Yeah, it's really not easy to get a gun. And lay off the alcohol, it'll only make your depression worse. I can't remember, are you seeing someone? Suicidal thoughts are serious business and you really need to act on your depression and get some help, if you aren't already. And if you are, call up your person and tell them you are having suicidal thoughts.
Mental Health |OT| Depression & Co.
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Mixture of some of my own thoughts, and this Facebook related stuff has compelled to put something on here. You might hear of people doing well in their own lives, achieving a variety of different things you feel you can't accomplish at the moment. But it really does not value you any less as a well-intentioned, unique human being yourself. And since we are all unique, playing the compare game is futile, since we are all different in our own way. When you get stuck in the irrational and depressed mindset, it can be an easy trap to fall in. I've been there. It can turn your thoughts into one's of a self destructive, envious, and petty nature. And you know deep down, that really isn't who you are, or want to be.
Most people you come into contact with wont make any big difference to your own life, so why concern yourself with what they do? And as for the people close to you that achieve good things, revel in that. Those are the people you care about the most in your life, take joy in the positive things they manage to do. The success of others isn't just the worlds way of rubbing things in your face, despite what that irrational side may tell you. And it isn't to say similar fortunes wont ever come your way. You have your own life, treat it as such and don't dwell on what others do with there's. We all have the potential to carve a good life for ourselves. It will just take effort and support to get there, and lots of it.
Most people you come into contact with wont make any big difference to your own life, so why concern yourself with what they do? And as for the people close to you that achieve good things, revel in that. Those are the people you care about the most in your life, take joy in the positive things they manage to do. The success of others isn't just the worlds way of rubbing things in your face, despite what that irrational side may tell you. And it isn't to say similar fortunes wont ever come your way. You have your own life, treat it as such and don't dwell on what others do with there's. We all have the potential to carve a good life for ourselves. It will just take effort and support to get there, and lots of it.
Collete
Member
You no longer like Okami?
Of course I do. That love will always live on!
But I'm more known as Collete outside of D-GAF anyhow.
And Oomikami just sounds odd to me. It was only a temporary username I had years ago anyways.
ClassyPenguin
Banned
I don't think you can really go about comparing your art to the "art community's." Art is very individualistic, personal, and speaks to many different people.
Honestly, I would absolutely love to hang this piece in my house!
Speaking of, do you sell any of your art?
Collete
Member
Hah, it was long overdue anyhow!
I never use Oomikami outside of GAF and people just couldn't make a connection any longer.
Now you can! In 5 delicious flavors! Only for a limited time!
Thanks for taking interest in my art!
No at this point in time, I don't really have enough support or actual demands to start selling them. I have a few people request to buy paintings but not enough to open up shop just yet.
For now I'm just trying to get support on my FB page so I can gauge a bit more accurately the demand of people buying them. So if you want, do like my FB art page to get an eventual support to sell my work.
Just click my name and scroll down to my home page.
The Beatles - With A Little Help From My Friends
(Do you need anybody?)
I just need someone to love.
(Could it be anybody?)
I want somebody to love.
Bleh it isn't? All the talk of guns and people seemingly buy more down south of the border has more or less created the idea that guns are super easy to acquire in the US. I'm seeing a therapist and a psychiatrist (for meds; currently on Prozac). Had a session earlier and all was fine then, but... things change. Sometimes a painful memory is all it takes to set me back down.
(Do you need anybody?)
I just need someone to love.
(Could it be anybody?)
I want somebody to love.
Bleh it isn't? All the talk of guns and people seemingly buy more down south of the border has more or less created the idea that guns are super easy to acquire in the US. I'm seeing a therapist and a psychiatrist (for meds; currently on Prozac). Had a session earlier and all was fine then, but... things change. Sometimes a painful memory is all it takes to set me back down.
Collete
Member
I know here in texas it's not that easy to get a gun once you've been admitted to a mental health ward....I found that out as well...Sad to say I can't get a gun in texas because I went into a mental health hospital.
Edit: Ah shit...First post in the 100 page milestone...Um...Uh....
Here's some cats!...
Yey, 100 pages Mental Health GAF!...woooo.
Suicidal thoughts while on an SSRI such as prozac is serious and could be an unwanted side-effect of your medication. Talk to your doctor about it.
If you are easily sent reeling by a painful memory, then I'd say the prozac isn't working for you or simply isn't enough. Be sure to communicate these things to your psychiatrist. They may add a supplemental medicine or try different things. It's going to take some work on your part, but you can get better (and we all here want you to).
And, seriously, once the suicidal thoughts kick in you need to stop and take a moment to recognize that things have gotten very very serious. I would discuss this with your therapist. Like, call them right now, because this is so serious.
Sell me something! For reals.
Ugh, I'm having chest pains since yesterday. It hurts when I breath. I have had pains like this before and is related to anxiety. The strange thing is that I don't feel very anxious atm. I have work to do, but I'm doing it at an steady pace. Maybe I really didn't controller my anxiety and I just got detached form it, merely burring it away? This is a very scary thought...
What should I do, GAF?
What should I do, GAF?
Contacting your doctor / GP not an option?
Are you never on skype any more, you silly person?
Bagels has played WoW exactly once with these jokers. We'll certainly do it again. All are welcome! We're on...some server! I'll figure that out and maybe we'll schedule a time!
(I fucking hate WoW, but dgaf gaming is all about the people you play with. I mean, who can pass up the chance to bask in my greatness in real time?)
I think you guys would be awesome to play Wow with. How many expansions are you playing with? I haven't played it in so many years. I always played it by myself. Pretty lameoid, eh?
Most of us are playing with free accounts - it's free to level 20. I don't see myself paying money for this. I played for a few months years ago and got my fix. Now, I just play whatever online game Trin tells me to.
FillerB is heading up this project, with support from yours truly and Colin. We'll try to schedule some times for this, too.
We actually get a decent amount of gaming going from the IRC channel. We play super casual LoL (we can teach people to play, too), free MMOs, many of us stream games for each others amusement, and we'll often play games in parallel - jb1234 and I are on a huge Ys kick. We get on twitter and our voice chat server to scream about the boss fights. It's a good time.
This is the best group to game with - we play a lot of different stuff, people like Trin are exceptional at teaching various games to newbies, and we make even single player games into social experiences. Streaming for a small group of dgaf people has been a nice exercise for our members with social anxiety. It's a very safe, friendly group to play with.
We do have a steam group which we have not used for anything yet. Message me on steam if you want an invite (DrKatz - the one from Minnesota - hey, add me in general!). We want to start using it for game nights. I'll toss up another post with some game ideas, general info. And let me know if there are games you want to play, if you have a minecraft server, etc.
I need to get back to scheduling chats, too. We've had requests for a depression chat and a chat specifically about medications. Scheduling these things is a pain in the ass, but I'll try my best.
We do, in fact, love you, Oomi!
Okay, so we love you, Collette!
I know here in texas it's not that easy to get a gun once you've been admitted to a mental health ward....I found that out as well...Sad to say I can't get a gun in texas because I went into a mental health hospital.
Edit: Ah shit...First post in the 100 page milestone...Um...Uh....
Here's some cats!...
Yey, 100 pages Mental Health GAF!...woooo.
100 pages! Yay! We're also closing in on 5000 posts and 200,000 views! We have 14 people with 100 or more posts.
I'm working on some more posts about my favorite people from the thread. I hope more people will join in! That seems like a nice way to celebrate 100 pages - write about a post or poster that has had a positive effect on you! This is an extraordinary community, filled with extraordinary people! Let them know that you appreciate them!
Put me down for a painting, too!
The last time it did it was just "Is anxiety, you need to calm down".
Collete
Member
I'll keep ya in mind then if I ever get more people to sell things to hah.
What painting would you want if I ever sell any?
Also a quick update...I now dub our top posters in the Wall of Life...Seems appropriate.
Classy's trying to catch up to me...I can't have that.
I need to post more depressing thoughts.
Yeah. Giving him another call might be worth it. Even if it is just to waste his time for giving you just wonderful useless advice. (Depending on how your healthcare system works of course.)
D= That wouldn't be nice. Post happy thoughts instead. Show them all who is the real deal when being positive instead.
Does that include online interaction? Because the IRC is always open if you want to talk.
Avril's Nobody's Home
Well I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.
What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
Open your eyes and look outside, find the reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
Yeah,oh
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
Well I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.
What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
Open your eyes and look outside, find the reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
Yeah,oh
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
Not to be too histrionic, but as some people here indicated interest in knowing more about me, here's a post I made on GAF about a year and a half ago to keep you occupied until I find the time to write a more up-to-date version. (And probably more honest about how 'clean' I was most of the time I said I was)
http://www.neogaf.com/forum/showthread.php?p=36821348&highlight=#post36821348
The girl I wrote about is the now ex-girlfriend that's got me all confused and whom I wrote a letter by the way.
http://www.neogaf.com/forum/showthread.php?p=36821348&highlight=#post36821348
The girl I wrote about is the now ex-girlfriend that's got me all confused and whom I wrote a letter by the way.
Various Artists
Banned
Just realize that you are heading the wrong way! Ge outside or sit in the mall or something. Isolation can be very dangerous.
Eh. I'm accustomed to isolation, actually, so it isn't that bad.
Been feeling the same. It's not that my mood had strongly dropped or anything, it's just what it is. I've always felt that way to an extent throughout my life. Find it really difficult to make any meaningful connections with people. I'm pretty far from the norm, making it difficult to achieve that. And with some people, their conflicting flaws with my own mindset can irritate me to the point of not wanting increased involvement with them. So I can't win either way really.
Anyone else ever feel like they try to shoulder all the world's pain? There's so much wrong nowadays. I just think we're all screwed and it's depressing. Doesn't help being a Christian and we're all about apocalypse prophecies, most of which I can't find fault with.
This is probably too much and I shouldn't dwell on it, but it sucks to think we're all basically doomed, ya know?
This is probably too much and I shouldn't dwell on it, but it sucks to think we're all basically doomed, ya know?
Awesome! I'm glad you guys aren't so hardcore parkour in WoW that you have a bajillion expansion packs or something. Sign me up! I just need to download the vanilla version of the game.
Also, I'm surprised I'm in the top 10 posters. I didn't think I posted that much, lol.
I used to feel like this a lot a few years ago when I felt completely burden by anxiety and depression. I was so overwhelmed I didn't even realize I was depressed. I just kept pushing myself through the days, acting like nothing was wrong even though I knew, deep down, the way I was feeling wasn't okay, right or rational for a healthy, happy life.
It's easier said than done, but try not to focus on the negatives out there. They're unfortunate, sad and frustrating but they are not the majority. There are good things out there worth living and fighting for every day- they can just be hard to find because, well, I think the good stuff like to keep a low-profile for it's own sake, if that makes any sense.
Also, I'm surprised I'm in the top 10 posters. I didn't think I posted that much, lol.
I used to feel like this a lot a few years ago when I felt completely burden by anxiety and depression. I was so overwhelmed I didn't even realize I was depressed. I just kept pushing myself through the days, acting like nothing was wrong even though I knew, deep down, the way I was feeling wasn't okay, right or rational for a healthy, happy life.
It's easier said than done, but try not to focus on the negatives out there. They're unfortunate, sad and frustrating but they are not the majority. There are good things out there worth living and fighting for every day- they can just be hard to find because, well, I think the good stuff like to keep a low-profile for it's own sake, if that makes any sense.
eddfromtheriver
Banned
We think alike. The more i get to know people... the more depressed i get, the shallowness of it all.
I think you just need better people in your life. I'm very blessed in that regard, even if other aspects of life suck royally.
Continuing our freewrite theme, I'd like to talk about Lionheart1827. Or, as I like to call him, Lion. Or Lionheart. Or pussy.
Lionheart first came into our lives a couple of months ago, when he sought out support for his beast harlot of an ex (sorry, Lion but it's true. But then, I'm biased). Back then, we knew him as the man who conquered cancer, the man with the heart of a lion. I bonded with him quickly, as while most people in D-Gaf share mental burdens, Lion and I have struggled with matters of a more physical nature. I felt a little out of place in some ways until he came onto the scene and I finally had someone who understood how truly terrifying it is when your body betrays you.
So I already knew he was awesome. He fucking killed cancer! But then there was his all-consuming love for Chrono Trigger, something which branded him as extra-awesome. We've discussed the game. We've discussed its music. We've discussed the game *while* listening to its music. And occasionally, we'll talk about other games but who cares? It's Chrono fuckin' Trigger! As a project, I promised that I'd write some variations on a theme from CT but alas, it has gone by the wayside while I've worked on a set of preludes. But don't fret buddy, it's coming!
In mumble, Lion is a relatively quiet guy. He likes to sit back and let the rest of us loonies run the show, occasionally chiming in with an insightful comment. But in reality, he's one of the loudest guys I know, in the way that he shows his support. When I'm feeling down (and it happens a lot), I can count on a PM (or tweet) from Lion. In fact, the moment I knew he'd be my brother was during a dark period when he sent me this amazing PM which capsulized not only the meaning of friendship but the struggle that we as humans face. To live is to fight and he gave me strength not only in saying that but in being a strong shoulder when I needed it.
Recently, he has joined the D-Gaf obsession with the Ys series, which has led to a few funny exchanges where he proclaims his boss-induced rage and I laugh at him. The lion has been tamed! The mane has been cut!
Like that could ever happen. I love you, buddy. Roar for me.
Lionheart first came into our lives a couple of months ago, when he sought out support for his beast harlot of an ex (sorry, Lion but it's true. But then, I'm biased). Back then, we knew him as the man who conquered cancer, the man with the heart of a lion. I bonded with him quickly, as while most people in D-Gaf share mental burdens, Lion and I have struggled with matters of a more physical nature. I felt a little out of place in some ways until he came onto the scene and I finally had someone who understood how truly terrifying it is when your body betrays you.
So I already knew he was awesome. He fucking killed cancer! But then there was his all-consuming love for Chrono Trigger, something which branded him as extra-awesome. We've discussed the game. We've discussed its music. We've discussed the game *while* listening to its music. And occasionally, we'll talk about other games but who cares? It's Chrono fuckin' Trigger! As a project, I promised that I'd write some variations on a theme from CT but alas, it has gone by the wayside while I've worked on a set of preludes. But don't fret buddy, it's coming!
In mumble, Lion is a relatively quiet guy. He likes to sit back and let the rest of us loonies run the show, occasionally chiming in with an insightful comment. But in reality, he's one of the loudest guys I know, in the way that he shows his support. When I'm feeling down (and it happens a lot), I can count on a PM (or tweet) from Lion. In fact, the moment I knew he'd be my brother was during a dark period when he sent me this amazing PM which capsulized not only the meaning of friendship but the struggle that we as humans face. To live is to fight and he gave me strength not only in saying that but in being a strong shoulder when I needed it.
Recently, he has joined the D-Gaf obsession with the Ys series, which has led to a few funny exchanges where he proclaims his boss-induced rage and I laugh at him. The lion has been tamed! The mane has been cut!
Like that could ever happen. I love you, buddy. Roar for me.
The anxiety dream I had last night has really set me off course today. I had one of my spells for a few days were I felt okay, not great, but enough to the point were I wasn't full of dread about facing another day. But it's just opened up some old wounds, and it's been in the background in my mind all day. I know I didn't deserve those past hurts, no one does, and it isn't worth any of my tears. But it has once again made me had to face my own personal defects, one's that I fucking hate myself for having. Some of which I can do nothing about, it isn't so easy to change one's entire personality. My entire life has always been a painful struggle, more than it really should be. And in good choices and bad, it probably always will be. I'm 22, and I feel tired with life already.
Let's look at some more pictures from my series, "Bagels' Birds of Bloomington," shall we?
Here we see the majestic Blue Jay, notable for being blue, and also a Jay?
A powerful telephoto lens (mine is a 70-300mm. It's pretty sweet!) - it's useful for more than seeing what celebrities get up to in their bathrooms - you can also use it to capture beautiful birds in their natural habitats - the backyard trees of Southern Indiana. Look at this striking example of a...well, it's a bird, isn't it? It's also blue-ish, so let's say it's a Blue Jay.
Caw!
This little guy looks oddly depressed. Cheer up, bird!
A prime example of a ...I'm 95% certain this one is *not* a Blue Jay.
Fortunately, this mystery bird (I may even have discovered a new species! Let's tentatively call it a Bagels Falcon) perked right up and displayed the kind of birdly majesty that defines all of the great birds - your bald eagles, your finer hawks, the tootsie pop owl, etc.
The advantage of having a ridiculous telephoto lens is that you can get dramatic shots of dangerous wild animals without putting yourself at any great risk.
Okay, so, to the untrained eye, that appears to be a fluffy bunny rabbit. But in reality...okay, it's a fluffy bunny rabbit. He had a little white cotton tail and everything. :3
Being the proud father that I am, I can't resist a few shots of mini-Bagels, taken during our trip to the lake today!
He walks everywhere like he's on a mission. Love it.
I taught him everything he knows about being a longshoreman!
I gave my son my camera for about 5 minutes, during which time he managed to take about 50 hojillion pictures. Kid's a natural - he didn't even need to use the viewfinder! I'm particularly take with this self portrait of his foot.
Thanks for indulging me!
Here we see the majestic Blue Jay, notable for being blue, and also a Jay?
A powerful telephoto lens (mine is a 70-300mm. It's pretty sweet!) - it's useful for more than seeing what celebrities get up to in their bathrooms - you can also use it to capture beautiful birds in their natural habitats - the backyard trees of Southern Indiana. Look at this striking example of a...well, it's a bird, isn't it? It's also blue-ish, so let's say it's a Blue Jay.
Caw!
This little guy looks oddly depressed. Cheer up, bird!
A prime example of a ...I'm 95% certain this one is *not* a Blue Jay.
Fortunately, this mystery bird (I may even have discovered a new species! Let's tentatively call it a Bagels Falcon) perked right up and displayed the kind of birdly majesty that defines all of the great birds - your bald eagles, your finer hawks, the tootsie pop owl, etc.
The advantage of having a ridiculous telephoto lens is that you can get dramatic shots of dangerous wild animals without putting yourself at any great risk.
Okay, so, to the untrained eye, that appears to be a fluffy bunny rabbit. But in reality...okay, it's a fluffy bunny rabbit. He had a little white cotton tail and everything. :3
Being the proud father that I am, I can't resist a few shots of mini-Bagels, taken during our trip to the lake today!
He walks everywhere like he's on a mission. Love it.
I taught him everything he knows about being a longshoreman!
I gave my son my camera for about 5 minutes, during which time he managed to take about 50 hojillion pictures. Kid's a natural - he didn't even need to use the viewfinder! I'm particularly take with this self portrait of his foot.
Thanks for indulging me!
ThoseDeafMutes
Member
For what it's worth, I've been lurking this thread since it was created and don't recall seeing you here at all.
She was previously known as Nithdia and Nithidis. Her old avatar was more memorable, too. Any bells ringing?
Agent Cooper
Member
Bagels
wow bagels
wow he is so cool
i wish i was bagels
he's s o cool
wow
Mike
mike likes birds
mike likes me
i must be a bird
wow bagels
wow he is so cool
i wish i was bagels
he's s o cool
wow
Mike
mike likes birds
mike likes me
i must be a bird
ClassyPenguin
Banned
ClassyPenguin
Banned
I went to the Getty Center and I saw Art!
Hahah. Very happy to be riding that donkey
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