Yes, I never tought it was possible under such circumstances, I was beginning to ponder as if women were either a new Dungeons and Dragons race, but I have got a real date. Incredible.
There was a girl who came here early today to claim books that belonged to her (my brother, who's now at a university, had left them here since many moons ago). She is on vacation, and next week too I think, because of the reading week. She is in my city because she is going to stay at her parents' place. I barely knew what she wanted, so I told her to enter, I'd then go into the bookshelves to find what she want, and I'd look in between at her. She is really cute, really beautiful, she seems really intelligent, too. I saw her I think two years ago, I was in a restaurant and she approached me, telling me on how I looked so much like my brother. Her first reaction when she saw me was like: woah, you changed so much, you're handsome now! I could not believe the face that looked at me.
In between that time, I lost almost half my weight, I also took a lot more care of myself. I tought that was the sole thing she wanted, to get her books. But she asked to talk to me a little. My brother (who is studying in the same faculty has she does), had made her read documents I'd made about my life, about my medical state, that I had previously made to explain things to my doctors. That really touched her, and she wanted to go and see me. She found it quite morbid for someone to be constantly alone, she wanted to talk to me. She wanted explanations on how my life was, because all that she read really touched and sadenned her.
But I'm growing tired of saying such things, so I just made her look at the future, on the bright sides. She did not quite knew what to say. She then said:
"Can I look at your DVD collection?"
My brother apparently had made me quite a reputation as a DVD aficionado :lol
I then showed her my bookshelves, bags, filled with movies. She was like: wow, you got all that? All these great movies! That's incredible! She looked at some titles, I'd then tell her about the movies. And then we talked a lot. I sporadically looked at her, and I really wondered where her intentions layed, because she seemed to be quite interested in me. She was about to go, she wanted to rent movies and watch them. She puts so much emphasis in her studies that she just wants to relax.
"Oh, but it would be such a shame to let all these movies gather dust, wouldn't it?"
"But I don't want to take any advantage of the situation."
"Ok, if you want your books, you take these movies. Understand?"
I really made her laugh, so instead of heading to the video store to rent flicks, she left with a couple of my DVDs. I had her MSN and she talked me back: she had watched one movie and she really thanked me for allowing her to see these. There was something she wanted to understand, and she asked if she could call me (she had watched Barton Fink).
So I explained her the various theories about the movie, and she really liked it. I told her my perceptions, when I viewed it. I then realized, I tought of her, she seemed to really care, to really dig me. I tought I had nothing to lose, maybe something to gain, so what the heck, I took a chance, I asked: "Would you like to come back with me so we can talk even more, like some kind of a date?" I tought I had made an incredible mistake, but I did not. She said she wanted to see me more, that she would never have dared to ask such a thing. She wanted to speak with me, she wanted to have intelligent discussions, and spend a good evening with a good guy. I told her about my previous experiences (most times it happened, girls did not listened to me, and I ended up alone and sad). She said she understood that, that she would never do that to me. She wanted to know me! I said it would be best not to rush things out. She said, she would be cautious. But she also mentioned, it would be a shame to let good times go to waste.
After all, I tought I'd deserved it, so I accepted. So when the occasion is going to appear, she will come to see me. I already tought about a good dinner, along with other stuff. Of course, no movies, music or tv, but she knows, does not cares, cares about me. God. Good times for a change.
I am not worried about too much. Only, I am not used to date women since a long time, so I don't know how to react, I guess I will just be myself, she digs me. The main thing is, this is a story that is almost guaranteed not to have any future. She is single because right now, her studies are the focus of her life, after that she wants to think about her love life. But by that time, we will have went separate ways. So, I don't know with that perspective, what would be right, and what would be wrong. My last gf, she attached too much to myself, she was not able to leave me back, and when she finally did she felt guilty. I had to cheer her up, and that made me sad, back to my lonely life. I don't want this to happen again.
We're both adults, but I don't know if she expects a one night stand. This is something I definitely do not expect. By the past I always knew how to do things right, but this time I am all out of love. I don't want to let my instincts prevail, she is vulnerable, I don't want to take advantage of her, I could. I don't know how to draw the line as for that.
I am nervous. I'm happy, but I don't want to hurt her, nor me, in the long run. But hey, a date, I never would have tought it would be possible!
There was a girl who came here early today to claim books that belonged to her (my brother, who's now at a university, had left them here since many moons ago). She is on vacation, and next week too I think, because of the reading week. She is in my city because she is going to stay at her parents' place. I barely knew what she wanted, so I told her to enter, I'd then go into the bookshelves to find what she want, and I'd look in between at her. She is really cute, really beautiful, she seems really intelligent, too. I saw her I think two years ago, I was in a restaurant and she approached me, telling me on how I looked so much like my brother. Her first reaction when she saw me was like: woah, you changed so much, you're handsome now! I could not believe the face that looked at me.
In between that time, I lost almost half my weight, I also took a lot more care of myself. I tought that was the sole thing she wanted, to get her books. But she asked to talk to me a little. My brother (who is studying in the same faculty has she does), had made her read documents I'd made about my life, about my medical state, that I had previously made to explain things to my doctors. That really touched her, and she wanted to go and see me. She found it quite morbid for someone to be constantly alone, she wanted to talk to me. She wanted explanations on how my life was, because all that she read really touched and sadenned her.
But I'm growing tired of saying such things, so I just made her look at the future, on the bright sides. She did not quite knew what to say. She then said:
"Can I look at your DVD collection?"
My brother apparently had made me quite a reputation as a DVD aficionado :lol
I then showed her my bookshelves, bags, filled with movies. She was like: wow, you got all that? All these great movies! That's incredible! She looked at some titles, I'd then tell her about the movies. And then we talked a lot. I sporadically looked at her, and I really wondered where her intentions layed, because she seemed to be quite interested in me. She was about to go, she wanted to rent movies and watch them. She puts so much emphasis in her studies that she just wants to relax.
"Oh, but it would be such a shame to let all these movies gather dust, wouldn't it?"
"But I don't want to take any advantage of the situation."
"Ok, if you want your books, you take these movies. Understand?"
I really made her laugh, so instead of heading to the video store to rent flicks, she left with a couple of my DVDs. I had her MSN and she talked me back: she had watched one movie and she really thanked me for allowing her to see these. There was something she wanted to understand, and she asked if she could call me (she had watched Barton Fink).
So I explained her the various theories about the movie, and she really liked it. I told her my perceptions, when I viewed it. I then realized, I tought of her, she seemed to really care, to really dig me. I tought I had nothing to lose, maybe something to gain, so what the heck, I took a chance, I asked: "Would you like to come back with me so we can talk even more, like some kind of a date?" I tought I had made an incredible mistake, but I did not. She said she wanted to see me more, that she would never have dared to ask such a thing. She wanted to speak with me, she wanted to have intelligent discussions, and spend a good evening with a good guy. I told her about my previous experiences (most times it happened, girls did not listened to me, and I ended up alone and sad). She said she understood that, that she would never do that to me. She wanted to know me! I said it would be best not to rush things out. She said, she would be cautious. But she also mentioned, it would be a shame to let good times go to waste.
After all, I tought I'd deserved it, so I accepted. So when the occasion is going to appear, she will come to see me. I already tought about a good dinner, along with other stuff. Of course, no movies, music or tv, but she knows, does not cares, cares about me. God. Good times for a change.
I am not worried about too much. Only, I am not used to date women since a long time, so I don't know how to react, I guess I will just be myself, she digs me. The main thing is, this is a story that is almost guaranteed not to have any future. She is single because right now, her studies are the focus of her life, after that she wants to think about her love life. But by that time, we will have went separate ways. So, I don't know with that perspective, what would be right, and what would be wrong. My last gf, she attached too much to myself, she was not able to leave me back, and when she finally did she felt guilty. I had to cheer her up, and that made me sad, back to my lonely life. I don't want this to happen again.
We're both adults, but I don't know if she expects a one night stand. This is something I definitely do not expect. By the past I always knew how to do things right, but this time I am all out of love. I don't want to let my instincts prevail, she is vulnerable, I don't want to take advantage of her, I could. I don't know how to draw the line as for that.
I am nervous. I'm happy, but I don't want to hurt her, nor me, in the long run. But hey, a date, I never would have tought it would be possible!
