I miss my old self . . .

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this guy said:
I tried so hard, and got so far. But in the end, it doesn't even matter. I had to fall to lose it all. But in the end, it doesn't even matter.
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The Praiseworthy said:
Where did he goes?

Where that simple boy went?

That naive and optimistic person which felt nothing could bring him down?

I remember the old times these days with such strong nostalgia... and I can't believe the many things happened in the past few years that changed me completely 100%.

When I remember the things that happened to me... it feels like someone's else life, a long movie or an even longer novel .

I've lost so many things in the past few years.... beautiful things... things were the dearest to my heart.

My sweet lovely Grandma which I've lost last year.... it have been so hard on me because I've grown up with her being close in my life, till few weeks ago while I was driving my car closely to her home for a moment I suggested to myself to visit her... I felt joy for few seconds then I told myself what's wrong with you silly? she is gone...

I miss the simple person in me who could feel so happy by just playing JRPGs games alone for days and feels nothing but good feelings and a part of these fiction characters journey...

I miss the friends I've lost to life..... which I shared the best days of my life with...

I miss the child in me that used to dream so many dreams and planned to do many impossible things to prove to himself and to the world that nothing can stop him...

I miss the times when I toughed that all the people were good in their heart... and there is nothing such an evil soul....

I miss the times when I believed so strongly in love... and I could find it one day....

I miss the days when I find joy and happiness in so many simple things....

I miss the old lonely night of winter when I stay awake all night with nothing but my wonderful thoughts and things...



Today... I wake up in the morning and look at myself in the mirror and see the many good things I've gained that I'm grateful for...

I'm grateful for my wonderful Job...

I'm grateful for the love I receive from my large family members and new friends and co workers...

I'm grateful for my new things and my good health and looks...

I'm grateful for my growth...

Yet... there is something special and magical about the past that just won't let me go...



Time goes by.... people changes... dreams dies... hopes awakes... we grow... things gets old... nothing is frozen .

And we asks our self the same question: what tomorrow and the future holds for us?





Share with me.... your nostalgia for your past and old days ~

Every single god damn thing you've listed.....damn man....
 
SolKane said:
Saturday night on an internet forum, what do you expect.

Yup.

Still nothing compared to New Year's Eve night. I remember a few years back I was stuck home with a toothache and was browsing GAF. Was the most depressing night of posts I've ever seen. :(
 
MikeOfTheLivingDead said:
Sounds like someone needs to watch Fight Club.

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Listen up, maggots. You are not special. You are not a beautiful or unique snowflake. You're the same decaying organic matter as everything else.
 
I can feel you, OP. :(

When I was a kid, I would spend the whole day outside, playing with my brothers and friends, climbing trees, building tree houses, etc.. Now, I´m a fat, lonely nerd, spending all day in front of his PC. And thanks to the "designer vagina"-topic, I haven´t been able to fap in three days now, still on-going.

Miss "the good old days".
 
Sennorin said:
And thanks to the "designer vagina"-topic, I haven´t been able to fap in three days now, still on-going.
THE VAGINA MONSTER IS GOING TO GET YOU AND PUT ITS LONG LIPS ALL OVER YOU! MUAHAHAHA
 
OP, take up meditation now. Or learn self-hypnosis or something like that. The kid never really goes anywhere, he just slips from view, and largely due to things that aren't real (ie: discursive thought, elaboration, all forms of adult bullshit, etc). The 'divine fool' (a term I use here to refer to the 'blank slate') is in all of us, but we might need to learn how to gain entry into some kind of hypnotic state or altered state of consciousness (effectively peeling back much of our past conditioning) in order to really know that now for ourselves.

So you can use something like meditation or hypnosis so that your sub/unconscious will become more eminent. If you do you'll likely feel many of the feelings you describe here, only even more strongly than you remember them, and with the added benefit of adult wisdom providing more penetrating understanding :) But even then it's often transient and easily forgotten, I find I forget just as easily as I forgot my childhood, I pretty much need a constant reminder (another reason meditation would be a good idea, it can serve as that), otherwise I forget like I did the first time, and don't even notice.
 
Fight Club can either be the best thing to change yourself for the better, or the worst thing that makes you want to commit suicide. Depends on if you're a glass half full or half empty person I guess.

I feel you though OP, nostalgia is probably the saddest thing for me and I'm masochistic in a way by constantly listening to stuff from my childhood/yearning to be there again, but there's many people like that. Your avatar reminds me of the piano version of FF7 theme which is by far one of the saddest nostalgia-driven themes ever. Tough to listen to that and not get depressed about not being a kid anymore.
 
Sorry but old me was shit, no money no games no intelligence, only several friends and cool people around me.

Oh wait....
 
Man, what's up with Gaf tonight? So depressed.

Everyone just needs to watch:
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the most uplifting movie ever made.
 
Sennorin said:
I can feel you, OP. :(

When I was a kid, I would spend the whole day outside, playing with my brothers and friends, climbing trees, building tree houses, etc.. Now, I´m a fat, lonely nerd, spending all day in front of his PC. And thanks to the "designer vagina"-topic, I haven´t been able to fap in three days now, still on-going.

Miss "the good old days".

Awwwww.... I'm so deeply sorry for your pain :-(

I feel your emotions.... and share your feelings.

Hope tomorrow brings you joy ~
 
I'm with you OP. Something died off inside of me when I was around the age of 14-15. I'm no longer my self, and I'm not interested in anything or anyone anymore.
 
Trite much?

I've literally written a story/poem/abstract piece about every sentence in the OP.



Then read them and asked "Trite much?"
 
Lo_Fi said:
Man, what's up with Gaf tonight? So depressed.

Everyone just needs to watch:
amelie.jpg



the most uplifting movie ever made.
I actually got this from netflix today. Will watch by the end of the weekend if my house is intact from that bitch Irene.
 
Christ, it's like I stumbled on someone's personal GeoCities page from 1997.

You're alive and healthy and live in conditions comfortable enough to permit you to post a lament on an online discussion forum. That gives you an edge on the vast majority of humanity. Three cheers for not starving to death! Three cheers for not suffering from dysentery! Three cheers for not having your limbs chopped off by a hysterical mob! The cure for your woes is perspective.
 
You live in the western world? If so, it's not uncommon, as everyone here is depressed and suicidal. Move to Africa, because apparently no one ever commits suicide there, so everyone must be happy in Africa!
 
Combichristoffersen said:
You live in the western world? If so, it's not uncommon, as everyone here is depressed and suicidal. Move to Africa, because apparently no one ever commits suicide there, so everyone must be happy in Africa!

Go to Nigeria they're all millionaires over there. Surely you've seen them in their top hats and monocle with their pet Hyenas and shit. It's basically the same as a country made from rainbows and lollipops.
 
Emily Chu said:
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I KNOW THAT FEEL ALL TOO WELL


but what can you do at the end of the day ?

Lighten up, have some sex, eat some good food and drink (30$ Italian meal)

just sit back and relax.
cheer up Depressed GAF WE ALL KNOW THAT FEEL
THIS, MOTHAFUCKING THIS

without the sex =(
 
Soru said:
Go to Nigeria they're all millionaires over there. Surely you've seen them in their top hats and monocle with their pet Hyenas and shit. It's basically the same as a country made from rainbows and lollipops.

hahaha ooooh.
 
Soru said:
Go to Nigeria they're all millionaires over there. Surely you've seen them in their top hats and monocle with their pet Hyenas and shit. It's basically the same as a country made from rainbows and lollipops.

In Nigeria, everyone is a prince.
 
I know what ya mean OP. I'm probably a little further along (wife and kids here), but I still regard those days between 12 and 21 as the best of my life.
 
Who doesn't? Late teenage was the best. All my friends were still here, partying and just playing video games.

Now? All my friends have moved and every day is pretty much the same. I'm still happy I got a decent job but that's about it. Well okay I'm also much better looking than I was as a teenager. Oh and I make money too. And I get to party whenever I feel like.

... Okay, life is still great. =D
 
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