you'd stop being negative all the time. Sexua orientation has nothing to do with it.
Further explanation please.
I feel the same sometimes, Jubei. Men are pigs and jerks a lot.
I haven't smoked a cigarette since Feb 21st.