Ok, I have a problem. It bothers me because I really mostly am a problem free person. I dunno whats wrong with me and would appreciate level headed opinions:
I have been in a long distance relationship for a long time. Now I came over to where my bf lives to start our lives together. In that period, apart, he broke up with me once. Then he took it back like three days later. That hurt me quite a bit and I thought something broke in our relationship but chose to go on with it and try to mend it. I really have feelings for him. Now, I started talking friendly to a guy on the internet, nothing indecent, all proper, about our lives and sharing thoughts and whatnot. It evolved into talking telephone conversations as friends that I find deeply fulfilling. Somehow, my feelings for this person have grown, and I feel really strange about it, because I know I may just be idealizing someone I dont even know. All of this is happening in the midst of me finding out that my bf cheated on me twice while we where apart, and the thing about it is that during these years I gave him the space to tell me about any such thing happening if it did and every time he chose to lie and tell me that he held his ground.
He feels hurt also because he found out about me talking to other people on the net, so he says we re kinda even, that his fling happened over a year ago, and that he cannot live without me. I really dont know what to do. I certainly have feelings for my bf even If I feel that things are just a bit too complicated and they are not the same as they once where. Meanwhile I feel a great deal of responsibility for how he expresses his love for me and how terribly hurt hell be if I leave. And then the fact that I think A LOT about this other guy I met on the internet, that mind u lives like 250 miles away from me.
Hahaha, I know, this all sound so pathetic! I relly have no one to talk to about this because I just recently moved from another freaking continenet. It sucks. Im freaking confused. Advice?
I have been in a long distance relationship for a long time. Now I came over to where my bf lives to start our lives together. In that period, apart, he broke up with me once. Then he took it back like three days later. That hurt me quite a bit and I thought something broke in our relationship but chose to go on with it and try to mend it. I really have feelings for him. Now, I started talking friendly to a guy on the internet, nothing indecent, all proper, about our lives and sharing thoughts and whatnot. It evolved into talking telephone conversations as friends that I find deeply fulfilling. Somehow, my feelings for this person have grown, and I feel really strange about it, because I know I may just be idealizing someone I dont even know. All of this is happening in the midst of me finding out that my bf cheated on me twice while we where apart, and the thing about it is that during these years I gave him the space to tell me about any such thing happening if it did and every time he chose to lie and tell me that he held his ground.
He feels hurt also because he found out about me talking to other people on the net, so he says we re kinda even, that his fling happened over a year ago, and that he cannot live without me. I really dont know what to do. I certainly have feelings for my bf even If I feel that things are just a bit too complicated and they are not the same as they once where. Meanwhile I feel a great deal of responsibility for how he expresses his love for me and how terribly hurt hell be if I leave. And then the fact that I think A LOT about this other guy I met on the internet, that mind u lives like 250 miles away from me.
Hahaha, I know, this all sound so pathetic! I relly have no one to talk to about this because I just recently moved from another freaking continenet. It sucks. Im freaking confused. Advice?
