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[SurprisedPikachu]

GAF, I am not perfect. I don't think I am and try not to act like I am. I know those of you who've interacted with me have seen my extremely goofy, often shitposting side.. but truth is I suffer from some seriously crippling anxiety and depression. I can barely function outside of work and my family. I know it's normal to have some level of anxiety, and it's not so bad that I'm on medication because I've learned to deal with by - surprise - joking around and acting like I'm not things seriously. I'm constantly deflecting, avoiding things I don't want to talk. It's not fair to others and so I've been trying to work on that. Truth is I don't know a lot about a lot of things. I'm only really good at computers, games, software development, my job, and I think I've got this parenting thing figured out too. I'm starting to not be scared of asking questions because I don't care if I look stupid if people understand I just want to be more informed on the subject. I have gotten into the habit of asking someone a question, even on GAF, that could easily be answered by googling it. I am not lazy, I just understand things better by talking about. It allows me to get someone's point of view on the subject and ask questions that will help clarify things for me to understand. It's all normal stuff I guess.

but I've got this like.. emptiness feeling that I can't shake.

and just know I'm sorry for being a weird asshole at times. I'm trying to fit in. Find my place in this great group here. It's not easy for me for some reason. I don't know why. I know I've always struggled with trying too hard.

I really fucking hate typing shit on a fucking phone. Good lord. I'm done. I'll type the rest of my streaming thought tomorrow. Fuck this lol

 

[bitbydeath]

Life isn't to be taken seriously, we all have expiry dates so just say fuck it and achieve your dreams.

 

[triplestation]

men crave danger that's the emptiness

wait til youre 50 youre gonna be in a dark alley in the hood lookin like mr. rogers

 

[Xaero Gravity]

PM me whenever you want. Doesn't matter the topic. I'm here if you ever need to vent or just shoot the shit.

 

[Hinedorf]

I only come here for the weird assholes!

 

[JBat]

If you've got the parenting thing figured out fill me in.
One thing I've been trying to remind myself lately is that no one is going to remember your mistakes but you. So you might as well not worry about them either.
We've all got a feeling that something is missing or could be better but as long as you are taking care of your family you are successful. From one internet stranger to another, keep your head up and carry on!

 

[Barsinister]

I only come here for the weird assholes!

Rentahamster , c'mere and bend over for the gentleman, please.

 

[Papa]

I'm only really good at computers, games, software development, my job, and I think I've got this parenting thing figured out too.

That's more than most people bro. What's the problem?

 

[BigBooper]

I would love a public access neogaf call in show.

 

[Phunkydiabetic]

Here is a sweet picture of a red 1992 Dodge Colt for your collection SurprisedPikachu

 

[haxan7]

Here is a sweet picture of a red 1992 Dodge Colt for your collection SurprisedPikachu

May I also offer a 1993 Geo Prizm

 

[BigBooper]

I miss hard edges on cars.

 

[dagZ]

shoot me a pm if you ever need to chat, I feel like im in the same boat.

 

[Rentahamster]

Rentahamster , c'mere and bend over for the gentleman, please.

 

[Ownage]

Sometimes I get so bored with life I poke and fuck with the smooth edges of our existence just to see what responds. Believe me, 'things' push back.

There's a lot out there waiting to be explored and poked and prodded when you're ready.

 

[EviLore]

but I've got this like.. emptiness feeling that I can't shake.

Try bungee jumping off the Verzasca Dam, it'll fix you right up.

 

[Rentahamster]

Try bungee jumping off the Verzasca Dam, it'll fix you right up.

brb, jumping off a damn dam.

Spoiler

That looks like fun where is it?

 

[Shizumapower]

brb, jumping off a damn dam.

Spoiler

That looks like fun where is it?

At you fingertips.

 

[Rentahamster]

At you fingertips.

My fingertips were busy

 

[DESTROYA]

You have kids OP if you get that feeling go give them a hug and play some games with them, sometimes doing the simple stuff with loved ones puts things in perspective.

 

[Elektro Demon]

Maybe you have a midlife crisis? A harley Davidson will cure you instantly.

 

[DKehoe]

That's more than most people bro. What's the problem?

For real. Also having a good sense of what you know and what you don't puts you way ahead of most people.

 

[buizel]

Do you have a group of friends IRL that you can hang, relax, chill and be your stupid silly self with? (honest question, this is v important)

 

[Birdo]

If it makes you feel less alone, 90% of people on the internet seem to feel the same way.

 

[MaestroMike]

do u feel empty cuz ur stomach is empty ?? u gotta eat moar bro more fiber & ur stomach will always be full

 

[Caffeine]

Try bungee jumping off the Verzasca Dam, it'll fix you right up.

what was your thought in that exact moment.

 

[888]

Start gambling

 

[Nymphae]

Try bungee jumping off the Verzasca Dam, it'll fix you right up.

This makes me sweat just looking at it. I would have to be pushed, I could never make that decision and trust that everything was going to work out.

 

[rykomatsu]

For real. Also having a good sense of what you know and what you don't puts you way ahead of most people.

This right here...almost sounds like OP is in the trough of disillusionment?

 

[EverydayBeast]

I'm not buying the OP's attention thread.

 

[Slings and Arrows]

GAF, I am not perfect. I don't think I am and try not to act like I am. I know those of you who've interacted with me have seen my extremely goofy, often shitposting side.. but truth is I suffer from some seriously crippling anxiety and depression. I can barely function outside of work and my family. I know it's normal to have some level of anxiety, and it's not so bad that I'm on medication because I've learned to deal with by - surprise - joking around and acting like I'm not things seriously. I'm constantly deflecting, avoiding things I don't want to talk. It's not fair to others and so I've been trying to work on that. Truth is I don't know a lot about a lot of things. I'm only really good at computers, games, software development, my job, and I think I've got this parenting thing figured out too. I'm starting to not be scared of asking questions because I don't care if I look stupid if people understand I just want to be more informed on the subject. I have gotten into the habit of asking someone a question, even on GAF, that could easily be answered by googling it. I am not lazy, I just understand things better by talking about. It allows me to get someone's point of view on the subject and ask questions that will help clarify things for me to understand. It's all normal stuff I guess.

but I've got this like.. emptiness feeling that I can't shake.

and just know I'm sorry for being a weird asshole at times. I'm trying to fit in. Find my place in this great group here. It's not easy for me for some reason. I don't know why. I know I've always struggled with trying too hard.

I really fucking hate typing shit on a fucking phone. Good lord. I'm done. I'll type the rest of my streaming thought tomorrow. Fuck this lol

First of, fair play for typing that on a phone

Secondly, everyone has some level of anxiety, depression and stress in their lives.

We are very similar OP, in that I don't know a lot about a lot of things either, and if I read between the lines, I think you mean people and emotions? I'm world-class at processes, process knowledge and how to make machines run like a dream, but I lack the desire to socialise with 90% of people.

Anyway, my best advice I can give Is this; You are who are you are. You can't change that, but you can own it. If you say something stupid in front of people, laugh it up, laugh with them, play it up or downplay it, don't back down or try and act like someone you're not.

If you're weird, live up to it, it worked for Buckethead and Weird Al Yanukovych. Be the guy you are and you'll find your place to fit in. You can't fit a square peg in a round hole, and if you use brute force to smash it through, the other kids won't be happy that you've broken their toy because of your own insecurities.

Never apologise when there's nothing to apologise for. Only apologise if you sincerely mean it and because you hurt someone else.

Think of it this way; maybe everyone you know is bored to tears with the same old tedius shit in life. A weirdo, an odd-ball and a kooky character can bring some light in to people's dark, dreary and gray monotonous lives. Same shit, different day? Be the different shit, every day.

 

[Slings and Arrows]

Try bungee jumping off the Verzasca Dam, it'll fix you right up.

YES!!! You sick cunt!

10/10 because you put your hands together in a prayer/dive

 

[DunDunDunpachi]

What sort of things do you want to talk about? Do you feel like you have to dance around the topics you actually wish to discuss in order to fit in?

 

[John Day]

If you didn't say this i wouldn't have noticed.

I can get what you feel, and i can understand too. You're doing good cause parenting is one hell of an scary concept to a lot of people, and if you feel comfortable there...then you are on track.

Whenever you feel talking, we're here!