So, to cut to the chase, and as some of you already know, my father died recently. My mother died from cancer back in 1994. I'm an only child so I do not have any brothers or sisters. I've pretty much lived with my father all my life and I was his caregiver as well.
After his death it has been extremely hard on me. I have panic attacks almost every night. I have a psychiatrist that I don't like and keeps giving me medicine that doesn't work and all she ever does is up the dosage. I really don't like her and in turn I can tell she doesn't like me. If it weren't for some circumstances I would be changing psychiatrists right away but I might as soon as Monday.
Look, I know I whine here every now and then but this has taken a real toll on me. I have no family in this city and I'm pretty much all alone. The loneliness. The fear that something is going to go wrong, the depression and just anxiety are all really killing me.
I'm at a loss of what to do. I'm trying to find anything that can ease my anxiety since my psychiatrist won't give me anything that will help.
I find myself crying pretty much every other night. It's been exhausting and just all around terrible.
I'm really trying to keep my whining down here but this is one case I think I have to come forward and say that I'm in a very bad situation right now and I don't know what to do.