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[AwesomePossum]

I was depressed and lonely for a number of years and decided to kill myself only after losing my virginity and experiencing an emotional bond (loose as it eventually was). I eventually gained a girlfriend and we inevitably broke up. I took around 30 or 40 of my flouxetine and around 20 tylenol that same night. After having downed what I had thought would bring about an end, I was disappointed to find myself emotionally unaffected, and thought it more proof that I had lost the ability to be human and therefore lost the right to live as one.

I woke up the next morning vomiting white liquid, and avoiding any thought on what I had attempted the night before. I decided to join a few friends to watch some movie. The day went without a hitch despite an odd twitch my jaw made once in a while that my friends awkwardly ignored.

I'm a bit better now, though I still deal with lingering thoughts of suicide, though of which quickly dissipate when I think of how it'd literally kill a member or two of my family who also suffer from depression. Plus I need to see The Dark Knight Rises.

 

[SGRU]

Plus I need to see The Dark Knight Rises.

That's a very good reason to keep on living. :|

People, you have to be REALLY fucked up to think on killing yourselves. Not having girlfriend, friends or money are no reason to suicide. At least think on your families, it must be awful to lose a brother or son, mostly by suicide.

 

[AwesomePossum]

Anything that's a reason to live is a good reason to live in my mind.

And I was fucked up back then. My brain was totally fucked up. The thing about depression is that your brain is instinctively geared to react negatively. Any glimmer of light is dimmed at the onset, any sign of trouble instantly becomes a catastrophe. After years and years of this constant barrage of catastrophes, your motivation to exist erodes.

As for family and friends, suicide is simply rationalized by a belief that you are a burden and that you will be quickly forgotten. The clinically depressed are not rational and are unable to be so.

 

[Gregorn]

My ethics teacher told me that suicide is the most selfish act someone can do, as all it does is hurt the people around them. She had a friend that killed themselves because or some relationship with a guy while her dad was dying. Her dad would have done anything to live another day while the friend just gave up because of something stupid, leaving my teacher with 2 less people in her life.

I'm completely ignorant to depression and my ethics teacher was an idiot so I'm not going to jump to the conclusion that it is selfish...but....

Suicide
- Helps myself
- Makes everyone I know sad

...

 

[Zaphod]

1) never said everyone itt was like this

2) wasn't advice, clearly

3) get over yourself

I lost a friend to suicide who was told to get over it, so nope I won't just get over bad armchair analysis. People who act like depression is just a phase do real harm. It's not for you to judge who is really depressed. It's something a doctor should do.

When someone posts about a medical problem one of the first few posts will tell the op to find a doctor or seek help. The same should be done for depression as well.

 

[J Tourettes]

That's a very good reason to keep on living. :|

People, you have to be REALLY fucked up to think on killing yourselves. Not having girlfriend, friends or money are no reason to suicide. At least think on your families, it must be awful to lose a brother or son, mostly by suicide.

I kind of think that's what everybody with some sense has been saying. Anybody contemplating suicide is obviously not in a healthy state of mind and no amount of being told to 'Man up' or 'stop being selfish' will change the way they feel.

 

[rakhir]

I've thought about it a lot a while back, imagined jumping from buildings or shooting myself, finally i've started cutting etc. One day I've decided that i can't be such a coward and should at least try to repair my life, so i've gave myself a deadline (which gave me chuckle tbh) - if i'm not happy when i'll turn 27 then it's over.
Why 27 I don't know, probably because that's the age Cobain died or something retarded like that.

Well, I'm not particularily happier now, but I've grown up a bit since that idea. There's still three more years to go, so who knows.

My mother did try to commit suicide though, she swallowed a lot of pills, but we managed to bring her to hospital in time. We never talked about it since.

 

[Roland Deschain]

But the thing is, a good number of suicidal people think that they are burdens, that nobody loves them, and that the world would be better off without them. They don't think about the pain their death would bring to those close to them, because in their mind nobody truly cares about them.

This is true. My father killed himself. Planned it in the most detailed way. In the letter he left he explicitly stated that everyone would be better off without him. So, in his mind he wasn't being selfish but generous in his own twisted way.

 

[desa]

Pretty much. Who the hell wants to hang out or be around a negative or depressive person. Most suicidal people feel like they're bringing people down with their presence.

 

[Zwei]

is it really that hard to acquire cyanide pills?

 

[Flo]

My ethics teacher told me that suicide is the most selfish act someone can do, as all it does is hurt the people around them. She had a friend that killed themselves because or some relationship with a guy while her dad was dying. Her dad would have done anything to live another day while the friend just gave up because of something stupid, leaving my teacher with 2 less people in her life.

I'm completely ignorant to depression and my ethics teacher was an idiot so I'm not going to jump to the conclusion that it is selfish...but....

Suicide
- Helps myself
- Makes everyone I know sad

...

Expecting people that don't want to live, to stay alive just for you isn't selfish? Or just because there are more people that want them to live, that equals it out somehow?