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[Meowzers]

I may get banned for this, but to me it's the only release I have seeing that it's the only way to stop me killing myself.

FEEL so gullty leaving loved ones behind that slashing myself with a knife/hitting myself with a belt-buckle is the only release I have. I know I need help, and it can't come soon enough.

I want to grow old,but with life as it is, I don't think it will happen.

 

[Vyse1800]

Seriously? You're no good to anyone if you don't take care of number one, i.e. you. Don't throw it away.

 

[J-Roderton]

Wtf. Go talk to a loved one or a close friend.

 

[Lionel Richie]

Been there OP. You'll get no release from self harm, in my case all I ended up with were bloody legs lol. Time WILL heal whatever it is that you're feeling, until then get help and medical treatment. Remember that just as you don't control a headache, you don't control these feelings. The only way out is through treatment, but it DOES absolutely get better and it will give you a perspective in life that few people share.

 

[Tesseract]

what's on your mind?

 

[triplestation]

you got any passions?

 

[TaySan]

Please don't harm yourself. We are here for you.

 

[Happosai]

I was there, too. I didn't think there was a way out. I researched suicide and planned it out in 2015. It took one person who reached out to me (they were completely unaware of my status mentally at that time) and by leaving my own country to see them, I started my life over. By Spring of 2016, I was not the same person. The depression never fully went away but that person that helped me became my wife. I suffered 8-years with manic depression. I'm now 4-years out of that dark place. You'll get out of it but don't isolate yourself from family and friends. If you're living alone...you need to find someone you can trust and stay with them and consider changing your current habits.

Hugs, mate. I reiterate...only call family or friends you can trust. People who don't know you well will take this info the wrong way.

 

[Caffeine]

A lot of people are in this state of life together. It sucks now but it will only get better it really does. I think you should go talk to your close friends and family.

 

[teezzy]

Listen to heavy metal and lift weights.

You're better than that dude.

 

[kingwingin]

I've been there. Would bash my arms with remotes until they were purple.

I still think about killing myself daily.

It won't get better unless you get help. So do that

 

[teezzy]

Meowzers

Please watch this. It's solid inspirational gold.

 

[Meowzers]

Been there OP. You'll get no release from self harm, in my case all I ended up with were bloody legs lol. Time WILL heal whatever it is that you're feeling, until then get help and medical treatment. Remember that just as you don't control a headache, you don't control these feelings. The only way out is through treatment, but it DOES absolutely get better and it will give you a perspective in life that few people share.

I'm taking it out on my legs as it happens. Don't do upper body as people will notice it more. I have an appointment next week with a counsellor so hopefully will get help.

I love everyone on here so want to get help and pass my knowledge onto others. Right now my thighs are burning from slashing myself with a knife, but want to get better. I look forward to a future being better, but viewing the latest Xbox event, it's hard to find any positives lol. Sorry for the morbid humour lol.

 

[Meowzers]

Meowzers

Please watch this. It's solid inspirational gold.

Joe Rogan is my hero. Definitely watching as of now.

 

[teezzy]

Joe Rogan is my hero. Definitely watching as of now.

I'm watching it too dude. You're not alone. I can't tell you how many times I've turned to this video. Helps every time.

 

[Taxexemption]

I don't really get it. I used to have self harm type thoughts, but it wasn't because I left people behind, it's cause I understood that people in my life didn't really care about me. Eventually I decided that my life just sucked and I needed to make changes in order to eventually live the life I want. I'm not judging, but I can't really get what the issue is when you talk about leaving loved ones behind. What does that mean? What did you do or not do and why? It sounds like you made a decision your not happy with but without more details no one can give you advice. My advice is to post more about your problem.

Edit: Also, yeah, I'll say the banal/true/simple thing. Hurting yourself is just going to get you some kind of temporary emotional high, it's not good. What you need is either a realization that your situation is not as bad as you think, or an understanding that it is bad but that through your action you can change it in some way where things will be better.

 

[Lionel Richie]

I'm taking it out on my legs as it happens. Don't do upper body as people will notice it more. I have an appointment next week with a counsellor so hopefully will get help.

I love everyone on here so want to get help and pass my knowledge onto others. Right now my thighs are burning from slashing myself with a knife, but want to get better. I look forward to a future being better, but viewing the latest Xbox event, it's hard to find any positives lol. Sorry for the morbid humour lol.

It gets better man and like I said, once it does you gain some knowledge. Remember like Bloodborne where you gain Insight through witnessing some fucked up shit? Real life kind of works like that, so keep in mind that once you get out of it you'll do so knowing something not a lot of people know. And I promise you it's worth finding out.

 

[Meowzers]

you got any passions?

I love video games and natural bodybuilding, but find it hard to get back into either. My 5yr old nephew has got further than me in the new Streets of Rage. He keeps asking me to play with him to get further and I keep making silly excuses not to.

 

[Meowzers]

It gets better man and like I said, once it does you gain some knowledge. Remember like Bloodborne where you gain Insight through witnessing some fucked up shit? Real life kind of works like that, so keep in mind that once you get out of it you'll do so knowing something not a lot of people know. And I promise you it's worth finding out.

Never really played Bloodborne, but it looks good.

 

[Meowzers]

Listen to heavy metal and lift weights.

You're better than that dude.

I've listened to Pantera and done leg-extensions. It really works, but for life I guess it does not. I really wish to get better.

 

[Tesseract]

'That which does not kill us makes us stronger'

put the knife down and take some deep breaths, relax and reconsider what you are doing

 

[teezzy]

I love video games and natural bodybuilding, but find it hard to get back into either. My 5yr old nephew has got further than me in the new Streets of Rage. He keeps asking me to play with him to get further and I keep making silly excuses not to.

If you take on the world's problems, you're gonna feel all of the world's sadness.

The only thing stopping you is yourself. If you're gonna beat your body up, do it by getting ripped. Not with some lame ass self harm bullshit. You definitely have it in you man. You have all this anger inside you, and you're looking for a way to get it out. So you take it out on yourself. Take it out on yourself by doing some pushups or some shit.

Start pushing yourself. Don't think you can? Prove yourself wrong. You hate that part of your brain that tells you you can't do it, right? Show that side of your brain just how wrong it is. Just to spite yourself. Part of your brain saying you can't do 20 pushups? Go do 30. Quit making excuses and you'll no longer be the guy who makes excuses. Depression is something you can break out of.

Use your self-hatred to benefit yourself. You need to kick your own ass.

 

[Lionel Richie]

Never really played Bloodborne, but it looks good.

Oh it's really good. I still like The Witcher 3 better, but it's incredible we had 2 games that good coming out in the same year. Reminds me of BOTW and Nier Automata also coming out together.

 

[Tesseract]

the abyss will destroy your soul

hold onto anything you can; friends or family, music, games, whatever

'it's easy to find something worth dying for. do you have anything worth living for?'

good luck, m8

 

[Meowzers]

If you take on the world's problems, you're gonna feel all of the world's sadness.

The only thing stopping you is yourself. If you're gonna beat your body up, do it by getting ripped. Not with some lame ass self harm bullshit. You definitely have it in you man. You have all this anger inside you, and you're looking for a way to get it out. So you take it out on yourself. Take it out on yourself by doing some pushups or some shit.

Start pushing yourself. Don't think you can? Prove yourself wrong. You hate that part of your brain that tells you you can't do it, right? Show that side of your brain just how wrong it is. Just to spite yourself. Part of your brain saying you can't do 20 pushups? Go do 30. Quit making excuses and you'll no longer be the guy who makes excuses. Depression is something you can break out of.

Use your self-hatred to benefit yourself. You need to kick your own ass.

I hate how right you are. It really is lame. Self-harm should be done to better oneself. To go beyond limits in a good way.

Being mashed on Southern Comfort I just did 25 pushups. I feel a little sick, but have a little belief in myself.

 

[teezzy]

I hate how right you are. It really is lame. Self-harm should be done to better oneself. To go beyond limits in a good way.

Being mashed on Southern Comfort I just did 25 pushups. I feel a little sick, but have a little belief in myself.

Do 5 more. Imagine that. You're the guy who can do 30 pushups smashed on SoCo.

Wake up tomorrow. Stay sober. Do that twice. Prove to yourself you're not a wuss.

Being coddled gets you nowhere. You're a beast. Act like it. \m/

Much respect, dude. Cheers.

 

[teezzy]

 

[Meowzers]

Do 5 more. Imagine that. You're the guy who can do 30 pushups smashed on SoCo.

Wake up tomorrow. Stay sober. Do that twice. Prove to yourself you're not a wuss.

Being coddled gets you nowhere. You're a beast. Act like it. \m/

Much respect, dude. Cheers.

You're now my new trainer lol.

 

[Meowzers]

Holy crap I love Phil and his Pantera chums. You also have an insane music taste. Been listening to these for years.

 

[teezzy]

Fitness |OT| Pumpin' Iron and Spittin' Blood.

Well, we need a new thread. This is nothing fancy. Where my workout bros at. @Tesseract @DavidGzz @TheExorzist @triplestation @Off Duty Ninja

www.neogaf.com

Join us, friend.

 

[Meowzers]

Fitness |OT| Pumpin' Iron and Spittin' Blood.

Well, we need a new thread. This is nothing fancy. Where my workout bros at. @Tesseract @DavidGzz @TheExorzist @triplestation @Off Duty Ninja

www.neogaf.com

Join us, friend.

Joined. I may have found a new home.

 

[God Enel]

If you take on the world's problems, you're gonna feel all of the world's sadness.

The only thing stopping you is yourself. If you're gonna beat your body up, do it by getting ripped. Not with some lame ass self harm bullshit. You definitely have it in you man. You have all this anger inside you, and you're looking for a way to get it out. So you take it out on yourself. Take it out on yourself by doing some pushups or some shit.

Start pushing yourself. Don't think you can? Prove yourself wrong. You hate that part of your brain that tells you you can't do it, right? Show that side of your brain just how wrong it is. Just to spite yourself. Part of your brain saying you can't do 20 pushups? Go do 30. Quit making excuses and you'll no longer be the guy who makes excuses. Depression is something you can break out of.

Use your self-hatred to benefit yourself. You need to kick your own ass.

not that working out solves all problems. But I kinda agree. And if push ups and normal workouts aren’t helping buy a punching bag (and a pair of gloves) and let your anger take over. Beat the shit out of it and don’t harm yourself.
Back in the days it helped me - though I was never harming myself. Shit clears up your mind and your drowning in sweat. It’s amazing

or reach out for professional help brother

 

[Punished Miku]

I wrote a very long post about death, philosophy, dead animals, and other deep things and decided to just hit delete lol.

Bottom line is you obviously don't want to die. You're hurting bad, and you're lonely and those are seriously hard things to go through. You're not thinking about hurting yourself to die, but as a cry for help. You need to scream and yell at the top of your lungs and let it out, so everyone knows how you're feeling. And then try to socialize, even if it's just on here and telling people what you're going through.

It sounds like you really want to live honestly, and are just needing some back up. Shit's tough right now, so call in some back up from us and don't be afraid to tell us what's on your mind if you need to vent.

 

[Tesseract]

these videos helped me when i was close to death

(posted elsewhere, nothing wrong with repeats here and there)

 

[Falcs]

I love everyone on here so want to get help and pass my knowledge onto others.

Dude. Focus on this.
Get help, get better, know that you WILL find happiness and live to share your story.

You might one day save someone else's life with your story. You never know.

 

[Lionel Richie]

the abyss will destroy your soul

I'm far from an expert in philosophy, but it saddens me that we haven't gotten existential all that much since Nietzsche. I dig Foucault and the whole societal angle, but it's such a waste that we don't have that many deep thinkers going HAM on the silence of god.

 

[Meowzers]

I wrote a very long post about death, philosophy, dead animals, and other deep things and decided to just hit delete lol.

Bottom line is you obviously don't want to die. You're hurting bad, and you're lonely and those are seriously hard things to go through. You're not thinking about hurting yourself to die, but as a cry for help. You need to scream and yell at the top of your lungs and let it out, so everyone knows how you're feeling. And then try to socialize, even if it's just on here and telling people what you're going through.

It sounds like you really want to live honestly, and are just needing some back up. Shit's tough right now, so call in some back up from us and don't be afraid to tell us what's on your mind if you need to vent.

You're right. As of now it's a cry for help. but I nearly died years ago after stabbing myself. Self-harming is a way to express my sadness, but as of now I do believe I can get help. I love this forum so much, it's the only thing that keeps me going at times. Will be speaking to a professional next week.

 

[Meowzers]

I'm far from an expert in philosophy, but it saddens me that we haven't gotten existential all that much since Nietzsche. I dig Foucault and the whole societal angle, but it's such a waste that we don't have that many deep thinkers going HAM on the silence of god.

Silence of the HAM's?

Ha, my crazy humour strikes again lol.

 

[MaestroMike]

Whats bumming you out?

 

[Lionel Richie]

Silence of the HAM's?

Ha, my crazy humour strikes again lol.

Humor is the key to life baby. Like Nietzsche said, "every belief, every considering something-true is necessarily false because there is simply no true world". Just enjoy the randomness

 

[Meowzers]

Humor is the key to life baby. Like Nietzsche said, "every belief, every considering something-true is necessarily false because there is simply no true world". Just enjoy the randomness

Humor is the key to life baby. Like Nietzsche said, "every belief, every considering something-true is necessarily false because there is simply no true world". Just enjoy the randomness

My humour is all i have right now. It really is key. The guy you mention is pretty Niet I guess lol.

 

[Lionel Richie]

My humour is all i have right now. It really is key. The guy you mention is pretty Niet I guess lol.

lol when I said to appreciate the randomness, I meant that today there's so many options in our life. You're talking to a drunken brazilian who's struggling to keep typing up a non native language because right now I could barely speak portuguese anyway. I'm sure that's not how you expected your day to go. For me, that randomness of living in the internet age makes it all feel very adventurous. So humor is not all we've got, we got tomorrow as well. Who knows what kind of weird interaction we'll get into tomorrow

 

[Meowzers]

lol when I said to appreciate the randomness, I meant that today there's so many options in our life. You're talking to a drunken brazilian who's struggling to keep typing up a non native language because right now I could barely speak portuguese anyway. I'm sure that's not how you expected your day to go. For me, that randomness of living in the internet age makes it all feel very adventurous. So humor is not all we've got, we got tomorrow as well. Who knows what kind of weird interaction we'll get into tomorrow

We're both drunk right now and, meh whatever, just talk Portuguese ha, I have Google translate lol. But you're so right though. Your English is fricken amazing. I need to learn Portuguese.

 

[Lionel Richie]

We're both drunk right now and, meh whatever, just talk Portuguese ha, I have Google translate lol. But you're so right though. Your English is fricken amazing. I need to learn Portuguese.

Thank you! It's mostly self taught by replaying Ocarina of Time to oblivion when I was younger lol. Portuguese is a bit tricky because there are some weird sounds in some words for a non native speaker, but the overall picture is easy enough to grasp. It definitely isn't russian or japanese. Now that's some fucked up shit lol.

 

[Stiflers Mom]

Takes so much strength to get out of these shit holes your mind creates in bad times.



But it's good to know there will be good times again.

 

[M1chl]

In a different way I was there too:

PSA: Don't drink alcohol too much. Liver transplant experience. NeoGAF special edition.

Prequel: So.... I've been planning to write this in here for some time, but let's say it's not that easy to talk about that. I've been preparing this in my head, how to write something for this wonderfull community, which imrpoved my mental state a lot. I was abstinent, till my 22 years old. I...

www.neogaf.com

My question is why....pain helps? It never really make any sense to me. Anyway, I don't think that this could be treated with people on forum, aside if you just want to talk with someone. If that helps, we are here for you.

 

[Meowzers]

In a different way I was there too:

PSA: Don't drink alcohol too much. Liver transplant experience. NeoGAF special edition.

Prequel: So.... I've been planning to write this in here for some time, but let's say it's not that easy to talk about that. I've been preparing this in my head, how to write something for this wonderfull community, which imrpoved my mental state a lot. I was abstinent, till my 22 years old. I...

www.neogaf.com

My question is why....pain helps? It never really make any sense to me. Anyway, I don't think that this could be treated with people on forum, aside if you just want to talk with someone. If that helps, we are here for you.

Yea I'm seeing someone next week about it. Just wondered how people feel about it.