This time I will try to be brief, or at least, more than the last few times. 
If you remember me, you might have noticed I basically stopped posting since a long time ago. That is because my eyes and ears (because of a non-canceral brain tumor that has really made my senses ultra-sensible) are really sensible to virtually any sound, video, animation, so I have to get some rest, but that is very hard. I had a real hard time to read dense text so I nixed reading a lot of website including GAF. I was withdrawing from my medication, because the tumor is basically melted completely, but there is a lot of neuropathical pain remaining in my nervical system, which is still making my senses go worse day by day. I needed to do it, because the medication i needed to stop the neuropathical pain had no effect with the medication I previously took, because my system was numb to all good benefits of medication. And now, just yesterday, finally I can feel the effects of pills. I took Tylenol or Ibuprofen before, and I did not felt anything at all, only codeine did anything to me. I was taking medication (Klonopin) to treat the dyskynesia I had since I began the medication to threat my tumor, from which I am also withdrawing. Finally, I tried to take the smallest dosage possible and it made me sleep like a little baby. I have got to thank Raoul Duke as for that, I spoke with him via PM and I recalled that, and seriously, that really is how I realised that my goal was accomplished. Thanks dude, if I recall correctly you were having issues with your health too, and of course I can only wish you the best. Now, the last miles. I have an appointment with my neurologist, and we will settle on a medication to kill all the remaining neuropathical pain. It will be long and probably hard, but after that, I am a new man. I have lost half my weight (I was morbidly obese before so that is good), everything is intact in my body and mind, and finally, I will get the sole thing I miss and really need, my senses. I don't know when, but finally I am done with this shit. I heard my first tinnituses in january 1998 and did not knew what I was into. Now it's sure I am going to be saved. And as all doctors were completely clueless about my health state, I had to gather all the info, I will have saved my very own life.
I will be able to go out there, there's a nice forest just behind my house, I did not took a walk outside since september 2003. No movies, games or music whatsoever since that time. I am fucking tired, I have a humongous backlog, I am so near my goal, I am confident for the first time since I learnt I had a tumor in october 2003. It's hard for me to even envision myself being good, but finally I'm nearly done with this shit. I would like to say, if any of you know of really ill people, do not let them alone and take great care of them. Because I am on my own and everyone swept away, I lost much time and I am still morbidly lonely right now. I only go out of my house for medical appointment, the last one was in mid-february if I recall correctly. That's right, I am in my house since that time. I never really enjoyed outdoors, but how I can't wait.
I have really had a load of shit going on in my life as you can imagine. I really enjoyed reading and posting on GAF, right now I cannot handle much long and dense texts so I do not post much. However, I spoke with some of you online via IM, and that is really appreciated. I also welcome anyone, you can check my profile if interested. Wholeheartedly, I would like to thank all fellow GAFers to which I speak to, you really make a difference in my life, and I am eternally grateful to you as for that.
This HDTV I have is taunting me, because I cannot bear anymore looking at the eternally blank screen, not being able to withstand video nor sound. Not for long anymore. Good times for a change, at last!
If you remember me, you might have noticed I basically stopped posting since a long time ago. That is because my eyes and ears (because of a non-canceral brain tumor that has really made my senses ultra-sensible) are really sensible to virtually any sound, video, animation, so I have to get some rest, but that is very hard. I had a real hard time to read dense text so I nixed reading a lot of website including GAF. I was withdrawing from my medication, because the tumor is basically melted completely, but there is a lot of neuropathical pain remaining in my nervical system, which is still making my senses go worse day by day. I needed to do it, because the medication i needed to stop the neuropathical pain had no effect with the medication I previously took, because my system was numb to all good benefits of medication. And now, just yesterday, finally I can feel the effects of pills. I took Tylenol or Ibuprofen before, and I did not felt anything at all, only codeine did anything to me. I was taking medication (Klonopin) to treat the dyskynesia I had since I began the medication to threat my tumor, from which I am also withdrawing. Finally, I tried to take the smallest dosage possible and it made me sleep like a little baby. I have got to thank Raoul Duke as for that, I spoke with him via PM and I recalled that, and seriously, that really is how I realised that my goal was accomplished. Thanks dude, if I recall correctly you were having issues with your health too, and of course I can only wish you the best. Now, the last miles. I have an appointment with my neurologist, and we will settle on a medication to kill all the remaining neuropathical pain. It will be long and probably hard, but after that, I am a new man. I have lost half my weight (I was morbidly obese before so that is good), everything is intact in my body and mind, and finally, I will get the sole thing I miss and really need, my senses. I don't know when, but finally I am done with this shit. I heard my first tinnituses in january 1998 and did not knew what I was into. Now it's sure I am going to be saved. And as all doctors were completely clueless about my health state, I had to gather all the info, I will have saved my very own life.
I will be able to go out there, there's a nice forest just behind my house, I did not took a walk outside since september 2003. No movies, games or music whatsoever since that time. I am fucking tired, I have a humongous backlog, I am so near my goal, I am confident for the first time since I learnt I had a tumor in october 2003. It's hard for me to even envision myself being good, but finally I'm nearly done with this shit. I would like to say, if any of you know of really ill people, do not let them alone and take great care of them. Because I am on my own and everyone swept away, I lost much time and I am still morbidly lonely right now. I only go out of my house for medical appointment, the last one was in mid-february if I recall correctly. That's right, I am in my house since that time. I never really enjoyed outdoors, but how I can't wait.
I have really had a load of shit going on in my life as you can imagine. I really enjoyed reading and posting on GAF, right now I cannot handle much long and dense texts so I do not post much. However, I spoke with some of you online via IM, and that is really appreciated. I also welcome anyone, you can check my profile if interested. Wholeheartedly, I would like to thank all fellow GAFers to which I speak to, you really make a difference in my life, and I am eternally grateful to you as for that.
This HDTV I have is taunting me, because I cannot bear anymore looking at the eternally blank screen, not being able to withstand video nor sound. Not for long anymore. Good times for a change, at last!
