My new way of managing how I can reply to things going on in this thread:
I will only respond to the people who have posts on the current page I am on.
I'm sorry if anyone feels ignored or something by me because of it, but it's my own way of dealing with the stressful situation I am faced with of being overwhelmed by how many people I want to respond to and how long it takes for me to write everything. xD
I have on 50 posts per page, so at maximum I will only have 49 posts I will feel compelled to respond to~! (I really hope it doesn't come down to this..!)
I hope you all understand~
(And even if you don't, OH WELL.)
I am actively trying to better myself. I'm joining a gym tomorrow. I recently traveled outside of the country for the first time. So I'm trying. But the biggest roadblock, and the elephant in the room, is my attitude. I've been told by countless people that I'm the most negative person they've ever met in their entire life. But if I'm being realistic that part of my existence will likely never change. So I'll likely look better by being in better shape, but my attitude will continue to alienate people.
I don't know why you are banned right now, but hopefully you will come back or are still reading the thread. >_>
Keep in mind that there is a difference between being realistic and thinking you're being realistic but actually always expecting less or closed off to new possibilities.You can be realistic but hopeful! You can be realistic but also enthusiastic, ambitious, open. It's possible to change a little bit at a time, to prove yourself wrong (for good, not bad!).
I think it's great that you're trying to gain new experiences and even better yourself. I think that will kind of get your mind jumpstarted on new possibilities. Try to keep yourself open to that. Yeah, things might suck and you might be stuck in your mindset for a long while, but even so, you can still go out and do things and try to improve yourself, and look forward for good changes.
I don't know in what way you are alienating people, but I think people generally gravitate more toward those who at least seem willing and open to trying new things instead of shutting them down on first glance. It might take work to rein in your inner cynic a little, but you have time and I tink the steps you are taking will help you in that direction.
Feel like shit today, just tired and numb. Also Church's Chicken, what the fuck happened? I Used to like this stuff, I feel so nauseated pretty sure it made me sick. About to vaporize some lavender flowers, hopefully it'll help . . .
My critique may not be worth much, but I like it. As Classy said, It is very emotive In a way even I can see.
Christ . . . sorry man. I remember when I thought I fried my 6950 after installing an aftermarket cooler, went completely off the walls, self-harmed, all sorts of shit I'm not proud of. If I fucked my computer up now, I really don't know what I'd do . . .
Maybe the chicken was just cooked wrong => food poisoning/salmonella? >__>
I am always afraid of that, anyway! Hope you feel better by now!
Can't catch a fucking break. Ruined $800 of pc parts 2 days after building it.
This retail job is slowly sucking out my soul, one day at a time.
I can't connect with any of the few people I actually talk to.
I barely enjoy anything anymore.
The only escape I have is alcohol, and theres always the next morning.
I just want something nice to happen for a change, goddammit.
Any way you can just use the warranty to get it repaired?
Retail IS petty awful if you don't have a tolerance for interacting with the public.. Any way you can move into a more technical position or something if that's the case? Like inventory work.. filling orders.. etc? Hang in there and use your days off to recharge and try to enjoy things again.
I can read and write and have basic English language skills but I don't think my writing proves I'm average IQ. In fact, my vocabulary is horrendous. You can see I generally write simplistically.
I've had many people think there's something wrong with me. I had one former friend who used to be a special education teacher who told me she thinks I'm 'slow' and 'underdeveloped'. Another former friend who works in the psychology field has told people similar about me. People who have known me long enough do think I'm at least mildly retarded.
It sounds more like maybe your anxiety and depression is what is affecting your thinking.
I mean, whenever I am anxious, I feel my IQ drops. And when I was depressed, I REALLY questioned whether I was competent with anything at all and I am pretty sure I started believing that I had learning and memory issues and my IQ was deteriorating and that I somehow tricked everyone into thinking I was worth anything. Objectively speaking, I am probably pretty intelligent, but anxiety and depression really affects how I think and behave to the point that l questioned myself and even others questioned it (which of course didn't help my self-esteem at all and made me feel even less competent in everything lol).
If you have a lot of anxiety issues and are dealing with depression, your mental processing is clogged up with those things, so it's easy to say that you would seem slow to others, even learning disabled in some ways because those mental health issue will affect memory, learning, information processing, and even being able to express yourself. People in your life have probably picked up on your being flustered or overwhelmed, and having judgment lapses because of those issues and didn't really know what to think of it besides that maybe "something is wrong". Sure. Something is wrong, but probably not because you are actually stupid.
I think despite those problems, you have been able to express yourself very well and coherently.. and even.. maturely and intelligently! I am sure most people with poor intelligence lack the insight to be able to even clearly express which areas of intelligence/thought they have issues with. That you list your desires to be more analytical, formulate good arguments, and perform well in tasks tells me that you are more self-critical than actually unintelligent.
And even if you hold controversial opinions or even some uninformed ones, it doesn't mean that you are below average in intelligence. The average person has PLENTY of uninformed or poorly thought out beliefs and opinions. It just probably seems less so because some of them are so darned confident in themselves sometimes.
Maybe you have the case of the DOWNING EFFECT:
This describes the tendency of people with a below average IQ to overestimate their IQ, and of people with an above average IQ to underestimate their IQ
First time posting in this thread. Any bi-polar peeps creepin? Wanna reminisce about some awesome highs? I miss them. Been a long time numb and drunk.
Switters: Dramatis personæ
Age: Older than you
Job: Minor functionary that everyone really likes
Hobbies: Drinking. Singing. Making music. Writing. World of Tanks.
Ethnicity/orientation: White/Straightish
Drugs on: Lamictal. Heineken.
Reason here: I need attention/Catharsis
I'm not a whiner. I just lack engaging experiences. Hi.
Hello~
I am not bipolar, though because I am somewhat of a creative type that has spurts of.. I don't know.. adrenaline that makes me put extra time and energy into inspired projects until I burn out, and then I have periods of bleehhhhh-i-suck-everything-sucks.. I sometimes think I may have a lower level bipolarness to live with.
Most of my highs are all about doing art or staying up late crafting role-play stories or reading up on something super interesting though. I don't think my brain would me truly do anything extreme and unsafe, or even spend excessively. I do miss the creative highs though and wish I could have ore. xD They are fun and I get so much stuff done except sleep.
It seems like you are managing well though, so that's good!
Try posting the exact hardware&error notifications in the IT-support thread? Maybe they have some better idea/advice of what's happening :x
On the other hand, I shared this in mumble last night and it is pretty easy on the ears. My Theme and Variations, from 2001! It gets the Bagels seal of approval, so I've heard!