CarbonRevenge
Banned
So i'm going to enlighten you on a story. It's a story of my college love life and it's no better than it has been. So here's the story.
It all began the start of my freshman year during fall semester. I was in the laundry room doing my laundry on my floor. There's this girl I met. We'll call her Amber. Amber and I joked around alot while she was doing her laundry. I found out that she's on another floor in another section of my dorm and that she's going to be a teacher. Cool. Nice to know. Anyway, we talked a little before she got her laundry done then she left. A few weeks into the semester, I saw her a few times whilst saying hi and all that jazz. That was the last time I saw her before spring semester.
Spring semester began. Not much really happened. One day probably a month or so into the semester, she was on my floor playing a Wii with her friends in my floors lounge. I came out, chatted up with her, got her number, added her on FB, and things went from there. I began texting her alot and she really seemed to dig me. However, she had a boyfriend at the time but she broke up with him the day before I started texting her. Eventually in a few weeks she came over for me to give her a try of a dessert(No. Nothing sexual until after) and we finally did some things. Was nice. Yeah, I didn't expect much to come to fruition from it but it would be this week where I figured out that my attraction to her wasn't really worth it. So yesterday I went to her room to help her synthesize articles for her class. I don't typically do shit for other people so it's a rarity. She kind of enticed me with a reward but that's where things irritated me and basically showed that I was being used. So I spent roughly 2 hours in her room working on reading roughly 45 or more pages of stuff figuring out what she could synthesize. She mentioned she was still thinking about the reward despite hinting at other things. I'm sure you can guess what i'm hinting at. Anyway, she mentions she's still in love with her ex(Amber is 18 and her ex is 16 and in high school). She left during the first hour to do something. I left after taking a slight nap on her bed and finishing up before leaving her room. I come back and it's the next day.
Now before I go onto the next part, understand that it was curiosity and that I did it because I wanted to know more about it whilst hiding that I do know. It's that I did it because I wanted to see if I was ever in her line of sight or if i'm just "there". So I see she has this notebook on her bed when I was in there and I read it to see what she was talking about to see if I was ever mentioned. It's mostly stuff related to college but then she mentions her ex. Her ex which we'll call Dylan isn't much of a person i'd give high regard. I have access to Ambers FB account which she gave me in a text awhile back and i've logged in from time to time but I never checked her chat. But she mentioned Dylan once and I never knew who the person he was. Anyway, I read her chatlog on FB with him and apparently she's deeply in love with him. To make it even worse Dylan has all these girls listed as "sisters" on his FB page whilst also referring to anyone of this as his sisters. I thought "Is this an incest fantasy this guy has? Is he not only a player but dreams of fictional incest?" So that kind of caused a few things to go off in my head that it's probably best if I distance myself from her now.
There's also the fact that I flirt with her and give her lots of compliments that she loves but it's she never compliments me back or anything to return the favor. It's just a one way street sort of deal which makes me also feel like any effort I give is simply a waste. Understand that I don't typically do things like I did above but i'm just evaluating how my future outlook is with her. It's not that I am throwing moral judgements out the window but it just seems like a waste of time for me to continue to be used.
tl;dr: I'm not here to be lead on as a self esteem booster or your boy toy.
It all began the start of my freshman year during fall semester. I was in the laundry room doing my laundry on my floor. There's this girl I met. We'll call her Amber. Amber and I joked around alot while she was doing her laundry. I found out that she's on another floor in another section of my dorm and that she's going to be a teacher. Cool. Nice to know. Anyway, we talked a little before she got her laundry done then she left. A few weeks into the semester, I saw her a few times whilst saying hi and all that jazz. That was the last time I saw her before spring semester.
Spring semester began. Not much really happened. One day probably a month or so into the semester, she was on my floor playing a Wii with her friends in my floors lounge. I came out, chatted up with her, got her number, added her on FB, and things went from there. I began texting her alot and she really seemed to dig me. However, she had a boyfriend at the time but she broke up with him the day before I started texting her. Eventually in a few weeks she came over for me to give her a try of a dessert(No. Nothing sexual until after) and we finally did some things. Was nice. Yeah, I didn't expect much to come to fruition from it but it would be this week where I figured out that my attraction to her wasn't really worth it. So yesterday I went to her room to help her synthesize articles for her class. I don't typically do shit for other people so it's a rarity. She kind of enticed me with a reward but that's where things irritated me and basically showed that I was being used. So I spent roughly 2 hours in her room working on reading roughly 45 or more pages of stuff figuring out what she could synthesize. She mentioned she was still thinking about the reward despite hinting at other things. I'm sure you can guess what i'm hinting at. Anyway, she mentions she's still in love with her ex(Amber is 18 and her ex is 16 and in high school). She left during the first hour to do something. I left after taking a slight nap on her bed and finishing up before leaving her room. I come back and it's the next day.
Now before I go onto the next part, understand that it was curiosity and that I did it because I wanted to know more about it whilst hiding that I do know. It's that I did it because I wanted to see if I was ever in her line of sight or if i'm just "there". So I see she has this notebook on her bed when I was in there and I read it to see what she was talking about to see if I was ever mentioned. It's mostly stuff related to college but then she mentions her ex. Her ex which we'll call Dylan isn't much of a person i'd give high regard. I have access to Ambers FB account which she gave me in a text awhile back and i've logged in from time to time but I never checked her chat. But she mentioned Dylan once and I never knew who the person he was. Anyway, I read her chatlog on FB with him and apparently she's deeply in love with him. To make it even worse Dylan has all these girls listed as "sisters" on his FB page whilst also referring to anyone of this as his sisters. I thought "Is this an incest fantasy this guy has? Is he not only a player but dreams of fictional incest?" So that kind of caused a few things to go off in my head that it's probably best if I distance myself from her now.
There's also the fact that I flirt with her and give her lots of compliments that she loves but it's she never compliments me back or anything to return the favor. It's just a one way street sort of deal which makes me also feel like any effort I give is simply a waste. Understand that I don't typically do things like I did above but i'm just evaluating how my future outlook is with her. It's not that I am throwing moral judgements out the window but it just seems like a waste of time for me to continue to be used.
tl;dr: I'm not here to be lead on as a self esteem booster or your boy toy.
