Mental Health |OT| Depression & Co.
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I am not surprised about Xzeon. Why was Pengy banned?
Collete
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Heated up discussion in an Amanda Bynes mental health thread.
Just a week ban, though. He'll be back, ready to be classy for all!
Collete
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After the ketchup thing, his classiness is questionable.
Can we extend his ban for that?
Collete
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To make him learn the evilness of ketchup on hotdogs? That'd be fun.
I don't even eat hot dogs anymore, but I do enjoy veggie burgers with mayo. It is addictive. :3
I follow this as much as I can and I lost a lot of weight when I was following it strictly.
One of the tips I was using was to break food down naturally. Craving Doritos? Try natural Tortillas and dip instead. Want to do even better than that, buy some corn cobs and chew on those.
I must admit though I don't really follow it today >_>
User 100115
Banned
What if....what if I don't even like hot dogs?
/runs
/runs
Thanks for your insight! When I really think about it I guess that's how I am nowadays, kinda aloof/not really attentive of my surroundings. I guess I'll start freaking out once I start accidentally dropping knives on my foot or something.
Here are my favorite things:
1. Ketchup on hotdogs
2. Ketchup on hotdogs and fries
3. Ketchup on hotdogs and fries with a side of ketchup chips
4. Ketchup on hotdogs and fries with a side of ketchup chips with V8
5. Raw ketchup (or ketchup chips and V8 blended into a sauce...yum!)
But I'll take a real stab at it:
1. People: Even though I'm a shy guy and I totally suck at conversing with people, I do enjoy talking and getting to know more about people. Even if they never bloom into full fledged friendships, it's always fun hearing the crazy stories/backgrounds people have. It's even better when you randomly run into them years later and they actually remember who you are. Friends and family are in this mix too. Even though I have my personal issues with them, I can't deny the fact that there have been genuine moments of happiness with them.
2. Music: I'm actually not too big of a music fan. But I love it when you can see/hear/feel the emotions of the musician/artist in their music. Adds a nice special touch to it. (MARRY ME JB)
3. Walks and Tea: Therapeutic and healthy! Probably the only thing that has kept me sane during my undergraduate years. Love Arizona Tea and Bubble Tea
I should really get into drinking genuine tea though haha. Really glad I ditched soda a while back.4. Dreams: Until I can actually afford to travel, the only place where I can have crazy adventures. It's also a good way for me to acknowledge whether or not something is subconsciously bothering me.
5. Perseverance: Not a tangible thing but I'd like to think that even in my weakest moments I still have that spark in me; that will to just push a little further. Cause there's got to be a light at the end of the tunnel--even if it's a stupidly long, dark, and windy tunnel--right?!?
1. Family and friends.
I am very lucky to have a super supportive family and friends, especially when it comes to my mental issues. I honestly couldn't ask for more.
2. This community.
There is an overlap here with number 1 but I don't care. The friendship and support I've gotten from this community is incredible and honestly more than someone like me deserves. I am incredibly grateful. My paranoia runs quite deep so I think it says quite a lot that I have been able to trust some people in here with my address and phone number. I love you guys.
3. Media, specifically books, movies, and tv.
I love being able to enter other worlds and just escape for a while. The creativity that exists out there is staggering. Right now I am watching shows recommended to me by people in this thread (watching Attack of Titan and Doctor Who).
4. Boardgames and Video games.
I don't really play these for the story or escaping so it's a separate category. I love the different kinds of mechanics people come up with. Pure fun for me. It is no secret that I love buying single player boardgames, they are a big passion of mine.
5. Ziggy
I have a pet african grey parrot named ziggy. He is one of the smartest non human animals I have ever met. He is not just a pet but a member of the family. I guess I am overlapping with number 1 again but I still don't care.
Phew, made it to 5.
I am very lucky to have a super supportive family and friends, especially when it comes to my mental issues. I honestly couldn't ask for more.
2. This community.
There is an overlap here with number 1 but I don't care. The friendship and support I've gotten from this community is incredible and honestly more than someone like me deserves. I am incredibly grateful. My paranoia runs quite deep so I think it says quite a lot that I have been able to trust some people in here with my address and phone number. I love you guys.
3. Media, specifically books, movies, and tv.
I love being able to enter other worlds and just escape for a while. The creativity that exists out there is staggering. Right now I am watching shows recommended to me by people in this thread (watching Attack of Titan and Doctor Who).
4. Boardgames and Video games.
I don't really play these for the story or escaping so it's a separate category. I love the different kinds of mechanics people come up with. Pure fun for me. It is no secret that I love buying single player boardgames, they are a big passion of mine.
5. Ziggy
I have a pet african grey parrot named ziggy. He is one of the smartest non human animals I have ever met. He is not just a pet but a member of the family. I guess I am overlapping with number 1 again but I still don't care.
Phew, made it to 5.
Had the second girl this month tell me it's her not me. From what I can tell it's true for both but still...feels bad, man. Like I'm not good enough.
I hurt a lot today.
...but I'm working at a summer camp so I have to pretend I'm fine and spend time with my kids 24 hours a day, 6 days a week.
Which makes it hurt more. Three more weeks until I can recede back into my bedroom.
That is all. Love you guys.
I hurt a lot today.
...but I'm working at a summer camp so I have to pretend I'm fine and spend time with my kids 24 hours a day, 6 days a week.
Which makes it hurt more. Three more weeks until I can recede back into my bedroom.
That is all. Love you guys.
Remember to look for the Moxie stencil - it's like the Nintendo Seal of Quality, but for Bagelgrams. It ensures that the letter you receive contains all the sappy, silly, occasionally slightly insane, content that you demand and frankly deserve. Each one is composed in the finest Bagelian system penmanship, admired by such notable people as Pau's mum.
With most of the first batch accounted for, here are the mailing times when sending a letter from the great state of Maine:
Florida - 1 day(!)
New Zealand - 4 days
Most of the US - 2-4 days
Minnesota - 6 days (wtf?)
Sweden - 1 week
The Netherlands - 2 weeks
Canada - OVER TWO WEEKS FOR FUCK SAKE I COULD ALMOST SEE CANADA FROM THE POST OFFICE GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER CANUCKS
Next batch goes out Monday. If you wanna hitch your car to this sweet gravy train then send me a PM! Over 75% of all recipients were reduced to (the good kind of) tears. I'm starting to get letters back which is just super exciting. When's the last time you got a really awesome letter from someone? It's the best.
(that's one of my cats in the photo, looking way more majestic and regal than he actually is)
That's coo. I'd rather you not eat them than eat them and put ketchup on them.
Darkmakaimura
Can You Imagine What SureAI Is Going To Do With Garfield?
A couple of you asked me about Steam and I said I didn't remember it. I have it. I'm not much of a Steam user but feel free to PM me for it and add me as a friend if you like.
Jäger, jäger, jäger, jäger and jäger.. Seriously I should've done this years ago, best "surprise" I've ever gotten!
User 100115
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Hiya <3
Darkmakaimura
Can You Imagine What SureAI Is Going To Do With Garfield?
GAF friend just reminded me of this place: https://www.facebook.com/AnimeRamen
I want to eat there on my Birthday if I have a decent enough one. lol. And I'm not even an anime fan.
I want to eat there on my Birthday if I have a decent enough one. lol. And I'm not even an anime fan.
Agent Cooper
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I wish I lived in New Mexico still, I'd try to make a trip to see you. Though, Texas is a huge state and depending on where you were...lol
ya'll are too sweet <333
yeah, i'm in texas for school ;-; which is another dreadful thing.
i wanted to take a year off to relax and work but i'd be dropped from my mom's insurance and i need therapy and ugh.~
1) Music.
2) Some of my friends. Mostly those on Mumble and Tumblr and stuff. Haha...
3) My cat, Steve. And most recently, Tauntaun.
I'm not too good at these lists.
Agent Cooper
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...
. I wish I could do something to help you. Have the guru left your house? Did the psychiatrist responded to your appointment request?toadsworth
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Tomorrow is another day...
Collete
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No he hasn't.
Yes, but now she got my times wrong. I called her about it but she hasn't responded back. so who knows.
When I mailed Prax from Minnesota in the past, it got there reasonably quickly. I have no clue what happened this time.
I live past the Rockies though, you never know what could happen in Alberta!
Ok let's try this one now, I almost feel embarrassed for the last post.. I turned into humbugs without the youtube videos.
Music and good people.
I asked my mother if I could do the grocery shopping. She said once I got a job. I asked her if I could make a list of things because I wanted to start changing my diet. She said no because in the past, I didn't care about eating fruits and vegetables.
Well...so much for that, I guess. :/
Well...so much for that, I guess. :/
I'm super happy people are listing things that make life worth living! It came up in chat, and while many people are struggling to come up with their lists, they're loving reading what other people come up with.
Just to take a different tack, I did 5 very broad things before. Here are 5 specific things (2 of which are food, I guess).
1.) Hummus!
I have this absolute, undying love for a nice plate of hummus with pita or veggies. I'll do store bought, from a restaurant, homemade - it's all good! I could live on this stuff.
2.) Mother Bear's Pizza
Right on campus in Bloomington, Indiana - the town I grew up in, went to college in, and where my parents still live. Their deep dish is soooooooo good! After dating for a little while, this was the place my wife and I kept coming back to. It has a great college vibe, the breadsticks are amazing, it's a campus institution...what more do you need to say?
3.) Driving my dad's Toyota Echo
The Echo, now sold as the Yaris, is basically a street-legal go-kart. With more than one passenger, it struggles, but when you're by yourself, cranking some tunes, you can absolutely throw it around corners and drive like a complete jerk (we're lucky to live near some sleepy streets leading to apartment complexes. At night, when I'd come home from my girlfriend's house ( at the time there were just the larger roads, with all of the apartment buildings and houses incomplete), I'd make a detour to do my own little Gran Turismo stage). Driving, blasting music, and singing along will never NOT be amazing. It's super fun in a spunky little car that is this easy to drive.
4.) A good nuzzle from her royal majesty
I love our two brother cats, who my wife and I picked out two days after getting married. I once read that neutered cats end up in a state of arrested kittenhood, and that could not be more true of "the boys." While they adore my wife, and she is clearly their surrogate mother, we spend plenty of time curled up on the couch, too, getting some serious ear scritches in.
Still, it's my little calico kitty, officially named Sunny, but more often referred to as "the princess" or "principesa," or any of a half-dozen other silly nicknames, who really has me wrapped around her little paw-paw. If I ever have a daughter, it's going to be bad, because my little girl kitty can absolutely get away with murder and she knows it. I am completely irrational about this cat.
She's not as affectionate as our other two, most of the time, but I find that, when I'm really down, she'll make a little trill noise and jump in my lap. She'll give me a little kiss on the nose and settle in for some serious petting. She'll flop around, playfully bite at me, make silly kitty noises, and she is all-around fluffy and wonderful. It's the best thing ever.
5.) Going for broke on the mumble server
We had one particular night in our voice chat in which MikeDip consented to demonstrate his techniques for asking out women, with AgentCooper brilliantly playing a series of increasingly unhinged ladies, from which I am yet to recover. I have not laughed that hard in a very long time. We have plans to do it again, as everyone who was there agreed that it was basically the funniest thing that had ever happened on planet Earth.
Just to take a different tack, I did 5 very broad things before. Here are 5 specific things (2 of which are food, I guess).
1.) Hummus!
I have this absolute, undying love for a nice plate of hummus with pita or veggies. I'll do store bought, from a restaurant, homemade - it's all good! I could live on this stuff.
2.) Mother Bear's Pizza
Right on campus in Bloomington, Indiana - the town I grew up in, went to college in, and where my parents still live. Their deep dish is soooooooo good! After dating for a little while, this was the place my wife and I kept coming back to. It has a great college vibe, the breadsticks are amazing, it's a campus institution...what more do you need to say?
3.) Driving my dad's Toyota Echo
The Echo, now sold as the Yaris, is basically a street-legal go-kart. With more than one passenger, it struggles, but when you're by yourself, cranking some tunes, you can absolutely throw it around corners and drive like a complete jerk (we're lucky to live near some sleepy streets leading to apartment complexes. At night, when I'd come home from my girlfriend's house ( at the time there were just the larger roads, with all of the apartment buildings and houses incomplete), I'd make a detour to do my own little Gran Turismo stage). Driving, blasting music, and singing along will never NOT be amazing. It's super fun in a spunky little car that is this easy to drive.
4.) A good nuzzle from her royal majesty
Sunny used to watch my son sleep in his crib and come wake us up when he stirred. Now she sleeps in his room most nights.
I love our two brother cats, who my wife and I picked out two days after getting married. I once read that neutered cats end up in a state of arrested kittenhood, and that could not be more true of "the boys." While they adore my wife, and she is clearly their surrogate mother, we spend plenty of time curled up on the couch, too, getting some serious ear scritches in.
Still, it's my little calico kitty, officially named Sunny, but more often referred to as "the princess" or "principesa," or any of a half-dozen other silly nicknames, who really has me wrapped around her little paw-paw. If I ever have a daughter, it's going to be bad, because my little girl kitty can absolutely get away with murder and she knows it. I am completely irrational about this cat.
She's not as affectionate as our other two, most of the time, but I find that, when I'm really down, she'll make a little trill noise and jump in my lap. She'll give me a little kiss on the nose and settle in for some serious petting. She'll flop around, playfully bite at me, make silly kitty noises, and she is all-around fluffy and wonderful. It's the best thing ever.
5.) Going for broke on the mumble server
We had one particular night in our voice chat in which MikeDip consented to demonstrate his techniques for asking out women, with AgentCooper brilliantly playing a series of increasingly unhinged ladies, from which I am yet to recover. I have not laughed that hard in a very long time. We have plans to do it again, as everyone who was there agreed that it was basically the funniest thing that had ever happened on planet Earth.
That's a great list Bagels. I can relate with the car. Sleepy town I live in, the only problem is sleepy town means bored cops so I have to be careful. :/
I am in absolute agreement though, having the proper music you let yourself go and just enjoy the drive. Also going the extra step and going go karting or track days. Makes me live my dream of being an actual racing driver for a moment.
I am in absolute agreement though, having the proper music you let yourself go and just enjoy the drive. Also going the extra step and going go karting or track days. Makes me live my dream of being an actual racing driver for a moment.
Hypereides
Member
You're not standing your ground firmly enough.
The past is irrelevant, and these new desired changes have no significance to it.
You can tell her it's true, but that doesn't matter now. You were different then, you're different now.
You're setting yourself new ideals in life and one of them is eating healthier.
Keep searching and applying for jobs, that will give her no excuse to look down on you. Especially if you're putting an effort into it, then they can't cirtisize you for trying.
Everyday is a shit one when you have no form of retainable joy in your life. Some others can feel the same, but can make up for it with a certain skill or ability, so they are still contributing something of worth. I just feel like I have nothing at all. Anything I can offer, it can be carried out exceedingly better by the vast majority of people doing the same thing. Being an unlikable burden for people on top of that certainly doesn't help too much either. Why do people like me even exist.
Fudgepuppy
Banned
I'm about to start hyperventilating, everything's crashing down and I don't know how to prepare myself. I feel like such an anomaly of this world, incapable of finding peace and love. The person I fell with, who told me she hates relationships because she is too unstable for them, is now with my friend, who leaves a trail of brimstone and fire after him.
She tried to keep it down, but now she's uploading pictures of him and calling him sweety and whatnot.
This morning, we sat; she, me and another guy, talking deep shit while drinking. We got in deep, I told them about my fantasies about suicide and how much of a dark cloud my life feels like when I'm actually facing it and not walking away with antidepressants in my veins. She told me, I was such an amazing guy, how I deserve so much, and how she couldn't live with me hanging myself. It's not a real party if there's no blood, sweat or tears, and tears there were, between equals and friends.
Now I'm gagging with tears in my eyes. It's like being reawakened to the true version of life during the most horrible circumstances ever.
She will stay the remaining week, she will choose him, the asshole who went for her in front of me with a shit eating grin. She tried to hide it, he made it into a showcasing of his trophy; one of the many trophies he always gets, one of the many trophies I've seen him acquire in his shadow.
Why am I always someone's shadow, why am I the most amazing guy and yet less desirable in front of an asshole?
This feels like a scar that gets partially healed everytime I realize she loves me as a true friend. At this point, a hug of friendship, a hug for everything I've done, is all I can dream of. Anything beyond that, would crush my ego on its own weight. But then I get on the other side of the window, looking in on the very surrealism that is their relationship. It shouldn't work, she shouldn't see anything in him, from the depths of her heart that I've seen, she shouldn't want anyone. The scar is ripping open, and I can't scream, I can't cry. I can only walk away, and imagine all the places my flaccid body could hang from.
She chose a party with me over him, she goes home with him, I go home alone, she changes her face and suddenly she's lovestruck by the guy that does nothing but leave the deepest of scars and heaviest of tears. The once strong woman, is now ensnared. I don't want to see a future with them, I don't want to become the permanent third-wheel with an aching heart. I don't want to be reminded every day with sharp pangs of pain in my chest, of everything I failed at, of every way I'm used, of every way I'm enabling people using me, of every way I'm a broken person stuck in a limbo of either medicated apathy or emotional chaos.
I don't want to see her hurt, I don't want to see her get broken.
My foundation is breaking, and I don't know how to cope. I just want to hang myself with the satisfaction of knowing they will hate their foundation built on devastation and death.
She tried to keep it down, but now she's uploading pictures of him and calling him sweety and whatnot.
This morning, we sat; she, me and another guy, talking deep shit while drinking. We got in deep, I told them about my fantasies about suicide and how much of a dark cloud my life feels like when I'm actually facing it and not walking away with antidepressants in my veins. She told me, I was such an amazing guy, how I deserve so much, and how she couldn't live with me hanging myself. It's not a real party if there's no blood, sweat or tears, and tears there were, between equals and friends.
Now I'm gagging with tears in my eyes. It's like being reawakened to the true version of life during the most horrible circumstances ever.
She will stay the remaining week, she will choose him, the asshole who went for her in front of me with a shit eating grin. She tried to hide it, he made it into a showcasing of his trophy; one of the many trophies he always gets, one of the many trophies I've seen him acquire in his shadow.
Why am I always someone's shadow, why am I the most amazing guy and yet less desirable in front of an asshole?
This feels like a scar that gets partially healed everytime I realize she loves me as a true friend. At this point, a hug of friendship, a hug for everything I've done, is all I can dream of. Anything beyond that, would crush my ego on its own weight. But then I get on the other side of the window, looking in on the very surrealism that is their relationship. It shouldn't work, she shouldn't see anything in him, from the depths of her heart that I've seen, she shouldn't want anyone. The scar is ripping open, and I can't scream, I can't cry. I can only walk away, and imagine all the places my flaccid body could hang from.
She chose a party with me over him, she goes home with him, I go home alone, she changes her face and suddenly she's lovestruck by the guy that does nothing but leave the deepest of scars and heaviest of tears. The once strong woman, is now ensnared. I don't want to see a future with them, I don't want to become the permanent third-wheel with an aching heart. I don't want to be reminded every day with sharp pangs of pain in my chest, of everything I failed at, of every way I'm used, of every way I'm enabling people using me, of every way I'm a broken person stuck in a limbo of either medicated apathy or emotional chaos.
I don't want to see her hurt, I don't want to see her get broken.
My foundation is breaking, and I don't know how to cope. I just want to hang myself with the satisfaction of knowing they will hate their foundation built on devastation and death.
I am very sorry to hear that. :/ Just please try to let this moment/these moments of emergency pass and wait until the worst has settled before you look back at it and try to draw any kind of conclusion.
There will come a day where you will be appreciated for who you are, just don't give up looking for that day. And don't wait for it to come, but actively look for it.
Also, and this is gonna sound a bit odd and has nothing to do with what I wrote above, but your style of writing is incredibly impressive, for some reason. I don't know why, but it reads very.. poetically.
Fudgepuppy
Banned
I'd have killed myself last week if I hadn't been able to pour my heart out in the most obtuse way possible.
If I don't get to express myself, I will topple over.
Has anyone tapered off effexor xr? How long did take you and if you could describe how you felt that'd be super helpful. I know everyone's different but you know...
I've been on it for probably ~ 6 months and I want to get off. Not sure how fast I can stop...meeting with doctor on Tuesday...but all she does it look up the info in a book and tells me what it says..basically paid version of google (another story...).
I've been on it for probably ~ 6 months and I want to get off. Not sure how fast I can stop...meeting with doctor on Tuesday...but all she does it look up the info in a book and tells me what it says..basically paid version of google (another story...).
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