It's weird. I've been listening to the This Year Collection podcasts for the previous years, and eventually made it to the 2013 episode, where the final part was the entire podcast they did to remember him. It's been good to recall all the stupidity he contributed, and just how wonderful it all was. Still, it was heartbreaking to hear them at points, especially near the end when it seemed like they were all going to lose it.
Still, even if I haven't obsessed over him since his passing, I think I need to move on. I need to shift my focus away from his death and relish what he did in life. This year has proven to be cause for a lot of changes for me, and Ryan has been great as a role model to follow. Even then, though, I need to find my own stake in life, because I'm sure as hell he wouldn't want to cause anyone a deluge of sadness. The news hit hard, but it's time to move forward with gratitude in my heart.
So thank you, Ryan Davis, you lovable bastard. I wish this lesson could've come any other way, but that's reality. I need to cherish the people I hold dear and display that before I come to regret any sort of inaction.