I need serious help, Gay GAF.
My boyfriend and I have some issues. We have been together nearly a year and a half. I cannot stand sex. I was raped as a youngster, and have never been able to overcome it.
He cyber-cheated on me over Facebook back in March, which I found out about nearly a month ago.
He consistently gets angry at things, which makes me upset, but he never truly takes it out on me.
We have a really tough time compromising: I love videogames and Metal/Progressive music, he likes pop and doesn't really care for videogames (other than Skyrim, oddly).
...BUT, the things we do enjoy doing together have created some of the best times of my life. We've gone to Mexico and Canada together, and done lots of mini-trips that I've greatly enjoyed. In fact, even though he doesn't like videogames, he planned a trip to the Smithsonian for the GamesFest when the Art of Video Games exhibit opened earlier this
year.
But, once again, he is scared to move out of his house (I'm 21 and he's 25), because he doesn't think he makes enough money to provide for himself. This is also delaying his proposal to me, according to him.
However, I just get so frustrated at him sometimes, and think, "this will never work."
But when he isn't around, I get depressed and miss him soooo much. If he did propose today, I would say "Yes."
I am so confused

I love him 90% of the time, but 10% of the time he just makes me so angry and raises compatibility issues. I understand the sex thing is completely on me, but I'm just so unsure about everything else.
Ugh.