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If it only were the looks. I'm pretty decent in the looks department (I know plenty of guys who are uglier than me and have a cute gf), but thanks to social anxiety girls regard me as an asexual friend in the best case or as a creepy weirdo in the worst.
Yeah, I'm sure I'll mature into a date-able person. Not.
I can't even get laid, let alone find a girlfriend.
No normal chick would want an awkward boyfriend with anxiety problems (and I honestly can't blame them), and chicks with SA mostly want a strong guy for support instead of someone who shares their problem.
Although I had two or three chances for getting laid in the last years, I can't see myself being able to take these opportunities any time soon, should more arise.
One opportunity would've involved dancing (which I suck at so badly. I think my motor cortex is damaged or something), for the others I'd have had to be a LOT more pro-active.
Prax
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This thread sure went places!
On the maths:
Not everyone will be able to get the hang of it. It requires a certain way of thinking or at least tricking your brain. Some people just don't have the working and/or long-term memory or conditioning to allow for the steps to sink in.
For me, I usually needed to go through things twice, come up with mnemonics or ways to tell a "story" with how to deal with certain problem sets, rewrite notes to make it "understandable", and etc. And I am the type of person that is okay with math/learning in the first place! So I can only imagine how gruelling it is for people who REALLY have to work at it. (I still dislike math a lot though lol)
I know for some of my family members, anxiety played a huge role in them blanking out on everything for tests, despite doing all the lessons and studying and being intelligent people in general.
It's totally possible to get through, but it might take a whole lot of work and dedication, so be ready for it, guys!
On religion and depression:
In the chat, I went on some philosophizing tangent about how depression usually turns into a shortcut (or more like jettisons someone) into existential angst due to the general depletion of meaning and significance of activities, relationships, and the things that make life what it is. To me, existential angst is when you feel untethered to life, turning into an alien loose from Earth's orbit viewing all the "humans" are who are not you back on that strange planet.
On the other hand, religion, especially if one was brought up under a strong routine and mental conditioning, can serve as a strong tether against being flung into this state. Not only does it provide a strong sense of community or identity (providing a social support network for people to turn to), but most religions also focus on clearly defining the meaning and significance of one's existence, so if a believer were ever in doubt or forgot, the words are right there. Concrete.
That said, religion is no guarantee, and someone could easily get lost in spite of it or even because of it (turning different parts of religious teaching against themselves, like feeling they must be deserving of punishment, otherwise it wouldn't happen etc.).
My intuition is that anything could serve as such a tether. It doesn't have to be religion, but it usually does need to be practiced on and conditioned into a person. Like good habits, positivity, focus on self-improvement, passion with a hobby/community, focus on service or family. Religion just happens to be a very strong social institution with many set rules encompassing many aspects of life and gets conditioned into most people early, making it one of the stronger and easily accessible tether points.
For the record though, I'm not religious and would fall within the weak atheist spectrum if I were to be logical about it.. but I still consider myself spiritual and even an arbitrary deist (in that I choose to believe/humour with there being higher powers and all that magical stuff because I think it sounds cool and makes life more fun that way--and when I mean arbitrary, I mean that I literally make up my own stuff to believe in).
On the magnification of loneliness/despair when faced with seeing other couples:
I understand that there is a longing for social validation or companionship that is not easy to attain for everyone. Even with people not dealing with heavy illness face a tough time with this.
The thing is, all sorts of people get together in all kinds of different circumstances... not all times ideal either. A lot of it is just through chance or circumstance, and beating yourself up for it likely won't make your chances any greater.
I myself don't know what the big deal is because I've always been kind of.. ambivalent about the whole social norms and relationship thing, but if you really want to up your chances just like all these random strangers have:
- put yourself out there: greet people, be interested in them, set up online dating profiles (swallow that fear and pride, the world is vast!) -- most people are scared. If you show initiative, you automatically gain bonus steps.
- be open to people with interest in you: do you need to be more open/accepting? Are your preferences really specific and/or unrealistic?
- cultivate in yourself what you want to attract: figure out why you want the type of person you want and whether you can be the person they want (this is the harsh reality part. It's nice to want things, but everyone wants certain things).
- cultivate and showcase your strengths, minimize your weaknesses: be proud of the things you can do, and work on improving your faults. This is good for yourself and also makes you more attractive/stand out to others.
- it's okay to be rejected and it's okay to reject: not everyone is compatible, and not everyone will give you a good explanation or any kind of explanation. Accept that this will happen and try not to beat yourself up for it if it does.
- keep at it and don't give up: it's a numbers game so it might not work on the 3rd, 10th, or 100th try, but the more you do it, the better your chances. The rest is up to luck.
- these are like.. dating-age tips, and everyone should realize that getting a relationship will not solve everything, but if you work on it and work on yourself at the same time, you will look to gain regardless
Uchip
Well, at least you have the good fortune to be able to take it for granted?
Feel some sheepish smugness in that. So good.
Nlroh
I hope you wake up and feel better too. Take a deep breath and relax and think of something pleasing and irrelevant as you drift to sleep (like a pop music video or nature documentary--
)
On the maths:
Not everyone will be able to get the hang of it. It requires a certain way of thinking or at least tricking your brain. Some people just don't have the working and/or long-term memory or conditioning to allow for the steps to sink in.
For me, I usually needed to go through things twice, come up with mnemonics or ways to tell a "story" with how to deal with certain problem sets, rewrite notes to make it "understandable", and etc. And I am the type of person that is okay with math/learning in the first place! So I can only imagine how gruelling it is for people who REALLY have to work at it. (I still dislike math a lot though lol)
I know for some of my family members, anxiety played a huge role in them blanking out on everything for tests, despite doing all the lessons and studying and being intelligent people in general.
It's totally possible to get through, but it might take a whole lot of work and dedication, so be ready for it, guys!
On religion and depression:
In the chat, I went on some philosophizing tangent about how depression usually turns into a shortcut (or more like jettisons someone) into existential angst due to the general depletion of meaning and significance of activities, relationships, and the things that make life what it is. To me, existential angst is when you feel untethered to life, turning into an alien loose from Earth's orbit viewing all the "humans" are who are not you back on that strange planet.
On the other hand, religion, especially if one was brought up under a strong routine and mental conditioning, can serve as a strong tether against being flung into this state. Not only does it provide a strong sense of community or identity (providing a social support network for people to turn to), but most religions also focus on clearly defining the meaning and significance of one's existence, so if a believer were ever in doubt or forgot, the words are right there. Concrete.
That said, religion is no guarantee, and someone could easily get lost in spite of it or even because of it (turning different parts of religious teaching against themselves, like feeling they must be deserving of punishment, otherwise it wouldn't happen etc.).
My intuition is that anything could serve as such a tether. It doesn't have to be religion, but it usually does need to be practiced on and conditioned into a person. Like good habits, positivity, focus on self-improvement, passion with a hobby/community, focus on service or family. Religion just happens to be a very strong social institution with many set rules encompassing many aspects of life and gets conditioned into most people early, making it one of the stronger and easily accessible tether points.
For the record though, I'm not religious and would fall within the weak atheist spectrum if I were to be logical about it.. but I still consider myself spiritual and even an arbitrary deist (in that I choose to believe/humour with there being higher powers and all that magical stuff because I think it sounds cool and makes life more fun that way--and when I mean arbitrary, I mean that I literally make up my own stuff to believe in).
On the magnification of loneliness/despair when faced with seeing other couples:
I understand that there is a longing for social validation or companionship that is not easy to attain for everyone. Even with people not dealing with heavy illness face a tough time with this.
The thing is, all sorts of people get together in all kinds of different circumstances... not all times ideal either. A lot of it is just through chance or circumstance, and beating yourself up for it likely won't make your chances any greater.
I myself don't know what the big deal is because I've always been kind of.. ambivalent about the whole social norms and relationship thing, but if you really want to up your chances just like all these random strangers have:
- put yourself out there: greet people, be interested in them, set up online dating profiles (swallow that fear and pride, the world is vast!) -- most people are scared. If you show initiative, you automatically gain bonus steps.
- be open to people with interest in you: do you need to be more open/accepting? Are your preferences really specific and/or unrealistic?
- cultivate in yourself what you want to attract: figure out why you want the type of person you want and whether you can be the person they want (this is the harsh reality part. It's nice to want things, but everyone wants certain things).
- cultivate and showcase your strengths, minimize your weaknesses: be proud of the things you can do, and work on improving your faults. This is good for yourself and also makes you more attractive/stand out to others.
- it's okay to be rejected and it's okay to reject: not everyone is compatible, and not everyone will give you a good explanation or any kind of explanation. Accept that this will happen and try not to beat yourself up for it if it does.
- keep at it and don't give up: it's a numbers game so it might not work on the 3rd, 10th, or 100th try, but the more you do it, the better your chances. The rest is up to luck.
- these are like.. dating-age tips, and everyone should realize that getting a relationship will not solve everything, but if you work on it and work on yourself at the same time, you will look to gain regardless
Uchip
Well, at least you have the good fortune to be able to take it for granted?
Feel some sheepish smugness in that. So good.
Nlroh
I hope you wake up and feel better too. Take a deep breath and relax and think of something pleasing and irrelevant as you drift to sleep (like a pop music video or nature documentary--
your avatar leads me to believe you've been watching Young Justice, but hopefully not, because the circumstances of what's happening with that series is frustrating now.. lol
I've decided that social outlets like NeoGAF probably aren't doing me any good (as an introverted and closed off person) in terms of interacting and connecting with people in the real world. Would it be a good idea to ask for a temporary ban and set up a block on my router? I'm a few days into my first job so if it's ever going to happen, now might be the best time.
I don't know if you'll be fine with this, but I feel like the right thing anyway: Happy birthday Charles! Hope your medical condition has gotten better.
Oh, and if you're a PC gamer, I think you could probably like a Steam game as a birthday gift. Just PM me with your ID, and a game you want (I don't have too much spare money, so I'd appreciate it if you choose a $5 game as most. Maybe you'd like to wait for the autumn/winter sale to get more money's worth.)
If you love listening to Creedence and Yes and Alan Parsons and Genesis, and playing F.E.A.R. and Max Payne and GTA Vice City, and watching The Matrix and Back to the Future and Toy Story trilogies, and reading Isaac Asimov, then I'm totally prepared to be your best friend!
If only it were just poor fashion choices! It's more about being an awkward dude who needed to grow into his looks. Part of that WAS finding female friends who would gently nudge me in the right direction, fashion/hair/etc. -wise, part of that was getting some self-confidence (I could barely look at myself in the mirror - it's no wonder things were a bit rough around the edges), part of it was just giving a bit of a crap, and there was a healthy dose of just plain old TIME involved.
The other big thing is confidence. You can see that I had none in that photo, just in my body language. By the time college roles around, I was more secure in who I was and what I was doing. And people responded to that! My wife laughs about the time she was over in my dorm room on a Friday night, you know, engaging in wholesome activities like Boggle or whatever, and my lady friend who I had kind of a flirty thing going with dropped by to drop off some notes she had borrowed. Dropping off the notes involved getting all dressed up, coming by at like 9:00 on a Friday, and asking if I had any plans. When I said, err, my lady friend is over, she sort of left in tears. I don't feel great about that, 'cause I'm a nice guy, but on the other hand, I feel kinda good that happened to little old me.
This isn't meant to be Bagels' story time *- I'm just trying to say I went from looking and feeling pretty hopeless to actually having some game. Part of it was me and part of it was finding girls who actually wanted quirky, funny, nice, academically-minded guys. I was sort of resigned to a life of celibacy after hearing for the millionth time, "Aw! You're like a brother to me!" but I moved into a new phase where I felt comfortable with who I was, embraced my quirks instead of trying to be invisible, and found that people actually preferred me being me.
I also found a decent looking dude under all that hair, the glasses, and bowtie. I really needed a female perspective to find it, but I did. That female perspective was dating a good friend so I did what any friend and gentleman would do and sort if accidentally stole her.
*I do have some great stories, though!
(Forgot to mention the crippling social anxiety I developed in high school. Coming to terms with that was vital.)
Collete
Member
You can tell them in the interview next week anyways!
(Still I am surprised how the human body changes so much...and yet I still look like I'm in 5th grade T_T)
Wow, jubei you sound like a really rad person!
You're not as bad as you might think
Now if only we had more people like that in this world...
Well it depends what elective singing course you're going into.
If it's the intro course, you're going to be allowed mistakes and they'll help you improve.
When I was in middle school, I knew nothing of the violin. I didn't even know how to use the bow or how to hold the violin.
But they actually help you take baby steps on how to play it, so even if you suck, it's a safe place to learn.
I would encourage you to take it fiction!
You never know until you try it.
Good, you acknowledge this Windam!
That's a good step forward, proud of ya
And if you need help with Pre Calc, talk to me via Skype, I did well in my freshman year in that class.
You better be sleeping by the time I post this =_=
But I am surprised at how this thread grew and I went to sleep and it burst into 2-3 new pages! Wow guys, just shows GAF is truly evolving and becoming a nicer place
I don't think he was talking about fashion, more of how he looked like in general and how anyone has a chance in this world.
I think anyone is capable of being beautiful on the inside. Will you allow yourself to be that person is the question.
Funny about this thought, I was thinking of doing the same thing as well.
Not that people on GAF are bad or anything, but I didn't want to bother a ton of people anymore.
I feel like what I have to say, being around people, it doesn't bring any substance or use.
However in the end of the day, the part of the me that yearns for human interaction goes on autopilot and end up coming back here bothering everyone.
Point is, you have to ask yourself honestly.
If you were to do that, would you actually be OK and having a decent lifestyle?
If not, then don't even do it. People on GAF are people too as Uchip said.
Just because the medium is different, doesn't change there's a person on the other side.
You can tell them in the interview next week anyways!
(Still I am surprised how the human body changes so much...and yet I still look like I'm in 5th grade
You better be sleeping by the time I post this =_=
But I am surprised at how this thread grew and I went to sleep and it burst into 2-3 new pages! Wow guys, just shows GAF is truly evolving and becoming a nicer place
I don't think he was talking about fashion, more of how he looked like in general and how anyone has a chance in this world.
I think anyone is capable of being beautiful on the inside. Will you allow yourself to be that person is the question.
See? Oomi, who is like the nicest person in the world (well, next to Fiction, but she is RIDICULOUSLY nice) is doing everything in her power not to call me ugly. Seriously, I don't blame her. It's not just about fashion. I just had a loooooong awkward period, both on the outside, and in terms of how I felt about myself (which manifests in things like body language). You need to feel good to look good. It's not really that other people will be attracted to you and make you feel good. You've got to feel good about yourself and others will be attracted to you. Corny, I know, but it's the truth.
Look at the attractive people who have been in this thread [names withheld - you know who you are, you beautiful people!] who feel ugly and undateable. If you aren't comfortable with the quirks, strengths, and weaknesses that make you unique, it doesn't matter what you see in the mirror.
Oh, and I did sleep.
And what about someone with terrible, terrible trust issues?
Honestly? You might consider therapy. Those trust issues are really going to hold you back. You have to learn to evaluate how trustworthy someone is and not let getting burned occasionally make you give up entirely. You can't form any kind of relationship without trust.
Collete
Member
See? Oomi, who is like the nicest person in the world (well, next to Fiction, but she is RIDICULOUSLY nice) is doing everything in her power not to call me ugly. Seriously, I don't blame her. It's not just about fashion. I just had a loooooong awkward period, both on the outside, and in terms of how I felt about myself (which manifests in things like body language). You need to feel good to look good. It's not really that other people will be attracted to you and make you feel good. You've got to feel good about yourself and others will be attracted to you. Corny, I know, but it's the truth.
Look at the attractive people who have been in this thread [names withheld - you know who you are, you beautiful people!] who feel ugly and undateable. If you aren't comfortable with the quirks, strengths, and weaknesses that make you unique, it doesn't matter what you see in the mirror.
Oh, and I did sleep.
You're exaggerating me too much again. =_=
I'm not that nice dude...
(I wish I was, but I'm really not.)
And good!
And what about someone with terrible, terrible trust issues?
I have terrible trust issues as well as you already know Windam.
We just have to keep trying our best man, we're bound to get it right somewhere.
I feel like I'm poking in the right direction, but I'm scared as hell being betrayed again.
We have each other as back up so it's going to be OK I think.
Already going to therapy, so yeah, I have a feeling we'll be spending a lot of time on this. It's terrible.
And what about someone with terrible, terrible trust issues?
You can give in to your trust issues but then you'd be consigned to being alone, a guaranteed negative. Or you can accept those issues and take them on. You take an exam you might fail. You apply for a job you might get rejected. You walk down the road you might get hit by a bus. Whenever you do something there's a risk of failure, that's a price that you have to accept if you want to do anything.
This is pretty much me. I trust my friends, trust people when it comes to making friends/acquaintences. But I will never trust a guy enough to ever date them. I'm never giving a guy the chance to call me "the biggest mistake ever" ever again.
It all works out though. Men have never expressed interest in dating me, so we have a mutual silent understanding lol.
User 100115
Banned
You can tell them in the interview next week anyways!
(Still I am surprised how the human body changes so much...and yet I still look like I'm in 5th grade T_T)
Wow, jubei you sound like a really rad person!
You're not as bad as you might think
Now if only we had more people like that in this world...
Well it depends what elective singing course you're going into.
If it's the intro course, you're going to be allowed mistakes and they'll help you improve.
When I was in middle school, I knew nothing of the violin. I didn't even know how to use the bow or how to hold the violin.
But they actually help you take baby steps on how to play it, so even if you suck, it's a safe place to learn.
I would encourage you to take it fiction!
You never know until you try it.
Good, you acknowledge this Windam!
That's a good step forward, proud of ya
And if you need help with Pre Calc, talk to me via Skype, I did well in my freshman year in that class.
You better be sleeping by the time I post this =_=
But I am surprised at how this thread grew and I went to sleep and it burst into 2-3 new pages! Wow guys, just shows GAF is truly evolving and becoming a nicer place
I don't think he was talking about fashion, more of how he looked like in general and how anyone has a chance in this world.
I think anyone is capable of being beautiful on the inside. Will you allow yourself to be that person is the question.
Funny about this thought, I was thinking of doing the same thing as well.
Not that people on GAF are bad or anything, but I didn't want to bother a ton of people anymore.
I feel like what I have to say, being around people, it doesn't bring any substance or use.
However in the end of the day, the part of the me that yearns for human interaction goes on autopilot and end up coming back here bothering everyone.
Point is, you have to ask yourself honestly.
If you were to do that, would you actually be OK and having a decent lifestyle?
If not, then don't even do it. People on GAF are people too as Uchip said.
Just because the medium is different, doesn't change there's a person on the other side.
Depending on how much time I have, I kinda want to take a violin elective too. But yeah, hopefully I'll be able to take a beginning singing course or something.
Yeah, but you still have to find someone who wants to date you in the first place.
I lost weight, got rid of my Acne by treatment, I carefully choose my clothing, picked up hobbies like karting and playing the guitar, I love films, I like reading, I'm interested in a lot of things. I don't even think I look ugly, I'm an average guy except from time to time when I still feel fat.
Doesn't matter shit if you don't meet new people and especially girls. I'm almost 21 now, when I'm 25 I'm just paying for a prostitute. I'd have no idea how it feels to have someone who loves you, but atleast I'd get laid for once. Then again, the idea of me having to pay for one of the most basic things a human should be able to do only makes me feel more shitty.
User 100115
Banned
Collete
Member
Is it anxiety or are you coming down with something? I wish I could help you hon.
Anxiety, anger etc.
It happens a lot when my depression gets to it's lowest point.
My immune system also lowers so I might get a fever from some stupid virus or something.
And now I'm feeling light headed as well.
We'll work through this, Oomi. You're an incredible person and I love you to death. I want to do anything I can to help!
can we form a depression band?!
I agree with this - math is just taught poorly. I think more people can become at least competent at math. You just need decent, personalized instruction.
Teach me the guitar, violin or piano and I'm in
. Feeling crummy now as I have been all day. In my school's guidance department, missed my math period. Test tomorrow, I'm not prepared, I'm scared. I'm gonna break soon probably.
Teach me the guitar, violin or piano and I'm in
Feeling crummy now as I have been all day. In my school's guidance department, missed my math period. Test tomorrow, I'm not prepared, I'm scared. I'm gonna break soon probably.
Hang in there! It's just a test. If you need help with practice problems, you know where to find me.
Charles Foster Kane
Rosebud
:*(
Can I offer you a hanky? What's wrong?
Charles Foster Kane
Rosebud
Nothing much, just feeling pretty lonely on my birthday. I'll get over it. It's just affecting me a bit right now.
Hey! Happy birthday! Sorry it's a lonely one. I'm on skype if you want to chat.
Charles Foster Kane
Rosebud
That's fine, thanks. I'm just a very emotional person lol.
I am too. So you have no b-day plans?
Charles Foster Kane
Rosebud
None really. I've just been on my pc.
If you're near Indiana, I'll take you out for a beer. It can't be THAT far of a drive, can it?
Charles Foster Kane
Rosebud
I'm in Costa Rica, so it's pretty far
Happy birthday! Watch some comedy, man. It always helps
Thanks! Yes, I've been doing that.
yeah maybe try doing something a little special even if it's small to keep up the mood. watch old episodes of a tv show you love, listen to your favourite album, play your favourite game, watch your favourite film (maybe not citizen kane though lol), treat yourself to a great meal or snack.
That would be it. It really was taught poorly in both of the colleges I've gone to.
I'm in Costa Rica, so it's pretty far
Start driving now! Road trip!
Alternatively, fly me to Costa Rica!
Charles Foster Kane
Rosebud
Interestingly enough I can't really say I'm that sad. It's a strange/hard state of mind to explain.
That'd be cool lol.
That'd be cool lol.
I didn't see a thread for it (not a real one at least) but has anyone ever delt with OCD? I've been battling it for about 2 months now and it's finally starting to take it's toll.
It's almost exclusively linked to my job and it's going to get me fired. I've been seeing a physiatrist for it, but the amount of time it takes to fix it is too long, and it affects my out put.
Anyways, life has basically fallen apart this year. in 2010 I moved across the country with a women whom I very much loved, things weren't perfect but we kind of had a dysfunctial balance to things. 2012, we broke up and lived together to finish out the lease, I moved out thinking it would be better, but it hasn't been. I literally know no one here, minus the 4 people I work with. I work 9 pm to 6 am, which is basically killing me. The hours keep me from really meeting people, since I sleep all day. I've been looking for a day job, since Janurary and nothing is out there. I literally talk to no one all day (not even my racist co-workers) I go to bed when it's dark out and wake up when it's dark out, 5-6 days a week.
2 months ago I started getting horrible anxiety about stacking products and the cleaniness of my job. I would constantly pick up at the warehosue I work at, which slows down my production. If I leave work with something undone, I literally have a panic attack, can't breathe and the desire to go back to work and do the meaning less task is so over powering I either get home and pace around my apartment (until I pass out on the floor) or go all the way back to work and do what ever it was that I had to do (usually rechecking things, or picking up trash in an extremely dirty warehouse). I try and do this cleaning or my insane way of stacking product as I go along, but then it takes more time from me producing output. I frankly don't want the job, but I need the health insurance to pay for the doctor.
This is all linked to my ex-girlfriend, who I had a horrible break up with. I've tried several times to contact her to appoligize, but nothing. I don't know her number so all I can do is email, she never repsonds.
Life has become unlivable. I get anxiety in public and I get anxiety just sitting around, nothing really relaxes me. If and when I fall asleep I never want to wake up, because I know the cycle starts again.
I realize I need to be on some kind of medication, but it's taking a while for me to get a proper prescription, I've never been on any type of medication and would rather learn to cope with this on my own, but that seems impossible.
At times it's hopeless, other times it seems too hard. It's one thing to have a broken heart but it's another thing when it effects your mind.
It's almost exclusively linked to my job and it's going to get me fired. I've been seeing a physiatrist for it, but the amount of time it takes to fix it is too long, and it affects my out put.
Anyways, life has basically fallen apart this year. in 2010 I moved across the country with a women whom I very much loved, things weren't perfect but we kind of had a dysfunctial balance to things. 2012, we broke up and lived together to finish out the lease, I moved out thinking it would be better, but it hasn't been. I literally know no one here, minus the 4 people I work with. I work 9 pm to 6 am, which is basically killing me. The hours keep me from really meeting people, since I sleep all day. I've been looking for a day job, since Janurary and nothing is out there. I literally talk to no one all day (not even my racist co-workers) I go to bed when it's dark out and wake up when it's dark out, 5-6 days a week.
2 months ago I started getting horrible anxiety about stacking products and the cleaniness of my job. I would constantly pick up at the warehosue I work at, which slows down my production. If I leave work with something undone, I literally have a panic attack, can't breathe and the desire to go back to work and do the meaning less task is so over powering I either get home and pace around my apartment (until I pass out on the floor) or go all the way back to work and do what ever it was that I had to do (usually rechecking things, or picking up trash in an extremely dirty warehouse). I try and do this cleaning or my insane way of stacking product as I go along, but then it takes more time from me producing output. I frankly don't want the job, but I need the health insurance to pay for the doctor.
This is all linked to my ex-girlfriend, who I had a horrible break up with. I've tried several times to contact her to appoligize, but nothing. I don't know her number so all I can do is email, she never repsonds.
Life has become unlivable. I get anxiety in public and I get anxiety just sitting around, nothing really relaxes me. If and when I fall asleep I never want to wake up, because I know the cycle starts again.
I realize I need to be on some kind of medication, but it's taking a while for me to get a proper prescription, I've never been on any type of medication and would rather learn to cope with this on my own, but that seems impossible.
At times it's hopeless, other times it seems too hard. It's one thing to have a broken heart but it's another thing when it effects your mind.
Here's some info on OCD.
In terms of meds,
"Antidepressants that have been specifically approved by the Food and Drug Administration (FDA) to treat OCD include:
Clomipramine (Anafranil)
Fluvoxamine (Luvox)
Fluoxetine (Prozac)
Paroxetine (Paxil, Pexeva)
Sertraline (Zoloft)
However, many other antidepressants and other psychiatric medications on the market also may be used to treat OCD off-label. Off-label use is a common and legal practice of using a medication to treat a condition not specifically listed on its prescribing label as an FDA-approved use."
I don't have personal experience with OCD. I do know that it's treatable with meds and therapy. Let me dig into it a bit more and see if I find anything else helpful.
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Gah, that sucks. When I get super anxious I try the distraction route: a long walk, lotttts of music, ect. Is there anything in the past that you've tried that has worked?
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