so, I need to ask you something, is it wrong for you to love? why do you need to hide love from someone else?? Love doesn't mean that you are going to just give yourself completely (which you should never do, we need to keep some for ourselves).
I know people can be harsh, that they can really hurt us, but the moment we get really hurt is when we ourselves do it, if you love him and he is interested in you, I don't see why you can't tell that, you are hurting yourself in all this because you seem to have been loving him.
Now, I think it's pretty good of you taking your time to put your feelings in order, that seems like a very good option, but be sure to come out of that time with everything in order, after that time you should know what you want, else you are going to hurt yourself more. May be think if you really love him or if it is just an obsession (that can happen.)