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[demented]

I've been plagued by this for years now, it comes and goes, sometimes it's really bad sometimes I just power through it but lately it has been really annoying me. I'll try to describe it as best as I can because I don't have a clue what it might be.

I get this heavy feeling in my chest like it's crushing me(nothing extreme but I can definitely feel it) and it fucks up my mind, I can relate it to feeling of forgetfulness and when you're trying really hard to remember something you thought of but can't. So I get this feeling and if I try to think about anything else it gets harder to breathe, I can't really do anything, instantly worse mood, just feeling uneasy, don't know what to think, can't do anything because it just stops me.

Like tonight I was sitting with friends out in some bar, all was going well and suddenly BOOM instant down. When this happens all I can do is just wait it out and hope it goes away tomorrow. It's worst when it happens at time I need to study for exams or something like that. Sometimes I can do some stuff to take my mind of it but usually nothing productive or that I like... I just F5 whole day and listen to music, maybe watch some crappy tv show or do some boring shit but nothing I want to or need to.

Anyone got any clue or something similar? I'm not really depressed or bipolar, anxiety maybe but I don't think I have main symptoms.

One more thing that might be related, I sometimes(not too often but not that rare either) forget my train of thoughts, I usually remember quiet fast but when I don't oh boy, I spend hours, days even thinking about it until it finally gets back and I can't let it go, similar to this in a way but for that at least I know what it's about, and it's usually some unimportant bs thought, and if I don't remember it goes away after a while.

 

[ezekielpacman]

Sounds like the fear.

Lack of alcohol in your scenarios make this more difficult to confirm though.

 

[demented]

Doubt it, not getting the emotion and it comes and random times, like tonight it was out of blue in very pleasant time -_-

 

[XenodudeX]

Go to a doctor ffs

 

[marcurius]

Though I'm not a doctor, and don't have any first hand experience, it could perhaps be panic disorder.

Though as above, best to see a doctor.

 

[demented]

Might, first giving the internetz a try.

(Gotta wait, usually in the morning when I have classes, then I know few doctors there are shit etc)

 

[ezekielpacman]

But you still have an unknown quantity lurking in the back of the mind, even if it isn't "did I stick my willy in something I should have".

I get what you seem to be describing, even if it isn't quite so inhibiting. So say if I know the girlfriend's parents are visiting - I'll kinda forget after the initial trauma, but the dread lives on and I can't immediately attribute it to anything.

 

[Chichikov]

Sounds like textbook anxiety/panic attack to me.
Go see a doctor though.

 

[demented]

What I'm gonna do: pay close attention to this and maybe write a log and try to gather as much info here or on internet for this and next week and then go to doctor week after. I'll get the referral for specialist and do it.

 

[Aguirre]

What I'm gonna do: pay close attention to this and maybe write a log and try to gather as much info here or on internet for this and next week and then go to doctor week after. I'll get the referral for specialist and do it.

ok, i would recommend NOT googling symptoms because it is never a good idea. i used to do this with everything and sometimes convinced myself i had a illness which i never actually had. something must be wrong if whatever is happening is happening more frequently. it could be anything! please please go see your doctor. D:

 

[ezekielpacman]

What I'm gonna do: pay close attention to this and maybe write a log and try to gather as much info here or on internet for this and next week and then go to doctor week after. I'll get the referral for specialist and do it.

Good plan, and I don't know where you live but the general apathy of GPs here is so high that unless you go in with a rough idea and sometimes even counter arguments prepared, you stand a worryingly high chance of being dismissed.

 

[demented]

^ happened to my friend, I'm not like that I do go to doctor when I need to, just trying to see if I can find out what it is first.

Trying to not sound like an asshole but last doctor I visited for problem I had(concentration) was really hm unhelpful, didn't feel she was knowledgeable about her stuff.

We'll see, gonna write tonight's episode and see how it goes. While writing this it hit me I'm not feeling it anymore, so maybe doing X action will take my my mind of this and make it go away.
But I'm sure there is something based on how my mind functions and stuff that happens(this, forgetting, concentration etc)

Good plan, and I don't know where you live but the general apathy of GPs here is so high that unless you go in with a rough idea and sometimes even counter arguments prepared, you stand a worryingly high chance of being dismissed.

Doctor's are always annoyed by people that diagnose themselves and try to do their job, which I kinda get but having mostly bad experience with them here they can be annoyed as much as they want, they'll still dismiss you tho...
Not gonna go too personal but due to their retardedness and lack of care there was death case in my family while ago so yeah -_- Different doctors, places, areas blabla whatever still a collective public health sector, meh.

 

[tycoonheart]

Anxiety attack.