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[Saiyan-Rox]

This time of year has a real drain on people's well being so I'm just checking in with you all to see if it's as shit as mine.

Misery loves company.

Honestly after the shit year I've had I don't think I'll make it to next Xmas. my diabetic treatment doc is concerned cause I just don't care anymore.

How you all doing? Anything you want to get off your chest ATM? We're all here to listen if you need to vent.

 

[nush]

Not great, not terrible.

Bro don't throw in the towel over diabetes. But if you're going to tap out, run up massive debt and go out with a bang because you won't have to pay it back*.

*Don't actually do this.

 

[Saiyan-Rox]

Not great, not terrible.

Bro don't throw in the towel over diabetes. But if you're going to tap out, run up massive debt and go out with a bang because you won't have to pay it back*.

*Don't actually do this.

Nah it's not over diabetes although it's part of it.

Took my GF of 6 years for granted and she ended it with me this year. Been trying to pick myself up but the guilt over what I did and the fact I never tried to fix it is killing me.

Although doing a scarface and getting some high end escorts sounds like a good way to go out lol

 

[Celcius]

2022 has been a crappy year for me as well and I hope 2023 is much better.
This Christmas is going to be weird for me because one of my family members has covid and we're trying to decide what to do. Sometimes I feel like I'm the only one who cares about the pandemic anymore.
Trying to buy a house during this whole pandemic/hyper-inflation period is really tough as well. I quit looking for the rest of this year and I'll start back in January.

 

[Saiyan-Rox]

2022 has been a crappy year for me as well and I hope 2023 is much better.
This Christmas is going to be weird for me because one of my family members has covid and we're trying to decide what to do. Sometimes I feel like I'm the only one who cares about the pandemic anymore.
Trying to buy a house during this whole pandemic/hyper-inflation period is really tough as well. I quit looking for the rest of this year and I'll start back in January.

If it makes you feel better I got my first mortgage this year too but I had to do this thing called co ownership in order to get it so overall what I owe I'm fucked lol

Also the place I moved into I broke the shower on the first day and the only fix is to get to the pipes in the walls

 

[nush]

Took my GF of 6 years for granted and she ended it with me this year.

We've all been there mate. Best thing I can say is let yourself feel bad about it for a while and then one day decide you're not going to feel bad about it anymore and draw a line under it. Get her off all your socials and don't snoop. Take all the pictures of you together/her off the phone or wherever, put them on a memory stick and throw them in a drawer.

 

[Saiyan-Rox]

We've all been there mate. Best thing I can say is let yourself feel bad about it for a while and then one day decide you're not going to feel bad about it anymore and draw a line under it. Get her off all your socials and don't snoop. Take all the pictures of you together/her off the phone or wherever, put them on a memory stick and throw them in a drawer.

Did all that a while ago bud but I still really miss her and I've not had contact in 6months.

I think the guilt is the worst part cause I had everything I could ever want but fucked it up. She got cancer a few years ago and I got mental blocked and couldn't go and see her every day. She went into remission and I could never remember the dates I just had a block with everything to do with the cancer it was weird and she could never forgive me.

Not that I ever asked for forgiveness and anytime she was mean or in a bad mood I just took it cause I deserved it.

 

[nush]

She got cancer a few years ago and I got mental blocked and couldn't go and see her every day. She went into remission and I could never remember the dates I just had a block with everything to do with the cancer it was weird and she could never forgive me.

If I'm reading this right, you emotionally shut down because you didn't want to face the thought of losing her to cancer only for the bitter irony of you losing her because you couldn't come to terms with the thought of losing her. It's too late now but I get it. No judgment.

 

[MastAndo]

I like Christmas and all, but it's the only time of year where I have second thoughts about deciding to live this life on my own. I don't exactly feel lonely, but during season that's so clearly about appreciation for loved ones, having a family of my own would probably be nice. I do have my parents, brother and sister, nieces and nephews and great friends and all, but nothing quite slaps you in the face with reality like sitting around opening gifts and knowing you're an afterthought. I still make an effort every year to be generous with my gift giving, but no one really puts too much thought into me... and understandably so, since they're preoccupied with their own families and youngins.

Plus, we have the holidays a state away since my bro and sis moved their families away (right next to each other) a few years back. It's a 2-hour drive for me each way and they always ask me to stay for Christmas Eve night into Christmas Day and I just really don't want to do that so I end up just driving home Christmas Eve night and calling it a holiday. I see them all every few weeks so it's not like I'm cutting short time that wouldn't be spent otherwise, it's just an odd/fairly new dynamic that I never had to deal with before.

 

[Davesky]

First Christmas without my Dad and lone parent to my 3 year old daughter. Only reason I’m even celebrating this year is because of her. I teared up earlier the amount of presents that are in for her currently. Can’t wait to see her face.

I’m still trying to get myself copy of Mega Bomberman, Aladdin and Castle of Illusion on Mega Drive before next week. I’ll be selfish and make her play 2 player Mega Bomberman with me most of Christmas evening and Boxing Day.

 

[anthony2690]

I'm too poor I can't even afford gaf gold and I'm staring at 7+ adverts per page, it can't get any worst than that at Christmas!

But on the plus side, I'm looking forward to Christmas, I think I got a little carried away with all the cool presents I've picked up for my parents/siblings, when me and my partner go over to visit Christmas day

I don't think my dad will get round to the games I grabbed him till 2024 though at the earliest though.

He has been playing the Witcher 3 for the past 6 months+ and eliminated every single ? off the map.

& Now the game has been upgraded and looks even more incredible and my younger brother told him about NG+ he is doing a second playthrough on one difficulty below the hardest

Maybe he will start Elden Ring by next father's day

But he was really addicted to shadow of war for a long while, but he says he likes the Witcher more

Edit: Thank you to very kind soul who gifted me gold

 

[64bitmodels]

I'm too poor I can't even afford gaf gold and I'm staring at 7+ adverts per page, it can't get any worst than that at Christmas!

But on the plus side, I'm looking forward to Christmas, I think I got a little carried away with all the cool presents I've picked up for my parents/siblings, when me and my partner go over to visit Christmas day

I don't think my dad will get round to the games I grabbed him till 2024 though at the earliest though.

He has been playing the Witcher 3 for the past 6 months+ and eliminated every single ? off the map.

& Now the game has been upgraded and looks even more incredible and my younger brother told him about NG+ he is doing a second playthrough on one difficulty below the hardest

Maybe he will start Elden Ring by next father's day

But he was really addicted to shadow of war for a long while, but he says he likes the Witcher more

Edit: Thank you to very kind soul who gifted me gold

wow
me and anthony2690 get gold on the same day
gold is in the air this christmas


as for me, christmas used to be a thing i was excited for because "ZOMG PRESENTS I WANT ALL THE GIFTS"
but these days... i have a gaming PC, i honestly don't feel i need much more than that, besides a VR headset, an amp, a pair of audiophile headphones, a nice monitor, a desk and chair to go with that monitor, one of those newfangled Xiaomi phones..... ok maybe i do still have wants
but the big jumbo i've wanted ever since 2016 i have now and i can say that it's amazing. so i dont want anything this christmas... other than the love and support of my wonderful family and friends IRL, on GAF, on Discord, everywhere

 

[anthony2690]

wow
me and anthony2690 get gold on the same day
gold is in the air this christmas


as for me, christmas used to be a thing i was excited for because "ZOMG PRESENTS I WANT ALL THE GIFTS"
but these days... i have a gaming PC, i honestly don't feel i need much more than that, besides a VR headset, an amp, a pair of audiophile headphones, a nice monitor, a desk and chair to go with that monitor, one of those newfangled Xiaomi phones..... ok maybe i do still have wants
but the big jumbo i've wanted ever since 2016 i have now and i can say that it's amazing. so i dont want anything this christmas... other than the love and support of my wonderful family and friends IRL, on GAF, on Discord, everywhere

Gold bros

Tbh I enjoy giving gifts a lot more than I like recieving them now days

 

[Rival]

Not good. Stuck at home by myself for the week.

 

[DKehoe]

I’m doing good. This time last year I was in a pretty bad place so I’m grateful to be doing a lot better now.

 

[64bitmodels]

Tbh I enjoy giving gifts a lot more than I like recieving them now days

bought wallpaper engine and Portal for 2 of my friends a couple days ago.... tbh i loved the feeling of having them say "thanks" it feels good yknow?
i love getting free shit but i also love giving free shit.

 

[AJUMP23]

I am doing great. I got a pay raise, a bonus, a family, and maybe a trip.

Edit: Thank you to very kind soul who gifted me gold

GAFTED GOLD!

 

[Saiyan-Rox]

If I'm reading this right, you emotionally shut down because you didn't want to face the thought of losing her to cancer only for the bitter irony of you losing her because you couldn't come to terms with the thought of losing her. It's too late now but I get it. No judgment.

Pretty much yeah and the guilt is massive. I should have been there every day I should have remembered all the appointments but my brain couldn't do it.

 

[Don Carlo]

Bruh, inflation is so high, i'd probbly not buy anything for the first time, no shopping year

 

[Cyberpunkd]

Times are tough, I’m doing great. Pointless to complain or worry, it will not change things. My brain is just incapable of dwelling on things for long time, it always switches into action when there is a problem to be resolved.

 

[MaestroMike]

all my stocks aren't performing and took hits I lost like all my gains and now I'm in the red for all of em except one which I'm still green in and luckily its the one I have most of my money in so I'm still green overall. bright side is that a whole lot of quality stocks are cheaper so I'm happy about that

 

[Bartski]

I've hated Christmas with every fiber of my being for longer than I can remember. I'm happy I can now afford to take time off and retreat for a little vacation just like every year

 

[The Cockatrice]

One bad luck after another. Phone touch screen broke, freezer leaking water occasionally, tooth cracked on one side, corporation changes which will most likely negatively impact me at my shit job as its always the case and not sure what else is coming but yeah. Good start.

 

[Punished Miku]

I'm doing pretty good.

If it's any consolation, I'm rewatching Game of Thrones right now and we're probably going to get to season 8 right around Christmas. Should be a huge downer.

 

[EverydayBeast]

Marry Christmas.

 

[LordOfChaos]

Shitty. After 3 years fighting glioblastoma we're having to check my mother into hospice. Short term memory is about gone and mobility has gotten very challenging. Been sad to see the decline as she's not too old and should have just been starting to look forward to retirement.

 

[Tams]

I love Christmas, but I don't actually care to celebrate myself. And as I'm on my own, I don't.

I also teach, so I've been doing Christmas lessons for the last couple of weeks which has tired me of it.

I might make some mince pies, seeming as I can't buy premade ones here and just enjoy them with some mulled wine while watching some films or playing games.

 

[Valonquar]

2022 was the year of existential dread for me. Burnt out with work. No time for hanging with friends and they don't have time either anyhow. Everyone is playing a different game that everyone else isn't interested in or doesn't have the right console \ capable PC. Def in mid-life criss mode. I'm not really ready to keep this up for another 20 years before retirement, if random heart failure or eboliaids doesn't kill me.

 

[Kenpachii]

This year my family died off, so basically alone with nowhere to go. So basically going to pretend its not end of december.

 

[Cyberpunkd]

2022 was the year of existential dread for me. Burnt out with work. No time for hanging with friends and they don't have time either anyhow. Everyone is playing a different game that everyone else isn't interested in or doesn't have the right console \ capable PC. Def in mid-life criss mode. I'm not really ready to keep this up for another 20 years before retirement, if random heart failure or eboliaids doesn't kill me.

Pick up sport, I recommend running. Just get out of your house and start.

 

[gothmog]

This year just feels rushed compared to the last few years where there was just less to do and more time to do it. I can't say I'm enjoying it but I do like having things like Christmas parties again.

 

[Nankatsu]

My nephew finally got a Switch, so it's the first Christmas where I can buy games for the kid and see his happy face. Time to start passing down the gaming torch.

 

[TTOOLL]

Busy and literally divorcing. I’m ok with it though.

 

[OmegaSupreme]

 

[ThatStupidLion]

22 was a net positive year for me. My biggest down points are work/career related.

Everything else felt on a good upward track though.

My kids are doing well, added a side gig for extra income, strengthening new friendships, took kids to Disney world and skiing in utah for their first times, played on a new sport team. No familial deaths.

Physical health took a down turn as i dont exercise or eat like i used to. Mental health exercise is better.

Going to start 23 with a bang as my wife births our 3rd baby.

I swear life is analogous to balancing spinning plates

 

[nush]

I love Christmas, but I don't actually care to celebrate myself. And as I'm on my own, I don't.

I also teach, so I've been doing Christmas lessons for the last couple of weeks which has tired me of it.

I might make some mince pies, seeming as I can't buy premade ones here and just enjoy them with some mulled wine while watching some films or playing games.

I know that feel, I tryed to get my Chinese friends to understand Christmas but they just don't get it. So what I do it buy a whole load of great snacks, imported ones if I can and set them up on a small table to pick at through the day. New movie, new videogame and I'm sorted for the day. I'm fortunate enough that Chinese New year is a great substitute for Christmas.

 

[Happosai]

2022 was the year of existential dread for me. Burnt out with work. No time for hanging with friends and they don't have time either anyhow. Everyone is playing a different game that everyone else isn't interested in or doesn't have the right console \ capable PC. Def in mid-life criss mode. I'm not really ready to keep this up for another 20 years before retirement, if random heart failure or eboliaids doesn't kill me.

I'm pretty close. Work as a BPO manager for this tycoon clownshow EV company which got flooded with a bunch of Tesla-vets who are a bunch of jerks. They were gloating the other day about how they're pretty much taking December 23rd - the 2nd of January off to "recharge." Wow...I've been with them 2-years in management and they've never given me or my employees a single day off. I plan to let my employees hammer out their PTO this holiday season just to show them "you want to make them work xmas -- alright, they can opt out and contract protects them with their PTO." We were fine before ex-Tesla came in. These are not the good side of Tesla either. These are rejects who were doing poorly adjusting to internal changes in Tesla and jumped on the boat with Tesla's former growth officer.

My wife is really the best that I have as there's someone to talk to outside work but other than that -- I barely get up during the day. Hopefully, things get better for you too brother.

 

[Andyliini]

I'm doing fine. 2022 has been a good year for me. I got a raise and finished a very important project at work. I haven't caught corona or anything else, and have been healthy all around.

The only downside is that my girlfriend has more MS-disease symptoms lately, which has had me a bit worried. She's still mostly fine though.

 

[Lunarorbit]

Completely broke cause we moved recently and don't have jobs yet. I'm happy though. Not going to get too many presents for people besides our niece who lives near us now.

I got enough stuff so my Christmas list is empty. Maybe some ps games on sale before the 22nd when it ends.

 

[Saiyan-Rox]

Couple of completely shit days in work making myself look like an idiot being so awkward and trying to make people like me just to push them away.

New workplace only started 3 weeks ago and got people avoiding me already.

Also managed to get 2 matches on a dating app in just over 2 months to try and get back out there and both have deleted me after lol

I swear ><

 

[LordOfChaos]

Also managed to get 2 matches on a dating app in just over 2 months to try and get back out there and both have deleted me after lol

Don't take that too hard, dating apps are horrible on men and barely worth it anymore. The match rate of an average looking man is 1-2 in 100, for a woman it's like half, and one side given all the choice in the world makes them hyper selective. So only the top 10% of men appearance wise are getting significant traction on dating apps by 80% of the women, while the bottom 90% of men are fighting for the bottom 20% of women.

I just find them not worth it at all anymore. I have to swipe 1000 times and do all the conversational heavy lifting to get to one date which may or may not suck? Eh. I know I'm much better in person and when I'm out if someone's eyeing me, go for that, in person vibes are very different even if you're in the trash heap on online dating. Working out and broadening your arms and shoulders so they're bigger than your waist is a huge thing to get attraction as a guy I found.

 

[Valonquar]

I'm pretty close. Work as a BPO manager for this tycoon clownshow EV company which got flooded with a bunch of Tesla-vets who are a bunch of jerks. They were gloating the other day about how they're pretty much taking December 23rd - the 2nd of January off to "recharge." Wow...I've been with them 2-years in management and they've never given me or my employees a single day off. I plan to let my employees hammer out their PTO this holiday season just to show them "you want to make them work xmas -- alright, they can opt out and contract protects them with their PTO." We were fine before ex-Tesla came in. These are not the good side of Tesla either. These are rejects who were doing poorly adjusting to internal changes in Tesla and jumped on the boat with Tesla's former growth officer.

My wife is really the best that I have as there's someone to talk to outside work but other than that -- I barely get up during the day. Hopefully, things get better for you too brother.

Hang in there. Work \ team life is just the pits. I often wonder what it would be like to work with a bunch of people I actually liked.

 

[LordOfChaos]

I'm pretty close. Work as a BPO manager for this tycoon clownshow EV company

Fisker? Lucid? I must know more lol

 

[Saiyan-Rox]

Don't take that too hard, dating apps are horrible on men and barely worth it anymore. The match rate of an average looking man is 1-2 in 100, for a woman it's like half, and one side given all the choice in the world makes them hyper selective. So only the top 10% of men appearance wise are getting significant traction on dating apps by 80% of the women, while the bottom 90% of men are fighting for the bottom 20% of women.

I just find them not worth it at all anymore. I have to swipe 1000 times and do all the conversational heavy lifting to get to one date which may or may not suck? Eh. I know I'm much better in person and when I'm out if someone's eyeing me, go for that, in person vibes are very different even if you're in the trash heap on online dating. Working out and broadening your arms and shoulders so they're bigger than your waist is a huge thing to get attraction as a guy I found.

And I am definitely below average on everything. I'm so introverted too so I don't see how I'm possibly suppose to move on from my ex if I can't even get a date with someone. Even if I don't really want anyone else but her but I don't deserve her and the guilt of our relationship also won't go away.

But these apps might be doing more damage I guess than good.

 

[LordOfChaos]

But these apps might be doing more damage I guess than good.

They likely are if they're making you feel much worse than you actually would be. Maybe take some time off and work on yourself.

 

[Saiyan-Rox]

They likely are if they're making you feel much worse than you actually would be. Maybe take some time off and work on yourself.

I've tried several times to work on myself but as with everything I always quit lol

 

[LordOfChaos]

I've tried several times to work on myself but as with everything I always quit lol

Maybe that's the first thing you should work on lol. It doesn't have to be big. How about just no more zero days, just doing at least one thing to better yourself each day. Not a big workout. Anything.



There's a carrot at the end of this. I decided not to give a damn about the dating apps and just get motivated at the gym (but it doesn't have to be that), 3 years of pandemic lifting but really just 1 of getting serious about macros and shit changes man, you notice the different attention you get.

 

[Putonahappyface]

Same shit different year.

 

[Happosai]

Hang in there. Work \ team life is just the pits. I often wonder what it would be like to work with a bunch of people I actually liked.

Really beyond our control too. I mean, we hrld the business about water 2-years before the Tesla-vets hopped in. Seems like none of them have I.T., CRM or basic Office proficiency but they sure know how to spend. I'd give it 3-months before they bankrupt us.

Fisker? Lucid? I must know more lol

I'll pick Lucid as I've no plans to dox them either in a gaming forum. Let's just say ex-Tesla vets have moved onto any one of 50 different electrical engineering companies since about 2014. Job hopping in a big money sorta way seems to be their game. Turnover is also higher at Tesla than most are publicly aware of...they may be coming for you next