What a depressing topic.
My life really sucked up until I turned about 16 years old. My family was/is poor, people fucked with me in school, and my stepfather was an abusive piece of shit. After I turned 16, I made a few friends and I sort of "discovered" the internet (I used it before, but it was at this time that I really started using messenger programs etc.). It was through this that I found my initial motivation in life - a woman. Yeah, it was kind of fucked because she lived in Brazil and I lived here, but it was a reason to wake up and was something to dream of at night. For a couple of years she was my motivation. There were times I'd be depressed over the distance, but I usually found myself in high spirits and I was kicking ass at school.
After we dated for about 2 1/2 years, the distance became too much and things ended. Just like that, all of the drive and everything I had planned for was lost. Life meant nothing. I spent the next 3 years going through the motions - Working, taking a few bullshit college classes here and there - and dating a few women I cared nothing for. I wasn't happy and no amount of alcohol was gonna help for more than a night.
About 4 months ago, that same woman came back into my life. She's become my motivation again, but I find myself in a situation where I'm basically "worthless". Or, I feel that way. I only have about 35 college credits, I have NO idea what the fuck I'm going to major in, my job pays me too well to quit, but not enough to want to stick with forever, and...I dunno. So, I'm motivated at the moment, but I truly worry that it'll all come crashing down again. And, while I'm motivated, I still don't know what the hell I'm gonna do.
I've spent too many nights in the past staring at the ceiling wishing - like someone else said - that I could just fall asleep forever. I turn the fan on, turn the lights off, hide under my blanket and play Advance Wars 2 on my GBA and wish that I could spend the rest of my life just doing that. Gah, it's a shitty feeling - but if most of the other posts in this thread are any indication, I'm definitley not alone.
Anyways, good luck to everyone here who hasn't figured out what their goal is in life. And if they have, good luck in obtaining it. It's bullshit that so many of us find ourselves in these positions, but most of us will eventually pull out of it.