Widdle Puppy
Banned
My dad has a trailer which he was towing this evening. It broke down on the side of the road and he did not have the proper tools or parts to fix it there.
I get asked by my mom what I am doing and tell her that I am going to the gym. She says he may need help and I tell her that is cool, call me if you need me when I'm there.
A few moments later my dad calls me then as I am getting ready to go and tells me he needs me to get certain things from the garage and asks me to head over so we can change the tire on the trailer and then move it across the highway (something like this). It was a lot of information and I was confused by it. I was hesitant about his plan and was feeling irritated. I told him that his plan was inconvenient for me but I would help him and for him to hold on while I get dressed and head over. I admit I was irritated that his situation was interfering with my own but not because I didn't want to help him but because his plan seemed bizarre and like it wouldn't be the best or smartest way to handle the situation.
Anyways he proceeds to tell me never mind and that to put my mom on the phone and that he will handle it. He said he would call a pick up truck or something but that I should still stay on stand by. At that moment I felt bad and confused cause I realized I could have expressed my thoughts differently when expressing what I was thinking. He ended up waiting an hour and paying for a tow which I was a bit relieved to hear because it sounded like the logical decision
I get a txt later from my mom telling me she is furious that I told him he was inconveniencing me when he needed help and that I damaged our relationship and not to talk to her for the rest of the night. I felt bad and I am not trying to put a spin on this to justify my actions. I feel like she is overreacting but then again I could lack the faculty to really feel any of this properly. I have not been in the best or most positive mental state for a while now. I think my communication needs work and my reactions to how I am feeling.
Anyways... I feel bad. I feel like her txt message was uncalled for and shaming me was not right, but I am also in the wrong here. I never said I wouldn't help nor did I want to imply that; his plan just seemed like a bad idea and that my own apathy curdled with my distrust of him handling these types of situations showed I can be pretty heartless. I don't want to try and run from this or spin my way out of it but I just feel confused by my actions and also hate the world for putting people in a position to rely on me since I feel no good.
update:
I get asked by my mom what I am doing and tell her that I am going to the gym. She says he may need help and I tell her that is cool, call me if you need me when I'm there.
A few moments later my dad calls me then as I am getting ready to go and tells me he needs me to get certain things from the garage and asks me to head over so we can change the tire on the trailer and then move it across the highway (something like this). It was a lot of information and I was confused by it. I was hesitant about his plan and was feeling irritated. I told him that his plan was inconvenient for me but I would help him and for him to hold on while I get dressed and head over. I admit I was irritated that his situation was interfering with my own but not because I didn't want to help him but because his plan seemed bizarre and like it wouldn't be the best or smartest way to handle the situation.
Anyways he proceeds to tell me never mind and that to put my mom on the phone and that he will handle it. He said he would call a pick up truck or something but that I should still stay on stand by. At that moment I felt bad and confused cause I realized I could have expressed my thoughts differently when expressing what I was thinking. He ended up waiting an hour and paying for a tow which I was a bit relieved to hear because it sounded like the logical decision
I get a txt later from my mom telling me she is furious that I told him he was inconveniencing me when he needed help and that I damaged our relationship and not to talk to her for the rest of the night. I felt bad and I am not trying to put a spin on this to justify my actions. I feel like she is overreacting but then again I could lack the faculty to really feel any of this properly. I have not been in the best or most positive mental state for a while now. I think my communication needs work and my reactions to how I am feeling.
Anyways... I feel bad. I feel like her txt message was uncalled for and shaming me was not right, but I am also in the wrong here. I never said I wouldn't help nor did I want to imply that; his plan just seemed like a bad idea and that my own apathy curdled with my distrust of him handling these types of situations showed I can be pretty heartless. I don't want to try and run from this or spin my way out of it but I just feel confused by my actions and also hate the world for putting people in a position to rely on me since I feel no good.
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