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[West Texas CEO]

Since I am autistic myself, and I know for a fact that such people aren't exactly uncommon on this site, I decided to make a thread where people can discuss what it's been like living as an autistic person-- if, of course, they're comfortable sharing.

If you are neurodivergent in any other way (ADHD, Dyslexia, etc), you are also welcome to talk about your experiences on this thread.


I'll start:

I am quite awkward socially. I only have like 3 IRL friends at age 24, though this is in part because I'm also quite shy.
Also, I have always found social situations taxing, and am very shy and anxious. I'm easily overwhelmed by any sensory discomfort, which in practical terms has made me a picky eater and someone who struggles a lot with loud, crowded environments.

As one might guess, I'm also obsessed with pornstars. Huge breasts are my favorite class and the one I know the far the most about-- my favorite orders being, Mia Khalifa, Beverly Paige, Dolly Fox, Kimberly Kupps, Corina Curves, and Busty Ellen.

 

[Humdinger]

A few months ago, I thought I might be on the spectrum. I had seen some Youtube videos that described the syndrome, and I identified with parts of it -- for instance, the sense of feeling different ("wrong planet syndrome"), some difficulties with forming relationships and communicating. I spent about 2-3 weeks studying it intensively.

Eventually, I figured out that I was not on the spectrum. The YT videos I'd seen initially were too broad in their descriptions. I needed to read the experts and dig into it deeper, before I grasped the subtleties.

But during those few weeks, I learned a lot about autism. I developed more understanding and empathy for people who have this condition (if that's the right word). It is tough to live with, for sure. Some of the comments I read broke my heart. Most "NTs" have no understanding.

 

[JC 1080P CRT]

As one might guess, I'm also obsessed with pornstars.

Well that was an unexpected turn from what I expected opening the thread. But at the same time your honesty is admirable

 

[jason10mm]

I just pretend I'm Dexter and learn to read cues, run them through my internal dialogue filter a few times, and try to not put foot into mouth too much. I often sort the responses "on screen" like The Terminator, trying to pick the one that seems most appropriate but when I'm stressed or tired, whooooo boy can I say some stupid shit. I find life is easier when I just stick to my lane, be really good at my job, and just try to avoid overly sensitive/annoying ENFP motherfuckers so I can read sci-fi books in peace.

 

[Run-M-Run]

A few months ago, I thought I might be on the spectrum. I had seen some Youtube videos that described the syndrome, and I identified with parts of it -- for instance, the sense of feeling different ("wrong planet syndrome"), some difficulties with forming relationships and communicating. I spent about 2-3 weeks studying it intensively.

Eventually, I figured out that I was not on the spectrum. The YT videos I'd seen initially were too broad in their descriptions. I needed to read the experts and dig into it deeper, before I grasped the subtleties.

But during those few weeks, I learned a lot about autism. I developed more understanding and empathy for people who have this condition (if that's the right word). It is tough to live with, for sure. Some of the comments I read broke my heart. Most "NTs" have no understanding.

I'd call it a "feature". Most medical practicioners or professional literature still seems to talk about neurodivergents as "faulty", when, in reality, it's just a passed down feature (The chance of passing down these features is extremely high). People with these divergent features were (hypothized) quite crucial for tribal communities. In an age before farming etc. I'm not gonna go deeper that on those, because I'm not "that" qualified to talk about it, but I definitely believe in these hypotheses. It's crazy that IIRC in the 80s it was actually believed that neurodivergent features had something to do with badly gone laubour. Just goes to show that it's something that hasn't been researched enough.

But yes, life can be exceedingly hard for those that have these features because our modern society is not built for them or the way their brain works. It's a damn shame. Sometimes you get lucky and find a good "hyperfocus", like Mr Beast did.

Edit: Also, everyone is on the spectrum, just that some are much more than others. Most people have "qualities" that neurodivergents have, but it's not something that controls their life like it does for those properly in the spectrum. This is why most people can identify with some features.

 

[jufonuk]

ADHD but not Diagnosed officially. My son has it and through a series of his questionnaires a hell of a lot of all the symptoms etc I tick. Plus his doctor was talking about it being passed down via parents and my wife has noticed a lot of similarities between my son and I.

I have lived my life working out coping mechanisms etc. I an 45 and up until recently I had a very good job with excellent work life balance so I have been ok career wise just sometimes with the people I care about I can take things too personally and have issues with sometimes impulse control as I can silly spend etc. I’m scatter brained kinda messy and have hyper focus on certain things I enjoy. In school I was described as a daydreamer and I needed to apply myself.

 

[BlackTron]

I find life is easier when I just stick to my lane, be really good at my job, and just try to avoid overly sensitive/annoying ENFP motherfuckers so I can read sci-fi books in peace.

My sister is an ENFP and is destroying all our lives...

 

[AJUMP23]

Did not expect all the confessions.

 

[mitch1971]

As one might guess, I'm also obsessed with pornstars. Huge breasts are my favorite class and the one I know the far the most about-- my favorite orders being, Mia Khalifa, Beverly Paige, Dolly Fox, Kimberly Kupps, Corina Curves, and Busty Ellen.

Is this thread just an undercover tit's and arse thread to fool the mods?

 

[Power Pro]

I'm actually in the middle of getting tested for this myself, because it just sounded way too familiar the more I read about it. Still early in my sessions to know how it's going to turn out, but I felt like I needed to know, because I am tired of feeling different without knowing why.

 

[TheDreadBaron]

I’m on some kind of high functioning borderline if anything, but certain things seem to point in the ASD direction. I don’t really identify with the word “autism” because its never been applied to me before, and to some degree I don’t think the label is useful. Like, people used to just appreciate differences in personality as quirks and that’s what made people special, but now with the label it’s like ohh I know what you are you fit in the autism box. I don’t really buy into it, but again I’m borderline for a diagnosis if anything.

 

[Mistake]

In school I was treated as autistic by teachers, and only found out once one of them admitted it. Really pissed me off, because I just had a lot of baggage early that I didn't know how to handle.

I think all of us are a bit different, and unless it's actively a problem and getting in the way of day to day functions, I wouldn't worry too much. My girlfriend has an autistic uncle and he's got it pretty rough. Can't drive a car and talks to himself a lot. Nice guy though

 

[Sleepwalker]

Came here out of curiosity and found a list of pornstars to research, ahh how not to love life when its full of happy little accidents?

 

[mopspear]

My therapist said I was near the end of the spectrum after asking her about it since it's her specialty. Then my whole life kinda clicked and everything made sense looking back. I learned to be good with people by learning how to fake emotions and from being an online English teacher for years. I'm almost sure it sabotaged nearly every attempt to date I ever made but I'm married now. She thinks I'm a little weird sometimes but it's not a big deal.

I'm not referring to anyone in this thread but I hate when people flaunt whatever problems they have like this. Like Twitch tags. I hate how much society wants to focus on what makes us weak instead of strong.

 

[Fools idol]

Starts a thead about being autistic and immediately starts talking about boobs

OP checks out

Can't say I know what having autism feels like, but I relate a bit on the count that I also hate socialising and people so I avoid those. Like I would literally be happy as a pig in mud if I was the last guy left on a zombie apocalypse. Not becuase I'm shy or anxious or anything, just because 99% of people are stupid and drive me insane.

 

[Kenpachii]

Just got diagnosed yesterday, after 8 months of visiting professionals and doing tests.

I noticed i ticked differently because i kept isolating myself in whatever i do, job / work / friends / sports, looking in people's eyes feels unnatural which gave me the hint.
I also notice things other's don't, am really fast in complex matters, but absolutely suck at reading the room socially. I keep myself distanced from social stuff and refuse to ask help even if my life depends on it, even while i naturally attract people and people naturally like me. I noticed i had no interest in relatioships at all with it and had issue's with sounds / light. Busy rooms make it extremely difficult to function or drains me on energy massively in on top of it.

As i started to hit a wall earlier this year, i went through the whole diagnostic solution and pretty high autism was the result.

How to deal with it.

Regulate your energy, plan well and make sure to take a break after you overload on senses. Put some time away for yourself to basically refocus in. And don't be afraid to isolate you for a week at times to gather your energy back.

 

[ÆMNE22A!C]

It's pretty fucking hard.

 

[Grildon Tundy]

Today I learned some of my favorite posters on GAF are on the spectrum. Not surprised (in a good way).

I've wondered if I'm on the spectrum. Some of the signs of Aspergers in adults are defining personality traits of mine, but other ones I don't relate to at all.

 

[Whitecrow]

ADD diagnosed at 29.
Being missunderstood and taken for an idiot most of my life have been great so far....

 

[AJUMP23]

West Texas CEO needs to be labeled NSFW. (Needs Super Fullbusted Women)

 

[ÆMNE22A!C]

Nvm

 

[Maiden Voyage]

Mia Khalifa, Beverly Paige, Dolly Fox, Kimberly Kupps, Corina Curves, and Busty Ellen.

looks like I’ve some research to conduct

 

[jufonuk]

My therapist said I was near the end of the spectrum after asking her about it since it's her specialty. Then my whole life kinda clicked and everything made sense looking back. I learned to be good with people by learning how to fake emotions and from being an online English teacher for years. I'm almost sure it sabotaged nearly every attempt to date I ever made but I'm married now. She thinks I'm a little weird sometimes but it's not a big deal.

I'm not referring to anyone in this thread but I hate when people flaunt whatever problems they have like this. Like Twitch tags. I hate how much society wants to focus on what makes us weak instead of strong.

Yeah I agree. I had it back in the day didn’t use my label. Just had to muck in knuckle down. Despite all this I managed to get a masters degree. (Go me) but downside i grew up most of my life thinking I was thick as most teachers didn’t deviate from the teacher text book. Because I didn’t tick the boxes or follow the template. They just said yeah he is a daydreamer etc bad student.

I’m happy kids today get the attention and different methods of teaching. That helps. I don’t like the labels some students get just because they find school boring and would rather learn something else. Not the bog standard English maths and science.

 

[jufonuk]

looks like I’ve some research to conduct

 

[OmegaSupreme]

looks like I’ve some research to conduct

Beverly Paige is a good one. Natural.

I love big tiddies too. Am I sick?

 

[Cyberpunkd]

A few months ago, I thought I might be on the spectrum. I had seen some Youtube videos that described the syndrome, and I identified with parts of it -- for instance, the sense of feeling different ("wrong planet syndrome"), some difficulties with forming relationships and communicating. I spent about 2-3 weeks studying it intensively.

Eventually, I figured out that I was not on the spectrum. The YT videos I'd seen initially were too broad in their descriptions. I needed to read the experts and dig into it deeper, before I grasped the subtleties.

But during those few weeks, I learned a lot about autism. I developed more understanding and empathy for people who have this condition (if that's the right word). It is tough to live with, for sure. Some of the comments I read broke my heart. Most "NTs" have no understanding.

Or you can just go to a professional instead of relying on YT to medically diagnose you.

 

[TheInfamousKira]

I don't know about autism, but I deal with anxiety and MAD. I also have some minor brain damage from a stroke, which mostly manifests in having trouble quickly changing gears or altering a plan. I get over stimulated far easier than I used to.

 

[TheDreadBaron]

Or you can just go to a professional instead of relying on YT to medically diagnose you.

Don’t know where humdinger is, but in the US one doesn’t “just go” to the doctor and get an autism diagnosis. There’s so many barriers, parents can wait years to finally have their kids diagnosed who urgently need therapy. I’ll spare you the whole US healthcare is atrocious speech in full detail today, but educating yourself on the topic and diagnosing yourself is increasingly the most sensible thing to do, especially if you’re higher functioning and have learned to blend in with how you’re expected to behave. Doctors frequently don’t listen and don’t have any answers, that’s why people turn to YouTube for answers.

 

[PaddyOCanager]

.

The last time I met an autistic person, we shared drinks and talked video games at a social gathering. I found out later that his family noticed and were overjoyed. Apparently, he usually bails from social events after like 5 minutes without speaking to anyone. I knew he was autistic from the first words he spoke, but it was no big deal.

You have a tangible barrier to overcome, but don't be surprised if in those instances when you're able to push through it there's no one on the other side to reciprocate. That's not how it works for anyone: 50% of Americans report having 3 or fewer close friends and 60% of Americans report feeling lonely on a regular basis. Loving yourself is the only universal foundation for happiness.

 

[Smokken]

You sure you're not just........introverted?

 

[Cyberpunkd]

Doctors frequently don’t listen and don’t have any answers, that’s why people turn to YouTube for answers.

Gonna disagree here. People turn to YT for answers because they don’t want to hear from doctors, since it is against what they want or feel.
Steve Jobs self-medicated instead of just doing the damn chemo, which would have been recommended by all professionals given his condition.

 

[TheDreadBaron]

Gonna disagree here. People turn to YT for answers because they don’t want to hear from doctors, since it is against what they want or feel.
Steve Jobs self-medicated instead of just doing the damn chemo, which would have been recommended by all professionals given his condition.

Not saying everyone always gets it right, but that includes doctors. Steve Jobs would have had access to the most competent professionals available and had zero financial barriers but he thought he knew better because he was king of his own world. Ordinary people frequently have the experience of going to doctor after doctor who don’t listen to them and dismiss their concerns. I’m glad you haven’t had that experience.

Edit: Ask literally any woman you know if their doctor has ever dismissed their health concerns, be prepared for a novel.

 

[TheInfamousKira]

Not saying everyone always gets it right, but that includes doctors. Steve Jobs would have had access to the most competent professionals available and had zero financial barriers but he thought he knew better because he was king of his own world. Ordinary people frequently have the experience of going to doctor after doctor who don’t listen to them and dismiss their concerns. I’m glad you haven’t had that experience.

It's impossible to paint something like the quality of every person's individual character in regards to their opinions about self diagnosing versus medical professionals with broad strokes, and I think that applies to both sides of the argument.

I will say, it's dangerous and ill advised, in my opinion. All the hoops and red tape are frustrations going through the official channels, I'm well aware, but that's also the counter to the assumed benefit of consulting a professional, who has gone to more classes, lectures and exams about this profession to qualify them for doing it, versus the quick and easy route of listening to a Tiktok prompt about "put down one finger for every symptom I list that you have!" in that absolutely putrid fembot voice.

Are you implying that all medical facilities in the states are garbage, convoluted fun houses built solely to damage your mental health and quality of life? Probably not. Am I saying that everyone who self diagnoses is an idiot or is on too much of a Confirmation Bias Quest to filter information correctly? Mostly not.

But there *is* a pedigree to modern medical practice and process, and, despite any perceived or actual flaws to the system, functions and was created for a reason. Namely, to keep idiots and Snake oil salesman from killing umpteen people. I don't think that anyone is doing it with intentional malice, either, but the important thing to note here is people, as a generalized whole, are complete fucking eat-crayon levels of stupid. Self diagnosis detractors aren't waging a secret ideological crusade against freedom of information or personal autonomy, they're trying to protect the retards who necessitate the printed warning labels on chainsaws about not operating them with your genitals.

Another thing to consider: What IS a diagnosis? Drawing a conclusion about an illness or other factor preventing the sufferer from operating in a typical, productive fashion. Diagnostics isn't like philosophy or analysis, it's part of a sequence. You diagnose an issue to narrow down the methods of troubleshooting it. If self diagnosis becomes regular and accepted, then self-medication will, as well, and that kind of regression will see our ancestors a few generations from now back on the street in fucking plague masks debating the balance of our humors.

 

[TheDreadBaron]

It's impossible to paint something like the quality of every person's individual character in regards to their opinions about self diagnosing versus medical professionals with broad strokes, and I think that applies to both sides of the argument.

I will say, it's dangerous and ill advised, in my opinion. All the hoops and red tape are frustrations going through the official channels, I'm well aware, but that's also the counter to the assumed benefit of consulting a professional, who has gone to more classes, lectures and exams about this profession to qualify them for doing it, versus the quick and easy route of listening to a Tiktok prompt about "put down one finger for every symptom I list that you have!" in that absolutely putrid fembot voice.

Are you implying that all medical facilities in the states are garbage, convoluted fun houses built solely to damage your mental health and quality of life? Probably not. Am I saying that everyone who self diagnoses is an idiot or is on too much of a Confirmation Bias Quest to filter information correctly? Mostly not.

But there *is* a pedigree to modern medical practice and process, and, despite any perceived or actual flaws to the system, functions and was created for a reason. Namely, to keep idiots and Snake oil salesman from killing umpteen people. I don't think that anyone is doing it with intentional malice, either, but the important thing to note here is people, as a generalized whole, are complete fucking eat-crayon levels of stupid. Self diagnosis detractors aren't waging a secret ideological crusade against freedom of information or personal autonomy, they're trying to protect the retards who necessitate the printed warning labels on chainsaws about not operating them with your genitals.

Another thing to consider: What IS a diagnosis? Drawing a conclusion about an illness or other factor preventing the sufferer from operating in a typical, productive fashion. Diagnostics isn't like philosophy or analysis, it's part of a sequence. You diagnose an issue to narrow down the methods of troubleshooting it. If self diagnosis becomes regular and accepted, then self-medication will, as well, and that kind of regression will see our ancestors a few generations from now back on the street in fucking plague masks debating the balance of our humors.

Yeah I agree for the most part, and there’s plenty of good doctors I should have made that more clear. I get annoyed when people mock people who have finally figured out what their actual problem is through their own research after years of being gaslit by doctors.

 

[TheInfamousKira]

Yeah I agree for the most part, and there’s plenty of good doctors I should have made that more clear. I get annoyed when people mock people who have finally figured out what their actual problem is through their own research after years of being gaslit by doctors.

It's super frustrating, I definitely feel you. I guess it's important to remember there's a human element to both sides, and humans are capable of both error and negligence. Even if you had/have pretty cut and dry problems like I do with depression, there's still so many ways you can passively fuck yourself, especially post-pandemic. You didn't update your phone number with these people that you have a single video call appointment with every 4-6 months, so you never got a text telling you your appointment was next week so you missed it and got your treatment plan closed, thus necessitating re-registration and more intake appointments? That sucks!

And I know that example is primarily a "learn to adult and mark calendars," but there's plenty of others. Another favorite of mine post-2020 is medical offices refusing new patients. The system(s?) need retooling, for sure. I guess my overly cautious side will always err toward walking 12 miles for a guaranteed cup of water versus jumping into a dark crevice assuming there's a lake of freshwater below me.

 

[Spyxos]

ADD diagnosed at 29.
Being missunderstood and taken for an idiot most of my life have been great so far....

I was diagnosed with it at 36. And I've always wondered why learning is so hard for me.

 

[ÆMNE22A!C]

In my 25+ of experience with psychologists, psychiatrists and various therapy roads I'll say this:

Firstly you have to be lucky regarding your assigned counselor (?)

That plays a HUGE factor.

Secondly we have to acknowledge that psychology/psychiatry is still in it's infancy.

Thirdly; pharmaceutical companies. Enough said.

Fourthly; no incorporation from a esoteric and or spiritual pov.

Last but not least; the various sources that (could) play a major role in why there's been an exceptional growth in mental "illness" which ties in with and I'm somewhat paraphrasing; create problem, offer solution = profit.

 

[ÆMNE22A!C]

It's impossible to paint something like the quality of every person's individual character in regards to their opinions about self diagnosing versus medical professionals with broad strokes, and I think that applies to both sides of the argument.

I will say, it's dangerous and ill advised, in my opinion. All the hoops and red tape are frustrations going through the official channels, I'm well aware, but that's also the counter to the assumed benefit of consulting a professional, who has gone to more classes, lectures and exams about this profession to qualify them for doing it, versus the quick and easy route of listening to a Tiktok prompt about "put down one finger for every symptom I list that you have!" in that absolutely putrid fembot voice.

Are you implying that all medical facilities in the states are garbage, convoluted fun houses built solely to damage your mental health and quality of life? Probably not. Am I saying that everyone who self diagnoses is an idiot or is on too much of a Confirmation Bias Quest to filter information correctly? Mostly not.

But there *is* a pedigree to modern medical practice and process, and, despite any perceived or actual flaws to the system, functions and was created for a reason. Namely, to keep idiots and Snake oil salesman from killing umpteen people. I don't think that anyone is doing it with intentional malice, either, but the important thing to note here is people, as a generalized whole, are complete fucking eat-crayon levels of stupid. Self diagnosis detractors aren't waging a secret ideological crusade against freedom of information or personal autonomy, they're trying to protect the retards who necessitate the printed warning labels on chainsaws about not operating them with your genitals.

Another thing to consider: What IS a diagnosis? Drawing a conclusion about an illness or other factor preventing the sufferer from operating in a typical, productive fashion. Diagnostics isn't like philosophy or analysis, it's part of a sequence. You diagnose an issue to narrow down the methods of troubleshooting it. If self diagnosis becomes regular and accepted, then self-medication will, as well, and that kind of regression will see our ancestors a few generations from now back on the street in fucking plague masks debating the balance of our humors.

Man i wish i wouldn't have to spend short of an hour to respond to you because of the difference in expressing myself as efficiently and such ease as you =(

I feel so dumb ATM.

 

[TheInfamousKira]

Man i wish i wouldn't have to spend short of an hour to respond to you because of the difference in expressing myself as efficiently and such ease as you =(

I feel so dumb ATM.

You'd re-inflate yourself pretty quickly if you heard me try to verbally recite anything I wrote down, hahaha. For my part, I ramble way too much and like comma splicing too much for my own good. I'm usually shocked when someone gets to the bottom of one of my posts and my colorful use of fuck and seven bad metaphors somehow make sense to the reader. Sometimes I back out of entire pages of text on here because I go to re read it and realize I'm talking about cultural appropriation in Bratz dolls in a thread about Jim Ryan or whatever.

But written (typed?) word has been my saving grace. I'm not a stuttering Stanley or whatever, and most people don't believe me when I tell them I had a stroke, but there's definitely some processing that isn't going as efficiently as before, and that bleeds out a lot into getting tongue tied or flustered.

I've always enjoyed your posts, for what it's worth, haha

 

[mopspear]

Fourthly; no incorporation from a esoteric and or spiritual pov.

They always miss this one. Man is more than a bag of meat. Regardless if you believe in any of this stuff or not, it still has a huge effect on your mental well-being.

 

[ÆMNE22A!C]

You'd re-inflate yourself pretty quickly if you heard me try to verbally recite anything I wrote down, hahaha. For my part, I ramble way too much and like comma splicing too much for my own good. I'm usually shocked when someone gets to the bottom of one of my posts and my colorful use of fuck and seven bad metaphors somehow make sense to the reader. Sometimes I back out of entire pages of text on here because I go to re read it and realize I'm talking about cultural appropriation in Bratz dolls in a thread about Jim Ryan or whatever.

But written (typed?) word has been my saving grace. I'm not a stuttering Stanley or whatever, and most people don't believe me when I tell them I had a stroke, but there's definitely some processing that isn't going as efficiently as before, and that bleeds out a lot into getting tongue tied or flustered.

I've always enjoyed your posts, for what it's worth, haha

I got the jist of it somewhat.

Then again I'm tired.

And as this is a very complex multi layerd topic of discussion, nevermind once personal approach, which again can differ depending on which specific aspect one references and being one that likes to express myself efficiently in a non native tongue thus manifesting a self induced "how to to approach this" mindset it's at the moment I'd rather acknowledge your post rather then get into it.

Besides. My pizza is almost done.

And likewise regarding your posts Kira.

 

[ÆMNE22A!C]

They always miss this one. Man is more than a bag of meat. Regardless if you believe in any of this stuff or not, it still has a huge effect on your mental well-being.

It's by design IMO.
And yes it does imho.

Not approaching this in absolutes though.

 

[ÆMNE22A!C]

Just got diagnosed yesterday, after 8 months of visiting professionals and doing tests.

I noticed i ticked differently because i kept isolating myself in whatever i do, job / work / friends / sports, looking in people's eyes feels unnatural which gave me the hint.
I also notice things other's don't, am really fast in complex matters, but absolutely suck at reading the room socially. I keep myself distanced from social stuff and refuse to ask help even if my life depends on it, even while i naturally attract people and people naturally like me. I noticed i had no interest in relatioships at all with it and had issue's with sounds / light. Busy rooms make it extremely difficult to function or drains me on energy massively in on top of it.

As i started to hit a wall earlier this year, i went through the whole diagnostic solution and pretty high autism was the result.

How to deal with it.

Regulate your energy, plan well and make sure to take a break after you overload on senses. Put some time away for yourself to basically refocus in. And don't be afraid to isolate you for a week at times to gather your energy back.

Very well said and similar to me.

Good advice as well.

 

[DeafTourette]

I have ADHD and I might be on the autism spectrum... I also have Tourette Syndrome. I'm VERY Neurodivergent.

Making lasting friendships, especially in person, has always been difficult for me. I have actual real friends but only 2 are men. I think that stems from the fact I'm not a very competitive person (unless it's sparring or gaming) ...

I'm very eclectic so my interests vary! It takes a lot out of me when I'm out and about by myself. I don't want to do it and I get EXTREMELY nervous! At almost 50 I have recently started to "disassociate" when my anxiety is too high. I'm not unconscious but I become British, for lack of a better term. Alcohol helps but being with friends helps MORE!

It takes everything to not correct people on grammatical issues every day at work.

So... Yeah.

 

[ÆMNE22A!C]

I'm not referring to anyone in this thread but I hate when people flaunt whatever problems they have like this. Like Twitch tags

Yeah. Victim role/looks at my disorders! That's why I initially deleted my post.
I'm not proud. I'm a shamed and was bitter. Lost all my friends. I'm near acceptance but in my heart of hearts I'll always be sad for the results ie impact it has and still does on my day to day.

 

[Humdinger]

Or you can just go to a professional instead of relying on YT to medically diagnose you.

Are you dense? Did you not read my post? I did not "rely on YT to diagnose me." I clearly said that I dug into the literature in the area, reading texts by experts, investigating further so that I understood the disorder better.

And why "go to the doctor" if researching suggests that I do not have the disorder? That would be a foolish waste of time and money.

Don’t know where humdinger is, but in the US one doesn’t “just go” to the doctor and get an autism diagnosis. There’s so many barriers, parents can wait years to finally have their kids diagnosed who urgently need therapy. I’ll spare you the whole US healthcare is atrocious speech in full detail today, but educating yourself on the topic and diagnosing yourself is increasingly the most sensible thing to do, especially if you’re higher functioning and have learned to blend in with how you’re expected to behave. Doctors frequently don’t listen and don’t have any answers, that’s why people turn to YouTube for answers.

That is true as well. Not to mention, "going to the doctor" in this case means long hours of interviews and testing, combined with bills for hundreds if not thousands of dollars.

 

[ÆMNE22A!C]

Did you intend to be insulting, or is it due to lack of social awareness/skill? Did you not read my post? I did not "rely on YT to diagnose me." I clearly said that I dug into the literature in the area, reading texts by experts.

Ahh yes... the "professionals"

 

[Humdinger]

Ahh yes... the "professionals"

Yeah, Tony Attwood, Complete Guide to Aspergers, and some others I can't recall (therapists with lots of experience working with adults on the spectrum).

 

[GHG]

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As one might guess, I'm also obsessed with pornstars. Huge breasts are my favorite class and the one I know the far the most about-- my favorite orders being, Mia Khalifa, Beverly Paige, Dolly Fox, Kimberly Kupps, Corina Curves, and Busty Ellen.

Give me a few hours and allow me to come back to you with my conclusions.

 

[GeorgioCostanzaX]

I thought I might be on the spectrum but after getting tested turns out it was bipolar and ADHD untreated for years which I was making worse with alcohol abuse: now I get to take legal meth good times.