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[RionaaM]

Yeah, so I finally came home from a nightclub with some coworkers. And of course, I was rejected by the few girls I approached to. I didn't expect anything different, but I still hate myself all the same.

So, is there a reason why I shouldn't kill myself right here and now? 'Cause I damn sure can't see it at all. I'd even be more useful dead than alive, since my family will be earning my life insurance from my job. If I stay alive, I'm only a waste of space and their money (because I live with them, and my mom cooks my dinner and stuff).

I don't know, I had to force myself not to jump in front of the bus when it came to the stop. Why didn't I do it, I don't know. Haha, what a failure.

 

[Smiley90]

Yeah, so I finally came home from a nightclub with some coworkers. And of course, I was rejected by the few girls I approached to. I didn't expect anything different, but I still hate myself all the same.

So, is there a reason why I shouldn't kill myself right here and now? 'Cause I damn sure can't see it at all. I'd even be more useful dead than alive, since my family will be earning my life insurance from my job. If I stay alive, I'm only a waste of space and their money (because I live with them, and my mom cooks my dinner and stuff).

I don't know, I had to force myself not to jump in front of the bus when it came to the stop. Why didn't I do it, I don't know. Haha, what a failure.

You were able to approach girls? That's actually fairly impressive. I am being completely serious right now - I wish I was able to approach girls. The simple fact that you were able to impresses me and I congratulate you for it. That you got rejected this time doesn't change that, at all. Please don't stop.

You're not a failure.

 

[Daingurse]

Yeah, so I finally came home from a nightclub with some coworkers. And of course, I was rejected by the few girls I approached to. I didn't expect anything different, but I still hate myself all the same.

So, is there a reason why I shouldn't kill myself right here and now? 'Cause I damn sure can't see it at all. I'd even be more useful dead than alive, since my family will be earning my life insurance from my job. If I stay alive, I'm only a waste of space and their money (because I live with them, and my mom cooks my dinner and stuff).

I don't know, I had to force myself not to jump in front of the bus when it came to the stop. Why didn't I do it, I don't know. Haha, what a failure.

Hey man, I don't approach anybody! So you're at least trying man. Not trying to trivialize the pain of rejection, but I don't even attempt what you're doing anymore, so I'd say that's still something man.


There's no reason to kill yourself because your life is perfectly valid, you are perfectly deserving of your life and I know you probably have some people in your life who love and support you. Even when we can't see meaning or purpose in living, I say we should live on inspite of those emotions. You deserve to live your life to the fullest, don't think that you're not deserving of your own life. That's irrational self talk that we simply have to shove aside.


I'd be completely lying if I didn't say such thoughts crossed my mind, I have quite a bit of suicidal ideation. However I'm much happier that you didn't go through with it, this is definitely not something to beat yourself up over, not at all. I think your reluctance shows that you still have some desire to live, so live. We don't need a justification for our life, being alive alone is all the justification you need to live your life. You're not a failure for what you did, not in my eyes.

 

[RionaaM]

You were able to approach girls? That's actually fairly impressive. I am being completely serious right now - I wish I was able to approach girls. The simple fact that you were able to impresses me and I congratulate you for it. That you got rejected this time doesn't change that, at all. Please don't stop.

You're not a failure.

Thanks for the... I don't know, encouraging words, even though you're probably laughing at me right now (I don't blame you, and I'd do the same.) It wasn't impressive at all, I was just a fool, same as always. Of course, the only reactions I can provoke on other people are rejection and disgust.

Oh well, whatever. I'm such a huge coward that I don't even dare to commit suicide, as much as I may want to. I truly deserve to be stuck with this worthless life, I do.

Hey man, I don't approach anybody! So you're at least trying man, not trying to trivialize the pain of rejection, but I don't even attempt what you're doing anymore, so I'd say that's still something man.

There's no reason to kill yourself because your life is perfectly valid, you are perfectly deserving of your life and I know you probably have some people in your life who love and support you. Even when we can't see meaning or purpose in living, I say we should live on inspite of those emotions. You deserve to live your life to the fullest, don't think that you're not deserving of your own life. That's irrational self talk that we simply have to shove aside.


I'd be completely lying if I didn't say such thoughts crossed my mind, I have quite a bit of suicidal ideation. However I'm much happier that you didn't go through with it, this is definitely not something to beat yourself up over, not at all. I think your reluctance shows that you still have some desire to live, so live. We don't need a justification for our life, being alive alone is all the justification you need to live your life. You're not a failure for what you did, not in my eyes.

Thanks. That's very nice, you know, even though I don't see or feel that way. Maybe I should go to sleep right now, so I can go back to my regular boring and useless life tomorrow.

 

[Daingurse]

Thanks for the... I don't know, encouraging words, even though you're probably laughing at me right now (I don't blame you, and I'd do the same.) It wasn't impressive at all, I was just a fool, same as always. Of course, the only reactions I can provoke on other people are rejection and disgust.

Oh well, whatever. I'm such a huge coward that I don't even dare to commit suicide, as much as I may want to. I truly deserve to be stuck with this worthless life, I do.

Well, this is something I can relate to and honestly have to see as an unconventional blessing. I have suicidal ideation but I really don't want to die, hell the concept of death scares the shit outta me, death however is all that makes sense in my head at times.

We need to live our lives as best we can man. We were dealt bad hands, but we have to try and make do as best we can. Living is at times the least we can do, as long as we live things have the potential to improve and get better.

 

[Bagels]

Thanks for the... I don't know, encouraging words, even though you're probably laughing at me right now (I don't blame you, and I'd do the same.) It wasn't impressive at all, I was just a fool, same as always. Of course, the only reactions I can provoke on other people are rejection and disgust.

Oh well, whatever. I'm such a huge coward that I don't even dare to commit suicide, as much as I may want to. I truly deserve to be stuck with this worthless life, I do.


Thanks. That's very nice, you know, even though I don't see or feel that way. Maybe I should go to sleep right now, so I can go back to my regular boring and useless life tomorrow.

You're a good man, Rio. I'd miss you like hell if you were gone. Get some sleep. There are always people to talk to from this community.

 

[Collete]

Friday night is the time to contemplate it all, I suppose, then to cry yourself silly...

 

[EdmondD]

Yeah, so I finally came home from a nightclub with some coworkers. And of course, I was rejected by the few girls I approached to. I didn't expect anything different, but I still hate myself all the same.

So, is there a reason why I shouldn't kill myself right here and now? 'Cause I damn sure can't see it at all. I'd even be more useful dead than alive, since my family will be earning my life insurance from my job. If I stay alive, I'm only a waste of space and their money (because I live with them, and my mom cooks my dinner and stuff).

I don't know, I had to force myself not to jump in front of the bus when it came to the stop. Why didn't I do it, I don't know. Haha, what a failure.

It takes some serious balls to approach people. That rejection stings no doubt, I know from personal experience. Still, you went out there and you tried that's something to be admired. Keep living bro. Suicide would hurt your family tremendously. It is never the answer. I like you a lot Rio. You are a really cool dude in my eyes. I know you might not believe me but I don't say something unless I mean it. Best of luck to you my friend.

 

[Daingurse]

Friday night is the time to contemplate it all, I suppose, then to cry yourself silly...

Yeah I've been there, not really in such a state tonight, but yeah that has been many of my Friday nights. Hang in there Oomikami, always feel free sending me a PM if you want someone to talk to.

 

[jb1234]

I'm starting to notice that when I'm under a lot of stress, I become obsessive and crazy. And not in an endearing way. Lately, I've been really obsessive and crazy and I think that people are getting sick of me.

 

[freddy]

So my memory is slowly getting worse. I don't know if it's due to my meds or just my daily routine being so similar every day. I have no idea if I took my medication this afternoon, I just can't remember.

About that $20 you borrowed from me...


My medication made me do the same thing. To the point of forgetting where I was going in the house multiple times a day.

 

[Wilsongt]

*Grabs a knife* Excuse me. Bagels is my straight with gay tendencies husband. Back off, bitches.

 

[MooMoo]

So my memory is slowly getting worse. I don't know if it's due to my meds or just my daily routine being so similar every day. I have no idea if I took my medication this afternoon, I just can't remember.

I'm not on any meds but is it normal for depression to cause worsening memory? Cause I find myself forgetting things too and it's kinda alarming.

 

[Wilsongt]

I'm not on any meds but is it normal for depression to cause worsening memory? Cause I find myself forgetting things too and it's kinda alarming.

Yes... There has been some evidence that depression can have an effect on memory.

There has also been some evidence that links depression to a potential increased risk of developing dementia later in life.

 

[White Man]

My boss is pushing me to go on medical leave. I feel really humiliated and it's hard to even look at him anymore whereas previously he was probably the only strong support and source of stability in my pretty chaotic life. I may have previously thought I felt abject alienation in my life, but it kind of pales in comparison to how I feel now. I don't think I even know what a human being is anymore, or what it feels like to be one. Damn.

 

[Lonely1]

My boss is pushing me to go on medical leave. I feel really humiliated and it's hard to even look at him anymore whereas previously he was probably the only strong support and source of stability in my pretty chaotic life. I may have previously thought I felt abject alienation in my life, but it kind of pales in comparison to how I feel now. I don't think I even know what a human being is anymore, or what it feels like to be one. Damn.

Maybe your boss is thinking about what's the best for you.

 

[Daingurse]

My boss is pushing me to go on medical leave. I feel really humiliated and it's hard to even look at him anymore whereas previously he was probably the only strong support and source of stability in my pretty chaotic life. I may have previously thought I felt abject alienation in my life, but it kind of pales in comparison to how I feel now. I don't think I even know what a human being is anymore, or what it feels like to be one. Damn.

Damn, I feel sorry for you man. That has got to be demoralizing, but we can only do and bear so much. I mean if your boss is this great guy you say he is, then he has your best interests at heart, he wants to help you.

I don't know your situation enough to say much; but depending on your situation I think medical leave could be a positive thing, that could possibly alleviate some stressors, temporarily at least.

 

[Jimothy]

Having no friends is the worst. I feel like I'm in a trap where I desperately want to make friends, but I'm so embarrassed of the fact I don't have friends that it makes it impossible for me to open up to someone else's friendship. Whenever I start to ponder this I get seriously, seriously depressed, almost suicidal. I don't really know what to do. I just feel stuck in a perpetual cycle of misery.

 

[freddy]

I'm not on any meds but is it normal for depression to cause worsening memory? Cause I find myself forgetting things too and it's kinda alarming.

Yes and the meds can make it worse depending which ones you're on.

 

[MooMoo]

Yes... There has been some evidence that depression can have an effect on memory.

There has also been some evidence that links depression to a potential increased risk of developing dementia later in life.

Terrifying.

Yes and the meds can make it worse depending which ones you're on.

Good to know I'm not going crazy.

So how about fine motor skills? Like sometimes when I'm doing the dishes I'll try to place a spoon into the utensil holder but I miss it by just a little. It's not like I'm seeing double but it's like I miscalculate the motion itself/misjudge how far or close my hand is to the holder. Doesn't happen often, but it happens just enough for me to notice it...or maybe it's just observational selection bias.

 

[White Man]

Damn, I feel sorry for you man. That has got to be demoralizing, but we can only do and bear so much. I mean if your boss is this great guy you say he is, then he has your best interests at heart, he wants to help you.

I don't know your situation enough to say much; but depending on your situation I think medical leave could be a positive thing, that could possibly alleviate some stressors, temporarily at least.

I fear that refusing to go on medical leave could be grounds for dismissal from my job. Although he's been good to me in the past, I've had a rough year or so, and I could see there being pressure to get rid of me.

 

[swecide]

Do you guys ever wonder about timing? I've always felt like it's a concept I lack somehow. Especially when it comes to people. I mean I don't know a lot of people, but every once in a while it would be fun to just see someone I "know", you know? Anyway I was out walking the other day, huge thing going on the park this week and I thought I should force myself to go through there. I mean maybe, just maybe I would see someone I "know". When I got close enough I bailed, too much people, couldn't do it so I took a slightly detour to avoid the masses.
Felt a bit down because I failed myself but when I got home I had received a text from someone I used to work with. We hung out yesterday and it was fun. This never happens. It makes me over think shit a lot, like, where do I go? Nothing happens if I go anyway because I don't really "know" people. So left, right or staying at home. Guess what I end up choosing. Lately however I've tried to put myself out there more and it seems to work, at least sometimes. Timing never works, I know I can't rely on it, it's too random.

 

[AcridMeat]

swecide why not invite people out then? It's an interesting thing to think about, but it seems you want to legitimately use it as a means of finding social interaction, or perhaps just experiment with it.

In the end if you make enough social connections and put yourself in high traffic areas, you're bound to end up bumping into people you recognize.

That only ever really happened for me in college though, as I am the same way and tend to avoid large crowds.

White Man I hope it works out for you, that's such a tough situation to be in. Keep strong man, I hope whatever happens it works out in the end. /:

 

[freddy]

Terrifying.

Good to know I'm not going crazy.

So how about fine motor skills? Like sometimes when I'm doing the dishes I'll try to place a spoon into the utensil holder but I miss it by just a little. It's not like I'm seeing double but it's like I miscalculate the motion itself/misjudge how far or close my hand is to the holder. Doesn't happen often, but it happens just enough for me to notice it...or maybe it's just observational selection bias.

I used to walk into door jambs a lot. I'm not sure really but I don't walk into things either, now that I have improved lots and I didn't prior to developing my issues. Maybe it was anxiety caused by intense focus on my issues or whatever, but now I seem more spatially aware and I have 'soft eyes', meaning I tend to take all the environment in, rather than when I was at my lowest point where I'd focus on one thing and tend not to look around much at all. Forcing myself to develop 'soft eyes' was part of the process I used to improve.

 

[Ashes]

Hi. I've never been in this thread before. I tried reading the OP but it was kind of overwhelming. Maybe typing all this stuff out here will help me. Sorry about the length of this post.

I feel inadequate lately. The last three women I dated have all been on my mind, and not in a good way. The first one broke up with me two years ago because, she said, she didn't see herself ever getting married. She then severed all contact. Last month, I found out that she's married now.

The second one broke up with me because she wanted to be polyamorous and I didn't. We still keep in touch because of a business arrangement, and I am constantly reminded that she is currently seeing three people, one of whom is a guy who was trying to get together with her while we were still dating.

The most recent one broke up with me just over a month ago, because she felt like she wasn't 100% in it and didn't want to string me along when she wasn't ready. She wants to continue being friends, and part of me does too, but another part isn't ready. I'm also scared that hanging out with her will make me hold out hope that we'll get back together.

Last week, I was on a first date with a girl. Things seemed to be going well, until halfway through, when she told me she was sorry but she couldn't go through with it; she was still hung up on someone else and asked me to go. I did, of course, and I'm not especially attached to this girl, but it's just another rejection in a long line.

I feel like something in my head has changed in the past six months, to where I am suddenly expecting to be disappointed and/or rejected by people, and I know it's not good. I don't feel like I have anyone I can really connect with or relate to. I have two best friends since elementary school, but now both of them are married with one or more children and I can no longer truly relate to them, and we're growing apart.

My family is a long story that I won't go into, but they're not particularly supportive for various reasons.

I am 30 years old and I'm a pizza delivery guy. I'm going to school to become an accountant, but right now I have almost no money and can't afford to do social things most of the time. I feel like I don't deserve to be with a confident woman who has herself put together (and all of my exes have serious issues, which suggests to me that this is ingrained in my head somehow).

I guess that's all. If you've read this far, thank you.

Thank you for thanking me for reading it.

First off, woh, you meet like the most adventurous women ever!

I think sometimes, people learn from mistakes. So when the first woman left you for not being in the mood for marriage, maybe learnt from that. And so said yes to marriage later on. If this is true, it sucks that it had to be you that she had to learn from, but you had a good impact on someone else... maybe.

The second girl seems really wild - at least somebody very different. You got to experience something so very many people never had a chance to.

The third broke it off pretty honestly. And early. And I think it's kinda good that she did that without too much happening.

It's a sad fact that rejection sucks. But I really like that you are trying to do something with your life. Sometimes we go into relationships we think we deserve.

And I don't think that's fair. You should try and be your self, and roll the dice. It's a good girl, who is not interested in all the materialism stuff, and actually means it. So there's something to look forward to.

The other thing is that I feel, you think you are at your lowest. But hey, if [and when] a girl likes you there, then you can be assured she would like in the good times too for the right reasons.

Being yourself, isn't easy, but if you are good, and kind, and all that, I think you should be, and be deservedly happy.

I don't know if any of this is going to make you feel happy, or have any effect, but I hope that the act of writing down your worries, at the very least lightened your burden.

 

[Darkmakaimura]

Mental breakdown is inevitable with me. I'm not getting any sleep at night and I'm constantly irritated and full of anxiety. I'm one step away from going to the hospital or being homeless or both.

 

[Ashes]

Mental breakdown is inevitable with me. I'm not getting any sleep at night and I'm constantly irritated and full of anxiety. I'm one step away from going to the hospital or being homeless or both.

Do you have a pattern you go through? Like certain thoughts triggering certain behaviours?

 

[Iph]

I'm starting to notice that when I'm under a lot of stress, I become obsessive and crazy. And not in an endearing way. Lately, I've been really obsessive and crazy and I think that people are getting sick of me.

Stress makes a lot of anxiety kick in for me and I get like that too. I stay as active as possible, try to avoid excessive caffeine, get enough sleep and keep a regular, "productive" schedule (and give myself permission to be as lazy as hell at least once a day after work ).

 

[swecide]

swecide why not invite people out then? It's an interesting thing to think about, but it seems you want to legitimately use it as a means of finding social interaction, or perhaps just experiment with it.

My point was that I don't really know anyone, so all my interactions are based up on me happening to be in the right place at the right time. But I'm working on it, hopefully I'll have people I can ask soon enough.

 

[Darkmakaimura]

Do you have a pattern you go through? Like certain thoughts triggering certain behaviours?

Yes. Also, certain recent events have taken a toll on me such as the dog's health. It's a combination of worrying about her, keeping constant watch and cleaning up. This wouldn't be so bad if it weren't for the person I am living with weren't constantly busting my balls every 5 minutes. I barely have time to breathe and sleep, the latter quite literally. I already have bad insomnia and it's getting worse now.

Also, nobody listens to me and takes my advice. I'm definitely not smart but there are times I do know what I'm talking about it and have proved it.

Anyways, like any human being, I need sleep. I may not be eating good recently, but I need it more than food. Much more at this point. I can't handle much more of sleeping only an hour or two at most at night. I have no money so buying Benadryl or NyQuil is out of the question.

 

[Curtisaur]

I can't pay for shit that I own and I bought it all, mostly, in hypomanic periods, including financing a car. I spend a lot of my time crying and thinking that dying is the perfect solution.

 

[Hypereides]

Mental breakdown is inevitable with me. I'm not getting any sleep at night and I'm constantly irritated and full of anxiety. I'm one step away from going to the hospital or being homeless or both.

Can I propose something? This is just a suggestion, but have you tried eating a clean diet? It can really adjust, calm and refresh your biological system.

I had some similiar symptoms and it helped immensely when I changed my habits of eating. My medical practitioner is a very big spokesman on said subject.

Try it for a month and see if you feel any changes.

 

[Lonely1]

Can I propose something? This is just a suggestion, but have you tried eating a clean diet? It can really adjust, calm and refresh your biological system.

I had some similiar symptoms and it helped immensely when I changed my habits of eating. My medical practitioner is a very big spokesman on said subject.

Try it for a month and see if you feel any changes.

What is a "clean" diet?

 

[Collete]

I don't know if anyone remembers, back in the days, I used to be super active in this thread and help everyone out, even in the old thread before this even became an OT.
Nowadays, I'm not capable of doing that but trying to help a few individuals if I can. I just became increasingly worse that I couldn't handle shit...
I always worried what would happen if I stopped helping people, would this thread go to shit? Could Bagels handle all of it on his own? What about the other regulars? These questions kept tormenting my conscious and made me feel guilty for the longest time. All I do is complain here now without helping much.
However, I see individuals are taking care of this thread now that I stopped being helpful...It puts me at ease I suppose. So...I don't know where I'm going with this, but thanks for not making me feel this thread would go to shit.

 

[cryptic]

To add something to that clean diet concept.

Guys, seriously look up and research Ray Peat and Danny Roddy, the latter of who is sort of a scribe of his as Ray Peat is very complex in the way he writes.

Dr. Peat believes depression stems from a disruption of energy through down regulation of the thyroid as a result of accumulated stress,lack of nutrients, high serotonin, and a myriad of other things, such as vegetable oils that effect the thyroid.

I've been following his diet and taking a cheap thyroid supplement I bought online for about a year now and my depression is slowly but surely ebbing away. It might work for other people too I hope

 

[Bagels]

I don't know if anyone remembers, back in the days, I used to be super active in this thread and help everyone out, even in the old thread before this even became an OT.
Nowadays, I'm not capable of doing that but trying to help a few individuals if I can. I just became increasingly worse that I couldn't handle shit...
I always worried what would happen if I stopped helping people, would this thread go to shit? Could Bagels handle all of it on his own? What about the other regulars? These questions kept tormenting my conscious and made me feel guilty for the longest time. All I do is complain here now without helping much.
However, I see individuals are taking care of this thread now that I stopped being helpful...It puts me at ease I suppose. So...I don't know where I'm going with this, but thanks for not making me feel this thread would go to shit.

That's the depression talking, Oomi. You're still a key member of this community. Your art adds so much to the thread, and you always undervalue everything you do for people. You've helped me more than I can ever repay you for. If you do need a break from the thread, or you go through a period where you just need to vent, that's totally fine! The fact that it matters to you says a lot. Even if you feel like you don't contribute, it always comes through that this community means a great deal to you.

 

[Hypereides]

What is a "clean" diet?

Raw food. Lots of meats, vegetables, water/home made juice and fruits.

In short, nothing processed, like soda, junk food and microwave food outta the box.

Everything you eat, you cook yourself.

 

[ReiGun]

To add something to that clean diet concept.

Guys, seriously look up and research Ray Peat and Danny Roddy, the latter of who is sort of a scribe of his as Ray Peat is very complex in the way he writes.

Dr. Peat believes depression stems from a disruption of energy through down regulation of the thyroid as a result of accumulated stress,lack of nutrients, high serotonin, and a myriad of other things, such as vegetable oils that effect the thyroid.

I've been following his diet and taking a cheap thyroid supplement I bought online for about a year now and my depression is slowly but surely ebbing away. It might work for other people too I hope

Hmm, I'm going to look into this. My diet is pretty much shit. I've been looking to change it, but it's tough when you're broke and are at the mercy of whatever your folks buy. :/

 

[Hypereides]

Hmm, I'm going to look into this. My diet is pretty much shit. I've been looking to change it, but it's tough when you're broke and are at the mercy of whatever your folks buy. :/

Just because you're broke doesn't mean you can't afford quality food.

Compare prices around your shops. Pure ground meat and vegetables are very do-able on a strict income.

If you're dependent on your parents just suggest you'll start doing your own cooking to relieve the stress of their shoulders.

 

[RionaaM]

I don't know if anyone remembers, back in the days, I used to be super active in this thread and help everyone out, even in the old thread before this even became an OT.
Nowadays, I'm not capable of doing that but trying to help a few individuals if I can. I just became increasingly worse that I couldn't handle shit...
I always worried what would happen if I stopped helping people, would this thread go to shit? Could Bagels handle all of it on his own? What about the other regulars? These questions kept tormenting my conscious and made me feel guilty for the longest time. All I do is complain here now without helping much.
However, I see individuals are taking care of this thread now that I stopped being helpful...It puts me at ease I suppose. So...I don't know where I'm going with this, but thanks for not making me feel this thread would go to shit.

This thread is full of fantastic and helpful people, you included. Don't even think for a second that you're not heplful, because you totally are. Everyone here seems to truly care for each other, and they have their back when they're down and become glad when they're up. I love this community. I love you guys.

 

[Bagels]

5 Things That Make Life Worth Living

Woody Allen's famous list from "Manhattan."

1.) Family and friends

It helps, as a jaded adult, to spend your time with a tiny version of yourself that takes absolute delight in the simplest pleasures life has to offer.

Super duper <3 to these special ladies. I grew up with two brothers, and now I find myself surrounded by awesome sisters.

2.) Music!

The Mountain Goats play "Harlem Roulette."

"Every dream's a good dream/
Even awful dreams are good dreams/
If you're doing it right"

My favorite show ever was a Mountain Goats show up in Minneapolis. He gets so much joy out of performing. It was at this show that it finally struck me with full force (and I still don't know why) - the realization that I was going to be a dad. It was a near religious moment.

&#8220;If it weren't for music, I would think that love is mortal.&#8221;
&#8213; Mark Helprin, A Soldier of the Great War

3.) Travel

My wife took this photo on our honeymoon.

Let's see...I've been all over the US, to Canada, Peru, Chile, Dominican Republic, Portugal, and France. There are always more places to go and new things to discover. And people to visit (make up that couch for me, humbugs!)!

5.) Laughter

A scene from "Dr Katz: Professional Therapist" that my wife and I love.

So long as I can still laugh at things, particularly at my own quirks and shortcomings, I think things will be alright.

Post 5 things that make life worth living for you! If that's too hard, do 3, or even just 1!

 

[ReiGun]

Just because you're broke doesn't mean you can't afford quality food.

Compare prices around your shops. Pure ground meat and vegetables are very do-able on a strict income.

If you're dependent on your parents just suggest you'll start doing your own cooking to relieve the stress of their shoulders.

I've been suggesting this for a while, actually. Even going so far as to offer to do the grocery shopping myself. Much to my chagrin, my family often doubts I can do anything "normal" people can do without them looking over my shoulder. lol

Either way, I'm going to look up some recipes and food prices, and bring it to my folks tonight. We're about due to go shopping again.

 

[jb1234]

Post 5 things that make life worth living for you! If that's too hard, do 3, or even just 1!

1: Music: I would not be here without it. Without Beethoven, Mozart, Brahms, Barber and all of those awesome, very dead dudes, my life would be significantly less enriched. They give me strength. When I listen to their music, all of my pain fades away. When I perform, I feel whole.

2: Friends: I'm very lucky in this area. Not much more needs to be said. Most of them are long distance but that works out well for me, given circumstances.

3: Great entertainment: Who doesn't love a captivating television show, movie, or video game? Nothing like getting lost in another world (or the same one, but with different details).

 

[Nudull]

Figured it'd be good to start posting here, myself. I've had dealt with a great deal of depression and self-discovery throughout my entire life, much of which has led to some very recent ordeals that has caused a rift between myself and my family as my own worldview is now beginning to clash with theirs. My life has never been very easy, and in fact, I've dealt with the temptation of suicide a few times in the past, and with me beginning to change how my life has been going, I want to one day say that everything about me has gotten better. Unfortunately, though, with my personal decision to come out as pansexual and genderqueer to family and everything, that likely won't change anytime soon. Some of you I've met in passing before, but nonetheless, it's great to meet all of you, and I hope that I can help with everyone as much as I myself can be.

 

[Lionheart1827]

1) Family and friends no doubt

There is nothing better than having a great support system. I never thought I would've had so much support from so many different places throughout my cancer treatment, it was unbelievable and I'm incredibly grateful. I've felt that since I've been through my crisis these past few months, I made a bunch of new and awesome friends on D-GAF. Thanks guys/gals!

2) A significant other

This is a touchy subject for me at the moment, but I wont stop looking for that elusive person to be able to stick by my side. I'm not a big fan of experiencing things on my own - I enjoy sharing as much as I can with somebody. Though I'm technically single now after 2 and a half years of love and compassion, I'm not gonna give up on finding that person again.

3) Music and Live Performances

My music tastes can be pretty broad(from Jazz to movie scores), but I am mostly into progressive rock/metal, specifically my favorite band is Dream Theater. A lot of people look at them and think they are just guitar wanking and "Show offmanship" but they actually have some of the best musicianship in a band I've ever seen - a true musician's band. Not to mention they're style is broad throughout their career and every album has its own distinct feel.

I've seen them a good 7 or 8 times now and they always blow me away every time. They also come from where I live.

Dream Theater - Bridges In the Sky
Mastodon - The Hunter

I also have been playing guitar for 11 years self taught. I'm the kind of person who will pick up games and immediately critique the music. I'm also the kind of guy that will buy movie scores and game soundtracks, because I love to pick apart sections and how certain instruments weave their ways through the music. JB knows what I'm talking about There is something that excites me about intricacies of music, even if I dont completely understand music theory.

4) Experiences

The one thing I need to start doing more is experiencing new things, ie traveling, activities, etc. Because of my anxiety it has stunted this to the point of me losing things important to me. I'm hoping that in time I can learn to get back into this eventually.

I'd be lying if I said cancer didn't change my outlook on life. As much as I hate that my anxiety limits me to a point, things start to look better when you were in a life threatening circumstance. But at the same time, it will still haunt you in the back of your mind. I'm optimistic that I'll learn to cope with the bad memories in time.

Sorry cant think of a 5th!

 

[ReiGun]

Post 5 things that make life worth living for you! If that's too hard, do 3, or even just 1!

1. Family and Friends. They aren't perfect, but there's nothing like knowing that someone in this big, wide world cares about me and thinks I'm swell.

2. Writing. Being able to sit down and put my thoughts on paper has gotten me through some tough times. I truly believe that if I hadn't discovered the love of writing, I wouldn't be here right now. I also like to think I'm pretty decent at it.

3. Going for walks. I live in a pretty beautiful neighborhood, so lately I've trying to go for more and more walks. This past week, I started walking to the library and hanging out there. Finally got myself a library card too. lol

4. Comic books. If you've seen me around Gaf (or just looked at my avatar), you've probably gathered that I love comic books. DC, Marvel, independents, whatever. I just friggin love the stuff and try to read as much as I can. Going back to writing, I hope that one day I can write my own comics. For now, I'm happy to just be doing comic reviews on my blog.

5. Dreaming. I'll be honest; I'm not where I want to be in life. I'm not even sure where I want to be, but I know it's not here. Still, as I figure it out, being able to dream and hope for something better is enough to keep me going. Even on the days where I feel truly crummy, I can smile because I know as I continue to figure myself out and what I want, things will be better one day.

 

[Bagels]

1: Music: I would not be here without it...

1) Family and friends no doubt...

1. Family and Friends...

Thanks for sharing, guys! I love reading these lists!

 

[ATF487]

A scene from "Dr Katz: Professional Therapist" that my wife and I love.

I love Ben

 

[Bagels]

I love Ben

Your avatar suggests man of superior intellect and discerning taste.

The best part of Dr. Katz was the banter between Jonathan and Ben, IMHO. I like how it became more and more of a focus in later seasons. Ben is very much my hero.

 

[Nudull]

Post 5 things that make life worth living for you! If that's too hard, do 3, or even just 1!

1. People in general. I like talking being able to talk and share with the folks that I can feel most comfortable and open with. I believe in the good within humanity, and while I've been burned many times in the past by less than honest people, I'm still willing to give all I can to those who truly care and can care in return.

2. Music. I can be moved as any other person with the right kind of song, and feeling the emotion and energy go through me, which I guess more than speaks of my empathy.

3. Stories. As most people could likely guess, I really really love books. Not just novels, but comics and manga and film and the like. I enjoy heroes and villains, the struggle of good and evil, everything about the stories and experiences that we tell, and especially when it's used to give powerful and provocative messages that truly speak to me, and help keep me going.

4. Thinking. I often zone out and just listen to myself go on about things, usually in my most quiet moments and places. You'd be amazed at how liberating it can be to just take a step back at everything and look within yourself, see how you feel, look where you're going in life. I've come to learn a lot about myself by simply musing about the world and many personal subjects, and about the people that I trust and care for, and it does surprisingly helps me with coping and opening up more. I hope this doesn't seem weird.

5. The future. I know nothing of it, and oftentimes, I fear it greatly. Still, even in my darkest moments, I've always given myself hope that things would always turn out alright in the end, that my life will ultimately be worth living, to be something that I will always be proud of going through. I've haven't been steered wrong, yet.