I still understand neojubei. Probably becuase I'm like that, even when in some ways I don't mind.
I know people say and have good intentions when they do about "loving/accepting yourself", "if you dont think you're ugly, others won't think it"; and stuff like that. But it's sadly not as easy. You better believe that if it was as simple as me tomorrow just waking up and saying "Hey I'm attractive..fuck the world"; I'd do it. But I guess there are other things involved, more than just "accepting ourselves".
I mean, in my case (awesome parents excluded) I grew up getting punched, pushed, insulted through elementary school. Even once kicked in the face and throw a big piece of "something" (rock, cement..like a piece of a wall) to my knee; just because of "lol nerd, GTFO!". Eggs, trash, more rejection on top of the usual insults (frog, pizza-face, abortion). I spent my 5 years in college basically finding alternate routes to avoid big groups in order to arrive on time to classes; since big groups usually meant more insults, more trash, and since I've always liked to "dress well", but according to many my clothes didn't matched with my face/body, so of course I looked ridiculous.
Still, I tried approaching people. I went and talked to people in the computer labs that I saw browsing IGN and Gaming-Age, just so they could ignore me and then point and laugh at me. I tried talking to guys I saw with Game Boy Advances while waiting for the next class not only to be ignored and made fun of, but also made fun of by others when they saw me with a [lol kiddy] GBA (and ironically, they going to talk to other guys with GBA..about how" cool Pokemon was".)
That's excluding how even through my different jobs I was made fun of my face even by customers and other employees. Or in the mall; just waiting in line to buy food. Sadly, it sounds as stuff made out by me or taken from movies; so many just don't believe it or don't care. And since is not as big as using drugs, or getting shot or other "worst things"; is not seen as important and told to just "accept ourselves".
I guess what I'm trying to say is that, well..we some of us do try; and is not as easy as "growing a pair". But sometimes, a simple gesture of someone coming by and saying "Hey, zup"..and start a conversation while it may be normal to most, is just but a mere wish to some like me.
Darn, this ended longer than I anticipated and to drama queen-ish. Sorry.

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