or pray for nothing? by nothing i mean do you ever wish everything could just go away? Let me explain. I recently broke up with my girlfriend of 5 years. i loved her more then air, we had a stupid fight and i dumped her out of anger. I tried to fix it like five minutes later but it was too late. I've been trying to get back with her for about three weeks now. Well last weekend come to find out that she's been having sex with one of her co-workers since about a week after we broke up. meanwhile her and i were still having sex during this seeration as well. I found out because i saw them parked in a movie theatre parking lot together. I still want her back but she said she doesn't know what she wants to do. She says she's confused and that she needs time to think things through. I'm not stupid, I know that once those words came out of her mouth it was over. Never the less, I told her that we should officially break and she could think things through. When she's ready she could come to me and let me know officially how she feels. now i feel like killing myself because i firmly believe that i totally screwed up a relationship with the woman i want to marry. I find it hard to do even the littlest of things. Nothing makes sense and a general feeling of confusion and depression has been surrounding me. I'm totally lost.....so...Do any of you ever wish for nothing? For everything and everyone to just disappear? To not have to feel anything at all anymore? I know that nothing good will come from this post but i just needed to vent. And at least I know you guys will make me chuckle. open to any advice at all.