Shadowstar39
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I have been smoking for 26 years. I promised myself I would quit by the time I was 40. I am 42. I kept putting it off. I used to be big into weed, lsd, mushrooms back in the day and had a 5 year stint with opiates/H and have been off of that for 17 years. My only vice left has been cigs. So I have the addiction gene, demon, etc.. whatever you want to call the f'er.
I went through a divorce and my pops passing, having covid, moving to a new town away from friends all in the mater of a year and a half, and got through it all without issue.
This quiting smoking thing has been harder than any of it.
I got to this point as I met the most amazing woman who rocks my world. We have been together for 2 months. She told me she wouldn't date a smoker but made the exception for me since I said I was going to try to quit and she liked everything else. After coughing up a pint of blood from covid, I knew it was time. Also running out of breath walking up stairs was not cool (something that started in the last year).
So I decided to take the plunge and got on the patch and quit. It's been 5 weeks now. I have one week left on the now 7mg patch.
The benefits to quitting have been numerous. No more issues walking up stairs or hills. Smelling things like the scent of a persons hair. The money aspect. Returning morning wood, and massive increase in sexual stamina (3-4x in 12 hours in long 30m-1hr sessions,). Improved metabolism and weight loss (6lbs since quitting). These benefits are amazing and i am thrilled to get this far.
The problem is this has come at a cost. Increased Anxiety, stress, and amplified emotions, a feeling of loss. Stuff that i used unknowingly block by smoking. Get stressed, light up, feel sad, light up, feel happy light up, etc... It has gotten worse each time I reduced the patch dosage and since being on the 7mg patch I have had nights where my thoughts race and my heart feels like its pumping too fast at times.
My worst times are at night. After work it kills me as a thought will get in my head and I will dwell on it. Or I will feel a feeling and dwell on it. Then i have this voice who is telling me, "you know it all goes away with one puff".. You would think 5 weeks in I wouldn't have this. Maybe its because I am still getting nicotine? I don't know but it sucks! It seems there is really only a few things that calm me down. If I am with my girl everything melts away, taking a shower, playing guitar are the only things that really help. Things I would like to have help make it worse as I get stuck in my head, like walking my dog, something I do on the daily. Probably because I would smoke 2-3 cigs on my walk and that's no longer there.
Has anyone here quit smoking and had issues with amplified emotions, anxiety and stress? How have you coped with them.
Any tips to get through this easier?
I went through a divorce and my pops passing, having covid, moving to a new town away from friends all in the mater of a year and a half, and got through it all without issue.
This quiting smoking thing has been harder than any of it.
I got to this point as I met the most amazing woman who rocks my world. We have been together for 2 months. She told me she wouldn't date a smoker but made the exception for me since I said I was going to try to quit and she liked everything else. After coughing up a pint of blood from covid, I knew it was time. Also running out of breath walking up stairs was not cool (something that started in the last year).
So I decided to take the plunge and got on the patch and quit. It's been 5 weeks now. I have one week left on the now 7mg patch.
The benefits to quitting have been numerous. No more issues walking up stairs or hills. Smelling things like the scent of a persons hair. The money aspect. Returning morning wood, and massive increase in sexual stamina (3-4x in 12 hours in long 30m-1hr sessions,). Improved metabolism and weight loss (6lbs since quitting). These benefits are amazing and i am thrilled to get this far.
The problem is this has come at a cost. Increased Anxiety, stress, and amplified emotions, a feeling of loss. Stuff that i used unknowingly block by smoking. Get stressed, light up, feel sad, light up, feel happy light up, etc... It has gotten worse each time I reduced the patch dosage and since being on the 7mg patch I have had nights where my thoughts race and my heart feels like its pumping too fast at times.
My worst times are at night. After work it kills me as a thought will get in my head and I will dwell on it. Or I will feel a feeling and dwell on it. Then i have this voice who is telling me, "you know it all goes away with one puff".. You would think 5 weeks in I wouldn't have this. Maybe its because I am still getting nicotine? I don't know but it sucks! It seems there is really only a few things that calm me down. If I am with my girl everything melts away, taking a shower, playing guitar are the only things that really help. Things I would like to have help make it worse as I get stuck in my head, like walking my dog, something I do on the daily. Probably because I would smoke 2-3 cigs on my walk and that's no longer there.
Has anyone here quit smoking and had issues with amplified emotions, anxiety and stress? How have you coped with them.
Any tips to get through this easier?