NecrosaroIII
Banned
I forgot what it was like to dream. I think at one point, I just didn't want to face the disappointment that comes with failing to live up to your own expectations. I was never exceptional. Most of my K-12 education, I was a mediocre or poor student. My freshman year of high school I only passed one class: PE. It wasn't until I was in 10th grade that I got my shit together and started getting As and Bs, because i started actually doing homework. Somehow I graduated with the rest of my class.
I was the first person in my family to go to college. It took me 7 years to finish, and even then with a shitty ethnic studies degree. I'm not sure what I wanted to do with it. I think I wanted to be a translator, but that fell apart quickly. I was dumb and wasted too much time as a young adult. Never did any internships. Had a shitty dead-end job through college. So after graduation, I didn't have much to market myself with. For about a year and a half, I was unemployed . I then went back to my shitty college job, which I then spent another year.
I decided to go into logistics. Got a job at a freight forwarder. It operates like a call center. Clients and driver call in and I deal with whatever issues they have. I spent 4 years at that company between bouncing between our competitors. I hate my job, but I'm good at it. Eventually, I landed at a start-up. The company itself is cool I guess, but they treat Operations like shit there. Schedules are shifted around monthly. One month you can start at 0300 AM, the next you can start at 10 AM. Different start times every day. Split days off. I can never get into a rhythm. Furthermore, it's super micromanaging and they're obsessed with their fucking metrics in a way I've never seen any logistics obsessed (which is saying something). It's exhausting.
There really isn't any way to make money in this industry, if I'm being honest. Unless you're a supervisor or manager, you're going to be stuck. I make significantly more than my colleagues due to negotiating a high start rate. But it's not a lot. I'm making about $25 / an hour, which is okay but kind of shitty for SoCal (Especially since I live in South Orange County and drive out to Northern San Diego county). I was thinking about moving into Analytics, but even that only makes about 65k a year median.
I'm stuck. I feel fucking trapped in a career I took only to make money, only to realize I'll never do that well. I'm going to live a mediocre life. I'm going to spend my life getting bitched at by supervisors and clients and fucking barely anything to show for it.
It's getting harder to wake up in the morning. I just don't have anything to strive for. I feel so fucking hopeless all the time.
I was the first person in my family to go to college. It took me 7 years to finish, and even then with a shitty ethnic studies degree. I'm not sure what I wanted to do with it. I think I wanted to be a translator, but that fell apart quickly. I was dumb and wasted too much time as a young adult. Never did any internships. Had a shitty dead-end job through college. So after graduation, I didn't have much to market myself with. For about a year and a half, I was unemployed . I then went back to my shitty college job, which I then spent another year.
I decided to go into logistics. Got a job at a freight forwarder. It operates like a call center. Clients and driver call in and I deal with whatever issues they have. I spent 4 years at that company between bouncing between our competitors. I hate my job, but I'm good at it. Eventually, I landed at a start-up. The company itself is cool I guess, but they treat Operations like shit there. Schedules are shifted around monthly. One month you can start at 0300 AM, the next you can start at 10 AM. Different start times every day. Split days off. I can never get into a rhythm. Furthermore, it's super micromanaging and they're obsessed with their fucking metrics in a way I've never seen any logistics obsessed (which is saying something). It's exhausting.
There really isn't any way to make money in this industry, if I'm being honest. Unless you're a supervisor or manager, you're going to be stuck. I make significantly more than my colleagues due to negotiating a high start rate. But it's not a lot. I'm making about $25 / an hour, which is okay but kind of shitty for SoCal (Especially since I live in South Orange County and drive out to Northern San Diego county). I was thinking about moving into Analytics, but even that only makes about 65k a year median.
I'm stuck. I feel fucking trapped in a career I took only to make money, only to realize I'll never do that well. I'm going to live a mediocre life. I'm going to spend my life getting bitched at by supervisors and clients and fucking barely anything to show for it.
It's getting harder to wake up in the morning. I just don't have anything to strive for. I feel so fucking hopeless all the time.
