Ok so I'm out at this club I haven't been to in a while, a long while and I end up meeting the sister of this chick I used to date a few years ago. We do the whole hi haven't seen you in a while thing, but something feels different. She's way too happy to see me. I ask her how her sister is doing and she responds shes great. Then she tells me she wants to talk to me. I'm like yeah whatever probably to cuss me out, as we left each other in not such good terms. She asks me for my cell phone number to which I thought was strange and told her I didn't have a cell phone. She grabbed my pocket and said yes you do its right here. I tell her that it's a business phone and I can't give the number out to none company customers or employees. She looks at me all pissed and digs into her purse for a pen and paper. She says give me your home number. I'm like no I don't give my number out. She tells me it's important and goes what it is then. She says my sister has to tell you. I'm like well it's not that important. She gives me that pissed off look again and writes down a number and says call this number as soon as you get home even if it's late at night my sister wants to talk to you. I take it and she's like you better call I'm serious it's important. I'm like ok. I get home around 12 and go straight to bed.
The next thing I know I wake up at 7:00 on the dot. Strange because normally when I get to sleep late I tend to wake up late. First thing in my mind is dude WTF was that about last night. So I called the number and the chick I dated picks up the phone and I hear a child crying in the background her telling him to be quiet while momma is on the phone. I go hey this is Shadowred we dated a few years ago and I met your sister last night and she gave me your number and said I should call you. She becomes quiet and whispers off the phone, it's Shadowred. I hear here Mom say let me talk to him. She goes no. So we do the normal hey what you been doing thing and I tell her that her sister thought it be important that I talk to her. She goes yeah I have something to tell you. I go yeah what's up. She goes well you probably heard in the background my baby. I hesitate before I answer back yeah. She's goes he's 4 years old I had him right after we broke up. At this point my heart is beating like drum and I can feel it in my head. I hesitate again and go yeah congratulations. She goes he looks just like his father. I'm like that good I hope. Her voice starts cracking up and she says I know you already know youre the father. OH FUCKING SHIT, just blows through my mind. After about ten seconds of silence I go oh really. She goes yeah. I tell her I don't know what to say, I'm sorry. She says it's ok and asks if I want to see him. I go yeah and she gives me the address to her Moms house.
Anyhow I get to her house and she comes out and greets me. First thing in my mind is like damn she's gotten finer. She says something to the effect that I bet you was not expecting this for a Valentines gift. I'm completely quiet, my stomach is rocking and if feels like my head is in a jar or water or something. We go inside and her Mom is sitting on the couch with this little curly haired kid on her lap. She goes there he is there is you Papa. In that instant I felt like someone had just smashed me upside the head with sledge hammer. I force a smile on my face and reach to pick him up. He grips me around the neck and says Papa. I started getting tears in my eyes. I sit down with him and start talking to him asking and asking him questions, like how old he was. He answered back by holding 4 fingers up. He asked me where I had been and I told him I was away. He asked if he and Mommy could stay with me. I was like well see. Anyhow I spent the rest of the time holding him while talking to his mother. It seems she wants to get back together and try to make a family. Me I'm still shocked about this entire situation. I really don't think I'm ready for all this and I'm definitely not ready for a family. I told her to give me at least a week to think this over I'm shell shocked. She was like yeah that's understandable.
So I just got home an hour ago from the meeting and now I'm trying to think of a way to tell my Mom and Dad, what's going on. This has gotten me totally fucked up inside. I've never thought of myself as a dead beat, but shit a part of me wants to pawn the shit I can and get the fuck out of Dodge immediately. Anyhow has this happened to anyone on the board? How did you deal with it? Like I said I feel sick as shit.
The next thing I know I wake up at 7:00 on the dot. Strange because normally when I get to sleep late I tend to wake up late. First thing in my mind is dude WTF was that about last night. So I called the number and the chick I dated picks up the phone and I hear a child crying in the background her telling him to be quiet while momma is on the phone. I go hey this is Shadowred we dated a few years ago and I met your sister last night and she gave me your number and said I should call you. She becomes quiet and whispers off the phone, it's Shadowred. I hear here Mom say let me talk to him. She goes no. So we do the normal hey what you been doing thing and I tell her that her sister thought it be important that I talk to her. She goes yeah I have something to tell you. I go yeah what's up. She goes well you probably heard in the background my baby. I hesitate before I answer back yeah. She's goes he's 4 years old I had him right after we broke up. At this point my heart is beating like drum and I can feel it in my head. I hesitate again and go yeah congratulations. She goes he looks just like his father. I'm like that good I hope. Her voice starts cracking up and she says I know you already know youre the father. OH FUCKING SHIT, just blows through my mind. After about ten seconds of silence I go oh really. She goes yeah. I tell her I don't know what to say, I'm sorry. She says it's ok and asks if I want to see him. I go yeah and she gives me the address to her Moms house.
Anyhow I get to her house and she comes out and greets me. First thing in my mind is like damn she's gotten finer. She says something to the effect that I bet you was not expecting this for a Valentines gift. I'm completely quiet, my stomach is rocking and if feels like my head is in a jar or water or something. We go inside and her Mom is sitting on the couch with this little curly haired kid on her lap. She goes there he is there is you Papa. In that instant I felt like someone had just smashed me upside the head with sledge hammer. I force a smile on my face and reach to pick him up. He grips me around the neck and says Papa. I started getting tears in my eyes. I sit down with him and start talking to him asking and asking him questions, like how old he was. He answered back by holding 4 fingers up. He asked me where I had been and I told him I was away. He asked if he and Mommy could stay with me. I was like well see. Anyhow I spent the rest of the time holding him while talking to his mother. It seems she wants to get back together and try to make a family. Me I'm still shocked about this entire situation. I really don't think I'm ready for all this and I'm definitely not ready for a family. I told her to give me at least a week to think this over I'm shell shocked. She was like yeah that's understandable.
So I just got home an hour ago from the meeting and now I'm trying to think of a way to tell my Mom and Dad, what's going on. This has gotten me totally fucked up inside. I've never thought of myself as a dead beat, but shit a part of me wants to pawn the shit I can and get the fuck out of Dodge immediately. Anyhow has this happened to anyone on the board? How did you deal with it? Like I said I feel sick as shit.
