I can honestly say I'm pretty apathetic over this sort of thing... I mean, you joined the military, what'd you expect? Civilains on the other hand are another story. I'd rather 1,000 soldiers die, than one innocent civilian and last I check their have been something like a 100,000 civilians killed since the war began (mostly from air strikes). If I were a soldier and I got blowed up, I'd rather everyone cry over the innocents than myself.