NotTheGuyYouKill
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It's heartening to see someone realize just how dangerous a gun is..
NeoGAF Anonymous Confessions 2015 - Bare Your Burdens
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It's heartening to see someone realize just how dangerous a gun is..
WhateverItTakes
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That's not really a confession. Anyone who's sat in the passenger side of a car while at speed has thought something similar.
I thought the same thing the first time I used a gun. I thought that I could blast everyone around me with the shotgun and no could stop me. Not a fantasy about killing anyone, just more of realizing the power of what I had in my hands. Then I continued shooting skeet with 100% accuracy on my first time using a gun
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Little Nemo
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So this reminded me of a little story. My mom was seeing a psychologist for some anxiety and compulsive thoughts. I'd drive her to her appointments and sit in on her sessions because she had a hard time remembering things. Anyways, so in one of the sessions this psychologist told us how he used to have compulsive thoughts about stabbing his young daughter to death with a knife. I'm like, "Uhhhhhhh... I don't know what to say here." I'm assuming/hoping he got better.
IN THE MEANTIME:
I actually cannot even...
That's... either way, the "Confessor" is a great story-teller.
This is a phenomena that is explored a lot in the military by therapists and what not.
My uncle, who served almost a decade in Afghanistan/Iraq talked to me about one time. He was very vivid (we're close enough to where he's comfortable enough with to talk about it with). He would have soldiers under his command who would freeze up and lose it a little bit when the "God"-complex would occur.
Scary stuff.
Hyperactivity
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This occasionally happens to me (though without a gun)
Not necessarily God-complez though, sometimes, it's about myself.
I'll think "If I just barely slipped here, that's it"
"If I push that person there, BOOM"
"If I just did this, people will die"
Sometimes not even death, but other stuff
It's weird to think how much the taboo of killing someone (mental and social) holds people back. Wouldn't be surprised to learn these are common thoughts
Of course, this is also something no one really shares with other people
Any Strategically Placed Hole is a goal I guess.
BLOODED_hands
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Man.... That doll confessiom.... Hakuna Matatata lol. Yeah, I'm sure he cleans it....
Yeah, I get that feeling of holding a loaded weapon. It's freakin' scary and I respect guns alot more now. So much power in your hands, scary.
Yeah, I get that feeling of holding a loaded weapon. It's freakin' scary and I respect guns alot more now. So much power in your hands, scary.
Endruen
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I think this is a rather common thought. I've never had a gun in my hands, but carrying a knife, scissors, pen... Whatever, I've thought: "Man, I could just stab this person in the neck and they would die.", or things like that. Killing a person is rather easy I would say, humans are quite fragile. The important thing is to not make those thoughts come true.
IN THE MEANTIME:
And with that, my two favourite confessions are Lion King-themed. Hakuna Matata indeed.
As for the gun story, that's very interesting. As others have said, perhaps it's not so uncommon to have fleeting thoughts about what you could do with a dangerous weapon. I grew up in the UK, and so I don't have much exposure to guns at all; once I got to fire a rifle as part of an RAF activity day, but it was this huge heavy thing and I was only 15. Using it that way felt very removed from considering it a weapon, probably because we don't really have gun culture and also because was so unwieldy.
NotTheGuyYouKill
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Look man, you gotta do what's right for you, not your parents or anybody else. If this job is making you not able to function, you need to leave. Leave, find something else, the hell with those people.
BLOODED_hands
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Man... Leave your job dude. It doesn't matter if you are making more than the minimum wage at your age if you are always miserable. A job shouldn't be something that makes you miserable it should be something that you like doing all the time. It's going to take some time until you find that job but when you do it will be worth it.
Psychotext
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I'm not buying that. Some of the time, maybe... but even things I find enjoyable I don't feel like doing all of the time. Especially if I have to.
Baraka in the White House
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Try having primarily-obsessive OCD. Fucked up thoughts like (but not limited to) that can pop up in your head rather frequently.
Little Nemo
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First thing I would do is talk to a therapist or psychiatrist and get your depression and sleep taken care of. Psychiatrist is the only one who can prescribe meds so if you feel you need anti-depressants you should go there.
Then as the depression and sleeplessness is clearing up, decide whether or not you can handle work and school at the same time or whether you just want to focus on school. It seems like you want to go to school and your parents want you to too. Working while going to school will make it easier to afford college, but focusing on school alone will allow you to get through it more quickly. So there's benefits and drawbacks either way.
I wouldn't worry about the current pay from the job so much. If you go to college and end up in a better paying and more satisfying profession, it will make up for whatever you may have lost from the job in the long run. Sometimes you have to sacrifice the present for a better future.
Don't waste away in a job that's crushing you. Life's too short for that. Do something that matters to you. I've definitely been in that position before and every time I've walked away for something more meaningful I've never regretted it.
Once you're in school you'll meet new people and finding people to date and getting out of your shell will probably come along on its own.
IN THE MEANTIME:
lol, I believed this up until the hakuna matata. Still funny though.
BLOODED_hands
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Yeah, I should have worded that better but the point sort of still stands. I should have said that find something you enjoy and not something that makes you into a zombie.
Did you bring her to your apartment? I bet the music from upstairs scared her off.
Seriously though, that's really shitty of her. You deserve better than that, and I hope you find it.
<3 Thankfully I'm not living there anymore. Music was still playing when I left.
And yeah, I've got someone in my sights. Someone way smarter and WAY nicer.
viciouskillersquirrel
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I thought this confession would be about his cousin having hidden a camera inside the Simba doll. His sneaking off to the bathroom would have been him turning it on and hitting "record" etc. Then, the final twist would have been that the guy had stacks and stacks of video tapes saved up of people using the bathroom as his fap material.IN THE MEANTIME:
That honestly would have been less weird than what actually happened.
Speaking of Simba, I met an English backpacker while on holiday who had the Greek letters ΣΙΜΠΑ tattooed to her wrist. I know a bit of the Greek alphabet from having done a lot of maths, so I looked at the letters and mouthed the sounds out. Noticing what I was doing, she cheerfully told me the story of how "Simba" was her nickname due to her tawny brown hair and brown eyes and that when she was in the Greek Islands, some bloke she hooked up with offered to inscribe it on her wrist.
It was a pretty vapid story all in all, but what really clinched it was that ΣΙΜΠΑ doesn't actually spell "Simba", but rather reads "Simpa". Her Greek boyfriend was either a complete douchebag or a semi-literate goober.
Capital beta is literally a B, how did they not notice that
viciouskillersquirrel
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She wasn't exactly Marie Curie to begin with, so I'll assume she didn't care to ever try to decipher the Greek alphabet on her own. It's possible that everyone she met who did was just too polite to say anything.
NotTheGuyYouKill
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So this is apparently the first in "a series of escalating confessions."
Sounds shady af.
I'm a bit confused as to the logistics of this.
Sounds shady af.
I'm a bit confused as to the logistics of this.
dreamcastmaster
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Double doors that only activate by the sensor on the first door? there's a bench outside the first door?
Sounds like when a mall has double doors for temperature reasons (there'll be an air conditioner above the inside door). There'll be two doors like:
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The sensor before the inside door opens both, and the same goes for the sensor of the outside door. Getting stuck between means you can't trigger the doors at all. Usually they're placed a short distance between each other with their own sensors, but I can see how earlier implementations of them might not.
Pokemaniac
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Yeah, if that was possible, it would be a pretty bad design flaw.
I wonder how many fake people they managed to trap between those fake doors before fake mall security caught a whiff of it and let them continue
You seem to know an awful lot about this unintuitive door system.
Whoever designed those doors needs to be fired.
I encounter them a lot in this godforsaken hellhole of an outdated country I live in. Go to some country town that got a mall in the early 2000s and bam, double doors. The mall in the city-town my mother lives in has them, as does one of the malls my girlfriend works at.
I did a Google search, they basically look a lot like this:
Corronchilejano
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The Lion King will never be the same.
The double doors aren't the problem, it's the fact that there's now way to open them from the middle. That's a serious design flaw, and I can't believe that any store would have doors with that problem.
It doesn't make sense because automatic doors can still be pushed open.
Yeah, I know. I described that in the post before.
South American here. During primary school, in 4th grade, we had a tango class. It's exactly as it sounds: the teacher put us in pairs and taught us how to dance tango. It was completely useless. My friends and I used to hide in an empty classroom instead of attending it and play some Pokemon TCG, or we'd run to the courtyard and play football (I sucked at it almost as much as I did at dancing).
I'll keep reading the rest of the thread, haven't been following the latest updates.
This actually sounds plausible to me, as it's the kind of stupid prank stuff a group of young teenage boys would do. I remember my friends wanting to do Jackass-style stuff a lot after school and on the weekends, which basically involved causing a nuisance for the general public and laughing at their reactions. EDIT: about the double doors, I have seen this a few times in the UK. It's stupid, but it definitely exists.
My favourite prank was when one guy got a Snickers bar, unwrapped it and mashed it in his hands for a while until it looked like a poo. He then proceeded to drop it on someone from the second floor of a shopping mall, and when the person looked up they would all run away laughing. To be honest I'm laughing just typing out the story, it was pretty funny at the time >.>
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That door situation reminded me of when I worked for a local government in Scotland. The receptionist complained that the set of double doors opened too quickly and during winter it would significantly drop the temperature of the lobby. But they had to make sure that the replacement doors were easily accessible for disabled people - because governments are easy target practice for frivolous lawsuits about that sort of shit. We eventually got that "staggered door" thing, and also positioned one door at the left side, and one door at the right. It actually worked.
Australia's not that ba... oh you live in New South Wales. My apologies.
Australia's not that ba... oh you live in New South Wales. My apologies.
Yeah, this sounds like bullshit.
Endruen
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The fact that my cat is named Simba sure doesn't make this any better :/IN THE MEANTIME:
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NotTheGuyYouKill
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Wait...
You had a dream ten years ago that somebody you knew died, and then they died... Eight years later?
Like an M Night Shimsham movie.
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