Shadowplay1979
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I wanted to be an archeologist for the longest time but that changed to working on art for games ever since opening up the FF3(6) manual and seeing amanos designs in the early 90s. I sucked at it and it never happened because i never battled through my own frustrations in learning and self doubt. I have lived alone since i was 18, fled from the east coast to the west coast and ended up working awful jobs for the next 15 years. I had left high school with very high marks and can remember fighting depression and anger in every job i was in which were all terrible labor, food services or security and feeling trapped just wishing i could go to college or have a regular office job and felt ripped off since when i was a kid i had always had very good grades and never partied or did anything else. All the jobs i was limited to was monkey work.
Long story short after years of depression i just kinda let go and stopped trying at work, i stopped being a good employee, for 9 years working for homeland security i got about 3 hours of sleep a night....i just stopped showing up to work. I got fired and then became homeless for awhile, i spent the next ten years working my ass off teaching myself art in a shitty roach infested house with shit roommates in a tiny room thats literally converted from another rooms closet.
Bit of an oversimplification...but since then i have worked for studios like Naughty Dog and now currently work for ....a very large Japanese rpg making company =x
unfortunately still stuck in this tiny room thanks to Japans shitty "you dont have a college degree..well obviously you are not a worthy human being" visa laws and now Corona crap and have to work from here for now
Long story short after years of depression i just kinda let go and stopped trying at work, i stopped being a good employee, for 9 years working for homeland security i got about 3 hours of sleep a night....i just stopped showing up to work. I got fired and then became homeless for awhile, i spent the next ten years working my ass off teaching myself art in a shitty roach infested house with shit roommates in a tiny room thats literally converted from another rooms closet.
Bit of an oversimplification...but since then i have worked for studios like Naughty Dog and now currently work for ....a very large Japanese rpg making company =x
unfortunately still stuck in this tiny room thanks to Japans shitty "you dont have a college degree..well obviously you are not a worthy human being" visa laws and now Corona crap and have to work from here for now