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I won't be around for a few days. I broke my clavicle bone last night. I have extremely brittle bones and I slipped and fell.
Chewie: Keep your head up bro. Give me a few day's and I'll be back.

Everyone be safe and positive.

I'm really sorry to hear that. I hope the hospital can help you keep the pain down as much as possible.

Good luck with everything.
 
Anyone have experience asking for other medications like sleep meds (Lunesta, Ambient etc) from your psychiatrist? I'm seeing her tomorrow and I'm going to ask her about it. I've discussed my sleep problems with her and my therapist, and yesterday my therapist suggested I discuss it with my psychiatrist tomorrow and he would send a message to her proposing the idea before I see her. Is that typical of a psychiatrist to be willing to prescribe a sleeping medication or is she likely to say "See your GP about it"?
 
I just feel like, I don't belong anywhere. I don't know how to explain the feeling. But I feel like, I have to just leave. I just have to go. I have to take off and disappear. I'm going to continue my life being happy. But I'm going to go. Maybe someday, if my life ever gets back what I lost, maybe I can be in a place where I fee whole and like I belong. But for now, I don't. I've sent out my PS4 and Vita (I shipped them out to the two people that won). I hope it makes them so happy. I just want to make people happy. I want to make people feel loved. All I ever wanted, was to care and love others. I just hope, this person that I lost, can find their way back to me. So I can love and care about them.

Though we are all unique, I just can't comprehend why it is that you think you can get along with only the sole person.

Whilst I don't like that you appear to be selling off this current life of yours to create another, I do admire that you're willing to go on what appears to be a grand old adventure.

Might I suggest you take a book along for the ride? If you haven't already read this, I suggest you take along Hector and the Search for Happiness by Lelord, François.

Good luck Master Cancer Bender
 
I am happy. I finally have gotten back to who I was before my cancer. I realize all the things I have to live for. All the different little outlets of happiness I have. All the reasons I enjoy living. I'm in such a healthy place.

But, I'm also not whole. I let my cancer/depression take the most important person from me. And no matter what I try to do, I can't forget them. I can't, get past what I lost. I can't...go a single day, without feeling that absence in my life. In my heart, I know, if I was just given one more shot. Just one more chance. I know, because what we had was special. And the things that pulled us apart, was temporary bullshit. It was me being brought down by a stupid disease, and not being able to see clearly.

I just feel like, I don't belong anywhere. I don't know how to explain the feeling. But I feel like, I have to just leave. I just have to go. I have to take off and disappear. I'm going to continue my life being happy. But I'm going to go. Maybe someday, if my life ever gets back what I lost, maybe I can be in a place where I fee whole and like I belong. But for now, I don't. I've sent out my PS4 and Vita (I shipped them out to the two people that won). I hope it makes them so happy. I just want to make people happy. I want to make people feel loved. All I ever wanted, was to care and love others. I just hope, this person that I lost, can find their way back to me. So I can love and care about them.

I know how you feel, man. :(

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Semester begins today. Still need to figure out if I passed one of my classes. Mentioned above, Im pretty sure I failed one of them. Ive decided to retake the class if I do failed as I also got a spot in both of those courses if I did officially fail them. I just need to really get the course over with. Really gotta buckle down and get rid of the paranoia of everyone I see. Its going to be a challenge. It always is. Im not dead yet; thats a good thing.

SAWAP as always.
 
It wasn't too long ago that I had woken up from a nightmare, where two of my former friends (who aren't talking to me anymore) had knocked me out and had then dropped me into a pot of boiling oil.

I think I won't be sleeping for awhile.
 
Normally when I talk to people, I come across as being really disinterested in what they have to say, it can seem really rude. Mainly because i'm too busy feeling like shit that I find it physically hard to feign interest, when it comes to friends and stuff I tend to push them away after 3 months or so when I feel we're becoming too close as friends, since I don't like to be close to people.

So today in work I was working in the yard are of our grounds and as I walked back into the main building, everything seemed brighter, (imagine that scene from limitless when he first takes the NZT), I was like woah. Everything felt great, wonderful, I was talking to people and actually gave a shit about what they had to say, I'm generally a jokey person so I can get a long with people, but when I made jokes it was just to try hide the fact i'm depressed, but today was the opposite. I'm a manager in my work place and I felt less anxiety giving orders to my team compared to normal, the words flowed so brilliantly. (It's generally a high anxiety inducing job).

Fuck, I realise this is due to the sertraline, and it's not fully in effect though, it was a glimpse to what I can expect. I've still to be moved to 150mg, and i still have anxiety and my heads still swimming with different feelings.

But it's a small victory.

/blog
 
Began weaning off cipralex/lexapro, the benefits haven't been worth the side effects (head fogginess, difficulty concentrating, creative drive all but disappearing). Hoping for the best, I've read some nasty things about the withdrawal.
 
This is the fifth anniversary since I started my last full semester at university before the panic attacks became too severe to return.
 
Hello mental health GAF

I have a question for you all, it's called, am I suffering from minor depression or am I just lazy and demotivated.

I'm a PhD student at an extremely prestigious university, just starting my third year, which in the UK system means I'm either in my final year or half way through.

In any case, I haven't done any PhD work for about three months. In fact I haven't done much of anything for about three months. I go to sleep at about 5am and wake up about 3pm, don't really leave the house unless I have to go and get food or occasionally meet a friend. All I really do is play a bit of video games and aimlessly surf t'internet.

The reason I wonder whether I have a low mood or whether I'm just demotivated and lazy is that I'm not feeling down at all. I don't feel much of anything. My days kind of drift by in a daze of boredom. I wake up thinking that I'll do things, but after two hours I just settle back into my 'routine' of sitting in my cold room, doing nothing. I've started derelicting my duties quite badly too; various things I'm supposed to organise and arrange are going unorganised and unarranged.

I don't really know why I posted this to be honest, oh well.
 
So begins a semester and Out of the 3 courses last semester, I failed the core ones (two) I managed to get into the same classes again. I basically have the same semester but instead of the elective which I passed is another course which has a pretty harsh evaluation scheme but I took it for some a reason. Its going to be hard since meeting new people has slowly being hard to do with my paranoia.
 
Saw my psychiatrist today. Upping my Zoloft from 50 to 100mg, and she prescribed Trazodone for sleep. Kinda worried from what she told me that it will make me groggy the next day, but it's supposedly really good for helping you stay asleep which is my problem, plus it's not an addictive hypnotic drug like ambien. Its original use was also for depression and anxiety so maybe I'll get an added boost in that respect too. :)
 
Saw my psychiatrist today. Upping my Zoloft from 50 to 100mg, and she prescribed Trazodone for sleep. Kinda worried from what she told me that it will make me groggy the next day, but it's supposedly really good for helping you stay asleep which is my problem, plus it's not an addictive hypnotic drug like ambien. Its original use was also for depression and anxiety so maybe I'll get an added boost in that respect too. :)

For general help with sleeping have you tried no computer/tv/phone for an hour before bed? I'm usually bad about this, but I think it can be helpful since bright lights can trick the brain into thinking it is daytime.

Kindle with no LCD screen or a regular book are good pre-sleep activities. I need to practice what I preach and start reading before bed again, I've been having trouble sleeping lately.
 
For general help with sleeping have you tried no computer/tv/phone for an hour before bed? I'm usually bad about this, but I think it can be helpful since bright lights can trick the brain into thinking it is daytime.

Kindle with no LCD screen or a regular book are good pre-sleep activities. I need to practice what I preach and start reading before bed again, I've been having trouble sleeping lately.
That can help with falling asleep, but waking up at 3am,then 4am, then 5:30am, every night?
 
Ughhhhhhhh migraines have been particularly atrocious the last few days especially. Blegh. I feel like everything I eat makes them worse and I'm trying to be careful about triggers. Sitting here in a darkened room and feeling just absolutely miserable like mice are gnawing at the inside of my skull and using my frontal lobe as a trampoline. Eurgh. Just do not want to feel like this. Left work 1.5 hours early and it was tough to even make it that far. I have plenty of sick time but I really do not like going home unwell. :(
 
Saw my psychiatrist today. Upping my Zoloft from 50 to 100mg, and she prescribed Trazodone for sleep. Kinda worried from what she told me that it will make me groggy the next day, but it's supposedly really good for helping you stay asleep which is my problem, plus it's not an addictive hypnotic drug like ambien. Its original use was also for depression and anxiety so maybe I'll get an added boost in that respect too. :)

I also have this problem. I tried trazodone and it didn't help at that much, personally.

Though, I think my problem stemmed from taking meds at the wrong time and having an anxiety issue related to my bladder. I would wake up several times and check if I had to use the bathroom, and even after I stopped checking, the routine kept me from sleeping all night.

It's gotten better. trazodone did make me feel groggy though. But, I have a friend you uses solely (I think) trazodone and he's had no problem with it, in relation to grogginess/sleeping.
 
I also have this problem. I tried trazodone and it didn't help at that much, personally.

Though, I think my problem stemmed from taking meds at the wrong time and having an anxiety issue related to my bladder. I would wake up several times and check if I had to use the bathroom, and even after I stopped checking, the routine kept me from sleeping all night.

It's gotten better. trazodone did make me feel groggy though. But, I have a friend you uses solely (I think) trazodone and he's had no problem with it, in relation to grogginess/sleeping.
What dosage were you on? Do you know what your friend is on?
 
It is the new year and thusly i am back to working out. Actually i snapped last August and went all out buying equipment. Worked out hardcore with all the right stuff for 2 months and then came down with some severe food poisoning that completely ruined my routine and i havent been back since October. Hate how weak you feel after just 2-3 months of not working out. This is really one of the only sure-fire things i can do for my virgin ass that doesnt require me to get a brain transplant. Although doubt anything would change i worked out hardcore for 2 years a couple back when i lost 50 pounds and bulked up, which did jack all.
 
Hello everyone
My moral is plummeting fast these days..I have a GF who kept downplaying me at everyday's task,yelling at me for no apparent reasons(she's jobless at this moment so perhaps it's that).I lend her some money because an ex of her has "stolen" her savings,i try to be present every moment but she seems never satisfied...
So here am i,lost,depressed,having suicidal thoughts because i have a very low idea of mine...I thought this relation was a happy turn-around for me but that's not the case at this time..I'm completely lost...
 
Hello everyone
My moral is plummeting fast these days..I have a GF who kept downplaying me at everyday's task,yelling at me for no apparent reasons(she's jobless at this moment so perhaps it's that).I lend her some money because an ex of her has "stolen" her savings,i try to be present every moment but she seems never satisfied...
So here am i,lost,depressed,having suicidal thoughts because i have a very low idea of mine...I thought this relation was a happy turn-around for me but that's not the case at this time..I'm completely lost...

Sounds like a poisonous and unsustainable relationship.
 
Anyone else had experience with Cymbalta? I'm currently on 60mg, but I'm not sure that they're doing anything for me.

(When I first started taking them at 30mg, I had a couple of dizzy spells and hot flashes/sweats, but they subsided after a while. I don't have any side effects whatsoever with my current dosage, but unfortunately they don't seem to be taking the edge off my low mood and anxiety either.)
 
That can help with falling asleep, but waking up at 3am,then 4am, then 5:30am, every night?

Do you always go to bed and wake up around the same time? If so I'm not sure exactly what's a good solution. I've had problems waking up in the middle of the night, but it's almost always when there's high variance in my bedtime/wake up time.

Yes i'm afraid of that but i love her so much... I don't know how to react to this and i'm so tired...

Maybe try couple's therapy? That definitely sounds like a draining relationship and not very healthy.
 
Yeah I'm usually going to bed and waking up around the same time. I don't think that has much to do with it. I took 25mg of trazodone last night and it didn't help as much as I'd like. It was only half a tablet so maybe a full one will work better. I suppose it kind of helped me feel sleepy, and I maybe slept a bit better, but I still didn't get more than 3 hours of sleep at a time. Still wish I could have gotten something like Ambien or Lunesta but I know those are not good for long term use. Ambien knocks me the fuck out for hours at a time.
 
I'm really sorry to hear that. I hope the hospital can help you keep the pain down as much as possible.

Good luck with everything.

Thanks Chewie. I got released this morning. I'm in nasty pain. I can't take pain medication anymore because a Dr over prescribed me a few year's ago. So I have to deal with my disability and now this clavicle without pain meds.
How are you doing today? Did you get some sleep last night? I saw that Toronto fired their coach this morning. Any idea who they are hiring? The hockey game I recorded was the Winter Classic. I love the annual outdoor NHL game. I hope you're doing great today bro. Stay positive. Oh, I have my first appointment coming up with a new therapist that specializes in disabilities and depression this Saturday.
 
I am happy. I finally have gotten back to who I was before my cancer. I realize all the things I have to live for. All the different little outlets of happiness I have. All the reasons I enjoy living. I'm in such a healthy place.

But, I'm also not whole. I let my cancer/depression take the most important person from me. And no matter what I try to do, I can't forget them. I can't, get past what I lost. I can't...go a single day, without feeling that absence in my life. In my heart, I know, if I was just given one more shot. Just one more chance. I know, because what we had was special. And the things that pulled us apart, was temporary bullshit. It was me being brought down by a stupid disease, and not being able to see clearly.

I just feel like, I don't belong anywhere. I don't know how to explain the feeling. But I feel like, I have to just leave. I just have to go. I have to take off and disappear. I'm going to continue my life being happy. But I'm going to go. Maybe someday, if my life ever gets back what I lost, maybe I can be in a place where I fee whole and like I belong. But for now, I don't. I've sent out my PS4 and Vita (I shipped them out to the two people that won). I hope it makes them so happy. I just want to make people happy. I want to make people feel loved. All I ever wanted, was to care and love others. I just hope, this person that I lost, can find their way back to me. So I can love and care about them.

That feeling really is the worst. I have people that I can call friends but it's been a,long time since I've felt like part of a group and not just an outsider looking in. It's like I don't know how to be happy without other people around. I've been watching your journey through your posts and even though you still feel a little incomplete, you have made progress, which is enough to convince me that it's possible to get back up after you've been knocked down hard and that it's not over yet, so thank you for that.
 
So Im currently repeating the 2 courses I failed last semester and trying to read through the same readings and doing practice questions is scaring me. Its only the 2nd day of the week and Im making little progress. I usually do nothing until class is done and then I try to start doing work. But then the waiting for class just drains me. I did managed to get some notes down in the late afternoon. I still get the feeling of worthlessness when I saw that I failed those courses. I didnt practice because there wasnt any solutions online and I didnt do the readings because they were pretty lengthy and boring. I might consider dropping them both again just to save my sanity although I always wonder if someone was watching over me and I just happen to be on the day I found space in class. Ive got a 3rd course as well which I mentioned before the marking scheme is pretty harsh. The fact that its only offered in the 2nd semester with only one offering in the course is the result of a lack of funding or professors wanting to teach this course. Im taking it because its for a concentration. It's a statistic course so the math naturally looks terrifying. There are a few people who are taking the same class as mine so at least im not alone in this tough struggle.

Im starting to lose my hope of finishing this degree just for the fact that I havent gotten it together because I have a growing distaste for it because I cant get it right or correct the first few times. Or maybe the fact that I spent all my summers doing school work to get ahead which ended up being catching up after failing courses left and right. (burnt out) I feel weak. I almost cant seem to see myself in the workforce with this curriculum. But nothing else interests me. Im in one of the most trending career fields but the material has drained me/irritated me and etc. I had a mindset that I would take as much elective classes that tailored to my degree to expand my knowledge. However im starting to feel the opposite and get the hell out of this campus and just go for the easiest path for income. I cant believe I ever fell to that point but sometimes what I suggested before sounds like a suicide mission. But I dont want to go to the common path everyone takes. I was debt free before going into this so I might as well use the opportunity to be more daring. However its not going so well. How contradicitng I am. Im losing direction.

I got a appointment scheduled by someone who wants to see if they can help me out with this. I had a few meetings that were similar which was good because I could talk about my problems without being paranoid about it. However I sort of felt that I knew my problems but my body still feels weak and cant go on with enough energy to study. I have few hours of class compared to my high school and I still feel drained! I cant tell if im just complaining, being paranoid, or actually have depression.

Im glad this thread is here and still alive. I know im not alone on this. Hope everyone is trying their best not to succumb to the harsh reality of this world.
 
It is the new year and thusly i am back to working out. Actually i snapped last August and went all out buying equipment. Worked out hardcore with all the right stuff for 2 months and then came down with some severe food poisoning that completely ruined my routine and i havent been back since October. Hate how weak you feel after just 2-3 months of not working out. This is really one of the only sure-fire things i can do for my virgin ass that doesnt require me to get a brain transplant. Although doubt anything would change i worked out hardcore for 2 years a couple back when i lost 50 pounds and bulked up, which did jack all.
I'm glad you're working out man, I remember your posts and I'm pulling for you. Stick with it and keep your head up dawg.
 
I’ve spent the last six years under the diagnosis that I was depressive and then bipolar. It was educated guesses from informed folks, and correct for a small upfront portion. About three months ago, I was given multiple opinions that I'm OCD and none of my prior symptoms.


It was extremely troubling and confusing but also illuminating. It’s given me some power back. I struggle mightily but I just wanted to check in here. It feels good to have clarity and I urge those of you struggling to seek additional counsel if possible. I guess you never know.
 
Feeling extremely anxious all of the sudden. :/

And I have to leave the house now for work, so I can already tell that this will be quite a stressful day. I just want to stay home and just read some fantasy novels or something.

Update: Everthing went well after all, and I am now very calm. Actually, I lost all the intense Anxiety not all that long after I went out too work. I mean, that's a positive thing that it went away on its own but I know that it will return. Hopefully I can find the root of all these episodes someday. I wish to be a happy, successful artist one day and all these psychological problems just stand in the way of my dream.
 
Hey guys&gals,

I've been suffering from anxiety (GAD is the official diagnosis) for a good number of years. Just recently, I switched medicines on doctors recommendation to Mirtazapine. I fear it has really messed me up. Started about a month ago on it. Couldn't go into work this week due to really foggy head, muscle aches and my legs basically feeling like lead. I've stopped taking it and switched back to Citalopram (after seeing Doctor). Can anxiety really make me feel so crap? I literally feel like I have no energy yet at the same time feel like I;m wired up to the mains. Worst is these concrete legs that make me feel like every movement is an effort. I'm really worried that this will compromise my job security and hence the security of my family.
 
While it can affect your emotions, it is not an emotional disorder, it is an issue with your nervous system. Basically everything involving stress response, stress management, sleep, hunger and digestion, sex drive, etc. It's both the motivational source and regulation of your body we're talking about, so naturally if it is on overdrive you're going to feel on overdrive, yet at the same time being on overdrive is going to push things into fatigue. When you practice self control to NOT freak out, that is just using up more resources. Unfortunately, as with depression (which can also come about when you become worn out by it), very little people understand how serious and tough the battle is.

What the drugs do is basically try to keep things from firing so much, and perhaps over time, since you don't have the high strain to fall down from, you get a more regulated life rather than stress/weakness cycle, but the problem is that it can create an overall dampening effect instead of just mitigating the strain. If it is very extreme and you can barely even move, maybe you need a lower dosage.
 
Took 100mg of the Trazodone last night. Didn't have the easiest time falling asleep (I went to bed a little too late), but I only woke up very briefly a couple times and for the first time in weeks didn't feel compelled to get up for any reason (food, taking a piss, etc). Maybe the drug's working..? Also glad it's not making me feel drowsy the next day, I think.
 
Hi guys. Over the past ten years or so, I've been pretty 'depressed' Hate that word. Extensive self harm, lot of black. Eventually, I got help after some incident landing me in the hospital. I got a diagnosis, and regular help and support, and now I think I'm on my way. Not quite there yet, theres a lot of bad days, but compared to how I was 2 years ago, a lot better.
 
Thanks Chewie. I got released this morning. I'm in nasty pain. I can't take pain medication anymore because a Dr over prescribed me a few year's ago. So I have to deal with my disability and now this clavicle without pain meds.
How are you doing today? Did you get some sleep last night? I saw that Toronto fired their coach this morning. Any idea who they are hiring? The hockey game I recorded was the Winter Classic. I love the annual outdoor NHL game. I hope you're doing great today bro. Stay positive. Oh, I have my first appointment coming up with a new therapist that specializes in disabilities and depression this Saturday.

Sorry to hear you're in so much pain and can't take anything. That must be awful. Hopefully it'll get a lot better soon.

It's good to hear you're home where it's comfortable, though.

Babcock has been rumoured for a while. It's unclear as to whether he'll re-sign with the Wings, though.

I'm doing alright, thanks. Tired, because I got up at 12:30am and have been up since.
 
Thanks Chewie. I got released this morning. I'm in nasty pain. I can't take pain medication anymore because a Dr over prescribed me a few year's ago. So I have to deal with my disability and now this clavicle without pain meds.
How are you doing today? Did you get some sleep last night? I saw that Toronto fired their coach this morning. Any idea who they are hiring? The hockey game I recorded was the Winter Classic. I love the annual outdoor NHL game. I hope you're doing great today bro. Stay positive. Oh, I have my first appointment coming up with a new therapist that specializes in disabilities and depression this Saturday.

Sorry to hear you're in so much pain and can't take anything. That must be awful. Hopefully it'll get a lot better soon.

It's good to hear you're home where it's comfortable, though.

Babcock has been rumoured for a while. It's unclear as to whether he'll re-sign with the Wings, though.

I'm doing alright, thanks. Tired, because I got up at 12:30am and have been up since.

Also: Have you guys read this really informative/correct and insightful Cracked article? If not, you should, as it does a good job of explaining some of the lesser-known side effects of OCD.
 
I've fucked up real good and pretty much blew $2100 last semester by fucking 3/4 of my classes up. Not even a positive to this, like I made a new friend or anything. Still pretty much a loner who knows nobody in my program, let alone my classes. I can't find the motivation to do school, find a job, or even get out of bed. I wish I was dead.
 
So...withdrawal eh. So far so good I think, been feeling down but I think it's more situational (being stuck in my dead-end hometown with nothing to do while job hunting) than something to do with reducing my dosage. I have been getting minor 'brain zaps' as they were described, which are kind of disorienting and weird, but if this is the worst of it I think I can deal.
 
Saw my therapist for the first time in 2015, talked to him about my plan for how I would end my life. Didn't go all that well, still feel sick just thinking about it. -_-
 
Subbed, I think I'm gonna need this thread in the near future. I think I've been depressed for like 15 years and never talked to a doctor about it.
Even now that I have a wonderful girlfriend, job and place to live I can't find joy in most things, I'm pretty negative about everything and I'm just sad when I know I shouldn't be. Lack of friends (everyone I cared about moved to another city) and my parents being the kind of parents that are disappointed with me not being what they they wanted. My father wanted me to be an architect/athlete or something like that, he still keeps asking me if I follow any sport league, although he knows I never gave a shit about sports.
I always loved to draw comics but they didn't care too much about that so I had to keep that to myself, since that was nothing productive or heroic .

Lately other issues with my girlfriend's family (her sister specifically, even made a thread about that) destroyed the little self steen I had left, so I guess I'm ready to go to the doctor and ask for advice, can't live being this sad forever
 
I don't feel well. Also can't get out of bed lately but today I had to for an appointment. Blah.
 
Took 100mg of the Trazodone last night. Didn't have the easiest time falling asleep (I went to bed a little too late), but I only woke up very briefly a couple times and for the first time in weeks didn't feel compelled to get up for any reason (food, taking a piss, etc). Maybe the drug's working..? Also glad it's not making me feel drowsy the next day, I think.

That definitely sounds like it's working! It'll probably take a week or two at least for you to get a clearer idea of how, exactly, it affects you.

Hi guys. Over the past ten years or so, I've been pretty 'depressed' Hate that word. Extensive self harm, lot of black. Eventually, I got help after some incident landing me in the hospital. I got a diagnosis, and regular help and support, and now I think I'm on my way. Not quite there yet, theres a lot of bad days, but compared to how I was 2 years ago, a lot better.

That's wonderful to hear :)

Sometimes the only way I know I'm making progress is by thinking back to one, two or three years ago and realizing they feel like the dark ages. Like I knew nothing about myself or my emotions.
 
So the first week is done. Managed to finish homework due next week. Although I need to catch up on readings. I feel compelled to take notes for everything I read although its taking more time than I expected. Tried playing games but it doesnt make me still worry about not studying. I dont know how to fix this.
 
I've fucked up real good and pretty much blew $2100 last semester by fucking 3/4 of my classes up. Not even a positive to this, like I made a new friend or anything. Still pretty much a loner who knows nobody in my program, let alone my classes. I can't find the motivation to do school, find a job, or even get out of bed. I wish I was dead.

Windam, I've found that for me meeting people and succeeding in classes is a matter of snowballing. It took me three months at school last fall to meet one person I could vaguely call my "friend" and that was only after I discussed my anxieties about whether or not he was my friend with him. But now that I'm getting to know that person he's introduced me to a couple more people and so on.

Meeting that first person can seem prohibitively difficult and anxiety inducing. Personally I decided to ride the waves of the anxiety by just straight-up marching up to a few people and saying "hi, please be my friend" and then being friendly and asking them lots of questions about themselves. Once I got to a second or third time of seeing them I explained my own anxiety and why I had gone about it in that way. It only ended up working out with one out of the three people I went up to but hey, that's one friend I didn't have before.

Point is there's no one way to meet people, but I found that I did better once I just said "screw it" and drove straight into my anxiety and discomfort.

Please PM me / let me know if you need to talk or there's anything I can do.

P.S. Nice picture, you look a LOT like one of my good friends!

So...withdrawal eh. So far so good I think, been feeling down but I think it's more situational (being stuck in my dead-end hometown with nothing to do while job hunting) than something to do with reducing my dosage. I have been getting minor 'brain zaps' as they were described, which are kind of disorienting and weird, but if this is the worst of it I think I can deal.

The zaps should wear off in a week or two.

Saw my therapist for the first time in 2015, talked to him about my plan for how I would end my life. Didn't go all that well, still feel sick just thinking about it. -_-

How did he react? Did he truly listen?

Subbed, I think I'm gonna need this thread in the near future. I think I've been depressed for like 15 years and never talked to a doctor about it.
Even now that I have a wonderful girlfriend, job and place to live I can't find joy in most things, I'm pretty negative about everything and I'm just sad when I know I shouldn't be. Lack of friends (everyone I cared about moved to another city) and my parents being the kind of parents that are disappointed with me not being what they they wanted. My father wanted me to be an architect/athlete or something like that, he still keeps asking me if I follow any sport league, although he knows I never gave a shit about sports.
I always loved to draw comics but they didn't care too much about that so I had to keep that to myself, since that was nothing productive or heroic .

Lately other issues with my girlfriend's family (her sister specifically, even made a thread about that) destroyed the little self steen I had left, so I guess I'm ready to go to the doctor and ask for advice, can't live being this sad forever

Have you considered seeing a therapist? The familiar pressure you mention may be a big part of why you feel so down day to day. I've spent the last few months in therapy peeling apart the layers of my relationship with my family and it's been tremendously enlightening in why I have a constant sense of abandonment.

I don't feel well. Also can't get out of bed lately but today I had to for an appointment. Blah.

Don't feel well emotionally? Physically? Both?
Either way, drink lots of water :)


SAWAP everyone. I try my best to keep up with the thread when I'm not anxious or crying about school work. Oh, life.
 
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