I've been noticing drastic mood swings lately and I'm wondering if it's related to some type of depression or anxiety that I'm not aware of. I've never been a person who's suffered from that, but I've been told before you can have it and not realize it.
For a few months during the summer I was super short on patience. Like if I tried to open some type of packaging and it wouldn't open up right away I'd flip out and yell COME THE FUCK ON AND FUCKING OPEN. And I found myself doing stuff like that all day everyday. Just being frustrated with small things not happening exactly as I wanted them to. And I was aware of it. I wasn't sure why it was happening, but I did take note of it.
Then I realized the other day it just went away and I haven't done it for a while. I don't know why or what caused it. But it has been replaced by this feeling of dread I've been having. Not about anything in particular. Just haven't been able to enjoy the fall like I typically do. I look forward to this time all year and for whatever reason I've been waking up everyday just feeling worried, but not even sure about what. I'm not particularly bummed or sad about anything.
I have a bunch of doctors appointments coming up over the next several weeks and having those obligations as baggage in your brain could be what's causing it. But I'm honestly not sure.
Just noticed these weird mood swings and changes in feelings though.