Mental Health |OT| Depression & Co.
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Darkmakaimura
Can You Imagine What SureAI Is Going To Do With Garfield?
You have Netflix? Maybe at least you can justify getting online to watch a movie or TV show. I was doing that and got hooked to Fringe. Maybe try out a new show you never watched. I don't know if you're into anime (I'm assuming you do due to your avatar) but have you seen Little Witch Academia yet? Even if you don't like anime, it's really cute and very well animated. It's also only 26 minutes long so you won't waste too much time if you don't like it. I'm not much of an anime fan unless its JRPGs but I literally fell instantly in love with it.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RBlqxEIJ_Cg
Cute.<3 back. Peep peep. :v
Welcome back.
<3 back. Peep peep. :v
Is that a duck? Lucky . . .
I will second that Little Witch Academia recommendation. It's a very fun anime with amazing animation. I look forward to Little Witch Academia 2. Same guys (Trigger) are also working on Kill La Kill which sounds very interesting. Fringe is a good show to watch as well. Great characters.
That duck is very cute. I want to pet it.
Collete
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Don't have Netflix.
I watched the OVA, I wish they made a series otherwise I'd be watching the whole thing by now lol.
Right now I'm doing my university's mathematics assessment quiz and I am failing horribly I think. (I was never great at math, just good, with the potential to improve. The last year really wrecked my brain and confidence though, so any/all math skills went down the drain and now I know/understand jack shit. It's like starting all over again, really.) Fuck this shit, why did I decide that my passion was science and medicine? (Especially if it involves math.) Why couldn't I be interested in linguistics or history or something instead? Fuck me. It's summer and I can't catch a break from this crap. 
EDIT: FUCK I ACCIDENTALLY SOMEHOW CLICKED REFRESH PAGE AND LOST ALL MY ANSWERS AND I WAS ALMOST DONE, TOO. DFKLNDHFJLKA Someone please just fucking kill me.
EDIT: FUCK I ACCIDENTALLY SOMEHOW CLICKED REFRESH PAGE AND LOST ALL MY ANSWERS AND I WAS ALMOST DONE, TOO. DFKLNDHFJLKA Someone please just fucking kill me.
Lionheart1827
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There's nothing to learn from "That thing you've wanted to do all your life is now shut off from your forever."
It was my passion, and what I wanted to do with my life and now I can never do it because I flunked out of college and couldn't get the money to get re-enrolled in time. You don't get it. My life is over now. It's done. I won't ever be able to re-enrolling in that college or the one I wanted to transfer to. I'm going to lose everything I own. I'm going to be out on the streets again. My family won't help me and doesn't want anything to do with me.
It was an awful life. There was never anything good in it. Everything I thought was good was just something awful waiting to happen. I've never had anything. And now I never will.
So jealous I want a duckling D:<3 back. Peep peep. :v
This is why I need background noise to sleep.
Me every night. It's why I sometimes have to wait until I'm dead tired to go to sleep.
User 100115
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Same.
Though I usually combat the 'oh god whys' by instead making up elaborate stories in my head as I fall asleep. It works!
<3 back. Peep peep. :v
So damn cute. Jesus.
Sqrt_minus_one
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Like a cow chewing cud for me the same shit running through my head all the time. A VHS constantly rewinding to remind of the times that I think* I have fucked up.
*I may or may not actually have fucked up but somehow I blame myself for everything. I find rationalising it away helps a bit, some positive reinforcement can help too.
whiterabbit
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Not ready for uni? Why
Darkmakaimura
Can You Imagine What SureAI Is Going To Do With Garfield?
Nobody should blame you in the least regarding your anxiety with going to college. Anyone will tell you it's stressful.Went to see my university today and pick my courses for first year.
I AM NOT READY FOR THIS. AT ALL.
Seriously, I am so fucking terrified it's not even funny. Almost had an anxiety attack in the computer lab and wanted to cry. Fuck this.
Do you know anyone who is attending? Maybe someone you can spend time with studying if you need help?
eddfromtheriver
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Save me... i have become all i've despised...
Darkmakaimura
Can You Imagine What SureAI Is Going To Do With Garfield?
What happened?
eddfromtheriver
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It's just depression trying to befriend me again... i think i might have an STD, and i am going to get tested tomorrow... but i find it embarrasing... however it needs to be done quickly to cure it before it damages me even more...
Sad and depressing thoughts flood my mind right now... the grey skies sure aren't helping...
Thanks for asking.
Went to see my university today and pick my courses for first year.
I AM NOT READY FOR THIS. AT ALL.
Seriously, I am so fucking terrified it's not even funny. Almost had an anxiety attack in the computer lab and wanted to cry. Fuck this.
Nobody is. Trust me on that. Also, every university has resources to help students in that very same situation, because there are a LOT of people who unfortunately have to go through this. Visiting the Uni is nice too, though! Big building, lots of people you can potentially meet and all. Lots of opportunities to potentially/hopefully feel better.
I'll keep my fingers crossed for you!
Darkmakaimura
Can You Imagine What SureAI Is Going To Do With Garfield?
Do you know for sure if you have an STD? I would wait for the results and see what happens if not, but don't be embarrassed. At least you're being responsible about it and getting it taken care of quickly enough.
What Smiley said.
If you have serious anxiety issues that would impede your learning or concentration then you may be able to get specific help at the college.
eddfromtheriver
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I know it is not advised for people to look up symptoms online, but i did just that... and several STD's came up as possible culprits. I just wanna get well... find out what it is i have... and deal with it... i knew i shouldn't have dated that girl...
A few people. None in my program (biomedical science), though. All doing business or criminology or something else. Just walking around the campus made me feel uneasy rather than excited. Add to that the fact that I failed to work my timetable out in a way that would net me a single day off (due to classes being filled already or spots being reserved), plus the long commute (one and a half hours either way, which will be a joy for my 8:30 am classes), and you have one very scared and nervous Windam.
Plus I've been feeling suicidal lately so I'm doubting that I'll ever even make it into the first class and have been thinking that all this is a big waste of time and money.
Darkmakaimura
Can You Imagine What SureAI Is Going To Do With Garfield?
Just want to once again mention how glad I am to see this thread is full of friendly people. Honestly, I was a bit worried to post in here and expected "bootstrap" type of replies but that has certainly not been the case. Thanks to RionaaM, MikeDip, Pau, Oomi and all the rest of you great folks for keeping it really nice and comfortable for people like me.... like us.... to post here.
But then how are ya gonna see the picture Im gonna draw for ya?
You will totally make it into that first class! And you'll see 80% of the people in that class are in a very similar situation to you. New place, new people, new lifestyle, new responsibilities. For worse, admittedly, but also for better. Mostly for better, and I speak from experience from nearly literally EVERYONE I know that moved to Uni who didn't like High School.
We try. :x
Darkmakaimura
Can You Imagine What SureAI Is Going To Do With Garfield?
I was just thinking.... is there any chance you could delay college for another 6 months or a year while you talk further to a therapist or receive medication that may help? I'm not going to lie that what you mention above does sound stressful. An hour and a half to get to school and back is a pretty lengthy amount of travel time and you, like any of us who have a lot of anxiety of depression, definitely need as much time of non-stress related activity as you can get whether that means being at a job you like or playing video games.
eddfromtheriver
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Isn't funny that you could post on FB that you're currently slitting your wrists and yet have not one person reply?... not that i've done it... but i very much think that would be the case.
eddfromtheriver
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A copious amount of no fucks given.
Darkmakaimura
Can You Imagine What SureAI Is Going To Do With Garfield?
More than likely, someone will call the police and you'll be held in a Legal 2000. It's not an arrest but you'll be taken to a hospital and held for observation in suicide watch. I've been through it and let me tell you, it sucks. Although, I didn't post on FB. I had made a phone call to a mental health help line that was connected with my job (which funny enough, I had lost that day which is part of why I called) and just because I said I had thought about running out into traffic to kill myself, they got a hold of the authorities. They were nice to me as like I said, it's not an arrest or anything like that but more of a "we don't want to deal with a suicide on our hands so we need to take you to get help" kind of thing.
SpartanForce
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I feel like a loser.
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Think more positively.
You'll only feel like a loser if you allow yourself too!
Darkmakaimura
Can You Imagine What SureAI Is Going To Do With Garfield?
Some good news tonight.
The friend I mentioned gave me a call tonight at around 11pm. He was drunk but asked me if I wanted to go on a trip with him and his dad to Tonopah on Monday morning. "Hell yeah!" I said. So, I'm heading to his place on Sunday and I'm guessing we're going to hang out Sunday night and then Monday morning we're heading out and will probably hit up a bar or two in Tonopah as well. I'm pretty stoked since I haven't been on a trip since 2006. Looking forward to it!
The friend I mentioned gave me a call tonight at around 11pm. He was drunk but asked me if I wanted to go on a trip with him and his dad to Tonopah on Monday morning. "Hell yeah!" I said. So, I'm heading to his place on Sunday and I'm guessing we're going to hang out Sunday night and then Monday morning we're heading out and will probably hit up a bar or two in Tonopah as well. I'm pretty stoked since I haven't been on a trip since 2006. Looking forward to it!
Cannot begin to explain how frustrated at myself I am that I've been ill in some form or another for the majority of my trip so far. Paris is beautiful and awesome and I get to cough up a lung. Especially given I rarely get sick at home.
Trying to make the most of it anyway, it's difficult not to be hard on myself though. Hopefully this medicine works.
Trying to make the most of it anyway, it's difficult not to be hard on myself though. Hopefully this medicine works.
You're welcome! We know better than to say "Get over it" or "There are kids in Africa that have it far worse than you, suck it up and deal with it".
Despite what one may think, everyone has a right (or however you want to call it) to feel discontent with their lives. The fact that others may have a worse life doesn't mean anything at all.
I don't really know why you mentioned me, I never do anything, lol. I'm not helping people like the other persons you mentioned (you forgot Bags, Fic and Prax!), and I never have any useful advice to give. But yeah, I like to listen and read other's posts, even if I don't reply to them (not because I don't care, but because I don't have anything useful to say).
Good to hear! Hope you have a great time
This totally works for me too as long as I'm not super wound up before laying down for the night.
Hypereides
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I sense I'm getting some indirect offensive comments from other members around the forum. I guess I deserve that coming from the mess and misunderstanding I made in another particulair thread. It just fuels my negative energy more anyway and I'll use it later on today in the gym.
User 100115
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I don't know the circumstances surrounding what you are talking about, but it will fade if it's truly happening, especially if you ignore it and remain completely civil. People are only looking for a reaction; once they get it they look for more. So if you stop reacting to it, and remain civil, they have nothing to feed on
Kill em with kindness, it works everytime.
Collete
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I'm not sure why I'm mentioned. Lately I feel I've been detering everyone away by being negative and depressed. But thank you for the compliment.
Also...Friend tried to suggest for me to get back into drawing again...So I tried and here's the shitty attempt:
Hypereides
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I don't know the circumstances surrounding what you are talking about, but it will fade if it's truly happening, especially if you ignore it and remain completely civil. People are only looking for a reaction; once they get it they look for more. So if you stop reacting to it, and remain civil, they have nothing to feed on
You know, deep down I know this. I'm old enough to do so. But I often forget it. Thanks for the reminder and positive encouragement!
I think there's a certain quote that goes along like this: " it's not the amount of positive reenforcement that's important, but the way it's delivered "
See, Fiction is much more mature than me. I'm far too eager to stoop down to their level and fight back.
Something that happened last tuesday triggered a reaction that I have not had in years. Im still having it on and off since it happened. I feel borderline delusional and unable to even tell what's going on around me when I allow myself to feel. I'm letting myself believe what I'm being accused of is what I actually did and admitting to it when it's not exactly what happened. I didnt do it with that intent but I'm letting myself believe that I did. When i was accused of lying it brought on this ultra anxious feeling then i felt numb. While I'm feeling this way im a complete compulsive liar. I'll tell the person they are right even if they aren't and even make up things that are even worse than what I did when in reality I didn't. If I try to defend myself in this state I only start making up more lies in my defened myself. I have no idea what is going on with me. This has happened to me before but not in so many years and I just can't think clearly about what to do. . Its like I'm just letting feelings and ideas talk for me. And when I start to defend myself I'll do an awful job communicating plus lie to support my claim. I'm anxious, shaking and on edge. When I focus on just my thoughts what was actually going on and let the thinking side of my brain do the talking, im able to tell the truth. I keep slipping into this delusional anxious state though. I have no idea what I'm experiencing atm. What should I do?
Darkmakaimura
Can You Imagine What SureAI Is Going To Do With Garfield?
You're welcome! We know better than to say "Get over it" or "There are kids in Africa that have it far worse than you, suck it up and deal with it".
Despite what one may think, everyone has a right (or however you want to call it) to feel discontent with their lives. The fact that others may have a worse life doesn't mean anything at all.
I don't really know why you mentioned me, I never do anything, lol. I'm not helping people like the other persons you mentioned (you forgot Bags, Fic and Prax!), and I never have any useful advice to give. But yeah, I like to listen and read other's posts, even if I don't reply to them (not because I don't care, but because I don't have anything useful to say).
Good to hear! Hope you have a great time
I just put a few names from the top of my head. Everyone here has been pretty nice. Some of the mentioned you've PMed me too so I just wanted say thanks for the help, kindness and whatnot. Like I said, I was hesitant to post in this thread initially so it helps a lot that I can without judgement because I know a lot of people would generally just put me down as "feeling sorry for myself" or being a "whiner". In truth, I do come across as that but nobody knows what it's like to be in someone else's shoes. Each of us deal with problems differently than the other. Each of us grew up in different backgrounds, different ways. Not everything that works for one person will work for another. Even more of my "liberal" (for serious lack of a better word) friends are put off easily and quick to judge. I'll even give them the benefit of the doubt and assume they could be right. I mean after all, not being in my shoes can go both ways. Regardless, I do thanks everyone here for being awesome in one way or another.
Hypereides
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See, Fiction is much more mature than me. I'm far too eager to stoop down to their level and fight back.
Well you can still be mature and deliver a knock out at the same time... if you know what I mean. You can still stoop to their level and play it intelligently.
I prefer to handle things in a civil manner though, but I can get mind-numbingly furious if people play me for a fool or trigger certain flashbacks in some way.
eddfromtheriver
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Oh congrats!, hope you have a great time!
Darkmakaimura
Can You Imagine What SureAI Is Going To Do With Garfield?
Thanks. I hope it all works out. Can't wait for Sunday.
This is why I read superhero comics. Solve conflict with epic fights and punching people into buildings!Well you can still be mature and deliver a knock out at the same time... if you know what I mean. You can still stoop to their level and play it intelligently.
I prefer to handle things in a civil manner though, but I can get mind-numbingly furious if people play me for a fool or trigger certain flashbacks in some way.
Have fun on your trip!
Speaking of superhero comics, I got a pair of sparkly Batman underwear. You have no idea how much that can make your day. I suggest everyone to go out and buy a pair.
Okay, I GUESS it doesn't have to be sparkly Batman underwear in particular. But remember that small changes to the routine can make your day a bit brighter. :3
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