I know the feeling... sort of. The dog Ive got now nearly died.
One rainy day I noticed my dog (Buka) wasn't inside, which is unusual for him. So I went looking for him in the house... couldn't find him. I figured he wouldn't be outside because it was raining, but since he was nowhere to be found inside I did a quick check outside. For quite a while I couldn't find him and thought he'd escaped or something but eventually I found him, huddled up against the fence under some stuff which was leaning against fence.
He certainly didn't look happy, so I got under there with him to pick him up and take him inside out of the rain, but as soon as I started to lift him he yelped. He was in a lot of pain. I looked for any blood thinking he might have external injuries, but there was none. It was an internal problem. It seemed he gone outside, under the shelter to die...
Even though it hurt him to pick him up I had no choice and had to get him out of there to a vet, so I ignored his cries of pain and took him to the car and the family and I went to the vet. The vet did some x-rays and discovered a large piece of bone lodged in his stomach, or something. I'm sketchy on the medical details of this, so bear with my mistakes and inconsistencies if you know your biology. This piece of bone was from a bone we'd given him to chew on (cleans their teeth) and it seems he broke of a large piece and swallowed it, which then got lodged in his stomach. What then happened is it couldn't be properly digested so it stayed in his stomach for too long which made the pancrease work overtime and caused inflammation because of the high fat content in the bone and its marrow. Without treatment Buka was going to die.
This place we took Buka to is like an intensive care ward of a human hospital but for animals, which deals with critical life and death stuff. They gave him a whole bunch of drugs, something to aid in breaking down the bone and even blood transfusions. He was in there for over a week and for a lot of the time the vets didn't think he'd make it. We asked if it was a good idea to visit him and they were a bit unsure... on one hand it would lift his spirits but on the other we couldn't stay there 24 hours a day so when we left he'd fret. In the end they thought it best that we visit. After 3-4 days of not seeing Buka we went to see him and when he saw us you could see he went to great effort to stand up and even wag his tail... the vet said that was the most active he'd being since we checked him in.
The longer we stayed the more lively he became, so the vets said it'd be okay to give him a very slow walk around the premises outside. It was a very slow, limping walk, but he seemed happy to do it and was glad to be able to urinate freely on a tree. We took him back in, gave him a pat and left. The next day we gave the vet a call and asked how he was doing after we left. Luckily he didn't fret once we'd left and settled down. Over the next few days after we visited his condition improved greatly. 3-4 days after wed visited him the vets said he was well enough to come home. The vets seemed convinced that our visit had brought about this improvement in his condition... like it gave him something to look forward to, knowing we hadn't abandoned him.
This was 3-4 years ago. Buka is still alive and well and about 13 years old. He's losing his hearing and losing his sight, and that incident certainly shaved a few years off his life, but he's still happy. We can no longer give him bones or any fatty food because his pancrease is far too sensitive after that incident, but other than that he lives the good life a dog should live.
He's the one closest to the camera. The other dog is my sister's, who lives interstate.
It might sound a little macabre to some people, but I hope to find Buka dead one morning having died peacefully in his sleep. I don't want to put him down...