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I still haven't eaten and I'm not that hungry. Most likely my lunch/dinner today will consist of Ramen and bread and butter but that's all I feel like.
I still haven't eaten and I'm not that hungry. Most likely my lunch/dinner today will consist of Ramen and bread and butter but that's all I feel like.
I didn't eat anything yesterday as I mentioned in my previous post. A half hour ago, I did make Ramen and bread and butter but was only able to eat one bowl and one slice of bread. I had to toss the rest.Not wrong with that as long as you do not make it a habit. Think of a delicious dinner that you're going to cook and devour tomorrow instead.
I didn't eat anything yesterday as I mentioned in my previous post. A half hour ago, I did make Ramen and bread and butter but was only able to eat one bowl and one slice of bread. I had to toss the rest.
Probably should also mention I haven't been eating much in the past week, anyhow.
I'd be okay with it except I'm pretty skinny already. I look underweight and I may very well be underweight. Last time I checked I was average weight, with only a couple pounds over being underweight. So, when I lose weight, it's not a good thing.I've been living like that for about a year now, it's not that bad. At my worst I eat a muffin and some chocolate all day.
Surprising with how little energy my body still survives!
I hate to interrupt...but this thread's just getting me bad...
http://www.neogaf.com/forum/showthread.php?t=792671
Thank you GAF, for reminding me I don't contribute to society....
I'd be okay with it except I'm pretty skinny already. I look underweight and I may very well be underweight. Last time I checked I was average weight, with only a couple pounds over being underweight. So, when I lose weight, it's not a good thing.
Wow.Oh don't get me wrong, I wish nothing more but for more appetite. But I can't force it because all too often just the thought of food or me eating makes me nauseous. I'm already very underweight. (~115 pounds at 5'10)
Not true.I hate to interrupt...but this thread's just getting me bad...
http://www.neogaf.com/forum/showthread.php?t=792671
Thank you GAF, for reminding me I don't contribute to society....
Wow.
I'm 6'2" and last I checked was around 170 lbs.
Not true.
Do what you're interested in. If you feel that you're not going to get a job with a major like Creative Writing or the arts, then maybe college isn't the thing. But I do understand wanting to get a degree, regardless. Just because you don't want to major in sciences does not mean you're not contributing to society.
My ex used to think I was bulemic before finally asking me outright, because I had a tendency to go to the washroom after eating. I honestly just had to go to the washroom though :lol
I've struggled a lot with my body image/weight, but I'm finally at a point in life where I've at least come to terms with it being out of my control and where I'm comfortable enough looking the way I do. Still wish I had more appetite/gained weight, but I don't feel terrible about being underweight anymore.
Huh? Why is that thread upsetting you?
Not true.
Do what you're interested in. If you feel that you're not going to get a job with a major like Creative Writing or the arts, then maybe college isn't the thing. But I do understand wanting to get a degree, regardless. Just because you don't want to major in sciences does not mean you're not contributing to society.
If you skim the thread, it's basically dissing most people that are going into the arts or anything that isn't STEM.
I'm going to be a Creative Writing major.
Meh, as far as ROI it's not a terrible sentiment but doesn't mean anything. Like I said above, none of it has anything to do with "contributions to society". Also, they are crap in some senses, which is in so far as the weight of the actual piece of paper. Some majors place a lot of weight on the actual piece of paper of having a diploma but things like the arts usually have less to do with the actual degree and more on specific talent/the experiences you have when going for the major. Because of this, it's much harder to get a return or become successful in those areas which is ROI and such is skewed much lower. This doesn't mean you have to avoid them or they're shit but you should realize what you're getting into. You can invest money in college and have a decent lag if anything at all, in regards to a return where something like say computer science or an engineering degree will see a pretty much immediate return when you graduate as long as you didn't do awful. I think people warn, although go about it poorly, because too many people assume that because they have a degree they'll be ok or be guaranteed a good job when it's less the case in arts and liberal learning majors. Your risk/reward structure is just different than other majors and as a result some people think it's better to spend the money differently if those majors interest you. If you're passionate about it and realize the risks then I don't see any reason to be upset over it.
I know what I'm getting into but like...It doesn't stop me from being scared, ya know?
I want to use my life to go after something I'm passionate about and try my best and use every resource I can to obtain my goal.
That's why I've been working at this damn novel and my art like mad...I just want to do stuff I love and it just so happened that I don't like science or math.
Thanks for saying all this...I feel a bit better about myself.
I know what I'm getting into but like...It doesn't stop me from being scared, ya know?
I want to use my life to go after something I'm passionate about and try my best and use every resource I can to obtain my goal.
That's why I've been working at this damn novel and my art like mad...I just want to do stuff I love and it just so happened that I don't like science or math.
Thanks for saying all this...I feel a bit better about myself.
So far my spring break sucks, I wasted a week doing nothing. I had programming homework to do that's due next week and I need to be prepared to do my research paper by doing annotated bibliography. Instead I do nothing but watch t.v. and play garry's mod on steam.
I could've even used to time to study data structures. But no because I don't feel like doing anything. What's sad is that I never even went outside. I only go out when I have to take out the garbage.
An update because it's just the way I'm feeling right now but I feel lethargic and as if I'm not thinking straight and it's more than likely a lack of decent food. I also know it has been about two months since I've gone out anywhere since my "friend" pretty much wants nothing to do with me now. So, I've kind of been stuck here in the house. I've been going to bed early, around 7pm and getting up late around 11am. Most days recently I don't even want to get out of bed. I'd actually stay in bed most of the day if I could. The other day I slept until about 12:30pm which is pretty unusual. It's like there's nothing worth getting up for so I just want to stay in bed. That, with my lack of appetite, isn't obviously normal.
I mean.... What's the use? It seems like more and more people don't even acknowledge I exist. I just don't feel like the days are worth being awake for or at least sitting up. I'd rather sleep in real late and just lie in bed with a tablet for a few hours and go back to sleep. There's just nothing to really look forward to.
Julian
I don't know how or why, but this is single handily the most popular painting as of now on my tumblr.
I had to draw this real quick for giveaway, hoping I'll win this thing lol.
And that's awesome! There's no reason why you should feel bad then. Like I said as long as you realize it doesn't mean you'll have a sweet job or making the money some of the best jobs like engineers make coming right out of school than you should be fine. The biggest fear for many is the unrealistic expectations coming out of college, especially in the current workforce, with how much the weight of a bachelor's degree has dropped over the years. I've been trying for over a year to get into my dream company and I finally did this past month. If you keep working hard and networking and talking to people you can definitely get there, it's just you will most likely have a harder road ahead than for those in majors that are in high demand and have a relatively low supply like programming, engineering, etc.. Your art has been awesome from what I've seen posted, I don't know if you've posted your stories but as long as you're passionate and keep working towards it you can achieve it. Another important aspect also is to network just like in any career/major. If you want to write then start talking to major publishing companies or whatever you need to get your foot in the door. You might have to start lower down but things are a lot easier once you're inside a company and if you show them the drive and passion you have for it, then you'll eventually find someone who will give you the opportunity to do what it is you want to do. People are always afraid of the uncertain, and also try to reduce it all costs. It really is a pretty common trait in humans. Some people have higher/lower uncertainty avoidance than others but most people will try to avoid it and so people push others into degrees/majors that remove that uncertainty. This is especially true in the US with the high cost of college and them getting rid of the ability to remove college debt in bankruptcy. Don't feel bad, just realize it's going to be a tough journey (I'm sure you already know this) and use that as fuel to keep going and improving so that you reach your goal. Things will definitely suck at times, even with going to a pretty good school and such it was hard for me coming out of college to get into what I wanted and there was plenty of times I was frustrated and wanted to give up. The most important thing is to push through that and if you know it's coming then it's a lot easier to steady yourself and overcome it. Good luck!
Keep at it. Whilst I know money is a big issue, it isn't the be all end all and working on something you love for less money will almost always be better than working at something you hate and making a little more money.
Also graduating here soon with a degree in computer science and at this point I don't even like it much anymore. Maybe I'm burnt out from schooling or something but it's gonna be rough working for jobs I know I'm going to hate to pay off loans for a degree, that whilst it pays well, that I don't necessarily enjoy anymore. Sounds like you are in the exact opposite situation I'm in so...
Aside from the heaps of documentaries, news stories, research articles, etc. about full cannabis extract / hope oil / cbd / vegab diets / etc. we have been documenting everyone in our circles who have been using this to fight cancer, epilepsy, depression and other mental illnesses too. Feel free to search for "Run From the Cure" and "Charlotte's Web" on any search engine, look up CBD research and it's affects on reinvigorating your immune system, etc.As for post above me:
That's quite a claim. I assume you have some credible data backing this up.
WOOO! Congrats Collete!About this, I won the giveaway with my crappy drawing lol.
I'm so proud of myself right now lol
About this, I won the giveaway with my crappy drawing lol.
I'm so proud of myself right now lol
Yeah it seems like we're polar opposites on that front.
Even if you're burned out, try to look into different things in your field that might perk up your interest again.
I hope it's not going to be an end all for me...Thank you for the reply. Really.
Aside from the heaps of documentaries, news stories, research articles, etc. about full cannabis extract / hope oil / cbd / vegab diets / etc. we have been documenting everyone in our circles who have been using this to fight cancer, epilepsy, depression and other mental illnesses too. Feel free to search for "Run From the Cure" and "Charlotte's Web" on any search engine, look up CBD research and it's affects on reinvigorating your immune system, etc.
I don't claim it to be a cure all for everything, just that it is helping many just like healthier diets and being physically active without overdoing drugs, alcohol, etc. that can damage your physical and mental health.
That's quite a claim. I assume you have some credible data backing this up.
It's Hemp Oil. It won't cure cancer of its own volition but it's suppose to be one of the 'super foods.' Very nutritious.
WOOO! Congrats Collete!
Nice! What did you win? Also, your new avatar is strange.
Maybe. My course load is probably too big to handle but I made the conscious choice to do take 19 credits this semester to get all my requirements done.
I just lack a good creative outlet. I could possibly go into games or something but even then.
Maybe I just need to write a story or paint something. i just feel so... mechanical lately, and I envy your ability to explore your creativity.
Thanks!
I won the unicorn lol.
Lol, why is it strange?
Why are you trying to get your requirements all done in such a big course load?
Games can be a bit tricky to program, from what I understand. Why not try to develop an Android app or some small software such as a magic eight ball fortune teller? For starters anyhow.
It wouldn't hurt to learn how to write or paint either. There's a writing event that happens in April relatively soon where we all write a huge chunk of words in 30 days. They talked about it on the writing thread, it's called Camp Nanowrimo or something like that. If not look it up on google. It might be something you might be interested in.
Maybe it's the coloring that's strange? I seriously thought she had no arms until I looked closely after he said it looked strange. Your eyes are drawn to her body and the arms feel like they fade into the background.
Why are you trying to get your requirements all done in such a big course load?
Games can be a bit tricky to program, from what I understand. Why not try to develop an Android app or some small software such as a magic eight ball fortune teller? For starters anyhow.
It wouldn't hurt to learn how to write or paint either. There's a writing event that happens in April relatively soon where we all write a huge chunk of words in 30 days. They talked about it on the writing thread, it's called Camp Nanowrimo or something like that. If not look it up on google. It might be something you might be interested in.
Here's the full image for reference, it's from a mini comic/manga called "Hearts for Sales".
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She clearly has arms lol.
I would think people would think the eyes are more strange than anything else haha
http://miyuli.tumblr.com/post/77927805768/finally-i-can-present-you-my-little-comic-hearts
There's the first part if anyone wants to read about it.
Due to my deteriorating condition, I have concluded that I am no longer fit to be a member of this community. I am toxic, to myself and to others and the people here deserve friends who can be on their side, not against them.
I ask that no one reply to this post. SAWAP, all, if it's at all feasible.
Starting to feel like a huge failure in life. 7 months from turning 30 and I: still live at home, have been unemployed for almost 9 months, have no motivation or prospects, get to watch my friends get married and/or buy their own houses while I'm sitting here saddled by my own bad educational decisions and the debt they caused. If I had a job, maybe this wouldn't bug me so much, but it just feels like every big decision I've made so far has been the wrong one. When things never go my way, why should I feel like they ever will?
To start the game, each player draws ten white "answer" cards. One randomly chosen player begins as the Card Czar, and plays a black "question" card. The Card Czar reads the question out to the group. Each player answers the question by passing one white "answer" card, face down, to the Card Czar. The Card Czar shuffles all of the answers, reads them out loud in a humorous fashion, and picks their favorite. Whoever played that answer gets to keep the Black Card as one Awesome Point. After each round, a new player becomes the Card Czar, and every player draws back up to ten cards.
I've been feeling worse and worse the past few weeks. This weekend I could barely even bother to do anything. Now my dog isn't feeling well either. I'm really scared at how I'm feeling these days. The whole go it alone stuff isn't working so well anymore. Before I could just hide how I was feeling and I'd be fine but now I really can't. I just feel like I have nothing to offer the world. I see my parents and my friends and wonder what they would think of me if I was gone. They'd be sad at first but they have their own lives and they'd move on. I never thought I'd be one of those people to think things like this and I guess that makes me feel worse. I'm still too much of a chicken shit to do anything though. It's just a very scary feeling thinking in your head what you'd tell all the people in your life when you are gone. The things I'd say to my father would totally devastate him. He'd never be able to cope.
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Cards Against Humanity
Apples To Apples for terrible people
Rules:
Details:
While not strictly necessary it is STRONGLY recommended you join our Mumble (details available in IRC) during play as reading our statements out in a humorous/as politically incorrect way as possible is what makes the game hilarious.
Link to the game room will be made available on IRC/Mumble when play commences.
Does anyone in the UK know how to go about getting a prescription when away from your family GP?
I'm staying 4 hours from home indefinitely and I really need to do something about this depression shit, cos I'm getting overwhelmed.
You should be able to see a GP local to you and arrange something. Check these links and contact your nearest surgery to get the ball rolling.
How can I see a GP if I'm away from home?
Where can I get an emergency supply of medicine?
Man... having no friends sucks.
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Cards Against Humanity
Apples To Apples for terrible people
Rules:
Details:
While not strictly necessary it is STRONGLY recommended you join our Mumble (details available in IRC) during play as reading our statements out in a humorous/as politically incorrect way as possible is what makes the game hilarious.
Link to the game room will be made available on IRC/Mumble when play commences.