NeoGAF Anonymous Confessions 2015 - Bare Your Burdens

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Failed Medicinal Student, it's nice to hear that you are still motivated. Keep at it. Pick up drawing again. Maybe start live streaming on twitch on the creative section. Find something to take your mind off of your failures.
 
NotTheGuyYouKill said:
Fair warning: this is a very tragic confession.

I'm glad you're doing better now. I don't think you're to blame.
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Holy shit. I'm tearing up just reading that. I'm sorry for your loss confessor. I'm glad you're on the path to healing. I don't know if you still blame yourself but you can't and shouldn't. Emily was in a bad situation and you were the friend that gave her love and understanding, but you had your own life to live too. It's easy to concentrate on the should haves and would haves, but don't forget the good either.
 
TickleMeElbow said:
I don't drink anymore because I developed alcoholic cirrhosis at 26. After 2.5 years of sobriety, my liver function is normal, and I don't have any symptoms.

I tell most people irl (only a few friends and select family members know the truth) that I don't drink because I'm allergic to alcohol. Some people ask me if I've ever been drunk before, and I tell them "yeah". They ask what happens when I drink, and I tell them "it's not pleasant". If they press further I tell them I "end up in the ER".

I don't know if I should just keep going with the allergy angle or not. I've never been in a serious relationship (just petty middle/high school shit and random flings), and if I were to be in one I'll have to be truthful eventually since I have to get blood tests and ultrasounds every 6 months. I just turned 29 too, and I still feel like I'm goddamn 22 year old. They say addicts sort of stop growing emotionally when they become addicts, which feels true for me.

Shit's kinda fucked.

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So I guess we're supposed to send these to OP?

Well fuck lol.
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I don't have quite the same thing, fatty liver, but I've made it a choice to not drink to not make it worse, plus it adds to overall anxiety and depression issues.

It can be a total stigma for people when you say you don't drink, my response has just turned to "I don't really drink" and sure you'll get some people that think you're weird for it or lame, but frankly those people aren't worth your time if they need everybody in the room to be hammered so they can have their little show. It can be challenging with dating for sure as its the universal icebreaker especially in American culture, but I think you'll find at your age girls are more chill about it than you might realize. Sure, they're gonna drink, doesn't mean you have to and you can still have a good time. You might feel 22, but thankfully your dating pool covers a pretty wide net at your age, and as I said you'd be surprised how accepting gals your age and older can be. Hope that helps.
 
wanderingprostheyltite said:
I don't have quite the same thing, fatty liver, but I've made it a choice to not drink to not make it worse, plus it adds to overall anxiety and depression issues.

It can be a total stigma for people when you say you don't drink, my response has just turned to "I don't really drink" and sure you'll get some people that think you're weird for it or lame, but frankly those people aren't worth your time if they need everybody in the room to be hammered so they can have their little show. It can be challenging with dating for sure as its the universal icebreaker especially in American culture, but I think you'll find at your age girls are more chill about it than you might realize. Sure, they're gonna drink, doesn't mean you have to and you can still have a good time. You might feel 22, but thankfully your dating pool covers a pretty wide net at your age, and as I said you'd be surprised how accepting gals your age and older can be. Hope that helps.
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Yeah when I tell people I don't drink, it's always followed by "why?", and I feel like giving the allergy response is the closest thing to the truth since it's a legit medical reason. I'm listed as being allergic to certain medications because they might harm my liver, so I figure alcohol would be the same.

Telling people that I don't drink, or people judging me for not drinking doesn't really bother me. Disclosing the reason behind why I don't drink to people irl is what bothers me, since I did it to myself. Even medical professionals are shocked when they find out.

But yeah, thanks for reading my little "confession" if you can even call it that lol. I hope you can reverse you fatty liver somehow, and everything goes okay for you.
 
TickleMeElbow said:
Yeah when I tell people I don't drink, it's always followed by "why?", and I feel like giving the allergy response is the closest thing to the truth since it's a legit medical reason. I'm listed as being allergic to certain medications because they might harm my liver, so I figure alcohol would be the same.

Telling people that I don't drink, or people judging me for not drinking doesn't really bother me. Disclosing the reason behind why I don't drink to people irl is what bothers me, since I did it to myself. Even medical professionals are shocked when they find out.

But yeah, thanks for reading my little "confession" if you can even call it that lol. I hope you can reverse you fatty liver somehow, and everything goes okay for you.
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I see, no shame in it imo, my particular brand of fatty liver was self inflicted too due to an eating disorder that wrecked things. Thankfully my levels are stable but not where they should be, just trying to eat right and exercise, best thing you can do for it really. Thank you for the well wishes :-)
 
So NGTYK how long until you pitch an idea towards Hollywood with a Sitcom about a guy who impregnates two women and then living with both and the kids...

Too bad the name "Full House" is already taken :D
 
When I tell people I don't drink and they ask why, I just tell then I don't like the taste, which is true.
Alcohol tastes yuck.
Most people respect your honesty. But I can understand not wanting to tell about your situation.
 
I wasn't in time to read the erased confession, but (incest aside) I don't see what the big deal is with the age difference, I mean, 15 and 18 years old is just a 3 years difference.

The Emily confession was devastating, but don't blame yourself, you were the best thing in her life. I'm sure that without you, she would've done it much earlier.

TickleMeElbow, I also have a liver condition, not that serious, though. Whenever I drink alcohol my liver inflamates a bit. It's never affected me but it showed in my last blood analysis and it was attributed to alcohol. I don't drink very frequently and I do it in small amounts (since the first time I got drunk I reduced a lot the amount of alcohol I drink). If someone asks I just say that my liver is very sensitive to alcohol and that's it. Although, I understand that you don't want people to know you got cirrosis being so young.
 
falcs said:
When I tell people I don't drink and they ask why, I just tell then I don't like the taste, which is true.
Alcohol tastes yuck.
Most people respect your honesty. But I can understand not wanting to tell about your situation.
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Most food and drink tastes disgusting to me. People get used to it.
 
"Delicious looking muscular asshole" has got to have won the thread this year.

Also the poster who responded to sister fucker with the 'you've gone too far this time boner' picture. Had me in creases.
 
Endruen said:
I wasn't in time to read the erased confession, but (incest aside) I don't see what the big deal is with the age difference, I mean, 15 and 18 years old is just a 3 years difference.
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Well in quite a few places it's illegal to have sex with a 15 year old, since they cannot legally consent, and that's statutory rape.
 
gaiages said:
Well in quite a few places it's illegal to have sex with a 15 year old, since they cannot legally consent, and that's statutory rape.
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See this is where I have a problem with these types of laws. They should make it so that people within a certain age range (3 years) can't be labeled a sex offender for consenual sex. 18 yrs you could still be a senior in highschool and be dating a sophomore and they are consenually having sex. But they're still labeled the same way a child molestor or rapist is?
 
Milksheikhs said:
See this is where I have a problem with these types of laws. They should make it so that people within a certain age range (3 years) can't be labeled a sex offender for consenual sex. 18 yrs you could still be a senior in highschool and be dating a sophomore and they are consenually having sex. But they're still labeled the same way a child molestor or rapist is?
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There are places that have Romeo and Juliet laws, basically so long as there was a relationship in place before one partner turned 18, or the gap is like a year or so, it's fine.
 
Milksheikhs said:
See this is where I have a problem with these types of laws. They should make it so that people within a certain age range (3 years) can't be labeled a sex offender for consenual sex. 18 yrs you could still be a senior in highschool and be dating a sophomore and they are consenually having sex. But they're still labeled the same way a child molestor or rapist is?
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I mostly agree with this. Personally, I think three years is still quite a large gap when the people involved are teenagers: I noticed significant differences in physical and emotional maturity between myself and my sister as teenagers, and we were only two years apart. Age gaps are relative; what you consider your age range is likely to increase in years as you get older. At the same time I wouldn't consider someone who's in their final year of high school to be any more of an adult than someone a couple of years down. The real changes in maturity and priorities often come with university, full-time work, children etc.

Of course this is all subjective, and as such it's difficult to apply definitive rules to something like that; but it's definitely not an ideal solution to apply the statutory rape label to someone a few years older than 15. I remember that earlier confession about the guy who liked the mum and the daughter, and the idea of him waiting for the daughter to turn 18 was a bit creepy. As if it's suddenly "okay" when she turns 18, but not before? Really the age difference is what determines how advisable the relationship is.
 
DistortionOfReality said:
"Delicious looking muscular asshole" has got to have won the thread this year.

Also the poster who responded to sister fucker with the 'you've gone too far this time boner' picture. Had me in creases.
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Wait what, delicious looking muscular asshole?? How did I miss that.
 
So, a lot of backstory is required for this. Sorry for the long read.

My current girlfriend, who we will call Allison is someone who I've been off/on with for 10 years. I met her when I was 11 and she was 14 (it was an online relationship). We dated for a while and then she broke up with me because she knew I was just a kid and wasn't ready for any kind of dating, even thought she loved me. She dated a guy in new york (also long distance). This is a guy she eventually lost her virginity to. I've always been bitter because I saw it as her leaving me for him, even though I knew she never loved him.

Fast forward to the summer before my freshman year of HS. We start talking again and decide we want to be together again, we had talked off and on since before but never much. Things are great at first, but she's worried I'll get tired of her once I get comfortable in my new school and would leave her. I assured her this would never happen.. but it did. I cheated on her, several times. Each time I managed to convince her to stay with me, that I would change. I know that's fucking shit, and I immediately don't deserve to be with her ever for that. I saw it as revenge for her leaving me for that other guy, I was so fucking angry and hurt she did that, I never realized she did it so I could grow as a young boy. One weekend her and her two cousins drive to see me (for the first time IRL) because I had left for this other girl, we'll call her D. We make out, and she later gives me a blowjob (first I've ever had). Her cousins had recorded us making out, all in an effort to get the girl i was dating at the time to break up with me (yes, I cheated on that gf too). D and I eventually break up, but not for that reason.

Allison and I eventually stop talking in my Sophomore year of HS, I leave her around my birthday. We hardly talk until after my Sophomore year of college.Between this time I date a girl I had tried to leave Allison for several times. I had tried to get with her all throughout highschool. We dated at the end of my senior year until a few months after graduation.I was devastated. I thought I loved this girl, Becky.

When we start talking again things start off as just us being friends, but the more I talk to her the more and more I want to be with her. I was also talking to a few other girls at this point in time, but I cut them off when I realized I wanted her and no one else (She later found out I was talking to any girls at all and was hella pissed off). I tell Allison about Becky (Allison and I had talked a few times about me dating Becky, but never in detail) and she's understandably destroyed. She's been with a few guys but has never cared about any of them, she was only with them because she wasn't with me. She thought I only ever loved her.

Fast forward a few months and her and I meet for the second time ever. Her cousin, her cousin's boyfriend, her, and I are going to a cabin for a few days! Holy shit! They spend the night at my house as they had been driving for 7+ hours to get to me. Allison and I have sex for the first time. I lose my virginity to her! The cabin is basically non-stop sex and drinking. Also.. I never use a condom. I just bust inside of her. We have a baby scare but no pregnancy. Small brag time, every other guy Allison has been with has never been able to make her orgasm via oral. I did 3 times in one session (according to her) ^5. Best vacation of my life.

A few months later I move states to be with her. However holy shit I've been coddled my whole life and have no idea how to be an adult. I have a break down and move back home. Her and I are trying to make things work. She might also be pregnant. I did a few things behind her back like smoke weed with a friend. She considers this cheating, since she had asked me repeatedly not to do it, but I lied to her and hurt her by doing it anyway.

About a week ago I told her I was going with my family to see hunger games. She asked me repeatedly not to go and at first I told her I would not. Why? She hates my family. Every other time I would "go to the movies with my family" I'd really be going on a double date with a girl, my sister, and her gf. I did it anyways and now she's threatening to leave me/fuck other guys. She already talked about having sex with another guy over FB and made tentative plans to hang out with another. I don't want to lose her, I love her. I even agreed to come back before next Friday (she's going on vacation with her family). In an effort to win her back. She said that if we don't end up together she's going to get an abortion (something I'm split on. I want to be with her but I kind of don't want to be a father yet..)

Is it too late GAF? Should I throw in the towel? I know I don't deserve her, but she was my first love. I licked her asshole and she licked mine. That's true love. I can't see myself with anyone else and her being with anyone now would likely drive me insane.

I'm a monster and I don't deserve happiness.
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I'm not even... touching this one.
 
NotTheGuyYouKill said:
I'm not even... touching this one.
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NotTheGuyYouKill said:
I'm not even... touching this one.
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Revenge fucking, constant cheating and lying but you licked each others' arseholes so it's totally love, right?

Do you know how deluded you sound, mate? Personally I think you're both toxic for each other. Her threats and your self-confessed lack of maturity just go to show that it looks like neither of you have a clue about a stable relationship let alone bringing a kid into the mix.
 
I'm so confused. What the hell is going on in that story. You both sound like terribly unstable people. So, she is pregnant or not? Because you do not sound like you are ready to take care of yourself, let alone a child. Damn dude...
 
ClosingADoor said:
I'm so confused. What the hell is going on in that story. You both sound like terribly unstable people. So, she is pregnant or not? Because you do not sound like you are ready to take care of yourself, let alone a child. Damn dude...
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Pretty sure he doesn't think he's ready to take care of a kid either.
 
Sounds like typical troubled teen dirtbag stuff. This confessor is either a shitty writer, younger than he is letting on, or at the very least is super inexperienced and naive. Using drugs /= cheating, and hopefully the asshole bit is your idea of a dumb joke.

Long distance guy aka "goofy's son" confessor:

1) she isn't the love of your life; she's just a girl you have history with

2) quit playing games with the "will we / won't we, let's sneak around and emotionally threaten each other etc." soap drama bullshit; focus on school and get your shit together.

3) you're going to be fine, you just need to grow and mature a little bit
 
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