ClassyPenguin
Banned
The Ice King is a pervert, though.
Mental Health |OT| Depression & Co.
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Collete
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same...
Don't fret that too much. Programming takes a certain mind period. I'm an IT Professional and have been for six years now and you still couldn't get me to program for a damn. Just recognize this class is going to take more time than others.
But still go see a psychologist. They are wonderfully helpful at all times in your life.
Femmeworth
Banned
Stuff like that just makes me cringe.
There's a weird line that cringeworthy and inspirational that pump you up stuff has to balance on. I really liked Benjamin button, but I won't tell anyone because I feel like it wades deep into cheese land.
I also like hang in there cat, go figure.
Agent Cooper
Member
I can't not think about it. I brought this up to my counselor last week, who seemed to think it was attributed to the depression. I go see the psychiatric health clinic on Tuesday before my counselor session and I am going to bring that up. Obsessing over it, yes, doesn't help, but I. Just. Can't. Stop.
And I am of the firm believer that exercise doesn't do jack for depression. I rode 102 miles on my bicycle last Monday, walking 2 miles on Tuesday, and rode my bicycle for 22.6 miles today. Still depressed.
The biggest example that made me feel like exercising doesn't help was one Sunday I rode my bicycle for 58 miles, came home, got into bed, and couldn't will myself to do anything but cry and go to the bathroom, I was so depressed.
I'm still going to exercise, don't get me wrong. This year I've lost 30+ pounds and have never looked better. Just saw a picture of me last night from the Bachelor Party and even I was shocked at how svelte I looked. Still doesn't change my mind about exercising and depression, though.
Seriously, stay away from the alcohol. Depressants + depression = bad time.
Speak for yourself. I'm not saying liquor makes me feel better. It just makes me care less about all the bad thoughts I'm having.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying alcohol is a good solution, or even a good solution, but there's a reason people drink it.
Now, I also don't take any medication. I'd advise strongly against drinking while on medication.
Agent Cooper
Member
Darkmakaimura
Can You Imagine What SureAI Is Going To Do With Garfield?
Please, please give me six hours of sleep tonight.... Six hours at least. I wish I had at least two Xanax or an Ambien for later when I'm about to go to bed. I'm tired of insomnia (I know, tired of insomnia....) and anxiety. I just want to sleep really good tonight.
ThoseDeafMutes
Member
Please no
I assume you've tried asmr vids on YT etc? They help me a lot, but everyone's different.
That's literally my favourite piece of advice I've ever gotten.ClassyPenguin
Banned
Marge: [reading the poster with the cat on it] "Hang in there, baby!" You said it, kitty. [looks more closely] "Copyright 1968." Hmm, determined or not, that cat must be long dead. That's kind of a downer.
Femmeworth
Banned
Well, I was talking about the comic.
thoseAREmySHOES
Member
I've been away from this thread for a while, and I just spent the last while reading every post since my wall of text several weeks ago.
I'm really starting to hate my job, but I'm stuck there for the time being... although my father did mention my name to someone who could potentially hire me for a job that I really want in the Twin Cities (which just so happens to be somewhere I would really like to live, I can't stand being in the desolate wasteland of central Wisconsin anymore). But, when I saw Bagels post...
It made me want to land this new job even more. If I don't land it, though, I'm gonna stick it out at my current job at least until this next July, then I'd have two full years under my belt, which seems to be the minimum for a lot of corporate finance/underwriting jobs.
I'm starting to think I need to change up my medications. I'm currently taking:
37.5mg Venlafaxine 3x daily
7.5mg Buspirone 3x daily
10mg generic Ambien at night for sleep
and .5mg clonazepam as needed for extreme anxiety days (I very rarely take it)
I've tried several others in the past, but I switched after 6 or so weeks because the side effects were too strong or I didn't feel like they were doing anything:
Cymbalta (it was causing me to sweat, which then caused me to feel more anxious, not good...)
Fluoxetine (I took this for about a year, didn't feel like it was doing much)
Bupropion
Escitalopram
Trazodone
Amitriptylin
Gah, I've been on so many. My depression is under control most days (I'd say 6/7 days of the week) but my anxiety is still there. I need something to help with that. I want to try xanax, but I'm afraid of being tired all the time... but maybe it's worth it. My doctor has been hesitant to put me on it, for some reason, though. I don't want to roll into the doctors office and basically demand that he let me try xanax, but I don't really know my other options.
I'm really starting to hate my job, but I'm stuck there for the time being... although my father did mention my name to someone who could potentially hire me for a job that I really want in the Twin Cities (which just so happens to be somewhere I would really like to live, I can't stand being in the desolate wasteland of central Wisconsin anymore). But, when I saw Bagels post...
It made me want to land this new job even more. If I don't land it, though, I'm gonna stick it out at my current job at least until this next July, then I'd have two full years under my belt, which seems to be the minimum for a lot of corporate finance/underwriting jobs.
I'm starting to think I need to change up my medications. I'm currently taking:
37.5mg Venlafaxine 3x daily
7.5mg Buspirone 3x daily
10mg generic Ambien at night for sleep
and .5mg clonazepam as needed for extreme anxiety days (I very rarely take it)
I've tried several others in the past, but I switched after 6 or so weeks because the side effects were too strong or I didn't feel like they were doing anything:
Cymbalta (it was causing me to sweat, which then caused me to feel more anxious, not good...)
Fluoxetine (I took this for about a year, didn't feel like it was doing much)
Bupropion
Escitalopram
Trazodone
Amitriptylin
Gah, I've been on so many. My depression is under control most days (I'd say 6/7 days of the week) but my anxiety is still there. I need something to help with that. I want to try xanax, but I'm afraid of being tired all the time... but maybe it's worth it. My doctor has been hesitant to put me on it, for some reason, though. I don't want to roll into the doctors office and basically demand that he let me try xanax, but I don't really know my other options.
Of course. Not thinking about the girl at all is an impossibility. Trying that will only guarantee frustration. My previous shrink advised me to just not think about a girl (my first) anymore once. I'm glad to be rid of him. But what I'm saying is, if you catch yourself just dwelling on the matter, seek an activity. Even if it's just filing your damn taxes. You can't erase the thoughts but you can damn sure try to tone 'em down.
I'm bemused by that. Everywhere I hear & read that exercise lifts mood/depression. That sucks. I'm sorry to hear it.
Well there's an upside. Good for you! I'm noticing a better figure myself. Feels good.
EDIT: An example. Today's not a great day. I'm still wired & tired from work the last few days, hungover from a much less-than-satisfying housewarming I went to yesterday, and I'm feeling quite lonely. Also my back is fucking killing me. Moments like these I miss my ex the most. Someone to talk to, someone to curl up against on a lazy sunday. The sadness and the anger over what happened and what I lost gets bigger than it has been in a while. And yeah, then I sit in my jogging pants, smoke, eat KitKat (thanks Google) and watch two or three episodes of The Sopranos (the depressing episodes too, namely S6
Bacala's first murder
Johnny Sack's death
So don't give up. Don't wallow. Stay active. This thing can be beat.
It's a temporary ban. He still hangs out in the IRC and is doing (relatively) fine. Just a week left before he is back in here I think.
What's wrong?
Collete
Member
It's just all inevitable...i don't know wh i keep trying.
I want to celebrate returning home in record time with one more post of my bird photos. I feel like I'm actually getting better at this whole photography thing! Birds remain difficult subjects to photograph, but the results can be really cool!
I do love this shot, contrast be damned. The open beak, enjoying some sugar water, silhouetted against the background, make it for me.
The most fearsome wild creature of them all! - Bagelus Minimus! Woodland creatures head for the hills when they hear its plaintive cry!
Chilling in the trough.
I'm really proud of the detail I captured in the original of this Blue Jay. Click for larger version!
I like capturing the birds in the trees, rather than at the feeders, It's way harder to get the focus right.
A Goldfinch! The small birds are so hard to photograph well because they barely sit still.
I rely on my dad to tell me what all of these things are. I *think* this is a Morning Dove?
I spent 30 minutes waiting for this bunny to give me something to work with. We sat with his back to me for way too long.
The hummingbird feeder is attached to our porch door - the damn things are *right* there. Our of 30 pics, I ended up with maybe 5 OK shots, and 2 that I think are decent. There was this beautiful hummer with greenish plumage, but I'll be damned if could get a shot that did it justice.
I do love this shot, contrast be damned. The open beak, enjoying some sugar water, silhouetted against the background, make it for me.
The most fearsome wild creature of them all! - Bagelus Minimus! Woodland creatures head for the hills when they hear its plaintive cry!
(sorry for the double post)
For anyone interested in dGAF gaming, today, several of us are diving into Ys Origin. It’s currently $20 on Steam. It goes on sale every now and then, but a few of us are Ys addicts and could not wait. There is a demo if you’d like to try it out.
This is a purely single-player game and the fun comes from tackling it in tandem - screaming our frustrations at the ludicrous boss battles. You can post here in the thread, but it’s way more fun to talk in chat, on twitter, on mumble, or on the Steam group.
Ys is all about the blistering fast combat, killer music, and the sense of achievement you get when you finally take down some asshole of a boss. The Ys games play like your 16-bit classics, like Secret of Mana, if Nintendo has developed some kind of crystal meth chip to go along with SuperFX. jb1234 and I have had a blast playing Oah in Felghana in parallel.
We’re celebrating all things Ys. Th superlative Oath in Felghana (one of my top5 games of al times) is $15 on Steam, and is also on PSN/PSP. Ark of Napishtim is on PS2, PSP ( avoid this version) or can be found floating around for PC. Chronicles, which is a tad dated, but still fun, is also on Steam and PSN.
We’d love to have you join us for Origins! Let’s make it a social thing! But f you have other Ys games to play, join in as well!
For anyone interested in dGAF gaming, today, several of us are diving into Ys Origin. It’s currently $20 on Steam. It goes on sale every now and then, but a few of us are Ys addicts and could not wait. There is a demo if you’d like to try it out.
This is a purely single-player game and the fun comes from tackling it in tandem - screaming our frustrations at the ludicrous boss battles. You can post here in the thread, but it’s way more fun to talk in chat, on twitter, on mumble, or on the Steam group.
Ys is all about the blistering fast combat, killer music, and the sense of achievement you get when you finally take down some asshole of a boss. The Ys games play like your 16-bit classics, like Secret of Mana, if Nintendo has developed some kind of crystal meth chip to go along with SuperFX. jb1234 and I have had a blast playing Oah in Felghana in parallel.
We’re celebrating all things Ys. Th superlative Oath in Felghana (one of my top5 games of al times) is $15 on Steam, and is also on PSN/PSP. Ark of Napishtim is on PS2, PSP ( avoid this version) or can be found floating around for PC. Chronicles, which is a tad dated, but still fun, is also on Steam and PSN.
We’d love to have you join us for Origins! Let’s make it a social thing! But f you have other Ys games to play, join in as well!
So, freewrite time for MikeDip. I just woke up so umm... sorry.
I love this community and everyone in it. I've seen it mentioned in other threads that a community full of people with mental illness would be a bad idea, like some giant spiral of negativity but I truly have never met a more uplifting bunch of people in my life. We don't just sit around and mope, although that may happen at times, but we support each other, make each other laugh, and make the days that much easier to get through. Whether it be talking about feta cheese, bullshitting on twitter (Follow me @TheMikeDip!) role-playing picking up psychotic women at bookstores, or playing games together, you guys make every day better for me.
I've made some great friends here, so I just wanna highlight a few, specifically the chat guys. Bagels of course is incredible. Always there for you, and puts up with all my medical questions. Same with bugs, even on his messed up work schedules he will still come in for a quick hello. I don't always understand him and his music talk, but I look forward to it anyways. Swecide is incredible, always listening to my dumb tech questions and just being amazing. Colin, filler, jb, and penguin are all super funny, caring and great listeners. When I see any of them in chat or mumble I know things will be exciting.
The ladies of dgaf are also some of my favourite people in the entire world. Always ready to listen and just be there for you. Caring, nice, funny, talented, I could go on and on. Cooper, pau, fiction, prax, trinn, oomi... jesus what a bunch of incredible women we have in this community. I seriously don't know how you guys put up with me, I know I bug you all a lot, and I'm sorry.
One last person I wanted to talk about, Windam. I talk to windam a lot, on steam mostly. Lots of math talk, but there is a lot of just general friendly chatting too! He is funny, kind, and even when he is in a bad mood he's ready to listen to my stupid ramblings. Windam, you're awesome. One day we are gonna go bowling, we live like 20 minutes away from each other. It has to happen. (Windam also promised that when he buys an oculus rift he will let me borrow it! What a guy!) Please buy it soon Windam, I am excited.
Well thats my timer, 5 minutes up and I guess I am supposed to post this without rereading or editing it? Sorry if it is a mess!
I love this community and everyone in it. I've seen it mentioned in other threads that a community full of people with mental illness would be a bad idea, like some giant spiral of negativity but I truly have never met a more uplifting bunch of people in my life. We don't just sit around and mope, although that may happen at times, but we support each other, make each other laugh, and make the days that much easier to get through. Whether it be talking about feta cheese, bullshitting on twitter (Follow me @TheMikeDip!) role-playing picking up psychotic women at bookstores, or playing games together, you guys make every day better for me.
I've made some great friends here, so I just wanna highlight a few, specifically the chat guys. Bagels of course is incredible. Always there for you, and puts up with all my medical questions. Same with bugs, even on his messed up work schedules he will still come in for a quick hello. I don't always understand him and his music talk, but I look forward to it anyways. Swecide is incredible, always listening to my dumb tech questions and just being amazing. Colin, filler, jb, and penguin are all super funny, caring and great listeners. When I see any of them in chat or mumble I know things will be exciting.
The ladies of dgaf are also some of my favourite people in the entire world. Always ready to listen and just be there for you. Caring, nice, funny, talented, I could go on and on. Cooper, pau, fiction, prax, trinn, oomi... jesus what a bunch of incredible women we have in this community. I seriously don't know how you guys put up with me, I know I bug you all a lot, and I'm sorry.
One last person I wanted to talk about, Windam. I talk to windam a lot, on steam mostly. Lots of math talk, but there is a lot of just general friendly chatting too! He is funny, kind, and even when he is in a bad mood he's ready to listen to my stupid ramblings. Windam, you're awesome. One day we are gonna go bowling, we live like 20 minutes away from each other. It has to happen. (Windam also promised that when he buys an oculus rift he will let me borrow it! What a guy!) Please buy it soon Windam, I am excited.
Well thats my timer, 5 minutes up and I guess I am supposed to post this without rereading or editing it? Sorry if it is a mess!
Collete
Member
I think you just have to give it some time before it's phased out. You have been known by it for so long that it has become kind of ingrained. But I'm sure people will do their best to remind themselves that you don't really like it.
As for death being inevitable... well yes, that's kind of a fact of life isn't it? You are born, you live out your life and then, hopefully after many, many years you die. But just because it is inevitable doesn't mean that life has no meaning. Just because we might not be remembered in 200 years time, it doesn't mean that life is useless. Life is what we all make of it. And yes, that is hard. So, so hard. And at times it might seem like it is to hard to be worth the fight. But we shouldn't give up because of that. Good times will come. We might have to fight inch by inch for it. We might have to bomb unhappiness back in the stone age with the white phosporous. But when we have won. When we hoist the flag of victory over the mutilated corpses of our enemies. When we finally can smile again. Then we'll know it has all been worth it. So fight Colette! Fight and crush that depression to pulp. Just don't give up.
And fuck everyone who says otherwise. Because you have the right to be happy.
(That's FillerB freewriting #1)
Probably not forever, it just takes a while to get used to your new one Collete.
Lionheart1827
Member
I just got back from the Hamptons for my oldest bro's bachelor party, only have a few pictures for you guys, mostly of just the house, nothing special. Just wanted to share:
The floor plan of the house was really strange. It has like 4 or 5 bedrooms and 4 bathrooms with two separate staircases that dont meet.
There is a secret batman style door behind the middle bookcase(I'm not kidding). It opens into the master bathroom.
My older brother: NYPD cop and professionally trained chef
Short ribs
Short ribs before their 4 hour simmer
Finished short ribs with kale. I also helped him cook shrimp pasta with garlic sauce as well as marinaded skirt steak on the grill outside
Sorry I wish I had more pictures! But it was a good weekend and I had some fun out east for awhile helping my brother cook for everyone else. We also cooked a huge breakfast this morning: 30 eggs worth of scrambled eggs, 2 pounds of breakfast sausages, a half loaf of toasted bread, big strips of bacon(not the dinky store bought kind, REAL bacon you get at the butcher).
Oh and yours truly. Yeah I took a bathroom selfie, dealwithit.gif
The floor plan of the house was really strange. It has like 4 or 5 bedrooms and 4 bathrooms with two separate staircases that dont meet.
There is a secret batman style door behind the middle bookcase(I'm not kidding). It opens into the master bathroom.
My older brother: NYPD cop and professionally trained chef
Short ribs
Short ribs before their 4 hour simmer
Finished short ribs with kale. I also helped him cook shrimp pasta with garlic sauce as well as marinaded skirt steak on the grill outside
Sorry I wish I had more pictures! But it was a good weekend and I had some fun out east for awhile helping my brother cook for everyone else. We also cooked a huge breakfast this morning: 30 eggs worth of scrambled eggs, 2 pounds of breakfast sausages, a half loaf of toasted bread, big strips of bacon(not the dinky store bought kind, REAL bacon you get at the butcher).
Oh and yours truly. Yeah I took a bathroom selfie, dealwithit.gif
Damn, the Hamptons? Fancy! Looks like a fun time with those ribs.
Ys Origins.. <3
It's a shame I am nipple deep in FFXIV, or I'd play with ya'll since I own it. Also, you people need to add me to steam.
Tarethen is the name on there.
Consider it done, I will add you to our Steam group too, when you accept (we need to do more with that!) I think you have your real name displayed on there, just thought I'd point it out in case you aren't comfortable with that. Bugs did that by mistake too. We have been thinking of all kinds of ideas with games involving the mumble. Earlier we had a few fun games of Cards Against Humanity, and we will be trying out board games soon. So there is a whole bunch of variety going on. More people that join in the better!
eddfromtheriver
Banned
This guys wrote this song about me... (not really but it sure feels like it)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NkLQnq9QDwg (terrible pic for video though, nothing to do with the song @ all)
I Sit Away
Who says the sea can't move in winter
Or clouds stand still in a storm
We says a man can't cry and be lonely
Who says a man can't tend to be bored
And if you could see inside my heart
You would see loneliness
And if I could show you my mind
You would be depressed
Chorus:
Said I sit away lonely
And I get away only in my mind
Said I sit away lonely
And I get away sometimes
So I gather my things
And be on my way
Into my lonely place
Said I'm feelin' lonely and lonesome
And I just need to get away
And if you could know what I'm afraid of
You would be frightened
And if you could feel the pain that
I'm feelin'
Then you would know why, I
Chorus
Breakdown:
Sit away
Said I get away
Said I sit away
Said I sit away
Why do I feel
Like I will never be loved again
There I go
Back in my mood again
Lonely, lonely
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NkLQnq9QDwg (terrible pic for video though, nothing to do with the song @ all)
I Sit Away
Who says the sea can't move in winter
Or clouds stand still in a storm
We says a man can't cry and be lonely
Who says a man can't tend to be bored
And if you could see inside my heart
You would see loneliness
And if I could show you my mind
You would be depressed
Chorus:
Said I sit away lonely
And I get away only in my mind
Said I sit away lonely
And I get away sometimes
So I gather my things
And be on my way
Into my lonely place
Said I'm feelin' lonely and lonesome
And I just need to get away
And if you could know what I'm afraid of
You would be frightened
And if you could feel the pain that
I'm feelin'
Then you would know why, I
Chorus
Breakdown:
Sit away
Said I get away
Said I sit away
Said I sit away
Why do I feel
Like I will never be loved again
There I go
Back in my mood again
Lonely, lonely
As long as you don't start eating people Mike. How about breaking it all up into small meals? That way, it feels like you're eating more without the huge intake.
Cameron122
Member
Listen to the song En Vie by Apocalyptica. Good stuff.
Friend of mine is back from the navy for ten days. A group of us were driving around, shootin' the shit. Couldn't relate to anything they were saying (Millitary, their femine conquests, etc) then my friend had to bring up that I'm a virgin and I got wicked embarassed
-_-'
Also, I'm on chapter 23 of War and Peace. Good stuff.
Friend of mine is back from the navy for ten days. A group of us were driving around, shootin' the shit. Couldn't relate to anything they were saying (Millitary, their femine conquests, etc) then my friend had to bring up that I'm a virgin and I got wicked embarassed
-_-'
Also, I'm on chapter 23 of War and Peace. Good stuff.
Small meals always turn into big meals for me haha..
We need to switch appetites. I keep forgetting to eat and then I get a massive headache.
Felt trapped today even though I did a lot of things to try and keep my mind busy, not looking forward to going to work tomorrow. Shit sucks. On the bright side, new shoes and new wallet come in tomorrow. Also been thinking about the future and what I'm gonna do about my current situation.
Femmeworth
Banned
Collete
Member
First day tomorrow. I'm scared as fuck. Where the hell did summer go?
I know right?
Just remember, you've done well to get this far.
We're all proud of you.
ClassyPenguin
Banned
First day tomorrow. I'm scared as fuck. Where the hell did summer go?
To the Southern Hemisphere.
Sounds like a deal.
And chances are you won't have quizzes. Especially so early in the semester when people are still trying to get text books. What are you studying, by the way?
Darkmakaimura
Can You Imagine What SureAI Is Going To Do With Garfield?
Yeah, I've even posted in the ASMR threads a couple times. They sometimes help but more usually if I just put them on in the middle of the day. If I actually put it on while going to bed, I'll still have problems getting to sleep. It's like my body and mind know I'm making that attempt and it's refusing to let me pass out.
Femmeworth
Banned
No major at the moment, trying to figure that out. At the beginning of my college career I was a computer science major, might go back. Working on the core curriculum in the meantime.Sounds like a deal.
And chances are you won't have quizzes. Especially so early in the semester when people are still trying to get text books. What are you studying, by the way?
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