NeoGAF Anonymous Confessions 2015 - Bare Your Burdens

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I got a confession. I tried tequila for the first time last night. Did shots with 2 attractive girls in their room. One started grinding on me with her round booty and got me hard as fuck. I really wanted to do the nasty with her but didn't.

We ended up passing out and I drove home this morning. Oh, and I have a girlfriend that doesnt know. Fuck Im an asshole. Chew me out gaf, I deserve it.
 
Shmeagatory94 said:
I got a confession. I tried tequila for the first time last night. Did shots with 2 attractive girls in their room. One started grinding on me with her round booty and got me hard as fuck. I really wanted to do the nasty with her but didn't.

We ended up passing out and I drove home this morning. Oh, and I have a girlfriend that doesnt know. Fuck Im an asshole. Chew me out gaf, I deserve it.
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You dodged a bullet, friend. Yeah it was a dick move, but it could have been worse. You're fine as long as you realize that type of situation can only lead to bad things for a taken man.
 
Shmeagatory94 said:
I got a confession. I tried tequila for the first time last night. Did shots with 2 attractive girls in their room. One started grinding on me with her round booty and got me hard as fuck. I really wanted to do the nasty with her but didn't.

We ended up passing out and I drove home this morning. Oh, and I have a girlfriend that doesnt know. Fuck Im an asshole. Chew me out gaf, I deserve it.
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well you could always tell her
 
Shmeagatory94 said:
I got a confession. I tried tequila for the first time last night. Did shots with 2 attractive girls in their room. One started grinding on me with her round booty and got me hard as fuck. I really wanted to do the nasty with her but didn't.

We ended up passing out and I drove home this morning. Oh, and I have a girlfriend that doesnt know. Fuck Im an asshole. Chew me out gaf, I deserve it.
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Just tell her what happened. If you think you deserve to be chewed out, it'll be the most effective from the person you betrayed. Besides, she might be understanding about the situation and thank you for not taking it further. Either way, telling her ought to absolve you of your guilt and be a lesson not to put yourself in tempting situations in the future. Good luck!
 
For as long as I can remember I've never really been happy with my gender, but at the same time I've never really been confident enough to really push myself to do anything serious about it. I ended up coming out for a while to friends and family and started to seek help close to a year ago but only after years of basically being stuck in the closet outside of online help. I was actually going forward but I ended up declining help transitioning after having my blood work done as I got called at a really awkward moment where I was with a family member that didn't know. I felt terrible after doing so, but I tried to reassure myself that it was a decision that I wanted to do. I actually tried to call the clinic back, but didn't have luck doing so. :(

The problem is that I go through periods where I'm happy being a guy and other periods where I literally can't stand my life unless I'm basically presenting as female online. It's horrible, as I'll feel that I *can* stand my life for a while as a guy but it's a vicious cycle. I cut my hair recently, as I wasn't happy with it being down to my shoulders. Literally every time I do this I get worried about if I start wanting to present as female again but I just can't help it.

I just feel like sometimes I'm trying to force myself into being transgender as I'm okay at passing off as a girl physique and look wise. I've never really ever looked manly. I just love everything about presenting as a woman, and I feel that if being trans was far less dangerous for myself and offputting for people, I would do go full time in a heartbeat. But sadly as the world is today, I'm finding it more and more appealing to put my own feelings aside and just be a guy.

I've thought about saying 'screw it!' and self medicating, but I know it's dangerous. I'm just in a really awkward situation and it doesn't help that my one local trans friend who was amazing help has backed away from the whole thing and claimed that she was wrong all along.

I'm sorry for this terrible message GAF, but I'm kind of just looking for some reassuring words. I feel like I've ended up alienating a lot of my online support in the transgender community by being scared of advancing so much that I don't think they can take me seriously anymore.
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Everyone has their own pace at which they commit to major life decisions. Take your time. You'll eventually get where you need to be.
 
Llyranor said:
Come on, at least email yourself anonymously and post it for us
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What if some of the confessions are his? What if NTGYK is actually Not Attracted to Sister?
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Llyranor said:
Did you feel our words were (unfairly) harsh, Admiral Woofimpregnaton?
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Mine was one of the ones people enjoyed the tale more than judging. So I can't say. If someone here is one of the people who posted one of the bad ones they could give a hint at reactions but they have to be careful as a point of anonymous confessions is you don't wanna be found out.
 
C0unter said:
I didn't enjoy A space odyssey when I watched it for the first time 2 weeks ago.
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Frankly, I think it's a jumbled mess of symbolism until they get to the point where HAL tries to be HAL storyline.

But then again, I find Citizen Kane to be pretentious as fuck (Rosebud my ass) and fell asleep during the 1st and 2nd viewing of Blade Runner (although I love it now).

I do like Gone With The Wind and Sound of Music so it's not like I have allergic reactions to classic films.
 
Fiction said:
I'm not sure being beat to hell and forced into an engagement is a 'happy end'. If he was a woman, we'd be telling him to call the police :/

Not that he's not an asshole for the cheating/impregnating women thing, but he still don't deserve to be abused. She should have just left his ass.
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yep. it's weird that no one seems to even acknowledge the abuse
 
Shmeagatory94 said:
I got a confession. I tried tequila for the first time last night. Did shots with 2 attractive girls in their room. One started grinding on me with her round booty and got me hard as fuck. I really wanted to do the nasty with her but didn't.

We ended up passing out and I drove home this morning. Oh, and I have a girlfriend that doesnt know. Fuck Im an asshole. Chew me out gaf, I deserve it.
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I don't know why you would feel bad. You danced with some girls. Big fucking deal. You had lusting thoughts. Newsflash, everyone does!. You didn't do anything. Relax man.
 
NotTheGuyYouKill said:
Everyone has their own pace at which they commit to major life decisions. Take your time. You'll eventually get where you need to be.
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I actually might not agree with this. You could spend your entire life without ever getting where you want or need to be. These kind of major life decisions do take time (they certainly do for me; every major or semi-major decision in my life takes way too long for me to decide on), and since this is a really big decision that anon is contemplating and have trouble deciding on, I'd say anon should talk to someone professional about it. Not some online forum or whatever, since it clearly hasn't helped so far, but face-to-face with some professional with obligation to observe silence.

Best of luck, anon!
 
I've seen a couple of threads on here about trichotillomania (addicted to pulling out hair), and I thought this might be a good place to bring up my own unique sort of problem. I've had the urge to pluck out my eyebrow and beard hairs ever since I was in my teens, but I've been able to control it enough to not look like a weird, patchy fucker. The one place that I haven't been able to stop is with my pubic hair. Particularly those spindly, delicate strands on my balls. I think it started with just idling fondling my balls while web browsing (pls don't judge), but I came to really like the weird stinging sensation you get from plucking out one of those bad boys down there. It actually kept my balls pretty smooth and well groomed, so I thought why the fuck not? But recently my balls have gotten a red puffiness to them and have become hypersenstive to the point where it's hard to walk anymore. I still find myself fucking around down there absentmindedly, and I'm worried I could really fuck my shit up. I don't know if I should go to a doctor or what because I really don't know if I could look someone in the eye and explain how I borked my balls.
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Go. To. A. Doctor.
 
Yo. Long time fan of the thread. Was considering posting because maybe someone will have something wise to say. Now the confession:

When I was pretty young (post high school) I had my first gf. We were dating for about two or three weeks and it was evidently time to have sex (we already did oral). I was very nervous, and to be honest was not very attracted to her. It was a disaster. I could get it up pretty easily but when I attempted penetration I immediately got soft or else it just didn't work. To make matters worse she started taking pills to make it easier for me and it didn't help. After a while I broke up with her for unrelated reasons.

Years later (early twenties) I had another gf. She was super attractive to me, one of the most attractive people I've met and I actually loved her. She was a bit timid and untrusting so it took about six months until she said she was ready. I was waiting for this for a long time but at that moment I panicked - what if it happens again? And of course it did, again and again. I'd get it up instantly after a failed attempt but would fail the next second by getting soft or else being unable to penetrate. She was so hot and I wanted it so bad but every time we got into bed I just started thinking about how it's going to happen again. To make matters worse she would not give or receive oral or anything so I felt awful because I'm not satisfying her.

It quickly became this cycle where I felt I would not be able to do it and then couldn't. Eventually she dumped me for unrelated reasons.
Nowadays I feel a bit bad because the older I get the more experienced people expect me to be, and I feel like I have to really trust someone in order to have sex with her them- am I going to tell a woman in her mid twenties "I'm not ready" if she wants to o have sex after the second date?

I've also considered this might be a physical problem but I could not muster the courage to go get it checked.
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That really sucks, man. I mean, you should consider seeing a doctor about it. It could be physical, but it could also be psychological.
 
NotTheGuyYouKill said:
That really sucks, man. I mean, you should consider seeing a doctor about it. It could be physical, but it could also be psychological.
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He's probably putting way too much pressure on himself. Meditation and yoga can help him stay in the moment and keep a calm mind. They make pills that can also help him out in case it truly is a physical problem. He should also try to focus more on the girl and her needs rather than himself in the moment. That could also do the trick. Sex is best when you're not caught up in the "mechanics" of it, but rather let go.

When you eat, you don't think of every bite and every chew - even when you're enjoying it. So when he has sex, he probably shouldn't be "thinking" of every thrust either. Just let the fuck go and don't think about anything other than indulging and having fun.
 
As someone whose nerves fuck with him when it has come to sex in the past and I went limp, it is most definitely psychological (for me). Something that helped me is, as silly as it sounds, getting just drunk enough to not give a fuck about the voices in my head telling me I'm no good, and to dump this girl who always compared me to her ex-bf. Also not masturbating really helped out when I was with a girl as I was sexually frustrated as fuck.

I've had a fucked up sex life.
 
What you all are describing is the definition of erectile dysfunction.

It's 100% treatable.

See a doctor.
 
Admiral Woofington said:
I thought that it's treatable if it's physical. Not psychological. Maybe I will eventually. Right now I'm single though so it ain't nothing but a Thang haha.
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It is treatable no matter what the source is. A doctor can help make the decision on how to treat it. Likely many people could be helped by psychological treatment alone.
 
Hey, fairly tame confession here and I think I can imagine what the replies will be like, but whatever.

I'm in a relationship with a girl while I'm interested in another.

The girl I'm interested in is someone I've known longer than my girlfriend, and while there was some tension there, due to some misunderstandings I didn't ask her out for a while after we met. When I did ask her out I was rejected because I was going abroad to do research in a few months, she said she couldn't do a long distance relationship and wouldn't be willing wait til I came back (I'm away for 1.5-2 years). Honestly I was pretty heartbroken, but I acted like it was nothing much and we stayed friends.

After a month or so I met my current girlfriend. We hit it off quite well, exchanged numbers and went on a couple of dates. Eventually we hooked up and started going out. She is unbelievably good-looking, better than I deserve haha. The trouble is she's nowhere near as fun or spontaneous as the other girl. She likes shopping and has pretty generic tastes in everything, as in she mostly only likes what's popular in any situation. Despite this we did have some quite interesting conversations in the beginning.

Cut to now and I'm away doing research abroad so we decided to try long distance (she was very eager to keep the relationship going), but things have gotten weird other than me liking the other girl. Me and my girlfriend rarely talk, and when we do I'm always the one initiating the conversation. There's a good 7 hour time difference, but I usually try to catch her when I reckon she'll have free time to chat, but instead I get short answers with little elaboration to questions I ask and the conversation lasts about 10-15 mins. She doesn't really ask me anything either, compared to when we started going out when she would message me often and we'd have decent conversation at least.

I'm wondering if she's lost interest in me now, and considering how I feel it doesn't really matter to me, either way this relationship should end. I've never been in a long distance relationship before though, and it leaves a bad taste in my mouth thinking about ending things via message rather than face to face. I'm not about to fork out money to travel however many miles just to break up with her either though. I'm just putting it off basically, maybe hoping she'll say she wants to break it off first.

The thing I feel worst about though is that I don't think I ever really stopped loving the other girl throughout this whole ordeal. I'm pretty sure I was just telling myself I didn't love her anymore for the first 2-3 months before I admitted it, and knowing how I felt I continued the relationship with my girlfriend...just because. I knew the other girl wouldn't be going out with me any time soon what with me going away, so I figured I might as well go along with it. Looks like things are going to shit anyway though. Probably for the best.

I can't see anyone being seriously hurt by the end of this, but I either shouldn't have started going out with my girlfriend, or I should've ended it already. I'm an idiot. I'll end it eventually, and when I get back I'll ask out the other girl again provided she doesn't have a boyfriend by then.
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Long distance relationships are tough. Hanging onto years old crushes are tough.

Dude, just have a chat with your girlfriend and let her go if this isn't working. It's clear your heart isn't that into it.
 
NotTheGuyYouKill said:
That really sucks, man. I mean, you should consider seeing a doctor about it. It could be physical, but it could also be psychological.
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That happened to me, the same exact way hard right until I entered, it was probably one of the more embarrassing moments in my life. The next time we hung out I figured the best way to solve it was the way I have been solving most of my anxiety problems and I just talked to her about my anxiety. She was actually pretty cool about it and had some pretty good sex later, I was more relaxed. You may also want to cut back on the porn
 
NotTheGuyYouKill said:
Long distance relationships are tough. Hanging onto years old crushes are tough.

Dude, just have a chat with your girlfriend and let her go if this isn't working. It's clear your heart isn't that into it.
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As someone who was in a long-term relationship that turned into a long-distance relationship and ended quite badly, communication is always the key to maintaining a long distance relationship (or any relationship for that matter). If she's being curt with you, it means that the relationship is most likely doomed.
 
ChouGoku said:
That happened to me, the same exact way hard right until I entered, it was probably one of the more embarrassing moments in my life. The next time we hung out I figured the best way to solve it was the way I have been solving most of my anxiety problems and I just talked to her about my anxiety. She was actually pretty cool about it and had some pretty good sex later, I was more relaxed. You may also want to cut back on the porn
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girl it happened to me with was the one who compared to me to her ex the whole time. When I went in and it went limp her first reaction was "are you gay?"

Because yes, the only reason somebody couldn't get hard to have sex with you is because of that possibility.
 
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