I'm alone because apart from my family, people don't care about me. That started after school was over; everyone's got the things he has to deal with, so there is little time left for anyone who's just wanting to hang out from time to time, who's mostly a geek / gamer and not very much into partying and more than 4 people in one room.
Besides, if I'm honest, I'm probably not an interesting person. Got no huge tales to tell about the Transsibirian Railway or digging holes in the Sahara. It's mostly just programming / gaming / science stuff that I want to talk about. No interest in talking about TV shit, the news or digging through the intricacies of relationships. So my assumption is that I tend to bore people. And everytime I want to steer against that, I usually make an idiot out of myself, so I end up looking like a boring, nerdy idiot, maybe? Problem is, people aren't honest, so I really don't have any idea what the fuck is up with all that, anyway. My social intelligence fails me there.
It was bad for a long time. Especially since I had these occasional social highs with people, I'd hang out with them, do stuff and shit, but after a month or two, things just died down. Was always the worst situation with girls. I just felt used most of the time, if I'm honest. Like as if I'm there to make a crowd around some attention whore.
It also seems like girls just don't give a fuck about me. I don't look horrible or anything, or at least I don't think so. It might be the fact that I'm not interesting, not flirty, not interested in the day-to-day shit people always ramble about.
I don't like it, but I'll live with it. What are you gonna do? Some people just don't get lucky with that stuff, I suppose.